CHAPTER III
THE BROKEN LUTE
It is seven-thirty of an August evening. The
windows in the living-room of the gray house are wide open,
patiently exchanging the tainted inner atmosphere of liquor and
smoke for the fresh drowsiness of the late hot dusk. There are
dyingflower scents upon the air, so thin, so fragile, as to hint
already of a summer laid away in time. But August is still
proclaimed relentlessly by a thousand crickets around the
side-porch, and by one who has broken into the house and concealed
himself confidently behind a bookcase, from time to time shrieking
of his cleverness and his indomitable will.
The room itself is in messy disorder. On the
table is a dish of fruit, which is real but appears artificial.
Around it are grouped an ominous assortment of decanters, glasses,
and heaped ash-trays, the latter still raising wavy smoke-ladders
into the stale air—the effect on the whole needing but a skull to
resemble that venerable chromo, once a fixture in every “den, ”
which presents the appendages to the life of pleasure with
delightful and awe-inspiring sentiment.
After a while the sprigbtly solo of the
supercricket is interrupted rather than joined by a new sound—the
melancholy wail of an erratically fingered flute. It is obvious
that the musician is practising rather than performing, for from
time to time the gnarled strain breaks off and, after an interval
of indistinct mutterings, recommences.
Just prior to the seventh false start a third
sound contributes to the subdued discord. It is a taxi outside. A
minute’s silence, then the taxi again, its boisterous retreat
almost obliterating the scrape of foot-steps on the cinder walk.
The door-bell shrieks alarmingly through the house.
From the kitchen enters a small, fatigued
Japanese, hastily buttoning a servant’s coat of white duck. He
opens the front screen-door and admits a handsome young man of
thirty, clad in the sort of well-intentioned clothes peculiar to
those who serve mankind. To his whole personality clings a
well-intentioned air: his glance about the room is compounded of
curiosity and a determined optimism; when he looks at Tana the
entire burden of uplifting the godless Oriental is in his eyes. His
name is FREDERICK E. PARAMORE. He was at Harvard with
ANTHONY, where because of the initials of their surnames they
were constantly placed next to each other in classes. Aftagmentary
acquaintance developed—but since that time they have never
met.
Nevertheless, PARAMORE enters the room
with a certain air of arriving for the evening.
Tana is answering a question.
TANA: (Grinning with ingratiation) Gone to
Inn for dinnah. Be back half-hour. Gone since ha’ past six.
PARAMORE: (Regarding the glasses on the
table) Have they company?
TANA: Yes. Company. Mistah Caramel, Mistah and
Missays Barnes, Miss Kane, all stay here.
PARAMORE: I see. (Kindly) They’ve been
having a spree, I see.
TANA: I no un‘stan’.
PARAMORE: They’ve been having a fling.
TANA: Yes, they have drink. Oh, many, many, many
drink.
PARAMORE: (Receding delicately from the
subject) Didn’t I hear the sounds of music as I approached the
house?
TANA: (With a spasmodic giggle) Yes, I
play.
PARAMORE: One of the Japanese instruments.
(He is quite obviously a subscriber to the
“National Geographic Magazine. ”)
TANA: I play flu-u-ute, Japanese flu-u-ute.
PARAMORE: What song were you playing? One of your
Japanese melodies?
TANA: (His brow undergoing preposterous
contraction) I play train song. How you call?—railroad
song. So call in my countree. Like train. It go so-o-o; that mean
whistle; train start. Then go so-o-o; that mean train go. Go like
that. Vera nice song in my countree. Children song.
PARAMORE: It sounded very nice.
(It is apparent at this point that only a
gigantic effort at control restrains TANA from rushing
up-stairs for his post-cards, including the six made in
America.)
TANA: I fix high-ball for gentleman?
PARAMORE: No, thanks. I don’t use it. (He
smiles.)
(TANA withdraws into the kitchen, leaving the
intervening door slightly ajar. From the crevice there suddenly
issues again the melody of the Japanese train song—this time not a
practice, surely, but a performance, a lusty, spirited
performance.
The phone rings. TANA, absorbed in his
harmonics, gives no heed, so PARAMORE takes up the
receiver.)
PARAMORE: Hello.... Yes.... No, he’s not here now,
but he’ll be back any moment.... Butterworth? Hello, I didn’t quite
catch the name.... Hello, hello, hello. Hello! ... Huh!
(The phone obstinately refuses to yield up any
more sound. PARAMORE replaces the receiver.
At this point the taxi motif re-enters, wafting
with it a second young man; he carries a suitcase and opens the
front door without ringing the bell.)
MAURY: (In the hall) Oh, Anthony! Yoho!
(He comes into the large room and sees PARAMORE.) How
do?
PARAMORE: (Gazing at him with gathering
intensity) Is this—is this Maury Noble?
MAURY: That’s it. (He advances, smiling, and
holding out his hand) How are you, old boy? Haven’t seen you
for years.
(He has vaguely associated the face with
Harvard, but is not even positive about that. The name, if he ever
knew it, he has long since forgotten. However, with a fine
sensitiveness and an equally commendable charity PARAMORE
recognizes the fact and tactfully relieves the
situation.)
PARAMORE: You’ve forgotten Fred Paramore? We were
both in old Unc Robert’s history class.
MAURY: No, I haven’t, Unc—I mean Fred. Fred was—I
mean Unc was a great old fellow, wasn’t he?
PARAMORE: (Nodding his head humorously several
times) Great old character. Great old character.
MAURY: (After a short pause) Yes—he was.
Where’s Anthony?
PARAMORE: The Japanese servant told me he was at
some inn. Having dinner, I suppose.
MAURY: (Looking at his watch) Gone
long?
PARAMORE: I guess so. The Japanese told me they’d
be back shortly.
MAURY: Suppose we have a drink.
PARAMORE: No, thanks. I don’t use it. (He
smiles.)
MAURY: Mind if I do? (Yawning as be helps
himself from a bottle) What have you been doing since you left
college?
PARAMORE: Oh, many things. I’ve led a very active
life. Knocked about here and there. (His tone implies anything
from lion-stalking to organized crime.)
MAURY: Oh, been over to Europe?
PARAMORE: No, I haven’t—unfortunately.
MAURY: I guess we’ll all go over before long.
PARAMORE: Do you really think so?
MAURY: Sure! Country’s been fed on sensationalism
for more than two years. Everybody getting restless. Want to have
some fun.
PARAMORE: Then you don’t believe any ideals are at
stake?
MAURY: Nothing of much importance. People want
excitement every so often.
PARAMORE: (Intently) It’s very interesting
to hear you say that. Now I was talking to a man who’d been over
there—
(During the ensuing testament, left to be
filled in by the reader with such phrases as “Saw with his own
eyes,” “Splendid spirit of France, ” and “Salvation of
civilization, ” MAURY sits with lowered eyelids,
dispassionately bored.)
MAURY: (At the first available opportunity)
By the way, do you happen to know that there’s a German agent in
this very house?
PARAMORE: (Smiling cautiously) Are you
serious?
MAURY: Absolutely. Feel it my duty to warn
you.
PARAMORE: (Convinced) A governess?
MAURY: (In a whisper, indicating the kitchen
with his thumb) Tana! That’s not his real name. I understand he
constantly gets mail addressed to Lieutenant Emile
Tannenbaum.
PARAMORE: (Laughing with hearty tolerance)
You were kidding me.
MAURY: I may be accusing him falsely. But, you
haven’t told me what you’ve been doing.
PARAMORE: For one thing—writing.
MAURY: Fiction?
PARAMORE: No. Non-fiction.
MAURY: What’s that? A sort of literature that’s
half fiction and half fact?
PARAMORE: Oh, I’ve confined myself to fact. I’ve
been doing a good deal of social-service work.
MAURY: Oh!
(An immediate glow of suspicion leaps into his
eyes. It is as though PARAMORE had announced himself as an
amateur pickpocket.)
PARAMORE: At present I’m doing service work in
Stamford. Only last week some one told me that Anthony Patch lived
so near.
(They are interrupted by a clamor outside,
unmistakable as that of two sexes in conversation and laughter.
Then there enter the room in a body ANTHONY, GLORIA,
RICHARD CARAMEL, MURIEL KANE, R.ACHAEL BARNES and RODMAN
BARNES, her husband. They surge about MAURY, illogically
replying “Fine!” to his general “Hello.” ... ANTHONY,
meanwhile, approaches his other guest.)
ANTHONY: Well, I’ll be darned. How are you? Mighty
glad to see you.
PARAMORE: It’s good to see you, Anthony. I’m
stationed in Stamford, so I thought I’d run over.
(Roguishly) We have to work to beat the devil most of the
time, so we’re entitled to a few hours’ vacation.
(In an agony of concentration ANTHONY
tries to recall the name. After a struggle of parturition his
memory gives up the fragment “Fred,” around which he hastily
builds the sentence “Glad you did, Fred!” Meanwhile the
slight hush prefatory to an introduction has fallen upon the
company. MAURY, who could help, prefers to look on in
malicious enjoyment.)
ANTHONY: (In desperation) Ladies and
gentlemen, this is—this is Fred.
MURIEL: (With obliging levity)
Hello, Fred!
(RICHARD CARAMEL and PARAMORE
greet each other intimately by their first names, the latter
recollecting that DICK was one of the men in his
class who had never before troubled to speak to him.
DICK fatuously imagines that PARAMORE is some one
he has previously met in ANTHONY’S house.
The three young women go up-stairs.)
MAURY: (In an undertone to DICK)
Haven’t seen Muriel since Anthony’s wedding.
DICK: She’s now in her prime. Her latest is
“I’ll say so!”
(ANTHONY struggles for a while with
PARAMORE and at length attempts to make the conversation general
by asking every one to have a drink.)
MAURY: I’ve done pretty well on this bottle. I’ve
gone from “Proof” down to “Distillery.” (He indicates the words
on the label.)
ANTHONY: (To PARAMORE) Never can tell when these
two will turn up. Said good-by to them one afternoon at five and
darned if they didn’t appear about two in the morning. A big hired
touring-car from New York drove up to the door and out they
stepped, drunk as lords, of course.
(In an ecstasy of consideration PARAMORE
regards the cover of a book which he holds in his hand.
MAURY and DICK exchange a glance.)
DICK : (Innocently, to PARAMORE) You work
here in town?
PARAMORE: No, I’m in the Laird Street Settlement in
Stamford. (To ANTHONY) You have no idea of the amount of
poverty in these small Connecticut towns. Italians and other
immigrants. Catholics mostly, you know, so it’s very hard to reach
them.
ANTHONY: (Politely) Lot of crime?
PARAMORE: Not so much crime as ignorance and
dirt.
MAURY: That’s my theory: immediate electrocution of
all ignorant and dirty people. I’m all for the criminals—give color
to life. Trouble is if you started to punish ignorance you’d have
to begin in the first families, then you could take up the
moving-picture people, and finally Congress and the clergy.
PARAMORE: (Smiling uneasily) I was speaking
of the more fundamental ignorance—of even our language.
MAURY: (Thoughtfully) I suppose it is rather
hard. Can’t even keep up with the new poetry.
PARAMORE: It’s only when the settlement work has
gone on for months that one realizes how bad things are. As our
secretary said to me, your finger-nails never seem dirty until you
wash your hands. Of course we’re already attracting much
attention.
MAURY: (Rudely) As your secretary might say,
if you stuff paper into a grate it’ll burn brightly for a
moment.
(At this point GLORIA, freshly tinted
and lustful of admiration and entertainment, rejoins the party,
followed by her two friends. For several moments the conversation
becomes entirely fragmentary. GLORIA calls ANTHONY
aside.)
GLORIA: Please don’t drink much, Anthony.
ANTHONY: Why?
GLORIA: Because you’re so simple when you’re
drunk.
ANTHONY: Good Lord! What’s the matter now?
GLORIA: (After a pause during which her eyes
gaze coolly into his) Several things. In the first place, why
do you insist on paying for everything? Both those men have more
money than you!
ANTHONY: Why, Gloria! They’re my guests!
GLORIA: That’s no reason why you should pay for a
bottle of champagne Rachael Barnes smashed. Dick tried to fix that
second taxi bill, and you wouldn’t let him.
ANTHONY: Why, Gloria—
GLORIA : When we have to keep selling bonds to even
pay our bills, it’s time to cut down on excess generosities.
Moreover, I wouldn’t be quite so attentive to Rachael Barnes. Her
husband doesn’t like it any more than I do!
ANTHONY: Why, Gloria—
GLORIA: (Mimicking him sharply) “Why,
Gloria!” But that’s happened a little too often this summer—with
every pretty woman you meet. It’s grown to be a sort of habit, and
I’m not going to stand it! If you can play around, I can, too.
(Then, as an afterthought) By the way, this Fred person
isn’t a second Joe Hull, is he?
ANTHONY: Heavens, no! He probably came up to get me
to wheedle some money out of grandfather for his flock.
(GLORIA turns away from a very depressed
ANTHONY and returns to her guests.
By nine o’clock these can be divided into two
classes—those who have been drinking consistently and those
who have taken little or nothing. In the second group are the
BARNESES, MURIEL, and FREDERICK E. PARAMORE.)
MURIEL: I wish I could write. I get these ideas but
I never seem to be able to put them in words.
DICK: As Goliath said, he understood how David
felt, but he couldn’t express himself. The remark was immediately
adopted for a motto by the Philistines.
MURIEL: I don’t get you. I must be getting stupid
in my old age.
GLORIA: (Weaving unsteadily among the company
like an exhilarated angel) If any one’s hungry there’s some
French pastry on the dining-room table.
MAURY: Can’t tolerate those Victorian designs it
comes in.
MURIEL: (Violently amused) I’ll say you’re
tight, Maury.
(Her bosom is still a pavement that she offers
to the hoofs of many passing stallions, hoping that their iron
shoes may strike even a spark of romance in the
darkness....
Messrs. BARNES and PARAMORE have
been engaged in conversation upon some wholesome subject, a subject
so wholesome that MR. BARNES has been trying for several
moments to creep into the more tainted air around the central
lounge. Whether PARAMORE is lingering in the gray house
out of politeness or curiosity, or in order at some future time
to make a sociological report on the decadence of American life, is
problematical. )
MAURY: Fred, I imagined you were very
broad-minded.
PARAMORE: I am.
MURIEL: Me, too. I believe one religion’s as good
as another and everything.
PARAMORE: There’s some good in all religions.
MURIEL: I’m a Catholic but, as I always say, I’m
not working at it.
PARAMORE: (With a tremendous burst of
tolerance) The Catholic religion is a very—a very powerful
religion.
MAURY: Well, such a broad-minded man should
consider the raised plane of sensation and the stimulated optimism
contained in this cocktail.
PARAMORE: (Taking the drink, rather
defiantly) Thanks, I’ll try—one.
MAURY: One? Outrageous! Here we have a class of
’nineteen ten reunion, and you refuse to be even a little pickled.
Come on!
“Here’s a health to King Charles,
Here’s a health to King Charles,
Bring the bowl that you boast—”
Here’s a health to King Charles,
Bring the bowl that you boast—”
(PARAMORE joins in with a hearty
voice.)
MAURY: Fill the cup, Frederick. You know
everything’s subordinated to nature’s purposes with us, and her
purpose with you is to make you a rip-roaring tippler.
PARAMORE: If a fellow can drink like a
gentleman—
MAURY: What is a gentleman, anyway?
ANTHONY: A man who never has pins under his coat
lapel.
MAURY: Nonsense! A man’s social rank is determined
by the amount of bread he eats in a sandwich.
DICK: He’s a man who prefers the first edition of a
book to the last edition of a newspaper.
RACHAEL: A man who never gives an impersonation of
a dope-fiend.
MAURY: An American who can fool an English butler
into thinking he’s one.
MURIEL: A man who comes from a good family and went
to Yale or Harvard or Princeton, and has money and dances well, and
all that.
MAURY: At last—the perfect definition! Cardinal
Newman’s is now a back number.
PARAMORE: I think we ought to look on the question
more broad-mindedly. Was it Abraham Lincoln who said that a
gentleman is one who never inflicts pain?
MAURY: It’s attributed, I believe, to General
Ludendorff.
PARAMORE: Surely you’re joking.
MAURY: Have another drink.
PARAMORE: I oughtn’t to. (Lowering his voice
for MAURY’S ears alone) What if I were to tell you this
is the third drink I’ve ever taken in my life?
(DICK starts the phonograph, which provokes
MURIEL to rise and sway from side to side, her elbows against
her ribs, her forearms perpendicular to her body aud out like
fins.)
MURIEL: Oh, let’s take up the rugs and dance!
(This suggestion is received by ANTHONY
and GLORIA with interior groans and sickly smiles of
acquiescence.)
MURIEL: Come on, you lazy-bones. Get up and move
the furniture back.
DICK: Wait till I finish my drink.
MAURY: (Intent on his purpose toward
PARAMORE) I’ll tell you what. Let’s each fill one glass, drink it
off—and then we’ll dance.
(A wave of protest which breaks against the
rock of MAURY’S insistence.)
MURIEL: My head is simply going round
now.
RACHAEL: (In an undertone to ANTHONY) Did
Gloria tell you to stay away from me?
ANTHONY: (Confused) Why, certainly not. Of
course not.
(RACHAEL smiles at him inscrutably. Two years
have given her a sort of hard, well-groomed beauty.)
MAURY: (Holding up his glass) Here’s to the
defeat of democracy and the fall of Christianity.
MURIEL: Now really!
(She flashes a mock-reproachful glance at
MAURY and then drinks.
They all drink, with varying degrees of
difficulty.)
MURIEL: Clear the floor!
(It seems inevitable that this process is to be
gone through, so ANTHONY and GLORIA join in the great
moving of tables, piling of chairs, rolling of carpets, and
breaking of lamps. When the furniture has been stacked in ugly
masses at the sides, there appears a space about eight feet
square.)
MURIEL: Oh, let’s have music!
MAURY: Tana will render the love-song of an eye,
ear, nose, and throat specialist.
(Amid some confusion due to the fact that
TANA has retired for the night, preparations are made for the
performance. The pajamaed Japanese, flute in hand, is wrapped in a
comforter and placed in a chair atop one of the tables, where he
makes a ludicrous and grotesque spectacle. PARAMORE is
perceptibly drunk and so enraptured with the notion that he
increases the effect by simulating funny-paper staggers and even
venturing on an occasional hiccough.)
PARAMORE: (To GLORIA) Want to dance with me?
GLORIA: No, sir! Want to do the swan dance. Can you
do it?
PARAMORE: Sure. Do them all.
GLORIA: All right. You start from that side of the
room and I’ll start from this.
MURIEL: Let’s go!
(Then Bedlam creeps screaming out of the
bottles: TANA plunges into the recondite mazes of the train
song, the plaintive “tootle toot-toot” blending its melancholy
cadences with the “Poor Butter-fly (tink-atink), by the
blossoms wait-ing” of the phonograph. MURIEL is too weak
with laughter to do more than cling desperately to BARNES,
who, dancing with the ominous rigidity of an army officer,
tramps without humor around the small space. ANTHONY is
trying to hear RACHAEL’S whisper—without
attracting GLORIA’S attention....
But the grotesque, the unbelievable, the
histrionic incident is about to occur, one of those
incidents in which life seems set upon the passionate
imitation of the lowest forms of literature. PARAMORE has
been trying to emulate GLORIA, and as the commotion reaches
its height he begins to spin round and round, more and more
dizzily—he staggers, recovers, staggers again and then falls in the
direction of the hall... almost into the arms of old ADAM
PATCH, whose approach has been rendered inaudible by the
pandemonium in the room.
ADAM PATCH is very white. He leans upon a
stick. The man with him is EDWARD SHUTTLEWORTH, and it is he
who seizes PARAMORE by the shoulder and deflects the course
of his fall away from the venerable philanthropist.
The time required for quiet to descend upon the
room like a monstrous pall may be estimated at two minutes, though
for a short period after that the phonograph gags and the notes of
the Japanese train song dribble from the end of TANA’S
flute. Of the nine people only BARNES, PARAMORE, and
TANA are unaware of the late-comer’s identity. Of the nine not
one is aware that ADAM PATCH has that morning made a
contribution of fifty thousand dollars to the cause of national
prohibition.
It is given to PARAMORE to break the
gathering silence; the high tide of his life’s depravity is reached
in his incredible remark.)
PARAMORE: (Crawling rapidly toward the kitchen
on his hands and knees) I’m not a guest here—I work here.
(Again silence falls—so deep now, so weighted
with intolerably contagious apprehension, that RACHAEL gives
a nervous little giggle, and DICK finds himself telling over
and over a line from Swinburne, grotesquely appropriate to the
scene:
“One gaunt bleak blossom of scentless
breath.”r
... Out of the hush the voice of ANTHONY,
sober and strained, saying something to ADAM PATCH; then
this, too, dies away.)
SHUTTLEWORTH: (Passionately) Your
grandfather thought he would motor over to see your house. I phoned
from Rye and left a message.
(A series of little gasps, emanating,
apparently, from nowhere, from no one, fall into the next
pause. ANTHONY is the color of chalk. GLORIA’S lips
are parted and her level gaze at the old man is tense and
frightened. There is not one smile in the room. Not one? Or
does CROSS PATCH’S drawn mouth tremble slightly open, to
expose the even rows of his thin teeth? He speaks—five mild
and simple words.)
ADAM PATCH: We’ll go back now, Shuttleworth‾
(And that is all. He turns, and assisted by his
cane goes out through the hall, through the front door, and with
hellish portentousness his uncertain footsteps crunch on the gravel
path under the August moon.)
Retrospect
In this extremity they were like two goldfish in a
bowl from which all the water had been drawn; they could not even
swim across to each other.
Gloria would be twenty-six in May. There was
nothing, she had said, that she wanted, except to be young and
beautiful for a long time, to be gay and happy, and to have money
and love. She wanted what most women want, but she wanted it much
more fiercely and passionately. She had been married over two
years. At first there had been days of serene understanding, rising
to ecstasies of proprietorship and pride. Alternating with these
periods had occurred sporadic hates, enduring a short hour, and
forgetfulnesses lasting no longer than an afternoon. That had been
for half a year.
Then the serenity, the content, had become less
jubilant, had become gray—very rarely, with the spur of jealousy or
forced separation, the ancient ecstasies returned, the apparent
communion of soul and soul, the emotional excitement. It was
possible for her to hate Anthony for as much as a full day, to be
carelessly incensed at him for as long as a week. Recrimination had
displaced affection as an indulgence, almost as an entertainment,
and there were nights when they would go to sleep trying to
remember who was angry and who should be reserved next morning. And
as the second year waned there had entered two new elements. Gloria
realized that Anthony had become capable of utter indifference
toward her, a temporary indifference, more than half lethargic, but
one from which she could no longer stir him by a whispered word, or
a certain intimate smile. There were days when her caresses
affected him as a sort of suffocation. She was conscious of these
things; she never entirely admitted them to herself.
It was only recently that she perceived that in
spite of her adoration of him, her jealousy, her servitude, her
pride, she fundamentally despised him—and her contempt blended
indistinguishably with her other emotions.... All this was her
love—the vital and feminine illusion that had directed itself
toward him one April night, many months before.
On Anthony’s part she was, in spite of these
qualifications, his sole preoccupation. Had he lost her he would
have been a broken man, wretchedly and sentimentally absorbed in
her memory for the remainder of life. He seldom took pleasure in an
entire day spent alone with her—except on occasions he preferred to
have a third person with them. There were times when he felt that
if he were not left absolutely alone he would go mad—there were a
few times when he definitely hated her. In his cups he was capable
of short attractions toward other women, the hitherto-suppressed
outcrop-pings of an experimental temperament.
That spring, that summer, they had speculated upon
future happiness—how they were to travel from summer land to summer
land, returning eventually to a gorgeous estate and possible
idyllic children, then entering diplomacy or politics, to
accomplish, for a while, beautiful and important things, until
finally as a white-haired (beautifully, silkily, white-haired)
couple they were to loll about in serene glory, worshipped by the
bourgeoisie of the land.... These times were to begin “when we get
our money”; it was on such dreams rather than on any satisfaction
with their increasingly irregular, increasingly dissipated life
that their hope rested. On gray mornings when the jests of the
night before had shrunk to ribaldries without wit or dignity, they
could, after a fashion, bring out this batch of common hopes and
count them over, then smile at each other and repeat, by way of
clinching the matter, the terse yet sincere Nietzscheanism of
Gloria’s defiant “I don’t care!”
Things had been slipping perceptibly. There was the
money question, increasingly annoying, increasingly ominous; there
was the realization that liquor had become a practical necessity to
their amusement—not an uncommon phenomenon in the British
aristocracy of a hundred years ago, but a somewhat alarming one in
a civilization steadily becoming more temperate and more
circumspect. Moreover, both of them seemed vaguely weaker in fibre,
not so much in what they did as in their subtle reactions to the
civilization about them. In Gloria had been born something that she
had hitherto never needed—the skeleton, incomplete but nevertheless
unmistakable, of her ancient abhorrence, a conscience. This
admission to herself was coincidental with the slow decline of her
physical courage.
Then, on the August morning after Adam Patch’s
unexpected call, they awoke, nauseated and tired, dispirited with
life, capable only of one pervasive emotion—fear.
Panic
“Well?” Anthony sat up in bed and looked down at
her. The corners of his lips were drooping with depression, his
voice was strained and hollow.
Her reply was to raise her hand to her mouth and
begin a slow, precise nibbling at her finger.
“We’ve done it,” he said after a pause; then, as
she was still silent, he became exasperated. “Why don’t you say
something?”
“What on earth do you want me to say?”
“What are you thinking?”
“Nothing.”
“Then stop biting your finger!”
Ensued a short confused discussion of whether or
not she had been thinking. It seemed essential to Anthony that she
should muse aloud upon last night’s disaster. Her silence was a
method of settling the responsibility on him. For her part she saw
no necessity for speech—the moment required that she should gnaw at
her finger like a nervous child.
“I’ve got to fix up this damn mess with my
grandfather,” he said with uneasy conviction. A faint new-born
respect was indicated by his use of “my grandfather” instead of
“grampa.”
“You can‘t,” she affirmed abruptly. “You
can’t—ever. He’ll never forgive you as long as he
lives.”
“Perhaps not,” agreed Anthony miserably. “Still—I
might possibly square myself by some sort of reformation and all
that sort of thing—”
“He looked sick,” she interrupted, “pale as
flour.”
“He is sick. I told you that three months
ago.”
“I wish he’d died last week!” she said petulantly.
“Inconsiderate old fool!”
Neither of them laughed.
“But just let me say,” she added quietly, “the next
time I see you acting with any woman like you did with Rachael
Barnes last night, I’ll leave you—just—like—that! I’m simply
not going to stand it!”
Anthony quailed.
“Oh, don’t be absurd,” he protested. “You know
there’s no woman in the world for me except you—none,
dearest.”
His attempt at a tender note failed miserably—the
more imminent danger stalked back into the foreground.
“If I went to him,” suggested Anthony, “and said
with appropriate biblical quotations that I’d walked too long in
the way of unrighteousness and at last seen the light—” He broke
off and glanced with a whimsical expression at his wife. “I wonder
what he’d do?”
“I don’t know.”
She was speculating as to whether or not their
guests would have the acumen to leave directly after
breakfast.
Not for a week did Anthony muster the courage to go
to Tarrytown. The prospect was revolting and left alone he would
have been incapable of making the trip—but if his will had
deteriorated in these past three years, so had his power to resist
urging. Gloria compelled him to go. It was all very well to wait a
week, she said, for that would give his grandfather’s violent
animosity time to cool—but to wait longer would be an error—it
would give it a chance to harden.
He went, in trepidation... and vainly. Adam Patch
was not well, said Shuttleworth indignantly. Positive instructions
had been given that no one was to see him. Before the
ex-“gin-physician’s” vindictive eye Anthony’s front wilted. He
walked out to his taxicab with what was almost a slink—recovering
only a little of his self-respect as he boarded the train; glad to
escape, boylike, to the wonder-palaces of consolation that still
rose and glittered in his own mind.
Gloria was scornful when he returned to Marietta.
Why had he not forced his way in? That was what she would have
done!
Between them they drafted a letter to the old man,
and after considerable revision sent it off. It was half an
apology, half a manufactured explanation. The letter was not
answered.
Came a day in September, a day slashed with
alternate sun and rain, sun without warmth, rain without freshness.
On that day they left the gray house, which had seen the flower of
their love. Four trunks and three monstrous crates were piled in
the dismantled room where, two years before, they had sprawled
lazily, thinking in terms of dreams, remote, languorous, content.
The room echoed with emptiness. Gloria, in a new brown dress edged
with fur, sat upon a trunk in silence, and Anthony walked nervously
to and fro smoking, as they waited for the truck that would take
their things to the city.
“What are those?” she demanded, pointing to some
books piled upon one of the crates.
“That’s my old stamp collection,” he confessed
sheepishly. “I forgot to pack it.”
“Anthony, it’s so silly to carry it around.”
“Well, I was looking through it the day we left the
apartment last spring, and I decided not to store it.”
“Can’t you sell it? Haven’t we enough junk?”
“I’m sorry,” he said humbly.
With a thunderous rattling the truck rolled up to
the door. Gloria shook her fist defiantly at the four walls.
“I’m so glad to go!” she cried, “so glad. Oh, my
God, how I hate this house!”
So the brilliant and beautiful lady went up with
her husband to New York. On the very train that bore them away they
quarrelled—her bitter words had the frequency, the regularity, the
inevitability of the stations they passed.
“Don’t be cross,” begged Anthony piteously. “We’ve
got nothing but each other, after all.”
“We haven’t even that, most of the time,” cried
Gloria.
“When haven’t we?”
“A lot of times—beginning with one occasion on the
station platform at Redgate.”
“You don’t mean to say that—”
“No,” she interrupted coolly, “I don’t brood over
it. It came and went—and when it went it took something with
it.”
She finished abruptly. Anthony sat in silence,
confused, depressed. The drab visions of train-side Mamaroneck,
Larchmont, Rye, Pelham Manor, succeeded each other with intervals
of bleak and shoddy wastes posing ineffectually as country. He
found himself remembering how on one summer morning they two had
started from New York in search of happiness. They had never
expected to find it, perhaps, yet in itself that quest had been
happier than anything he expected forevermore. Life, it seemed,
must be a setting up of props around one—otherwise it was disaster.
There was no rest, no quiet. He had been futile in longing to drift
and dream; no one drifted except to maelstroms, no one dreamed,
without his dreams becoming fantastic nightmares of indecision and
regret.
Pelham! They had quarrelled in Pelham because
Gloria must drive. And when she set her little foot on the
accelerator the car had jumped off spunkily, and their two heads
had jerked back like marionettes worked by a single string.
The Bronx—the houses gathering and gleaming in the
sun, which was falling now through wide refulgent skies and
tumbling caravans of light down into the streets. New York, he
supposed, was home—the city of luxury and mystery, of preposterous
hopes and exotic dreams. Here on the outskirts absurd stucco
palaces reared themselves in the cool sunset, poised for an instant
in cool unreality, glided off far away, succeeded by the mazed
confusion of the Harlem River. The train moved in through the
deepening twilight, above and past half a hundred cheerful sweating
streets of the upper East Side, each one passing the car-window
like the space between the spokes of a gigantic wheel, each one
with its vigorous colorful revelation of poor children swarming in
feverish activity like vivid ants in alleys of red sand. From the
tenement windows leaned rotund, moon-shaped mothers, as
constellations of this sordid heaven; women like dark imperfect
jewels, women like vegetables, women like great bags of abominably
dirty laundry.
“I like these streets,” observed Anthony aloud. “I
always feel as though it’s a performance being staged for me; as
though the second I’ve passed they’ll all stop leaping and laughing
and, instead, grow very sad, remembering how poor they are, and
retreat with bowed heads into their houses. You often get that
effect abroad, but seldom in this country.”
Down in a tall busy street he read a dozen Jewish
names on a line of stores; in the door of each stood a dark little
man watching the passers from intent eyes—eyes gleaming with
suspicion, with pride, with clarity, with cupidity, with
comprehension. New York—he could not dissociate it now from the
slow, upward creep of this people—the little stores, growing,
expanding, consolidating, moving, watched over with hawk’s eyes and
a bee’s attention to detail—they slathered out on all sides. It was
impressive—in perspective it was tremendous.
Gloria’s voice broke in with strange
appropriateness upon his thoughts.
“I wonder where Bloeckman’s been this
summer.”
The Apartment
After the sureties of youth there sets in a period
of intense and intolerable complexity. With the soda-jerker this
period is so short as to be almost negligible. Men higher in the
scale hold out longer in the attempt to preserve the ultimate
niceties of relationship, to retain “impractical” ideas of
integrity. But by the late twenties the business has grown too
intricate, and what has hitherto been imminent and confusing has
become gradually remote and dim. Routine comes down like twilight
on a harsh landscape, softening it until it is tolerable. The
complexity is too subtle, too varied; the values are changing
utterly with each lesion of vitality; it has begun to appear that
we can learn nothing from the past with which to face the future—so
we cease to be impulsive, convincible men, interested in what is
ethically true by fine margins, we substitute rules of conduct for
ideas of integrity, we value safety above romance, we become, quite
unconsciously, pragmatic. It is left to the few to be persistently
concerned with the nuances of relationships—and even this few only
in certain hours especially set aside for the task.
Anthony Patch had ceased to be an individual of
mental adventure, of curiosity, and had become an individual of
bias and prejudice, with a longing to be emotionally undisturbed.
This gradual change had taken place through the past several years,
accelerated by a succession of anxieties preying on his mind. There
was, first of all, the sense of waste, always dormant in his heart,
now awakened by the circumstances of his position. In his moments
of insecurity he was haunted by the suggestion that life might be,
after all, significant. In his early twenties the conviction of the
futility of effort, of the wisdom of abnegation, had been confimed
by the philosophies he had admired as well as by his association
with Maury Noble, and later with his wife. Yet there had been
occasions—just before his first meeting with Gloria, for example,
and when his grandfather had suggested that he should go abroad as
a war correspondent—upon which his dissatisfaction had driven him
almost to a positive step.
One day just before they left Marietta for the last
time, in carelessly turning over the pages of a Harvard Alumni
Bulletin, he had found a column which told him what his
contemporaries had been about in this six years since graduation.
Most of them were in business, it was true, and several were
converting the heathen of China or America to a nebulous
protestantism; but a few, he found, were working constructively at
jobs that were neither sinecures nor routines. There was Calvin
Boyd, for instance, who, though barely out of medical school, had
discovered a new treatment for typhus, had shipped abroad and was
mitigating some of the civilization that the Great Powers had
brought to Servia; there was Eugene Bronson, whose articles in The
New Democracy were stamping him as a man with ideas transcending
both vulgar timeliness and popular hysteria; there was a man named
Daly who had been suspended from the faculty of a righteous
university for preaching Marxian doctrines in the classroom: in
art, science, politics, he saw the authentic personalities of his
time emerging—there was even Severance, the quarterback, who had
given up his life rather neatly and gracefully with the Foreign
Legion on the Aisne.
He laid down the magazine and thought for a while
about these diverse men. In the days of his integrity he would have
defended his attitude to the last—an Epicurus in Nirvana, he would
have cried that to struggle was to believe, to believe was to
limit. He would as soon have become a churchgoer because the
prospect of immortality gratified him as he would have considered
entering the leather business because the intensity of the
competition would have kept him from unhappiness. But at present he
had no such delicate scruples. This autumn, as his twenty-ninth
year began, he was inclined to close his mind to many things, to
avoid prying deeply into motives and first causes, and mostly to
long passionately for security from the world and from himself. He
hated to be alone, as has been said he often dreaded being alone
with Gloria.
Because of the chasm which his grandfather’s visit
had opened before him, and the consequent revulsion from his late
mode of life, it was inevitable that he should look around in this
suddenly hostile city for the friends and environments that had
once seemed the warmest and most secure. His first step was a
desperate attempt to get back his old apartment.
In the spring of 1912 he had signed a four-year
lease at seventeen hundred a year, with an option of renewal. This
lease had expired the previous May. When he had first rented the
rooms they had been mere potentialities, scarcely to be discerned
as that, but Anthony had seen into these potentialities and
arranged in the lease that he and the landlord should each spend a
certain amount in improvements. Rents had gone up in the past four
years, and last spring when Anthony had waived his option the
landlord, a Mr. Sohenberg, had realized that he could get a much
bigger price for what was now a prepossessing apartment.
Accordingly, when Anthony approached him on the subject in
September he was met with Sohenberg’s offer of a three-year lease
at twenty-five hundred a year. This, it seemed to Anthony, was
outrageous. It meant that well over a third of their income would
be consumed in rent. In vain he argued that his own money, his own
ideas on the repartitioning, had made the rooms attractive.
In vain he offered two thousand dollars—twenty-two
hundred, though they could ill afford it: Mr. Sohenberg was
obdurate. It seemed that two other gentlemen were considering it;
just that sort of an apartment was in demand for the moment, and it
would scarcely be business to give it to Mr. Patch. Besides,
though he had never mentioned it before, several of the other
tenants had complained of noise during the previous winter—singing
and dancing late at night, that sort of thing.
Internally raging Anthony hurried back to the Ritz
to report his discomfiture to Gloria.
“I can just see you,” she stormed, “letting him
back you down!”
“What could I say?”
“You could have told him what he was. I wouldn’t
have stood it. No other man in the world would have stood it! You
just let people order you around and cheat you and bully you and
take advantage of you as if you were a silly little boy. It’s
absurd!”
“Oh, for Heaven’s sake, don’t lose your
temper.”
“I know, Anthony, but you are such an
ass!”
“Well, possibly. Anyway, we can’t afford that
apartment. But we can afford it better than living here at the
Ritz.”
“You were the one who insisted on coming
here.”
“Yes, because I knew you’d be miserable in a cheap
hotel.”
“Of course I would!”
“At any rate we’ve got to find a place to
live.”
“How much can we pay?” she demanded.
“Well, we can pay even his price if we sell more
bonds, but we agreed last night that until I had gotten something
definite to do we—”
“Oh, I know all that. I asked you how much we can
pay out of just our income.”
“They say you ought not to pay more than a
fourth.”
“How much is a fourth?”
“One hundred and fifty a month.”
“Do you mean to say we’ve got only six hundred
dollars coming in every month?” A subdued note crept into her
voice.
“Of course!” he answered angrily. “Do you think
we’ve gone on spending more than twelve thousand a year without
cutting way into our capital?”
“I knew we’d sold bonds, but—have we spent that
much a year? How did we?” Her awe increased.
“Oh, I’ll look in those careful account-books we
kept,” he remarked ironically, and then added: “Two rents a good
part of the time, clothes, travel—why, each of those springs in
California cost about four thousand dollars. That darn car was an
expense from start to finish. And parties and amusements and—oh,
one thing or another.”
They were both excited now and inordinately
depressed. The situation seemed worse in the actual telling Gloria
than it had when he had first made the discovery himself.
“You’ve got to make some money,” she said
suddenly.
“I know it.”
“And you’ve got to make another attempt to see your
grandfather.”
“I will.”
“When?”
“When we get settled.”
This eventuality occurred a week later. They rented
a small apartment on Fifty-seventh Street at one hundred and fifty
a month. It included bedroom, living-room, kitchenette, and bath,
in a thin, white-stone apartment-house, and though the rooms were
too small to display Anthony’s best furniture, they were clean,
new, and, in a blonde and sanitary way, not unattractive. Bounds
had gone abroad to enlist in the British army, and in his place
they tolerated rather than enjoyed the services of a gaunt,
big-boned Irishwoman, whom Gloria loathed because she discussed the
glories of Sinn Fein as she served breakfast. But they had vowed
they would have no more Japanese, and English servants were for the
present hard to obtain. Like Bounds, the woman prepared only
breakfast. Their other meals they took at restaurants and
hotels.
What finally drove Anthony post-haste up to
Tarrytown was an announcement in several New York papers that Adam
Patch, the multimillionaire, the philanthropist, the venerable
uplifter, was seriously ill and not expected to recover.
The Kitten
Anthony could not see him. The doctors’
instructions were that he was to talk to no one, said Mr.
Shuttleworth—who offered kindly to take any message that Anthony
might care to intrust with him, and deliver it to Adam Patch when
his condition permitted. But by obvious innuendo he confirmed
Anthony’s melancholy inference that the prodigal grandson would be
particularly unwelcome at the bedside. At one point in the
conversation Anthony, with Gloria’s positive instructions in mind,
made a move as though to brush by the secretary, but Shuttleworth
with a smile squared his brawny shoulders, and Anthony saw how
futile such an attempt would be.
Miserably intimidated, he returned to New York,
where husband and wife passed a restless week. A little incident
that occurred one evening indicated to what tension their nerves
were drawn.
Walking home along a cross-street after dinner,
Anthony noticed a night-bound cat prowling near a railing.
“I always have an instinct to kick a cat,” he said
idly.
“I like them.”
“I yielded to it once.”
“When?”
“Oh, years ago; before I met you. One night between
the acts of a show. Cold night, like this, and I was a little
tight—one of the first times I was ever tight,” he added. “The poor
little beggar was looking for a place to sleep, I guess, and I was
in a mean mood, so it took my fancy to kick it—”
“Oh, the poor kitty!” cried Gloria, sincerely
moved.
Inspired with the narrative instinct, Anthony
enlarged on the theme.
“It was pretty bad,” he admitted. “The poor little
beast turned around and looked at me rather plaintively as though
hoping I’d pick him up and be kind to him—he was really just a
kitten—and before he knew it a big foot launched out at him and
caught his little back—”
“Oh!” Gloria’s cry was full of anguish.
“It was such a cold night,” he continued,
perversely, keeping his voice upon a melancholy note. “I guess it
expected kindness from somebody, and it got only pain—”
He broke off suddenly—Gloria was sobbing. They had
reached home, and when they entered the apartment she threw herself
upon the lounge, crying as though he had struck at her very
soul.
“Oh, the poor little kitty!” she repeated
piteously, “the poor little kitty. So cold—”
“Gloria—”
“Don’t come near me! Please, don’t come near me.
You killed the soft little kitty.”
Touched, Anthony knelt beside her.
“Dear,” he said. “Oh, Gloria, darling. It isn’t
true. I invented it—every word of it.”
But she would not believe him. There had been
something in the details he had chosen to describe that made her
cry herself asleep that night, for the kitten, for Anthony, for
herself, for the pain and bitterness and cruelty of all the
world.
The Passing of an American Moralist
Old Adam died on a midnight of late November with
a pious compliment to his God on his thin lips. He, who had been
flattered so much, faded out flattering the Omnipotent Abstraction
which he fancied he might have angered in the more lascivious
moments of his youth. It was announced that he had arranged some
sort of an armistice with the deity, the terms of which were not
made public, though they were thought to have included a large cash
payment. All the newspapers printed his biography, and two of them
ran short editorials on his sterling worth, and his part in the
drama of industrialism, with which he had grown up. They referred
guardedly to the reforms he had sponsored and financed. The
memories of Comstock and Cato the Censor were resuscitated and
paraded like gaunt ghosts through the columns.
Every newspaper remarked that he was survived by a
single grandson, Anthony Comstock Patch, of New York.
The burial took place in the family plot at
Tarrytown. Anthony and Gloria rode in the first carriage, too
worried to feel grotesque, both trying desperately to glean presage
of fortune from the faces of retainers who had been with him at the
end.
They waited a frantic week for decency, and then,
having received no notification of any kind; Anthony called up his
grandfather’s lawyer. Mr. Brett was not in—he was expected back in
an hour. Anthony left his telephone number.
It was the last day of November, cool and crackling
outside, with a lustreless sun peering bleakly in at the windows.
While they waited for the call, ostensibly engaged in reading, the
atmosphere, within and without, seemed pervaded with a deliberate
rendition of the pathetic fallacy. After an interminable while, the
bell jingled, and Anthony, starting violently, took up the
receiver.
“Hello ...” His voice was strained and hollow.
“Yes—I did leave word. Who is this, please? ... Yes.... Why, it was
about the estate. Naturally I’m interested, and I’ve received no
word about the reading of the will—I thought you might not have my
address.... What? ... Yes...”
Gloria fell on her knees. The intervals between
Anthony’s speeches were like tourniquets winding on her heart. She
found herself helplessly twisting the large buttons from a velvet
cushion. Then:
“That’s—that’s very, very odd—that’s very
odd—that’s very odd. Not even any—ah—mention or
any—ah—reason—?”
His voice sounded faint and far away. She uttered a
little sound, half gasp, half cry.
“Yes, I’ll see.... All right, thanks...
thanks....”
The phone clicked. Her eyes looking along the floor
saw his feet cut the pattern of a patch of sunlight on the carpet.
She arose and faced him with a gray, level glance just as his arms
folded about her.
“My dearest,” he whispered huskily. “He did it, God
damn him!”
Next Day
“Who are the heirs?” asked Mr. Haight. “You see
when you can tell me so little about it—”
Mr. Haight was tall and bent and beetle-browed. He
had been recommended to Anthony as an astute and tenacious
lawyer.
“I only know vaguely,” answered Anthony. “A man
named Shuttleworth, who was a sort of pet of his, has the whole
thing in charge as administrator or trustee or something—all except
the direct bequests to charity and the provisions for servants and
for those two cousins in Idaho.”
“How distant are the cousins?”
“Oh, third or fourth, anyway. I never even heard of
them.”
Mr. Haight nodded comprehensively.
“And you want to contest a provision of the
will?”
“I guess so,” admitted Anthony helplessly. “I want
to do what sounds most hopeful—that’s what I want you to tell
me.”
“You want them to refuse probate to the
will?”
Anthony shook his head.
“You’ve got me. I haven’t any idea what ‘probate’
is. I want a share of the estate.”
“Suppose you tell me some more details. For
instance, do you know why the testator disinherited you?”
“Why—yes,” began Anthony. “You see he was always a
sucker for moral reform, and all that—”
“I know,” interjected Mr. Haight humorlessly.
“—and I don’t suppose he ever thought I was much
good. I didn’t go into business, you see. But I feel certain that
up to last summer I was one of the beneficiaries. We had a house
out in Marietta, and one night grandfather got the notion he’d come
over and see us. It just happened that there was a rather gay party
going on and he arrived without any warning. Well, he took one
look, he and this fellow Shuttleworth, and then turned around and
tore right back to Tarrytown. After that he never answered my
letters or even let me see him.”
“He was a prohibitionist, wasn’t he?”
“He was everything—regular religious maniac.”
“How long before his death was the will made that
disinherited you?”
“Recently—I mean since August.”
“And you think that the direct reason for his not
leaving you the majority of the estate was his displeasure with
your recent actions?”
“Yes.”
Mr. Haight considered. Upon what grounds was
Anthony thinking of contesting the will?
“Why, isn’t there something about evil
influence?”
“Undue influence is one ground—but it’s the most
difficult. You would have to show that such pressure was brought to
bear so that the deceased was in a condition where he disposed of
his property contrary to his intentions—”
“Well, suppose this fellow Shuttleworth dragged him
over to Marietta just when he thought some sort of a celebration
was probably going on?”
“That wouldn’t have any bearing on the case.
There’s a strong division between advice and influence. You’d have
to prove that the secretary had a sinister intention. I’d suggest
some other grounds. A will is automatically refused probate in case
of insanity, drunkenness” —here Anthony smiled—“or
feeble-mindedness through premature old age.”
“But,” objected Anthony, “his private physician,
being one of the beneficiaries, would testify that he wasn’t
feeble-minded. And he wasn’t. As a matter of fact he probably did
just what he intended to with his money—it was perfectly consistent
with everything he’d ever done in his life—”
“Well, you see, feeble-mindedness is a great deal
like undue influence—it implies that the property wasn’t disposed
of as originally intended. The most common ground is
duress—physical pressure.”
Anthony shook his head.
“Not much chance on that, I’m afraid. Undue
influence sounds best to me.”
After more discussion, so technical as to be
largely unintelligible to Anthony, he retained Mr. Haight as
counsel. The lawyer proposed an interview with Shuttleworth, who,
jointly with Wilson, Hiemer and Hardy, was executor of the will.
Anthony was to come back later in the week.
It transpired that the estate consisted of
approximately forty million dollars. The largest bequest to an
individual was of one million, to Edward Shuttleworth, who received
in addition thirty thousand a year salary as administrator of the
thirty-million-dollar trust fund, left to be doled out to various
charities and reform societies practically at his own discretion.
The remaining nine millions were proportioned among the two cousins
in Idaho and about twenty-five other beneficiaries: friends,
secretaries, servants, and employees, who had, at one time or
another, earned the seal of Adam Patch’s approval.
At the end of another fortnight Mr. Haight, on a
retainer’s fee of fifteen thousand dollars, had begun preparations
for contesting the will.
The Winter of Discontent
Before they had been two months in the little
apartment on Fifty-seventh Street, it had assumed for both of them
the same indefinable but almost material taint that had impregnated
the gray house in Marietta. There was the odor of tobacco
always—both of them smoked incessantly; it was in their clothes,
their blankets, the curtains, and the ash-littered carpets. Added
to this was the wretched aura of stale wine, with its inevitable
suggestion of beauty gone foul and revelry remembered in disgust.
About a particular set of glass goblets on the sideboard the odor
was particularly noticeable, and in the main room the mahogany
table was ringed with white circles where glasses had been set down
upon it. There had been many parties—people broke things; people
became sick in Gloria’s bathroom; people spilled wine; people made
unbelievable messes of the kitchenette.
These things were a regular part of their
existence. Despite the resolutions of many Mondays it was tacitly
understood as the week-end approached that it should be observed
with some sort of unholy excitement. When Saturday came they would
not discuss the matter, but would call up this person or that from
among their circle of sufficiently irresponsible friends, and
suggest a rendezvous. Only after the friends had gathered and
Anthony had set out decanters, would he murmur casually: “I guess
I’ll have just one high-ball myself—”
Then they were off for two days—realizing on a
wintry dawn that they had been the noisiest and most conspicuous
members of the noisiest and most conspicuous party at the Boul’
Mich’, or the Club Ramée, or at other resorts much less particular
about the hilarity of their clientele. They would find that they
had, somehow, squandered eighty or ninety dollars, how, they never
knew; they customarily attributed it to the general penury of the
“friends” who had accompanied them.
It began to be not unusual for the more sincere of
their friends to remonstrate with them, in the very course of a
party, and to predict a sombre end for them in the loss of Gloria’s
“looks” and Anthony’s “constitution.” The story of the summarily
interrupted revel in Marietta had, of course, leaked out in
detail—“Muriel doesn’t mean to tell every one she knows,” said
Gloria to Anthony, “but she thinks every one she tells is the only
one she’s going to tell”—and, diaphanously veiled, the tale had
been given a conspicuous place in Town Tattle. When the terms of
Adam Patch’s will were made public and the newspapers printed items
concerning Anthony’s suit, the story was beautifully rounded out—to
Anthony’s infinite disparagement. They began to hear rumors about
themselves from all quarters, rumors founded usually on a soupçon
of truth, but overlaid with preposterous and sinister detail.
Outwardly they showed no signs of deterioration.
Gloria at twenty-six was still the Gloria of twenty; her complexion
a fresh damp setting for her candid eyes; her hair still a childish
glory, darkening slowly from corn color to a deep russet gold; her
slender body suggesting ever a nymph running and dancing through
Orphic groves. Masculine eyes, dozens of them, followed her with a
fascinated stare when she walked through a hotel lobby or down the
aisle of a theatre. Men asked to be introduced to her, fell into
prolonged states of sincere admiration, made definite love to
her—for she was still a thing of exquisite and unbelievable beauty.
And for his part Anthony had rather gained than lost in appearance;
his face had taken on a certain intangible air of tragedy,
romantically contrasted with his trim and immaculate person.
Early in the winter, when all conversation turned
on the probability of America’s going into the war, when Anthony
was making a desperate and sincere attempt to write, Muriel Kane
arrived in New York and came immediately to see them. Like Gloria,
she seemed never to change. She knew the latest slang, danced the
latest dances, and talked of the latest songs and plays with all
the fervor of her first season as a New York drifter. Her coyness
was eternally new, eternally ineffectual; her clothes were extreme;
her black hair was bobbed, now, like Gloria’s.
“I’ve come up for the midwinter prom at New Haven,”
she announced, imparting her delightful secret. Though she must
have been older then than any of the boys in college, she managed
always to secure some sort of invitation, imagining vaguely that at
the next party would occur the flirtation which was to end at the
romantic altar.
“Where’ve you been?” inquired Anthony, unfailingly
amused.
“I’ve been at Hot Springs. It’s been slick and
peppy this fall—more men!”
“Are you in love, Muriel?”
“What do you mean ‘love’?” This was the rhetorical
question of the year. “I’m going to tell you something,” she said,
switching the subject abruptly. “I suppose it’s none of my
business, but I think it’s time for you two to settle down.”
“Why, we are settled down.”
“Yes, you are!” she scoffed archly. “Everywhere I
go I hear stories of your escapades. Let me tell you, I have an
awful time sticking up for you.”
“You needn’t bother,” said Gloria coldly.
“Now, Gloria,” she protested, “you know I’m one of
your best friends.”
Gloria was silent. Muriel continued:
“It’s not so much the idea of a woman drinking, but
Gloria’s so pretty, and so many people know her by sight all
around, that it’s naturally conspicuous—”
“What have you heard recently?” demanded Gloria,
her dignity going down before her curiosity.
“Well, for instance, that that party in Marietta
killed Anthony’s grandfather.”
Instantly husband and wife were tense with
annoyance.
“Why, I think that’s outrageous.”
“That’s what they say,” persisted Muriel
stubbornly.
Anthony paced the room. “It’s preposterous!” he
declared. “The very people we take on parties shout the story
around as a great joke—and eventually it gets back to us in some
such form as this.”
Gloria began running her finger through a stray
reddish curl. Muriel licked her veil as she considered her next
remark.
“You ought to have a baby.”
Gloria looked up wearily.
“We can’t afford it.”
“All the people in the slums have them,” said
Muriel triumphantly.
Anthony and Gloria exchanged a smile. They had
reached the stage of violent quarrels that were never made up,
quarrels that smouldered and broke out again at intervals or died
away from sheer indifference—but this visit of Muriel’s drew them
temporarily together. When the discomfort under which they were
living was remarked upon by a third party, it gave them the impetus
to face this hostile world together. It was very seldom, now, that
the impulse toward reunion sprang from within.
Anthony found himself associating his own existence
with that of the apartment’s night elevator man, a pale, scraggly
bearded person of about sixty, with an air of being somewhat above
his station. It was probably because of this quality that he had
secured the position; it made him a pathetic and memorable figure
of failure. Anthony recollected, without humor, a hoary jest about
the elevator man’s career being a matter of ups and downs—it was,
at any rate, an enclosed life of infinite dreariness. Each time
Anthony stepped into the car he waited breathlessly for the old
man’s “Well, I guess we’re going to have some sunshine to-day.”
Anthony thought how little rain or sunshine he would enjoy shut
into that close little cage in the smoke-colored, windowless
hall.
A darkling figure, he attained tragedy in leaving
the life that had used him so shabbily. Three young gunmen came in
one night, tied him up and left him on a pile of coal in the cellar
while they went through the trunk-room. When the janitor found him
next morning he had collapsed from chill. He died of pneumonia four
days later.
He was replaced by a glib Martinique negro, with an
incongruous British accent and a tendency to be surly, whom Anthony
detested. The passing of the old man had approximately the same
effect on him that the kitten story had had on Gloria. He was
reminded of the cruelty of all life and, in consequence, of the
increasing bitterness of his own.
He was writing—and in earnest at last. He had gone
to Dick and listened for a tense hour to an elucidation of those
minutiae of procedure which hitherto he had rather scornfully
looked down upon. He needed money immediately—he was selling bonds
every month to pay their bills. Dick was frank and explicit:
“So far as articles on literary subjects in these
obscure magazines go, you couldn’t make enough to pay your rent. Of
course if a man has the gift of humor, or a chance at a big
biography, or some specialized knowledge, he may strike it rich.
But for you, fiction’s the only thing. You say you need money right
away?”
“I certainly do.”
“Well, it’d be a year and a half before you’d make
any money out of a novel. Try some popular short stories. And, by
the way, unless they’re exceptionally brilliant they have to be
cheerful and on the side of the heaviest artillery to make you any
money.”
Anthony thought of Dick’s recent output, which had
been appearing in a well-known monthly. It was concerned chiefly
with the preposterous actions of a class of sawdust effigies who,
one was assured, were New York society people, and it turned, as a
rule, upon questions of the heroine’s technical purity, with
mock-sociological overtones about the “mad antics of the four
hundred.”
“But your stories—” exclaimed Anthony aloud, almost
involuntarily.
“Oh, that’s different,” Dick asserted astoundingly.
“I have a reputation, you see, so I’m expected to deal with strong
themes.”
Anthony gave an interior start, realizing with this
remark how much Richard Caramel had fallen off. Did he actually
think that these amazing latter productions were as good as his
first novel?
Anthony went back to the apartment and set to work.
He found that the business of optimism was no mean task. After half
a dozen futile starts he went to the public library and for a week
investigated the files of a popular magazine. Then, better
equipped, he accomplished his first story, “The Dictaphone of
Fate.” It was founded upon one of his few remaining impressions of
that six weeks in Wall Street the year before. It purported to be
the sunny tale of an office boy who, quite by accident, hummed a
wonderful melody into the dictaphone. The cylinder was discovered
by the boss’s brother, a well-known producer of musical comedy—and
then immediately lost. The body of the story was concerned with the
pursuit of the missing cylinder and the eventual marriage of the
noble office boy (now a successful composer) to Miss Rooney, the
virtuous stenographer, who was half Joan of Arc and half Florence
Nightingale.
He had gathered that this was what the magazines
wanted. He offered, in his protagonists, the customary denizens of
the pink-and-blue literary world, immersing them in a saccharine
plot that would offend not a single stomach in Marietta. He had it
typed in double space—this last as advised by a booklet, “Success
as a Writer Made Easy,” by R. Meggs Widdlestien, which assured the
ambitious plumber of the futility of perspiration, since after a
six-lesson course he could make at least a thousand dollars a
month.
After reading it to a bored Gloria and coaxing from
her the immemorial remark that it was “better than a lot of stuff
that gets published,” he satirically affixed the nom de plume of
“Gilles de Sade,” enclosed the proper return envelope, and sent it
off.
Following the gigantic labor of conception he
decided to wait until he heard from the first story before
beginning another. Dick had told him that he might get as much as
two hundred dollars. If by any chance it did happen to be unsuited,
the editor’s letter would, no doubt, give him an idea of what
changes should be made.
“It is, without question, the most abominable piece
of writing in existence,” said Anthony.
The editor quite conceivably agreed with him. He
returned the manuscript with a rejection slip. Anthony sent it off
elsewhere and began another story. The second one was called “The
Little Open Doors”; it was written in three days. It concerned the
occult: an estranged couple were brought together by a medium in a
vaudeville show.
There were six altogether, six wretched and
pitiable efforts to “write down” by a man who had never before made
a consistent effort to write at all. Not one of them contained a
spark of vitality, and their total yield of grace and felicity was
less than that of an average newspaper column. During their
circulation they collected, all told, thirty-one rejection
slips,3 headstones for the packages that he would find
lying like dead bodies at his door.
In mid-January Gloria’s father died, and they went
again to Kansas City—a miserable trip, for Gloria brooded
interminably, not upon her father’s death, but on her mother’s.
Russel Gilbert’s affairs having been cleared up they came into
possession of about three thousand dollars, and a great amount of
furniture. This was in storage, for he had spent his last days in a
small hotel. It was due to his death that Anthony made a new
discovery concerning Gloria. On the journey East she disclosed
herself, astonishingly, as a Bilphist.
“Why, Gloria,” he cried, “you don’t mean to tell me
you believe that stuff.”
“Well,” she said defiantly, “why not?”
“Because it’s—it’s fantastic. You know that in
every sense of the word you’re an agnostic. You’d laugh at any
orthodox form of Christianity—and then you come out with the
statement that you believe in some silly rule of
reincarnation.”
“What if I do? I’ve heard you and Maury, and every
one else for whose intellect I have the slightest respect, agree
that life as it appears is utterly meaningless. But it’s always
seemed to me that if I were unconsciously learning something here
it might not be so meaningless.”
“You’re not learning anything—you’re just getting
tired. And if you must have a faith to soften things, take up one
that appeals to the reason of some one beside a lot of hysterical
women. A person like you oughtn’t to accept anything unless it’s
decently demonstrable.”
“I don’t care about truth. I want some
happiness.”
“Well, if you’ve got a decent mind the second has
got to be qualified by the first. Any simple soul can delude
himself with mental garbage.”
“I don’t care,” she held out stoutly, “and, what’s
more, I’m not propounding any doctrine.”
The argument faded off, but reoccurred to Anthony
several times thereafter. It was disturbing to find this old
belief, evidently assimilated from her mother, inserting itself
again under its immemorial disguise as an innate idea.
They reached New York in March after an expensive
and ill-advised week spent in Hot Springs, and Anthony resumed his
abortive attempts at fiction. As it became plainer to both of them
that escape did not lie in the way of popular literature, there was
a further slipping of their mutual confidence and courage. A
complicated struggle went on incessantly between them. All efforts
to keep down expenses died away from sheer inertia, and by March
they were again using any pretext as an excuse for a “party.” With
an assumption of recklessness Gloria tossed out the suggestion that
they should take all their money and go on a real spree while it
lasted—anything seemed better than to see it go in unsatisfactory
driblets.
“Gloria, you want parties as much as I do.”
“It doesn’t matter about me. Everything I do is in
accordance with my ideas: to use every minute of these years, when
I’m young, in having the best time I possibly can.”
“How about after that?”
“After that I won’t care.”
“Yes, you will.”
“Well, I may—but I won’t be able to do anything
about it. And I’ll have had my good time.”
“You’ll be the same then. After a fashion, we have
had our good time, raised the devil, and we’re in the state of
paying for it.”
Nevertheless, the money kept going. There would be
two days of gaiety, two days of moroseness—an endless, almost
invariable round. The sharp pull-ups, when they occurred, resulted
usually in a spurt of work for Anthony, while Gloria, nervous and
bored, remained in bed or else chewed abstractedly at her fingers.
After a day or so of this, they would make an engagement, and
then—Oh, what did it matter? This night, this glow, the cessation
of anxiety and the sense that if living was not purposeful it was,
at any rate, essentially romantic! Wine gave a sort of gallantry to
their own failure.
Meanwhile the suit progressed slowly, with
interminable examinations of witnesses and marshallings of
evidence. The preliminary proceedings of settling the estate were
finished. Mr. Haight saw no reason why the case should not come up
for trial before summer.
Bloeckman appeared in New York late in March; he
had been in England for nearly a year on matters concerned with
“Films Par Excellence.” The process of general refinement was still
in progress—always he dressed a little better, his intonation was
mellower, and in his manner there was perceptibly more assurance
that the fine things of the world were his by a natural and
inalienable right. He called at the apartment, remained only an
hour, during which he talked chiefly of the war, and left telling
them he was coming again. On his second visit Anthony was not at
home, but an absorbed and excited Gloria greeted her husband later
in the afternoon.
“Anthony,” she began, “would you still object if I
went in the movies?”
His whole heart hardened against the idea. As she
seemed to recede from him, if only in threat, her presence became
again not so much precious as desperately necessary.
“Oh, Gloria—!”
“Blockhead said he’d put me in—only if I’m ever
going to do anything I’ll have to start now. They only want young
women. Think of the money, Anthony!”
“For you—yes. But how about me?”
“Don’t you know that anything I have is yours
too?”
“It’s such a hell of a career!” he burst out, the
moral, the infinitely circumspect Anthony, “and such a hell of a
bunch. And I’m so utterly tired of that fellow Bloeckman coming
here and interfering. I hate theatrical things.”
“It isn’t theatrical! It’s utterly
different.”
“What am I supposed to do? Chase you all over the
country? Live on your money?”
“Then make some yourself.”
The conversation developed into one of the most
violent quarrels they had ever had. After the ensuing
reconciliation and the inevitable period of moral inertia, she
realized that he had taken the life out of the project. Neither of
them ever mentioned the probability that Bloeckman was by no means
disinterested, but they both knew that it lay back of Anthony’s
objection.
In April war was declared with Germany. Wilson and
his cabinet—a cabinet that in its lack of distinction was strangely
reminiscent of the twelve apostles—let loose the carefully starved
dogs of war, and the press began to whoop hysterically against the
sinister morals, sinister philosophy, and sinister music produced
by the Teutonic temperament. Those who fancied themselves
particularly broad-minded made the exquisite distinction that it
was only the German Government which aroused them to hysteria; the
rest were worked up to a condition of retching indecency. Any song
which contained the word “mother” and the word “kaiser” was assured
of a tremendous success. At last every one had something to talk
about—and almost every one fully enjoyed it, as though they had
been cast for parts in a sombre and romantic play.
Anthony, Maury, and Dick sent in their applications
for officers’ training-camps and the two latter went about feeling
strangely exalted and reproachless; they chattered to each other,
like college boys, of war’s being the one excuse for, and
justification of, the aristocrat, and conjured up an impossible
caste of officers, to be composed, it appeared, chiefly of the more
attractive alumni of three or four Eastern colleges. It seemed to
Gloria that in this huge red light streaming across the nation even
Anthony took on a new glamour.
The Tenth Infantry, arriving in New York from
Panama, were escorted from saloon to saloon by patriotic citizens,
to their great bewilderment. West Pointers began to be noticed for
the first time in years, and the general impression was that
everything was glorious, but not half so glorious as it was going
to be pretty soon, and that everybody was a fine fellow, and every
race a great race—always excepting the Germans—and in every strata
of society outcasts and scapegoats had but to appear in uniform to
be forgiven, cheered, and wept over by relatives, ex-friends, and
utter strangers.
Unfortunately, a small and precise doctor decided
that there was something the matter with Anthony’s blood-pressure.
He could not conscientiously pass him for an officers’
training-camp.
The Broken Lute
Their third anniversary passed, uncelebrated,
unnoticed. The season warmed in thaw, melted into hotter summer,
simmered and boiled away. In July the will was offered for probate,
and upon the contestation was assigned by the surrogate to trial
term for trial. The matter was prolonged into September—there was
difficulty in empanelling an unbiassed jury because of the moral
sentiments involved. To Anthony’s disappointment a verdict was
finally returned in favor of the testator, whereupon Mr. Haight
caused a notice of appeal to be served upon Edward
Shuttleworth.
As the summer waned Anthony and Gloria talked of
the things they were to do when the money was theirs, and of the
places they were to go to after the war, when they would “agree on
things again,” for both of them looked forward to a time when love,
springing like the phoenix from its own ashes, should be born again
in its mysterious and unfathomable haunts.
He was drafted early in the fall, and the examining
doctor made no mention of low blood-pressure. It was all very
purposeless and sad when Anthony told Gloria one night that he
wanted, above all things, to be killed. But, as always, they were
sorry for each other for the wrong things at the wrong
times....
They decided that for the present she was not to go
with him to the Southern camp where his contingent was ordered. She
would remain in New York to “use the apartment,” to save money, and
to watch the progress of the case—which was pending now in the
Appellate Division, of which the calendar, Mr. Haight told them,
was far behind.
Almost their last conversation was a senseless
quarrel about the proper division of the income—at a word either
would have given it all to the other. It was typical of the muddle
and confusion of their lives that on the October night when Anthony
reported at the Grand Central Station for the journey to camp, she
arrived only in time to catch his eye over the anxious heads of a
gathered crowd. Through the dark light of the enclosed train-sheds
their glances stretched across a hysterical area, foul with yellow
sobbing and the smells of poor women. They must have pondered upon
what they had done to one another, and each must have accused
himself of drawing this sombre pattern through which they were
tracing tragically and obscurely. At the last they were too far
away for either to see the other’s tears.