CHAPTER II
PORTRAIT OF A SIREN
CRISPNESS FOLDED DOWN UPON New York a month later,
bringing November and the three big football games and a great
fluttering of furs along Fifth Avenue. It brought, also, a sense of
tension to the city, and suppressed excitement. Every morning now
there were invitations in Anthony’s mail. Three dozen virtuous
females of the first layer were proclaiming their fitness, if not
their specific willingness, to bear children unto three dozen
millionaires. Five dozen virtuous females of the second layer were
proclaiming not only this fitness, but in addition a tremendous
undaunted ambition toward the first three dozen young men, who were
of course invited to each of the ninety-six parties—as were the
young lady’s group of family friends, acquaintances, college boys,
and eager young outsiders. To continue, there was a third layer
from the skirts of the city, from Newark and the Jersey suburbs up
to bitter Connecticut and the ineligible sections of Long
Island—and doubtless contiguous layers down to the city’s shoes:
Jewesses were coming out into a society of Jewish men and women,
from Riverside to the Bronx, and looking forward to a rising young
broker or jeweller and a kosher wedding; Irish girls were casting
their eyes, with license at last to do so, upon a society of young
Tammany politicians, pious undertakers, and grown-up
choirboys.
And, naturally, the city caught the contagious air
of entre—the working girls, poor ugly souls, wrapping soap in the
factories and showing finery in the big stores, dreamed that
perhaps in the spectacular excitement of this winter they might
obtain for themselves the coveted male—as in a muddled carnival
crowd an inefficient pickpocket may consider his chances increased.
And the chimneys commenced to smoke and the subway’s foulness was
freshened. And the actresses came out in new plays and the
publishers came out with new books and the Castles came out with
new dances. And the railroads came out with new schedules
containing new mistakes instead of the old ones that the commuters
had grown used to....
The City was coming out!
Anthony, walking along Forty-second Street one
afternoon under a steel-gray sky, ran unexpectedly into Richard
Caramel emerging from the Manhattan Hotel barber-shop. It was a
cold day, the first definitely cold day, and Caramel had on one of
those knee-length, sheep-lined coats long worn by the working men
of the Middle West, that were just coming into fashionable
approval. His soft hat was of a discreet dark brown, and from under
it his clear eye flamed like a topaz. He stopped Anthony
enthusiastically, slapping him on the arms more from a desire to
keep himself warm than from playfulness, and, after his inevitable
hand-shake, exploded into sound.
“Cold as the devil—Good Lord, I’ve been working
like the deuce all day till my room got so cold I thought I’d get
pneumonia. Darn landlady economizing on coal came up when I yelled
over the stairs for her for half an hour. Began explaining why and
all. God! First she drove me crazy, then I began to think she was
sort of a character, and took notes while she talked—so she
couldn’t see me, you know, just as though I were writing
casually—”
He had seized Anthony’s arm and was walking him
briskly up Madison Avenue.
“Where to?”
“Nowhere in particular.”
“Well, then what’s the use?” demanded
Anthony.
They stopped and stared at each other, and Anthony
wondered if the cold made his own face as repellent as Dick
Caramel’s, whose nose was crimson, whose bulging brow was blue,
whose yellow unmatched eyes were red and watery at the rims. After
a moment they began walking again.
“Done some good work on my novel.” Dick was looking
and talking emphatically at the sidewalk. “But I have to get out
once in a while.” He glanced at Anthony apologetically, as though
craving encouragement. “I have to talk. I guess very few people
ever really think, I mean sit down and ponder and have ideas
in sequence. I do my thinking in writing or conversation. You’ve
got to have a start, sort of—something to defend or
contradict—don’t you think?”
Anthony grunted and withdrew his arm gently.
“I don’t mind carrying you, Dick, but with that
coat—”
“I mean,” continued Richard Caramel gravely, “that
on paper your first paragraph contains the idea you’re going to
damn or enlarge on. In conversation you’ve got your vis-à-vis’s
last statement—but when you simply ponder, why, your ideas
just succeed each other like magic-lantern pictures and each one
forces out the last.”
They passed Forty-fifth Street and slowed down
slightly. Both of them lit cigarettes and blew tremendous clouds of
smoke and frosted breath into the air.
“Let’s walk up to the Plaza and have an egg-nog,”
suggested Anthony. “Do you good. Air’ll get the rotten nicotine out
of your lungs. Come on—I’ll let you talk about your book all the
way.”
“I don’t want to if it bores you. I mean you
needn’t do it as a favor.” The words tumbled out in haste, and
though he tried to keep his face casual it screwed up uncertainly.
Anthony was compelled to protest: “Bore me? I should say
not!”
“Got a cousin—” began Dick, but Anthony interrupted
by stretching out his arms and breathing forth a low cry of
exultation.
“Good weather!” he exclaimed, “isn’t it? Makes me
feel about ten. I mean it makes me feel as I should have felt when
I was ten. Murderous! Oh, God! one minute it’s my world, and the
next I’m the world’s fool. To-day it’s my world and everything’s
easy, easy. Even Nothing is easy!”
“Got a cousin up at the Plaza. Famous girl. We can
go up and meet her. She lives there in the winter—has lately
anyway—with her mother and father.”
“Didn’t know you had cousins in New York.”
“Her name’s Gloria. She’s from home—Kansas City.
Her mother’s a practising Bilphist,a and her
father’s quite dull but a perfect gentleman.”
“What are they? Literary material?”
“They try to be. All the old man does is tell me he
just met the most wonderful character for a novel. Then he tells me
about some idiotic friend of his and then he says: ‘There’s
a character for you! Why don’t you write him up? Everybody’d be
interested in him.’ Or else he tells me about Japan or
Paris, or some other very obvious place, and says: ‘Why don’t you
write a story about that place? That’d be a wonderful setting for a
story!’ ”
“How about the girl?” inquired Anthony casually,
“Gloria—Gloria what?”
“Gilbert. Oh, you’ve heard of her—Gloria Gilbert.
Goes to dances at colleges—all that sort of thing.”
“I’ve heard her name.”
“Good-looking—in fact damned attractive.”
They reached Fiftieth Street and turned over toward
the Avenue.
“I don’t care for young girls as a rule,” said
Anthony, frowning.
This was not strictly true. While it seemed to him
that the average débutante spent every hour of her day thinking and
talking about what the great world had mapped out for her to do
during the next hour, any girl who made a living directly on her
prettiness interested him enormously.
“Gloria’s darn nice—not a brain in her head.”
Anthony laughed in a one-syllabled snort.
“By that you mean that she hasn’t a line of
literary patter.”
“No, I don’t.”
“Dick, you know what passes as brains in a girl for
you. Earnest young women who sit with you in a corner and talk
earnestly about life. The kind who when they were sixteen argued
with grave faces as to whether kissing was right or wrong—and
whether it was immoral for freshmen to drink beer.”
Richard Caramel was offended. His scowl crinkled
like crushed paper.
“No—” he began, but Anthony interrupted
ruthlessly.
“Oh, yes; kind who just at present sit in corners
and confer on the latest Scandinavian Dante available in English
translation.”
Dick turned to him, a curious falling in his whole
countenance. His question was almost an appeal.
“What’s the matter with you and Maury? You talk
sometimes as though I were a sort of inferior.”
Anthony was confused, but he was also cold and a
little uncomfortable, so he took refuge in attack.
“I don’t think your brains matter, Dick.”
“Of course they matter!” exclaimed Dick angrily.
“What do you mean? Why don’t they matter?”
“You might know too much for your pen.”
“I couldn’t possibly.”
“I can imagine,” insisted Anthony, “a man knowing
too much for his talent to express. Like me. Suppose, for instance,
I have more wisdom than you, and less talent. It would tend to make
me inarticulate. You, on the contrary, have enough water to fill
the pail and a big enough pail to hold the water.”
“I don’t follow you at all,” complained Dick in a
crestfallen tone. Infinitely dismayed, he seemed to bulge in
protest. He was staring intently at Anthony and carroming off a
succession of passers-by, who reproached him with fierce, resentful
glances.
“I simply mean that a talent like Wells’s could
carry the intelligence of a Spencer. But an inferior talent can
only be graceful when it’s carrying inferior ideas. And the more
narrowly you can look at a thing the more entertaining you can be
about it.”
Dick considered, unable to decide the exact degree
of criticism intended by Anthony’s remarks. But Anthony, with that
facility which seemed so frequently to flow from him, continued,
his dark eyes gleaming in his thin face, his chin raised, his voice
raised, his whole physical being raised:
“Say I am proud and sane and wise—an Athenian among
Greeks. Well, I might fail where a lesser man would succeed. He
could imitate, he could adorn, he could be enthusiastic, he could
be hopefully constructive. But this hypothetical me would be too
proud to imitate, too sane to be enthusiastic, too sophisticated to
be Utopian, too Grecian to adorn.”
“Then you don’t think the artist works from his
intelligence?”
“No. He goes on improving, if he can, what he
imitates in the way of style, and choosing from his own
interpretation of the things around him what constitutes material.
But after all every writer writes because it’s his mode of living.
Don’t tell me you like this ‘Divine function of the Artist’
business?”
“I’m not accustomed even to refer to myself as an
artist.”
“Dick,” said Anthony, changing his tone, “I want to
beg your pardon.”
“Why?”
“For that outburst. I’m honestly sorry. I was
talking for effect.”
Somewhat mollified, Dick rejoined:
“I’ve often said you were a Philistine at
heart.”
It was a crackling dusk when they turned in under
the white façade of the Plaza and tasted slowly the foam and yellow
thickness of an egg-nog. Anthony looked at his companion. Richard
Caramel’s nose and brow were slowly approaching a like
pigmentation; the red was leaving the one, the blue deserting the
other. Glancing in a mirror, Anthony was glad to find that his own
skin had not discolored. On the contrary, a faint glow had kindled
in his cheeks—he fancied that he had never looked so well.
“Enough for me,” said Dick, his tone that of an
athlete in training. “I want to go up and see the Gilberts. Won’t
you come?”
“Why—yes. If you don’t dedicate me to the parents
and dash off in the corner with Dora.”
“Not Dora—Gloria.”
A clerk announced them over the phone, and
ascending to the tenth floor they followed a winding corridor and
knocked at 1088. The door was answered by a middle-aged lady—Mrs.
Gilbert herself.
“How do you do?” She spoke in the conventional
American lady-lady language. “Well, I’m awfully glad to see
you—”
Hasty interjections by Dick, and then:
“Mr. Pats? Well, do come in, and leave your coat
there.” She pointed to a chair and changed her inflection to a
deprecatory laugh full of minute gasps. “This is really
lovely—lovely. Why, Richard, you haven’t been here for so
long—no!—no!” The latter monosyllables served half as responses,
half as periods, to some vague starts from Dick. “Well, do sit down
and tell me what you’ve been doing.”
One crossed and recrossed; one stood and bowed ever
so gently; one smiled again and again with helpless stupidity; one
wondered if she would ever sit down—at length one slid thankfully
into a chair and settled for a pleasant call.
“I suppose it’s because you’ve been busy—as much as
anything else,” smiled Mrs. Gilbert somewhat ambiguously. The “as
much as anything else” she used to balance all her more rickety
sentences. She had two other ones: “at least that’s the way I look
at it” and “pure and simple”—these three, alternated, gave each of
her remarks an air of being a general reflection on life, as though
she had calculated all causes and, at length, put her finger on the
ultimate one.
Richard Caramel’s face, Anthony saw, was now quite
normal. The brow and cheeks were of a flesh color, the nose
politely inconspicuous. He had fixed his aunt with the
bright-yellow eye, giving her that acute and exaggerated attention
that young males are accustomed to render to all females who are of
no further value.
“Are you a writer too, Mr. Pats? ... Well, perhaps
we can all bask in Richard’s fame.”—Gentle laughter led by Mrs.
Gilbert.
“Gloria’s out,” she said, with an air of laying
down an axiom from which she would proceed to derive results.
“She’s dancing somewhere. Gloria goes, goes, goes. I tell her I
don’t see how she stands it. She dances all afternoon and all
night, until I think she’s going to wear herself to a shadow. Her
father is very worried about her.”
She smiled from one to the other. They both
smiled.
She was composed, Anthony perceived, of a
succession of semicircles and parabolas, like those figures that
gifted folk make on the typewriter: head, arms, bust, hips, thighs,
and ankles were in a bewildering tier of roundnesses. Well ordered
and clean she was, with hair of an artificially rich gray; her
large face sheltered weather-beaten blue eyes and was adorned with
just the faintest white mustache.
“I always say,” she remarked to Anthony, “that
Richard is an ancient soul.”
In the tense pause that followed, Anthony
considered a pun—something about Dick having been much walked
upon.
“We all have souls of different ages,” continued
Mrs. Gilbert radiantly; “at least that’s what I say.”
“Perhaps so,” agreed Anthony with an air of
quickening to a hopeful idea. The voice bubbled on:
“Gloria has a very young soul—irresponsible, as
much as anything else. She has no sense of responsibility.”
“She’s sparkling, Aunt Catherine,” said Richard
pleasantly. “A sense of responsibility would spoil her. She’s too
pretty.”
“Well,” confessed Mrs. Gilbert, “all I know is that
she goes and goes and goes—”
The number of goings to Gloria’s discredit was lost
in the rattle of the door-knob as it turned to admit Mr.
Gilbert.
He was a short man with a mustache resting like a
small white cloud beneath his undistinguished nose. He had reached
the stage where his value as a social creature was a black and
imponderable negative. His ideas were the popular delusions of
twenty years before; his mind steered a wabbly and anæmic course in
the wake of the daily newspaper editorials. After graduating from a
small but terrifying Western university, he had entered the
celluloid business, and as this required only the minute measure of
intelligence he brought to it, he did well for several years—in
fact until about 1911, when he began exchanging contracts for vague
agreements with the moving-picture industry. The moving-picture
industry had decided about 1912 to gobble him up, and at this time
he was, so to speak, delicately balanced on its tongue. Meanwhile
he was supervising manager of the Associated Mid-western Film
Materials Company, spending six months of each year in New York and
the remainder in Kansas City and St. Louis. He felt credulously
that there was a good thing coming to him—and his wife thought so,
and his daughter thought so too.
He disapproved of Gloria: she stayed out late, she
never ate her meals, she was always in a mix-up—he had irritated
her once and she had used toward him words that he had not thought
were part of her vocabulary. His wife was easier. After fifteen
years of incessant guerilla warfare he had conquered her—it was a
war of muddled optimism against organized dulness, and something in
the number of “yes’s” with which he could poison a conversation had
won him the victory.
“Yes-yes-yes-yes,” he would say, “yes-yes-yes-yes.
Let me see. That was the summer of—let me see—ninety-one or
ninety-two—Yes-yes-yes-yes—”
Fifteen years of yes’s had beaten Mrs. Gilbert.
Fifteen further years of that incessant unaffirmative affirmative,
accompanied by the perpetual flicking of ash-mushrooms from
thirty-two thousand cigars, had broken her. To this husband of hers
she made the last concession of married life, which is more
complete, more irrevocable, than the first—she listened to him. She
told herself that the years had brought her tolerance—actually they
had slain what measure she had ever possessed of moral
courage.
She introduced him to Anthony.
“This is Mr. Pats,” she said.
The young man and the old touched flesh; Mr.
Gilbert’s hand was soft, worn away to the pulpy semblance of a
squeezed grapefruit. Then husband and wife exchanged greetings—he
told her it had grown colder out; he said he had walked down to a
news-stand on Forty-fourth Street for a Kansas City paper. He had
intended to ride back in the bus but he had found it too cold, yes,
yes, yes, yes, too cold.
Mrs. Gilbert added flavor to his adventure by being
impressed with his courage in braving the harsh air.
“Well, you are spunky!” she exclaimed
admiringly. “You are spunky. I wouldn’t have gone out for
anything.”
Mr. Gilbert with true masculine impassivity
disregarded the awe he had excited in his wife. He turned to the
two young men and triumphantly routed them on the subject of the
weather. Richard Caramel was called on to remember the month of
November in Kansas. No sooner had the theme been pushed toward him,
however, than it was violently fished back to be lingered over,
pawed over, elongated, and generally devitalized by its
sponsor.
The immemorial thesis that the days somewhere were
warm but the nights very pleasant was successfully propounded and
they decided the exact distance on an obscure railroad between two
points that Dick had inadvertently mentioned. Anthony fixed Mr.
Gilbert with a steady stare and went into a trance through which,
after a moment, Mrs. Gilbert’s smiling voice penetrated:
“It seems as though the cold were damper here—it
seems to eat into my bones.”
As this remark, adequately yessed, had been on the
tip of Mr. Gilbert’s tongue, he could not be blamed for rather
abruptly changing the subject.
“Where’s Gloria?”
“She ought to be here any minute.”
“Have you met my daughter, Mr.—?”
“Haven’t had the pleasure. I’ve heard Dick speak of
her often.”
“She and Richard are cousins.”
“Yes?” Anthony smiled with some effort. He was not
used to the society of his seniors, and his mouth was stiff from
superfluous cheerfulness. It was such a pleasant thought about
Gloria and Dick being cousins. He managed within the next minute to
throw an agonized glance at his friend.
Richard Caramel was afraid they’d have to toddle
off.
Mrs. Gilbert was tremendously sorry.
Mr. Gilbert thought it was too bad.
Mrs. Gilbert had a further idea—something about
being glad they’d come, anyhow, even if they’d only seen an old
lady ’way too old to flirt with them. Anthony and Dick evidently
considered this a sly sally, for they laughed one bar in three-four
time:
Would they come again soon?
“Oh, yes.”
Gloria would be awfully sorry!
“Good-by—”
“Good-by—”
Smiles!
Smiles!
Bang!
Two disconsolate young men walking down the
tenth-floor corridor of the Plaza in the direction of the
elevator.
A Lady’s Legs
Behind Maury Noble’s attractive indolence, his
irrelevance and his easy mockery, lay a surprising and relentless
maturity of purpose.1 His
intention, as he stated it in college, had been to use three years
in travel, three years in utter leisure—and then to become
immensely rich as quickly as possible.
His three years of travel were over. He had
accomplished the globe with an intensity and curiosity that in any
one else would have seemed pedantic, without redeeming spontaneity,
almost the self-editing of a human Baedeker; but, in this case, it
assumed an air of mysterious purpose and significant design—as
though Maury Noble were some predestined anti-Christ, urged by a
preordination to go everywhere there was to go along the earth and
to see all the billions of humans who bred and wept and slew each
other here and there upon it.
Back in America, he was sallying into the search
for amusement with the same consistent absorption. He who had never
taken more than a few cocktails or a pint of wine at a sitting,
taught himself to drink as he would have taught himself Greek—like
Greek it would be the gateway to a wealth of new sensations, new
psychic states, new reactions in joy or misery.
His habits were a matter for esoteric speculation.
He had three rooms in a bachelor apartment on Forty-fourth Street,
but he was seldom to be found there. The telephone girl had
received the most positive instructions that no one should even
have his ear without first giving a name to be passed upon. She had
a list of half a dozen people to whom he was never at home, and of
the same number to whom he was always at home. Foremost on the
latter list were Anthony Patch and Richard Caramel.
Maury’s mother lived with her married son in
Philadelphia, and there Maury went usually for the week-ends, so
one Saturday night when Anthony, prowling the chilly streets in a
fit of utter boredom, dropped in at the Molton Arms he was
overjoyed to find that Mr. Noble was at home.
His spirits soared faster than the flying elevator.
This was so good, so extremely good, to be about to talk to
Maury—who would be equally happy at seeing him. They would look at
each other with a deep affection just behind their eyes which both
would conceal beneath some attenuated raillery. Had it been summer
they would have gone out together and indolently sipped two long
Tom Collinses, as they wilted their collars and watched the faintly
diverting round of some lazy August cabaret. But it was cold
outside, with wind around the edges of the tall buildings and
December just up the street, so better far an evening together
under the soft lamplight and a drink or two of Bushmill’s, or a
thimbleful of Maury’s Grand Marnier, with the books gleaming like
ornaments against the walls, and Maury radiating a divine inertia
as he rested, large and catlike, in his favorite chair.
There he was! The room closed about Anthony, warmed
him. The glow of that strong persuasive mind, that temperament
almost Oriental in its outward impassivity, warmed Anthony’s
restless soul and brought him a peace that could be likened only to
the peace a stupid woman gives. One must understand all—else one
must take all for granted. Maury filled the room, tigerlike,
godlike. The winds outside were stilled; the brass candlesticks on
the mantel glowed like tapers before an altar.
“What keeps you here to-day?” Anthony spread
himself over a yielding sofa and made an elbow-rest among the
pillows.
“Just been here an hour. Tea dance—and I stayed so
late I missed my train to Philadelphia.”
“Strange to stay so long,” commented Anthony
curiously.
“Rather. What’d you do?”
“Geraldine. Little usher at Keith’s. I told you
about her.”
“Oh!”
“Paid me a call about three and stayed till five.
Peculiar little soul—she gets me. She’s so utterly stupid.”
Maury was silent.
“Strange as it may seem,” continued Anthony, “so
far as I’m concerned, and even so far as I know, Geraldine is a
paragon of virtue.”
He had known her a month, a girl of nondescript and
nomadic habits. Some one had casually passed her on to Anthony, who
considered her amusing and rather liked the chaste and fairylike
kisses she had given him on the third night of their acquaintance,
when they had driven in a taxi through the Park. She had a vague
family—a shadowy aunt and uncle who shared with her an apartment in
the labyrinthine hundreds. She was company, familiar and faintly
intimate and restful. Further than that he did not care to
experiment—not from any moral compunction, but from a dread of
allowing any entanglement to disturb what he felt was the growing
serenity of his life.
“She has two stunts,” he informed Maury; “one of
them is to get her hair over her eyes some way and then blow it
out, and the other is to say ‘You cra-a-azy!’ when some one makes a
remark that’s over her head. It fascinates me. I sit there hour
after hour, completely intrigued by the maniacal symptoms she finds
in my imagination.”
Maury stirred in his chair and spoke.
“Remarkable that a person can comprehend so little
and yet live in such a complex civilization. A woman like that
actually takes the whole universe in the most matter-of-fact way.
From the influence of Rousseaub to the
bearing of the tariff rates on her dinner, the whole phenomenon is
utterly strange to her. She’s just been carried along from an age
of spearheads and plunked down here with the equipment of an archer
for going into a pistol duel. You could sweep away the entire crust
of history and she’d never know the difference.”
“I wish our Richard would write about her.”
“Anthony, surely you don’t think she’s worth
writing about.”
“As much as anybody,” he answered, yawning. “You
know I was thinking to-day that I have a great confidence in Dick.
So long as he sticks to people and not to ideas, and as long as his
inspirations come from life and not from art, and always granting a
normal growth, I believe he’ll be a big man.”
“I should think the appearance of the black
note-book would prove that he’s going to life.”
Anthony raised himself on his elbow and answered
eagerly:
“He tries to go to life. So does every author
except the very worst, but after all most of them live on
predigested food. The incident or character may be from life, but
the writer usually interprets it in terms of the last book he read.
For instance, suppose he meets a sea-captain and thinks he’s an
original character. The truth is that he sees the resemblance
between the sea-captain and the last sea-captain Dana created, or
whoever creates sea-captains, and therefore he knows how to set
this sea-captain on paper. Dick, of course, can set down any
consciously picturesque, character-like character, but could he
accurately transcribe his own sister?”
Then they were off for half an hour on
literature.
“A classic,” suggested Anthony, “is a successful
book that has survived the reaction of the next period or
generation. Then it’s safe, like a style in architecture or
furniture. It’s acquired a picturesque dignity to take the place of
its fashion....”
After a time the subject temporarily lost its tang.
The interest of the two young men was not particularly technical.
They were in love with generalities. Anthony had recently
discovered Samuel Butlerc and the
brisk aphorisms in the note-book seemed to him the quintessence of
criticism. Maury, his whole mind so thoroughly mellowed by the very
hardness of his scheme of life, seemed inevitably the wiser of the
two, yet in the actual stuff of their intelligences they were not,
it seemed, fundamentally different.
They drifted from letters to the curiosities of
each other’s day.
“Whose tea was it?”
“People named Abercrombie.”
“Why’d you stay late? Meet a luscious
débutante?”
“Yes.”
“Did you really?” Anthony’s voice lifted in
surprise.
“Not a débutante exactly. Said she came out two
winters ago in Kansas City.”
“Sort of left-over?”
“No,” answered Maury with some amusement, “I think
that’s the last thing I’d say about her. She seemed—well, somehow
the youngest person there.”
“Not too young to make you miss a train.”
“Young enough. Beautiful child.”
Anthony chuckled in his one-syllable snort.
“Oh, Maury, you’re in your second childhood. What
do you mean by beautiful?”
Maury gazed helplessly into space.
“Well, I can’t describe her exactly—except to say
that she was beautiful. She was—tremendously alive. She was eating
gum-drops.”
“What!”
“It was a sort of attenuated vice. She’s a nervous
kind—said she always ate gum-drops at teas because she had to stand
around so long in one place.”
“What’d you talk about—Bergson? Bilphism? Whether
the one-step is immoral?”
Maury was unruffled; his fur seemed to run all
ways.
“As a matter of fact we did talk on Bilphism. Seems
her mother’s a Bilphist. Mostly, though, we talked about
legs.”
Anthony rocked in glee.
“My God! Whose legs?”
“Hers. She talked a lot about hers. As though they
were a sort of choice bric-à-brac. She aroused a great desire to
see them.”
“What is she—a dancer?”
“No, I found she was a cousin of Dick’s?”
Anthony sat upright so suddenly that the pillow he
released stood on end like a live thing and dove to the
floor.
“Name’s Gloria Gilbert?” he cried.
“Yes. Isn’t she remarkable?”
“I’m sure I don’t know—but for sheer dulness her
father—”
“Well,” interrupted Maury with implacable
conviction, “her family may be as sad as professional mourners but
I’m inclined to think that she’s a quite authentic and original
character. The outer signs of the cut-and-dried Yale prom girl and
all that—but different, very emphatically different.”
“Go on, go on!” urged Anthony. “Soon as Dick told
me she didn’t have a brain in her head I knew she must be pretty
good.”
“Did he say that?”
“Swore to it,” said Anthony with another snorting
laugh.
“Well, what he means by brains in a woman
is—”
“I know,” interrupted Anthony eagerly, “he means a
smattering of literary misinformation.”
“That’s it. The kind who believes that the annual
moral letdown of the country is a very good thing or the kind who
believes it’s a very ominous thing. Either pince-nez or postures.
Well, this girl talked about legs. She talked about skin too—her
own skin. Always her own. She told me the sort of tan she’d like to
get in the summer and how closely she usually approximated
it.”
“You sat enraptured by her low alto?”
“By her low alto! No, by tan! I began thinking
about tan. I began to think what color I turned when I made my last
exposure about two years ago. I did use to get a pretty good tan. I
used to get a sort of bronze, if I remember rightly.”
Anthony retired into the cushions, shaken with
laughter.
“She’s got you going—oh, Maury! Maury the
Connecticut life-saver. The human nutmeg. Extra! Heiress elopes
with coast-guard because of his luscious pigmentation! Afterward
found to be Tasmanian strain in his family!”
Maury sighed; rising he walked to the window and
raised the shade.
“Snowing hard.”
Anthony, still laughing quietly to himself, made no
answer.
“Another winter.” Maury’s voice from the window was
almost a whisper. “We’re growing old, Anthony. I’m twenty-seven, by
God! Three years to thirty, and then I’m what an undergraduate
calls a middle-aged man.”
Anthony was silent for a moment.
“You are old, Maury,” he agreed at length. “The
first signs of a very dissolute and wabbly senescence—you have
spent the afternoon talking about tan and a lady’s legs.”
Maury pulled down the shade with a sudden harsh
snap.
“Idiot!” he cried, “that from you! Here I sit,
young Anthony, as I’ll sit for a generation or more and watch such
gay souls as you and Dick and Gloria Gilbert go past me, dancing
and singing and loving and hating one another and being moved,
being eternally moved. And I am moved only by my lack of emotion. I
shall sit and the snow will come—oh, for a Caramel to take
notes—and another winter and I shall be thirty and you and Dick and
Gloria will go on being eternally moved and dancing by me and
singing. But after you’ve all gone I’ll be saying things for new
Dicks to write down, and listening to the disillusions and
cynicisms and emotions of new Anthonys—yes, and talking to new
Glorias about the tans of summers yet to come.”
The firelight flurried up on the hearth. Maury left
the window, stirred the blaze with a poker, and dropped a log upon
the andirons. Then he sat back in his chair and the remnants of his
voice faded in the new fire that spit red and yellow along the
bark.
“After all, Anthony, it’s you who are very romantic
and young. It’s you who are infinitely more susceptible and afraid
of your calm being broken. It’s me who tries again and again to be
moved—let myself go a thousand times and I’m always me.
Nothing—quite—stirs me.
“Yet,” he murmured after another long pause, “there
was something about that little girl with her absurd tan that was
eternally old—like me.”
Turbulence
Anthony turned over sleepily in his bed, greeting a
patch of cold sun on his counterpane, crisscrossed with the shadows
of the leaded window. The room was full of morning. The carved
chest in the corner, the ancient and inscrutable wardrobe, stood
about the room like dark symbols of the obliviousness of matter;
only the rug was beckoning and perishable to his perishable feet,
and Bounds, horribly inappropriate in his soft collar, was of stuff
as fading as the gauze of frozen breath he uttered. He was close to
the bed, his hand still lowered where he had been jerking at the
upper blanket, his dark-brown eyes fixed imperturbably upon his
master.
“Bows!” muttered the drowsy god. “Thachew,
Bows?”
“It’s I, sir.”
Anthony moved his head, forced his eyes wide, and
blinked triumphantly.
“Bounds.”
“Yes, sir?”
“Can you get off—yeow-ow-oh-oh-oh God!—” Anthony
yawned insufferably and the contents of his brain seemed to fall
together in a dense hash. He made a fresh start.
“Can you come around about four and serve some tea
and sandwiches or something?”
“Yes, sir.”
Anthony considered with chilling lack of
inspiration.
“Some sandwiches,” he repeated helplessly, “oh,
some cheese sandwiches and jelly ones and chicken and olive, I
guess. Never mind breakfast.”
The strain of invention was too much. He shut his
eyes wearily, let his head roll to rest inertly, and quickly
relaxed what he had regained of muscular control. Out of a crevice
of his mind crept the vague but inevitable spectre of the night
before—but it proved in this case to be nothing but a seemingly
interminable conversation with Richard Caramel, who had called on
him at midnight; they had drunk four bottles of beer and munched
dry crusts of bread while Anthony listened to a reading of the
first part of “The Demon Lover.”
—Came a voice now after many hours. Anthony
disregarded it, as sleep closed over him, folded down upon him,
crept up into the byways of his mind.
Suddenly he was awake, saying: “What?”
“For how many, sir?” It was still Bounds, standing
patient and motionless at the foot of the bed—Bounds who divided
his manner among three gentlemen.
“How many what?”
“I think, sir, I’d better know how many are coming.
I’ll have to plan for the sandwiches, sir.”
“Two,” muttered Anthony huskily; “lady and a
gentleman.”
Bounds said, “Thank you, sir,” and moved away,
bearing with him his humiliating reproachful soft collar,
reproachful to each of the three gentlemen, who only demanded of
him a third.
After a long time Anthony arose and drew an
opalescent dressing-gown of brown and blue over his slim pleasant
figure. With a last yawn he went into the bathroom, and turning on
the dresser light (the bathroom had no outside exposure) he
contemplated himself in the mirror with some interest. A wretched
apparition, he thought; he usually thought so in the morning—sleep
made his face unnaturally pale. He lit a cigarette and glanced
through several letters and the morning Tribune.
An hour later, shaven and dressed, he was sitting
at his desk looking at a small piece of paper he had taken out of
his wallet. It was scrawled with semilegible memoranda: “See Mr.
Howland at five. Get hair-cut. See about Rivers’ bill. Go
book-store.”
—And under the last: “Cash in bank, $690 (crossed
out), $612 (crossed out), $607.”
Finally, down at the bottom and in a hurried
scrawl: “Dick and Gloria Gilbert for tea.”
This last item brought him obvious satisfaction.
His day, usually a jelly-like creature, a shapeless, spineless
thing, had attained Mesozoic structure. It was marching along
surely, even jauntily, toward a climax, as a play should, as a day
should. He dreaded the moment when the backbone of the day should
be broken, when he should have met the girl at last, talked to her,
and then bowed her laughter out the door, returning only to the
melancholy dregs in the teacups and the gathering staleness of the
uneaten sandwiches.
There was a growing lack of color in Anthony’s
days. He felt it constantly and sometimes traced it to a talk he
had had with Maury Noble a month before. That anything so
ingenuous, so priggish, as a sense of waste should oppress him was
absurd, but there was no denying the fact that some unwelcome
survival of a fetich had drawn him three weeks before down to the
public library, where, by the token of Richard Caramel’s card, he
had drawn out half a dozen books on the Italian Renaissance. That
these books were still piled on his desk in the original order of
carriage, that they were daily increasing his liabilities by twelve
cents, was no mitigation of their testimony. They were cloth and
morocco witnesses to the fact of his defection. Anthony had had
several hours of acute and startling panic.
In justification of his manner of living there was
first, of course, The Meaninglessness of Life. As aides and
ministers, pages and squires, butlers and lackeys to this great
Khan there were a thousand books glowing on his shelves, there was
his apartment and all the money that was to be his when the old man
up the river should choke on his last morality. From a world
fraught with the menace of débutantes and the stupidity of many
Geraldines he was thankfully delivered—rather should he emulate the
feline immobility of Maury and wear proudly the culminative wisdom
of the numbered generations.
Over and against these things was something which
his brain persistently analyzed and dealt with as a tiresome
complex but which, though logically disposed of and bravely
trampled under foot, had sent him out through the soft slush of
late November to a library which had none of the books he most
wanted. It is fair to analyze Anthony as far as he could analyze
himself; further than that it is, of course, presumption. He found
in himself a growing horror and loneliness. The idea of eating
alone frightened him; in preference he dined often with men he
detested. Travel, which had once charmed him, seemed, at length,
unendurable, a business of color without substance, a phantom chase
after his own dream’s shadow.
—If I am essentially weak, he thought, I need work
to do, work to do. It worried him to think that he was, after all,
a facile mediocrity, with neither the poise of Maury nor the
enthusiasm of Dick. It seemed a tragedy to want nothing—and yet he
wanted something, something. He knew in flashes what it was—some
path of hope to lead him toward what he thought was an imminent and
ominous old age.
After cocktails and luncheon at the University Club
Anthony felt better. He had run into two men from his class at
Harvard, and in contrast to the gray heaviness of their
conversation his life assumed color. Both of them were married: one
spent his coffee time in sketching an extra-nuptial adventure to
the bland and appreciative smiles of the other. Both of them, he
thought, were Mr. Gilberts in embryo; the number of their “yes’s”
would have to be quadrupled, their natures crabbed by twenty
years—then they would be no more than obsolete and broken machines,
pseudo-wise and valueless, nursed to an utter senility by the women
they had broken.
Ah, he was more than that, as he paced the long
carpet in the lounge after dinner, pausing at the window to look
into the harried street. He was Anthony Patch, brilliant, magnetic,
the heir of many years and many men. This was his world now—and
that last strong irony he craved lay in the offing.
With a stray boyishness he saw himself a power upon
the earth; with his grandfather’s money he might build his own
pedestal and be a Talleyrand,d a Lord
Verulam.e The
clarity of his mind, its sophistication, its versatile
intelligence, all at their maturity and dominated by some purpose
yet to be born would find him work to do. On this minor his dream
faded—work to do: he tried to imagine himself in Congress rooting
around in the litter of that incredible pigsty with the narrow and
porcine brows he saw pictured sometimes in the rotogravure sections
of the Sunday newspapers, those glorified proletarians babbling
blandly to the nation the ideas of high-school seniors! Little men
with copy-book ambitions who by mediocrity had thought to emerge
from mediocrity into the lustreless and unromantic heaven of a
government by the people—and the best, the dozen shrewd men at the
top, egotistic and cynical, were content to lead this choir of
white ties and wire collar-buttons in a discordant and amazing
hymn, compounded of a vague confusion between wealth as a reward of
virtue and wealth as a proof of vice, and continued cheers for God,
the Constitution, and the Rocky Mountains!
Lord Verulam! Talleyrand!
Back in his apartment the grayness returned. His
cocktails had died, making him sleepy, somewhat befogged and
inclined to be surly. Lord Verulam—he? The very thought was bitter.
Anthony Patch with no record of achievement, without courage,
without strength to be satisfied with truth when it was given him.
Oh, he was a pretentious fool, making careers out of cocktails and
meanwhile regretting, weakly and secretly, the collapse of an
insufficient and wretched idealism. He had garnished his soul in
the subtlest taste and now he longed for the old rubbish. He was
empty, it seemed, empty as an old bottle—
The buzzer rang at the door. Anthony sprang up and
lifted the tube to his ear. It was Richard Caramel’s voice, stilted
and facetious:
“Announcing Miss Gloria Gilbert.”
The Beautiful Lady
“How do you do?” he said, smiling and holding the
door ajar.
Dick bowed.
“Gloria, this is Anthony.”
“Well!” she cried, holding out a little gloved
hand.
Under her fur coat her dress was Alice-blue, with
white lace crinkled stiffly about her throat.
“Let me take your things.”
Anthony stretched out his arms and the brown mass
of fur tumbled into them.
“Thanks.”
“What do you think of her, Anthony?” Richard
Caramel demanded barbarously. “Isn’t she beautiful?”
“Well!” cried the girl defiantly—withal
unmoved.
She was dazzling—alight; it was agony to comprehend
her beauty in a glance. Her hair, full of a heavenly glamour, was
gay against the winter color of the room.
Anthony moved about, magician-like, turning the
mushroom lamp into an orange glory. The stirred fire burnished the
copper andirons on the hearth—
“I’m a solid block of ice,” murmured Gloria
casually, glancing around with eyes whose irises were of the most
delicate and transparent bluish white. “What a slick fire! We found
a place where you could stand on an iron-bar grating, sort of, and
it blew warm air up at you—but Dick wouldn’t wait there with me. I
told him to go on alone and let me be happy.”
Conventional enough this. She seemed talking for
her own pleasure, without effort. Anthony, sitting at one end of
the sofa, examined her profile against the foreground of the lamp:
the exquisite regularity of nose and upper lip, the chin, faintly
decided, balanced beautifully on a rather short neck. On a
photograph she must have been completely classical, almost cold—but
the glow of her hair and cheeks, at once flushed and fragile, made
her the most living person he had ever seen.
“... Think you’ve got the best name I’ve heard,”
she was saying, still apparently to herself; her glance rested on
him a moment and then flitted past him—to the Italian bracket-lamps
clinging like luminous yellow turtles at intervals along the walls,
to the books row upon row, then to her cousin on the other side.
“Anthony Patch. Only you ought to look sort of like a horse, with a
long narrow face—and you ought to be in tatters.”
“That’s all the Patch part, though. How should
Anthony look?”
“You look like Anthony,” she assured him
seriously—he thought she had scarcely seen him—“rather majestic,”
she continued, “and solemn.”
Anthony indulged in a disconcerted smile.
“Only I like alliterative names,” she went on, “all
except mine. Mine’s too flamboyant. I used to know two girls named
Jinks, though, and just think if they’d been named anything except
what they were named—Judy Jinks and Jerry Jinks. Cute, what? Don’t
you think?” Her childish mouth was parted, awaiting a
rejoinder.
“Everybody in the next generation,” suggested Dick,
“will be named Peter or Barbara—because at present all the piquant
literary characters are named Peter or Barbara.”
Anthony continued the prophecy:
“Of course Gladys and Eleanor, having graced the
last generation of heroines and being at present in their social
prime, will be passed on to the next generation of
shop-girls—”
“Displacing Ella and Stella,” interrupted
Dick.
“And Pearl and Jewel,” Gloria added cordially, “and
Earl and Elmer and Minnie.”
“And then I’ll come along,” remarked Dick, “and
picking up the obsolete name, Jewel, I’ll attach it to some quaint
and attractive character and it’ll start its career all over
again.”
Her voice took up the thread of subject and wove
along with faintly upturning, half-humorous intonations for
sentence ends—as though defying interruption—and intervals of
shadowy laughter. Dick had told her that Anthony’s man was named
Bounds—she thought that was wonderful! Dick had made some sad pun
about Bounds doing patchwork, but if there was one thing worse than
a pun, she said, it was a person who, as the inevitable come-back
to a pun, gave the perpetrator a mock-reproachful look.
“Where are you from?” inquired Anthony. He knew,
but beauty had rendered him thoughtless.
“Kansas City, Missouri.”
“They put her out the same time they barred
cigarettes.”
“Did they bar cigarettes? I see the hand of my holy
grandfather.”
“He’s a reformer or something, isn’t he?”
“I blush for him.”
“So do I,” she confessed. “I detest reformers,
especially the sort who try to reform me.”
“Are there many of those?”
“Dozens. It’s ‘Oh, Gloria, if you smoke so many
cigarettes you’ll lose your pretty complexion!’ and ‘Oh, Gloria,
why don’t you marry and settle down?”’
Anthony agreed emphatically while he wondered who
had had the temerity to speak thus to such a personage.
“And then,” she continued, “there are all the
subtle reformers who tell you the wild stories they’ve heard about
you and how they’ve been sticking up for you.”
He saw, at length, that her eyes were gray, very
level and cool, and when they rested on him he understood what
Maury had meant by saying she was very young and very old. She
talked always about herself as a very charming child might talk,
and her comments on her tastes and distastes were unaffected and
spontaneous.
“I must confess,” said Anthony gravely, “that even
I’ve heard one thing about you.”
Alert at once, she sat up straight. Those eyes,
with the grayness and eternity of a cliff of soft granite, caught
his.
“Tell me. I’ll believe it. I always believe
anything any one tells me about myself—don’t you?”
“Invariably!” agreed the two men in unison.
“Well, tell me.”
“I’m not sure that I ought to,” teased Anthony,
smiling unwillingly. She was so obviously interested, in a state of
almost laughable self-absorption.
“He means your nickname,” said her cousin.
“What name?” inquired Anthony, politely
puzzled.
Instantly she was shy—then she laughed, rolled back
against the cushions, and turned her eyes up as she spoke:
“Coast-to-Coast Gloria.” Her voice was full of
laughter, laughter undefined as the varying shadows playing between
fire and lamp upon her hair. “O Lord!”
Still Anthony was puzzled.
“What do you mean?”
“Me, I mean. That’s what some silly boys
coined for me.”
“Don’t you see, Anthony,” explained Dick,
“traveller of nationwide notoriety and all that. Isn’t that what
you’ve heard? She’s been called that for years—since she was
seventeen.”
Anthony’s eyes became sad and humorous.
“Who’s this female Methuselahf
you’ve brought in here, Caramel?”
She disregarded this, possibly rather resented it,
for she switched back to the main topic.
“What have you heard of me?”
“Something about your physique.”
“Oh,” she said, coolly disappointed, “that
all?”
“Your tan.”
“My tan?” She was puzzled. Her hand rose to her
throat, rested there an instant as though the fingers were feeling
variants of color.
“Do you remember Maury Noble? Man you met about a
month ago. You made a great impression.”
She thought a moment.
“I remember—but he didn’t call me up.”
“He was afraid to, I don’t doubt.”
It was black dark without now and Anthony wondered
that his apartment had ever seemed gray—so warm and friendly were
the books and pictures on the walls and the good Bounds offering
tea from a respectful shadow and the three nice people giving out
waves of interest and laughter back and forth across the happy
fire.
Dissatisfaction
On Thursday afternoon Gloria and Anthony had tea
together in the grill-room at the Plaza. Her fur-trimmed suit was
gray—“because with gray you have to wear a lot of paint,”
she explained—and a small toque sat rakishly on her head, allowing
yellow ripples of hair to wave out in jaunty glory. In the higher
light it seemed to Anthony that her personality was infinitely
softer—she seemed so young, scarcely eighteen; her form under the
tight sheath, known then as a hobble-skirt, was amazingly supple
and slender, and her hands, neither “artistic” nor stubby, were
small as a child’s hands should be.
As they entered, the orchestra were sounding the
preliminary whimpers to a maxixe, a tune full of castanets and
facile faintly languorous violin harmonies, appropriate to the
crowded winter grill teeming with an excited college crowd,
high-spirited at the approach of the holidays. Carefully, Gloria
considered several locations, and rather to Anthony’s annoyance
paraded him circuitously to a table for two at the far side of the
room. Reaching it she again considered. Would she sit on the right
or on the left? Her beautiful eyes and lips were very grave as she
made her choice, and Anthony thought again how naive was her every
gesture; she took all the things of life for hers to choose from
and apportion, as though she were continually picking out presents
for herself from an inexhaustible counter.
Abstractedly she watched the dancers for a few
moments, commenting murmurously as a couple eddied near.
“There’s a pretty girl in blue”—and as Anthony
looked obediently—“ there! No, behind you—there!”
“Yes,” he agreed helplessly.
“You didn’t see her.”
“I’d rather look at you.”
“I know, but she was pretty. Except that she had
big ankles.”
“Was she?—I mean, did she?” he said
indifferently.
A girl’s salutation came from a couple dancing
close to them.
“Hello, Gloria! O Gloria!”
“Hello there.”
“Who’s that?” he demanded.
“I don’t know. Somebody.” She caught sight of
another face. “Hello, Muriel!” Then to Anthony: “There’s Muriel
Kane. Now I think she’s attractive, ’cept not very.”
Anthony chuckled appreciatively.
“Attractive, ’cept not very,” he repeated.
She smiled—was interested immediately.
“Why is that funny?” Her tone was pathetically
intent.
“It just was.”
“Do you want to dance?”
“Do you?”
“Sort of. But let’s sit,” she decided.
“And talk about you? You love to talk about you,
don’t you?”
“Yes.” Caught in a vanity, she laughed.
“I imagine your autobiography would be a
classic.”
“Dick says I haven’t got one.”
“Dick!” he exclaimed. “What does he know about
you?”
“Nothing. But he says the biography of every woman
begins with the first kiss that counts, and ends when her last
child is laid in her arms.”
“He’s talking from his book.”
“He says unloved women have no biographies—they
have histories.”
Anthony laughed again.
“Surely you don’t claim to be unloved!”
“Well, I suppose not.”
“Then why haven’t you a biography? Haven’t you ever
had a kiss that counted?” As the words left his lips he drew in his
breath sharply as though to suck them back. This baby!
“I don’t know what you mean counts,’” she
objected.
“I wish you’d tell me how old you are.”
“Twenty-two,” she said, meeting his eyes gravely.
“How old did you think?”
“About eighteen.”
“I’m going to start being that. I don’t like being
twenty-two. I hate it more than anything in the world.”
“Being twenty-two?”
“No. Getting old and everything. Getting
married.”
“Don’t you ever want to marry?”
“I don’t want to have responsibility and a lot of
children to take care of.”
Evidently she did not doubt that on her lips all
things were good. He waited rather breathlessly for her next
remark, expecting it to follow up her last. She was smiling,
without amusement but pleasantly, and after an interval half a
dozen words fell into the space between them:
“I wish I had some gum-drops.”
“You shall!” He beckoned to a waiter and sent him
to the cigar counter.
“D’you mind? I love gum-drops. Everybody kids me
about it because I’m always whacking away at one—whenever my
daddy’s not around.”
“Not at all.—Who are all these children?” he asked
suddenly. “Do you know them all?”
“Why—no, but they’re from—oh, from everywhere, I
suppose. Don’t you ever come here?”
“Very seldom. I don’t care particularly for ‘nice
girls.’”
Immediately he had her attention. She turned a
definite shoulder to the dancers, relaxed in her chair, and
demanded:
“What do you do with yourself?”
Thanks to a cocktail Anthony welcomed the question.
In a mood to talk, he wanted, moreover, to impress this girl whose
interest seemed so tantalizingly elusive—she stopped to browse in
unexpected pastures, hurried quickly over the inobviously obvious.
He wanted to pose. He wanted to appear suddenly to her in novel and
heroic colors. He wanted to stir her from that casualness she
showed toward everything except herself.
“I do nothing,” he began, realizing simultaneously
that his words were to lack the debonair grace he craved for them.
“I do nothing, for there’s nothing I can do that’s worth
doing.”
“Well?” He had neither surprised her nor even held
her, yet she had certainly understood him, if indeed he had said
aught worth understanding.
“Don’t you approve of lazy men?”
She nodded.
“I suppose so, if they’re gracefully lazy. Is that
possible for an American?”
“Why not?” he demanded, discomfited.
But her mind had left the subject and wandered up
ten floors.
“My daddy’s mad at me,” she observed
dispassionately.
“Why? But I want to know just why it’s impossible
for an American to be gracefully idle”—his words gathered
conviction—“it astonishes me. It—it—I don’t understand why people
think that every young man ought to go down-town and work ten hours
a day for the best twenty years of his life at dull, unimaginative
work, certainly not altruistic work.”
He broke off. She watched him inscrutably. He
waited for her to agree or disagree, but she did neither.
“Don’t you ever form judgments on things?” he asked
with some exasperation.
She shook her head and her eyes wandered back to
the dancers as she answered:
“I don’t know. I don’t know anything about—what you
should do, or what anybody should do.”
She confused him and hindered the flow of his
ideas. Self-expression had never seemed at once so desirable and so
impossible.
“Well,” he admitted apologetically, “neither do I,
of course, but—”
“I just think of people,” she continued, “whether
they seem right where they are and fit into the picture. I don’t
mind if they don’t do anything. I don’t see why they should; in
fact it always astonishes me when anybody does anything.”
“You don’t want to do anything?”
“I want to sleep.”
For a second he was startled, almost as though she
had meant this literally.
“Sleep?”
“Sort of. I want to just be lazy and I want some of
the people around me to be doing things, because that makes me feel
comfortable and safe—and I want some of them to be doing nothing at
all, because they can be graceful and companionable for me. But I
never want to change people or get excited over them.”
“You’re a quaint little determinist,” laughed
Anthony. “It’s your world, isn’t it?”
“Well—” she said with a quick upward glance, “isn’t
it? As long as I’m—young.”
She had paused slightly before the last word and
Anthony suspected that she had started to say “beautiful.” It was
undeniably what she had intended.
Her eyes brightened and he waited for her to
enlarge on the theme. He had drawn her out, at any rate—he bent
forward slightly to catch the words.
But “Let’s dance!” was all she said.
Admiration
That winter afternoon at the Plaza was the first
of a succession of “dates” Anthony made with her in the blurred and
stimulating days before Christmas. Invariably she was busy. What
particular strata of the city’s social life claimed her he was a
long time finding out. It seemed to matter very little. She
attended the semi-public charity dances at the big hotels; he saw
her several times at dinner-parties in Sherry’s, and once as he
waited for her to dress, Mrs. Gilbert, apropos of her daughter’s
habit of “going,” rattled off an amazing holiday programme that
included half a dozen dances to which Anthony had received
cards.
He made engagements with her several times for
lunch and tea—the former were hurried and, to him at least, rather
unsatisfactory occasions, for she was sleepy-eyed and casual,
incapable of concentrating upon anything or of giving consecutive
attention to his remarks. When after two of these sallow meals he
accused her of tendering him the skin and bones of the day she
laughed and gave him a tea-time three days off. This was infinitely
more satisfactory.
One Sunday afternoon just before Christmas he
called up and found her in the lull directly after some important
but mysterious quarrel: she informed him in a tone of mingled wrath
and amusement that she had sent a man out of her apartment—here
Anthony speculated violently—and that the man had been giving a
little dinner for her that very night and that of course she wasn’t
going. So Anthony took her to supper.
“Let’s go to something!” she proposed as they went
down in the elevator. “I want to see a show, don’t you?”
Inquiry at the hotel ticket-desk disclosed only two
Sunday-night “concerts.”
“They’re always the same,” she complained
unhappily, “same old Yiddish comedians. Oh, let’s go
somewhere!”
To conceal a guilty suspicion that he should have
arranged a performance of some kind for her approval Anthony
affected a knowing cheerfulness.
“We’ll go to a good cabaret.”
“I’ve seen every one in town.”
“Well, we’ll find a new one.”
She was in wretched humor; that was evident. Her
gray eyes were granite now indeed. When she wasn’t speaking she
stared straight in front of her as if at some distasteful
abstraction in the lobby.
“Well, come on, then.”
He followed her, a graceful girl even in her
enveloping fur, out to a taxicab, and, with an air of having a
definite place in mind, instructed the driver to go over to
Broadway and then turn south. He made several casual attempts at
conversation but as she adopted an impenetrable armor of silence
and answered him in sentences as morose as the cold darkness of the
taxicab he gave up, and assuming a like mood fell into a dim
gloom.
A dozen blocks down Broadway Anthony’s eyes were
caught by a large and unfamiliar electric sign spelling “Marathon”
in glorious yellow script, adorned with electrical leaves and
flowers that alternately vanished and beamed upon the wet and
glistening street. He leaned and rapped on the taxi-window and in a
moment was receiving information from a colored door-man: Yes, this
was a cabaret. Fine cabaret. Bes’ showina city!
“Shall we try it?”
With a sigh Gloria tossed her cigarette out the
open door and prepared to follow it; then they had passed under the
screaming sign, under the wide portal, and up by a stuffy elevator
into this unsung palace of pleasure.
The gay habitats of the very rich and the very
poor, the very dashing and the very criminal, not to mention the
lately exploited very Bohemian, are made known to the awed
high-school girls of Augusta, Georgia, and Redwing, Minnesota, not
only through the bepictured and entrancing spreads of the Sunday
theatrical supplements but through the shocked and alarmful eyes of
Mr. Rupert Hughes and other chroniclers of the mad pace of America.
But the excursions of Harlem onto Broadway, the deviltries of the
dull and the revelries of the respectable are a matter of esoteric
knowledge only to the participants themselves.
A tip circulates—and in the place knowingly
mentioned, gather the lower moral-classes on Saturday and Sunday
nights—the little troubled men who are pictured in the comics as
“the Consumer” or “the Public.” They have made sure that the place
has three qualifications: it is cheap; it imitates with a sort of
shoddy and mechanical wistfulness the glittering antics of the
great cafés in the theatre district; and—this, above all,
important—it is a place where they can “take a nice girl,” which
means, of course, that every one has become equally harmless,
timid, and uninteresting through lack of money and
imagination.
There on Sunday nights gather the credulous,
sentimental, underpaid, overworked people with hyphenated
occupations: book-keepers, ticket-sellers, office-managers,
salesmen, and, most of all, clerks—clerks of the express, of the
mail, of the grocery, of the brokerage, of the bank. With them are
their giggling, over-gestured, pathetically pretentious women, who
grow fat with them, bear them too many babies, and float helpless
and uncontent in a colorless sea of drudgery and broken
hopes.
They name these brummagem cabarets after Pullman
cars. The “Marathon”! Not for them the salacious similes borrowed
from the cafés of Paris! This is where their docile patrons bring
their “nice women,” whose starved fancies are only too willing to
believe that the scene is comparatively gay and joyous, and even
faintly immoral. This is life! Who cares for the morrow?
Abandoned people!
Anthony and Gloria, seated, looked about them. At
the next table a party of four were in process of being joined by a
party of three, two men and a girl, who were evidently late—and the
manner of the girl was a study in national sociology. She was
meeting some new men—and she was pretending desperately. By gesture
she was pretending and by words and by the scarcely perceptible
motionings of her eyelids that she belonged to a class a little
superior to the class with which she now had to do, that a while
ago she had been, and presently would again be, in a higher, rarer
air. She was almost painfully refined—she wore a last year’s hat
covered with violets no more yearningly pretentious and palpably
artificial than herself.
Fascinated, Anthony and Gloria watched the girl sit
down and radiate the impression that she was only condescendingly
present. For me, her eyes said, this is practically a slumming
expedition, to be cloaked with belittling laughter and
semi-apologetics.
—And the other women passionately poured out the
impression that though they were in the crowd they were not of it.
This was not the sort of place to which they were accustomed; they
had dropped in because it was near by and convenient—every party in
the restaurant poured out that impression ... who knew? They were
forever changing class, all of them—the women often marrying above
their opportunities, the men striking suddenly a magnificent
opulence: a sufficiently preposterous advertising scheme, a
celestialized ice-cream cone. Meanwhile, they met here to eat,
closing their eyes to the economy displayed in infrequent changings
of table-cloths, in the casualness of the cabaret performers, most
of all in the colloquial carelessness and familiarity of the
waiters. One was sure that these waiters were not impressed by
their patrons. One expected that presently they would sit at the
tables....
“Do you object to this?” inquired Anthony.
Gloria’s face warmed and for the first time that
evening she smiled.
“I love it,” she said frankly. It was impossible to
doubt her. Her gray eyes roved here and there, drowsing, idle or
alert, on each group, passing to the next with unconcealed
enjoyment, and to Anthony were made plain the different values of
her profile, the wonderfully alive expressions of her mouth, and
the authentic distinction of face and form and manner that made her
like a single flower amidst a collection of cheap bric-à-brac. At
her happiness, a gorgeous sentiment welled into his eyes, choked
him up, set his nerves a-tingle, and filled his throat with husky
and vibrant emotion. There was a hush upon the room. The careless
violins and saxophones, the shrill rasping complaint of a child
near by, the voice of the violet-hatted girl at the next table, all
moved slowly out, receded, and fell away like shadowy reflections
on the shining floor—and they two, it seemed to him, were alone and
infinitely remote, quiet. Surely the freshness of her cheeks was a
gossamer projection from a land of delicate and undiscovered
shades; her hand gleaming on the stained table-cloth was a shell
from some far and wildly virginal sea....
Then the illusion snapped like a nest of threads;
the room grouped itself around him, voices, faces, movement; the
garish shimmer of the lights overhead became real, became
portentous; breath began, the slow respiration that she and he took
in time with this docile hundred, the rise and fall of bosoms, the
eternal meaningless play and interplay and tossing and reiterating
of word and phrase—all these wrenched his senses open to the
suffocating pressure of life—and then her voice came at him, cool
as the suspended dream he had left behind.
“I belong here,” she murmured, “I’m like these
people.”
For an instant this seemed a sardonic and
unnecessary paradox hurled at him across the impassable distances
she created about herself. Her entrancement had increased—her eyes
rested upon a Semitic violinist who swayed his shoulders to the
rhythm of the year’s mellowest fox-trot:
“Something—goes
Ring-a-ting-a-ling-a-ling
Right in-your ear—”
Ring-a-ting-a-ling-a-ling
Right in-your ear—”
Again she spoke, from the centre of this pervasive
illusion of her own. It amazed him. It was like blasphemy from the
mouth of a child.
“I’m like they are—like Japanese lanterns and crape
paper, and the music of that orchestra.”
“You’re a young idiot!” he insisted wildly.
She shook her blond head.
“No, I’m not. I am like them.... You ought
to see.... You don’t know me.” She hesitated and her eyes came back
to him, rested abruptly on his, as though surprised at the last to
see him there. “I’ve got a streak of what you’d call cheapness. I
don’t know where I get it but it’s—oh, things like this and bright
colors and gaudy vulgarity. I seem to belong here. These people
could appreciate me and take me for granted, and these men would
fall in love with me and admire me, whereas the clever men I meet
would just analyze me and tell me I’m this because of this or that
because of that.”
—Anthony for the moment wanted fiercely to paint
her, to set her down now, as she was, as, as with each
relentless second she could never be again.
“What were you thinking?” she asked.
“Just that I’m not a realist,” he said, and then:
“No, only the romanticist preserves the things worth
preserving.”
Out of the deep sophistication of Anthony an
understanding formed, nothing atavistic or obscure, indeed scarcely
physical at all, an understanding remembered from the romancings of
many generations of minds that as she talked and caught his eyes
and turned her lovely head, she moved him as he had never been
moved before. The sheath that held her soul had assumed
significance—that was all. She was a sun, radiant, growing,
gathering light and storing it—then after an eternity pouring it
forth in a glance, the fragment of a sentence, to that part of him
that cherished all beauty and all illusion.