Chapter 16
Decision made, Shadowman settled into a defensive wait. The angels prepared to strike, but they could not harm him. The gate would stand, no matter the cost.
kat-a-kat-a-kat-a-kat: So we’ll be friends, you and I.
Hardly.
Custo groaned, trouble pouring out of him. The angels’ minds were open to each other. The boy had to know their strategy.
“You need not betray them,” Shadowman said. “I know how they will approach. I have presided over many battles over the ages.”
“And you call me a mind reader,” Custo said, the unease abating a fraction.
“I’d imagine emotion is often more telling.”
The angels would attempt a divide and conquer: a contingent to busy Custo, a larger one to busy him, and a third to attack the gate. It would not work.
A long moment of silence, and then, as if on silent cue, the host attacked.
Shadowman thrust a wall of pitch between him and the gate, and the fast-approaching angels were flung back, bodies skipping on the hard floor of the cave.
Ballard lunged, wielding a blade, Heavenly in origin, so it seared as it sliced, but Death reformed just as quickly, unscathed. Ballard would have to do much better than that. Shadowman hit him, heard the snap of his spine, felt the shock of pain, as the angel flew back. At least the spine would take longer to heal.
A jut of Shadow and the angel grabbing for the hammer flew to the side, taking two more with him. Another burn, quick to heal. A spin, a dart, a thrust of darkness and none were near enough to touch him.
More would come.
Custo held off four of his own kind with no weapon, though the wounds he took soaked his shirt. Sweat and dirt streaked his face, but still he moved and struck with grace and force.
Darkness whipped around the cave in a frenzy. Shadowman cast his mind out once again to harness the storm as it swirled around him.
But . . . the hurricane of pitch did not obey.
He tried again and was instead barraged by cave dust and wetness, singeing his skin. Always in the presence of angels he felt a burn, but he hadn’t expected Shadow to go astray.
Well, then.
With his fist he knocked an angel back from the gate. A blow like that should have sent the angel to the far depths of the cave, but he only fell a few paces. And rose to try again.
Something was wrong.
Shadowman took position in front of Hell. Kicked the angel back again. But the burn on Death’s skin had grown to a maddening inferno, sending needles of fire deep into his muscles and igniting his bones. Within him, he sensed the rush and pull of Earth, relentless in its reckoning, rapturous in its claim.
His mind was ablaze. His vision blurred with echoes of movement. The pain brought him to his knees, and he screamed his agony, the sound reverberating through the cave.
“The wrath of God is upon Death!” Ballard cried. He darted forward with his silver blade to strike.
Shadowman reeled as Ballard slashed through the air. Felt a strange sizzle. Glanced down. Marveled as blood dripped from a slice across his chest.
Blood.
How? Death could not bleed.
Ballard whirled, kicking Death back against the gate. Shadowman heard a skull crack, but it took a moment for him to realize that it was his head that made the sound. A sharp taste was in his mouth, and the smell and texture told him it was blood. Again.
His blood.
Shadow made no effort to restore him. It lifted away like a blanket of mist, leaving him naked and so cold on the silt of the cave floor.
Ballard leaped into the air, the dagger poised to plunge into Death’s heart.
Shadowman raised a defensive arm and wondered again at the flesh of his body. He didn’t fear the dagger, couldn’t in his utter confusion. He knew in the abstract that the dagger meant death, but he was Death, so it made no sense.
And then Ballard was knocked out of the air by a boot to his gut and dropped like a stone.
“Look at him!” Custo yelled.
Look at whom? Shadowman shook with chill and dampness. Put fingers to the red on his chest. Lifted his hand to his eyes, as if he’d never seen spilled blood before.
“He’s mortal!” Custo announced.
“Who is mortal?”
Custo glanced over, pity in his eyes. “Oh, fucking hell. You are.”
Shadowman used the gate to climb to standing. His knees buckled and he slid right back down again. This must be gravity. Earth’s breast smelled mineral sweet.
kat-a-kat-a-kat-a-kat: Open me quick before they cut you down. They will use your weakness to destroy Layla.
“But he’s fae,” Ballard argued, standing.
“I am fae,” Death agreed. For once Ballard was right. Most other times the angel was too much of a zealot to think through what came out of his mouth. Passion alone should not put a man in a position of authority.
Ballard lowered his weapon, a look of consternation on his face.
kat-a-kat-a-kat-a-kat: Time is running out.
“Yes,” Custo said. “Can’t we take a moment to think?”
Shadowman squinted as Ballard pointed an accusing finger in his direction, but he could not get a sense of Ballard’s emotion. Dozens of mortals were in this cavern, yet it felt empty.
“This changes nothing,” Ballard said.
“Death, a fae, is now a man,” Custo returned. “This changes everything.”
A man. The word made Death’s heart beat faster, a breathless marvel in itself.
He couldn’t wait to show Layla. She would mock him mercilessly, and they both would enjoy every moment of it.
Ballard shook his head. “There is still a gate to Hell right there.”
kat-a-kat-a-kat-a-kat: Here they come.
Of all times, Shadowman needed strength now, yet he was as naked and clumsy as a newborn foal. Next to him on the ground was the hammer. He reached for it with little hope and was incredulous as his hand closed easily, so very easily, around its shaft. He tried again to stand. Braced his legs apart.
No one would get near the gate while he lived.
kat-a-kat-a-kat-a-kat: Hurry! They will rip us both apart.
“Perhaps he was delivered to us in the flesh so that he might be killed,” Ballard said.
The gathered host murmured, considering this suggestion.
“At the very least, this bears new discussion, Ballard,” one of the host said. “He can’t even stand.”
Shadowman had thought the cave was moving, but he guessed it must be him.
“Look at his chest,” said another.
Shadowman glanced down at the long slice of his wound. The blood had gone tacky, crusting at the edges. He touched the parted skin, which, yes, did not seem as raw as it had a moment ago.
“Holy shit. He’s healing,” Custo said. “Does that make him one of us?”
“No,” Ballard said, his eyes narrowing.
“But he just fell to Earth. That has to mean—”
Shadowman startled at a noise in the mouth of the cavern. All heads turned toward the opening. A scrabble of dirt. A knock of a fallen rock. An unfamiliar man descended, but Shadowman couldn’t tell anymore if the person was angel or human.
“Keep it together,” Custo said to him, pitched low for warning.
The newcomer had to be an angel, then, and conversing telepathically with the others.
“What? What’s happened?” Shadowman questioned.
“Apparently, Adam’s been trying to get us a message.”
Shadowman shivered under a wash of cold sweat. “Tell me.”
“Do you know Abigail?”
“The oracle?”
Custo blinked. “Okay, whatever. Apparently Shadow overcame Segue to claim her.”
“Her talent was great.” So great it had ruined her youth and aged her body prematurely. Her sister had been holding on to her with everything she had, to no avail. If Abigail wouldn’t pass into Shadow, then yes, Shadow would come to claim such a one as her. He was glad Layla wasn’t filled with Shadow, or she, too, would eventually be overtaken.
“Well, Shadow got her sister, Zoe, a few members of the Segue staff, and . . .”
Shadowman closed his eyes to stop the name from dropping from Custo’s lips.
It dropped anyway. “. . . and Layla, too.”
 
 
Layla went reeling into a tree as Scissor Lady released her grasp. The wood gashed her lip, and she held on to the harsh throb to keep her mind sharp. It was too easy to lose it here. The endlessness of the forest, the whispers of magic, all of it conspired to confuse and mislead.
“I don’t believe you,” Layla said. Shadowman couldn’t be gone. Death was eternal. He was a constant in the great scheme of existence. Necessary. That was the whole reason why she’d been born a second time, to convince him to do his job or the three worlds and everyone within them would be in jeopardy. For that great purpose she’d given up both him and Talia. A family. Her life. Shadowman couldn’t be gone.
And yet she’d seen Zoe change in front of her eyes. Handle Death’s scythe when she couldn’t. Where was Zoe now? Was she still fighting off opportunistic fae? Hell, all fae were opportunistic.
“It doesn’t matter if you believe me, does it?” Scissor Lady gave a sparkling smile.
Layla threw back her shoulders. She’d faced a devil. She’d faced a ghost. She could handle one measly fae.
“So much temper,” Scissor Lady said. “No wonder Death liked you. I like you, too.”
The feeling wasn’t mutual.
“You know, many have tried to thwart Fate through the ages. But like Death, Fate always catches up with you.”
She must be talking about the doomed-to-die thing. “I’m still here, aren’t I?”
“You’ve reached the end. I think you know that.”
The end, yes. Her mission was at an end, and so was this life. Twenty-eight years of loneliness, and then Shadowman and Talia. Was it worth it? Yes, a hundred times over. Was it worth this final capture by some vain fae? Yes, though she’d bet good money the worst was yet to come.
Layla sought deep inside for the core of her will: the endurance of Kathleen. She’d need that now where she’d mocked it before. It was rooted in her connection to Talia and Shadowman, wherever he was. They were everything she’d ever needed and so much more.
The only thing left to do was fight, though she had no hope whatsoever of survival.
“I cut the thread of your life myself.” Scissor Lady raised a brow, as if to coax Layla to some kind of realization.
“You cut . . .” Layla looked at the scissors again.
Oh, crap. This was bad.
Out of Scissor Lady’s body, another woman stepped with engorged, exposed breasts leaking milk. She held a spindle in her hands, shining threads wound about her like spider’s silk. “Layla Mathews née Kathleen Marie O’Brien. I spun your life.”
And this was where bad met worse.
“I measured the twenty-eight years of your life.” A third woman, an old woman, leaned out the other side, a rod in her hand. Her hair was a soft patchwork of cobwebs. Wrinkled and bowed, her hands gnarled with age, she seemed the weakest of the three. Until Layla got a load of the Shadow in her eyes.
Maid, mother, crone. And of the three, Scissor Lady was the leader.
This wasn’t any old fae Layla faced. This was the bitch of them all. “You’re Fate.” What had Shadowman called her? “Moira.”
“When I say your life is over,” Scissor Lady said, “then your life is over. Shall I show you the ragged end?”
“No.” Layla didn’t want to see it.
“Or would you like to crawl under my skirt?” Scissor Lady swept up the material. “You can bide here as long as you like.”
It did look inviting. A dark, close space where she could hide.
The three women circled around her like witchy forest nymphs. At first their feet kicked up tree leaves, the colors dream bright, even in bits. Then they kicked up gray ash.
Smell went utterly dead. The air, cold.
Layla trembled but slowly lifted her gaze and found the treescape transformed into the black-and-white emptiness of Death’s heart. The skeleton trees branched like great, ominous cracks in the universe. The ground was a snow of dust. Even the fae women paled, the color contrasts broadening, delineating into the nulls of dark and light.
This was a vast sepulcher for the soul, once Shadowman’s, now hers.
“You want Shadowman?” Scissor Lady asked. “Well, here he is.”
No, this was the part of himself he’d wanted to cast away. With him gone—dead?—this was all that was left.
The brightness filled her eyes and parched her skin like sunburn. She could feel the place leaching from her the memory of color, the stuff of her dreams.
The Fates circled, buzzards awaiting the break of her mind.
Not going to happen.
Layla charged Moira, feet digging into the powder and lifting great billows into the air.
Bring the bitch down like a wraith. Grab for the scissors. Stab.
Her footfalls lifted huge clouds of lazy ash, obscuring the way. And when they thinned, the witch was suddenly on the other side of her, never changing the pace of her stride around her prey.
Layla coughed, choking on the powder.
A wasted effort. Blind violence would accomplish nothing. They were playing with her.
Layla shielded her eyes from the glare of the white. If she could just have a little darkness, maybe she could puzzle this out. A little warmth and her blood might reenergize her nerve.
“It’s dark here under my skirt,” Moira called. “Warm, too.”
No, thanks. Layla pulled her hands away from her face and lifted her chin. Last thing she wanted was to find herself under there.
“You might last a little longer.”
Lie.
“You’re fading already.” The three laughed.
“No. I’m still here.” She pushed her shoulders back to prove it.
Moira tilted her head in pity. “You don’t even know your name.”
Layla blinked stupidly. Wracked her brain. Her heart stalled.
Moira was right. She had no idea.
 
 
Shadowman sat in the passenger side of a vehicle, a “Hummer” some angel had called it. The driver said he was going as fast as he could, but Shadowman could still count every tree, dried leaf, and scrag of grass, or so it seemed.
This was powerlessness. Acute, miserable, an agony of utter dependence.
Climbing out of the cave had been a blur of hitching breath and clumsy, bleeding feet. At the mouth, clothes were waiting, though he didn’t care if he went naked. He needed to get to Segue. He should have been there already, but Shadow would not obey him.
Mortal? Inconceivable.
He growled his impatience, but it did nothing to hurry their progress down the road.
He’d had to rely on Custo to hunt through Twilight for Layla. Custo. An angel. With his fae blood, he might do better than others of The Order, might be able to use his hunter’s nose to scent her, but Shadowman had little hope. Twilight was trees upon dark trees unto Forever, and then still more. Not even he had covered all that ground, because it had no end.
Layla must be mad by now, her mind trapped in nightmare. He could only hope—and what a weak power it was—that no fae had discovered her. If so, finding her would be impossible. Even the lowliest of the fae were cunning deceivers.
“Hang tight, we’re there,” the driver said, slowing to a stop in front of the white sweep of Segue’s main entrance.
Shadowman fought the door to get it open, ended up smacking it with his forearm to blow the thing clear off the vehicle. He cast his gaze around the edifice seeking Shadow, and finding none, he tripped going up the stairs for his lack of care. As far as he could see, the only Shadows on the building were the pale, stretched blotches of the coming break of day.
The door burst open and Adam jogged down to greet him. Shadowman watched Adam’s gaze travel the length of his new human body. His expression was stressed with concern.
“It’s true, then. You’re mortal.”
“Where’s Layla?” Shadowman scarcely knew his own voice. Everything an effort, the littlest combination of breath and throat and tongue delayed his finding her.
“I’m so sorry,” Adam said. If Adam felt sorry, Shadowman couldn’t sense it, and so the claim felt empty. “When the Shadow came over Segue, she went to help Zoe with Abigail.”
The heat of anger that rolled over Shadowman’s skin made him sway. “You said you’d protect her.”
“I had to get Talia and the children out,” Adam explained. “Layla said you’d come for her. How could I have known you’d become mortal? I didn’t even know such a thing was possible.”
Shadowman pushed Adam aside and continued up the stairs. The boy was useless. “Where is my daughter? Where is Talia?”
“She’s in an outbuilding. This place is too dangerous for her.”
“Get her, then. And you watch the children.”
“Don’t talk to him that way,” Talia said from above them, a babe on each hip. She looked to her husband, shrugging. “I came in the back. I think the worst is over.”
“Be still your tongue!” If the worst were over, then Layla was lost. And the bitter, bitter irony was he’d do anything right now to grip his scythe. To hear its keen and answer it with a roar of his own. He’d bear the endless millennia as Death to see her safely through Shadow to the gates of Heaven. Becoming the Reaper again would be such a small price to pay to preserve her spirit. He should have listened to her when he had the chance. Now they were both lost.
Talia pressed her lips together for a moment. “What do you need?”
Shadowman reached the top of the stairs. “I need a wraith and then I need you to scream like you have never screamed before.”
They congregated again below the earth in the prison Adam had dedicated to the wraiths, where Death had revealed himself to Layla, and she had known the purpose to her second life on Earth. The angels they left aboveground, so as not to compete with Talia’s call to Shadow. Talia’s children were below as well, in a stroller for convenience. That Talia and Adam would permit them in this stinking grave spoke of their own concern for Layla. If this didn’t work . . . If he couldn’t cross . . .
At least, for all the devil’s games, she had not set the wraiths free.
Two guards and some sort of mechanical arm conveyed a wraith to a movable slab. Binding metal bands restrained each of its limbs and a doubled cage crossed its torso. The creature writhed until blood dripped down the silver, so it must have known its death was coming.
“Scream,” commanded Shadowman, looking over at his daughter.
He could tell Talia’s thoughts were turned inward, focused on Layla no doubt, and summoning the required intensity of feeling for the task before her. Please, child, draw deep. She took a long breath and then shredded the veil with a shriek, a command, a misery, her arms lifting to her sides, fingers splayed with effort. The sound was a wail of her own pain, a lifetime of loss in the making, a hope found, then demolished. The feeling battered the room with its intensity and set the wraith shrieking with her.
And indeed, darkness swirled in a vortex of magic, a storm of great reckoning to call upon Death. The sound shook his mortal body, atom upon atom quailing, which didn’t bode well.
Shadowman dived into the terrible center. Flung himself across the divide between the worlds. But only ended up a few paces from where he’d stood a moment before.
The wraith made muffled sounds of laughter, then cut off suddenly, its eyes wide with fear.
From the depths, the moon scythe gleamed. And soon a figure emerged, a girl, Zoe. The sister to the great one. Her gaze now had the black depth of Shadow, her skin the queer shine of the fae. She gripped his weapon, and when she took in the scene, her face contorted.
“Oh, fuck no,” she said, eyeing Talia, whose scream ended abruptly. “Ain’t no way I’m coming when she calls.”
“Give me the scythe.” Shadowman held out his hand.
“Finders keepers.” But true to her nature, Zoe said one thing and did the opposite, handing over the weapon with a bored jerk.
He took the scythe and rolled the wood of the staff between his palms. Its texture and heft had always been second nature to him, yet it felt unfamiliar now. Too slim and light, the magic absent in his hands. A weak sensation pooled in his belly, dread, and stole what little strength he had.
He closed his eyes to be surrounded with his familiar dark. “Can you give me the power to wield it as well?”
“And how do you propose I do that?” The girl, the new Death, dripped sarcasm.
Shadowman opened his eyes again and handed the scythe back. His head pounded with the simple action. He’d denied the blade too long. It had cried for him from Twilight, begging to be lifted, and now when he needed it most, the thing had abandoned him.
“Do you know what happened to Layla?” Asking this chit for news of such import tightened his skin unbearably. He’d have shrugged out of his new flesh if he could have, but it clung to him, gloved him.
“She tried to help us,” Zoe said, her tone barbed. “She thought you would come. She screamed for you, but obviously you weren’t listening.”
Layla had called his name. She’d needed him.
“What happened?” he snapped.
Zoe’s expression finally mellowed to pity. “There were three fae. The one with the scissors dragged her away.”
“Moira.” Shadowman staggered. His mortal legs would not hold him.
“Who?” Adam asked, reaching out an arm to steady him.
“Fate,” Shadowman clarified. “Fate has her claws in Layla.”
The worst had happened.
Adam turned to Zoe. “Seems you’ve got his power now. Look for her, will you? Custo is already there. The Order may send more angels as well, but they won’t value her soul over any other’s, so they may not be much help.”
No help at all.
“Layla will be under Moira’s skirt,” Shadowman said. As if Zoe would ever be able to locate Fate, much less bid the witch to lift her dress. “And she will be gone to madness, her soul light dimming.”
He’d brought this upon her. Cursed her and trapped himself in mortal impotence. This was why she had come back to life, to prevent this very thing from happening. He’d been a fool, vain in his power.
“Layla will be under Fate’s skirt,” Zoe repeated, as if the combination of words made no sense to her. Then with false brightness, “Alrighty.”
Death’s scythe swung out, and the wraith’s head was severed, its body sagging into gore.
As Zoe evaporated into the void, Talia’s black-eyed child reached a chubby hand after young Death.
“I’m getting them out of here,” Talia said and wheeled the stroller down the hallway toward the elevator.
Shadowman made to follow, his mind rapidly sorting all the places on Earth where the veil might be thin. Kathleen’s paintings would not work, if this attempt at Shadow hadn’t. But, water had always been a medium of transfer. Fire, too. Emersion or immolation. Or . . .
Adam fell into step next to him. “Listen, I know you’ve got no love for the angels, but they’re an undeniable power that is at least somewhat accessible to us. I suggest you go to their headquarters, where information is more readily available. Maybe they can figure out what happened to you and give you some idea of how to reverse it.”
“They will not treat with me,” Shadowman said, boarding the elevator that would raise them to the surface. The angels had defied him at every turn, and as a mortal, he lacked the power now to force their compliance. They might even cut him down, if Ballard had his way. Shadowman had to try something else. A Diné ceremonial sandpainting, perhaps. Though that, too, would take so much time.
“I bet they will,” Adam returned. “Word is you might just be one of them.”
There was no way he was a mortal angel. The idea was preposterous.
“Try Luca, Custo’s uncle. He’s a little more reasonable. I’m sure he’ll help in whatever way he can. And, they have their own access to Shadow.”
Shadow.
“How do I get there?” New York City, the nearest locus of The Order’s power, was miles away. “The last vehicle went so slow.”
Adam pulled half a smile. “I think I can move you quite a bit faster than that Hummer.”
“Oh, no,” Talia said, as they stepped out into the sunlight. “Here he goes.”
Adam put a phone to his ear. “Kev, I’m going to need the Sikorsky five minutes ago.” He paused, then answered, “Make him as comfortable as you can. I’ll be there to speak with him shortly.”
Talia rounded on her husband. “What now?”
“One Mr. Mickey Petty just arrived at the compound.” Adam turned to Shadowman. “Don’t worry about the devil. I’ll draw Rose out with her husband and end one bit of this nightmare. That bitch took out fifteen of my men. I mean to see her put down.”
Layla would want the devil dealt with, Talia and the family safe.
Shadowman gave a tight nod of assent. He should have stamped the devil out when he had the chance. Another mistake.
At least . . . and how strange . . . he wasn’t alone in this. Adam must experience the same weakness and humility of the flesh, and yet, he fought even harder. Talia, just as strong, defended her children. The mean tip to her eyes said she was prepared for more.
What about Layla? Solitary. Forsaken. Facing the worst of the threats upon this family.
A racket sounded in the distance, and suddenly a helicopter burst over the trees. The white body was long, slim, like a dolphin, with twin-mounted rotors up top instead of one. It lowered a short distance away, and Talia used her body to shield the babies from the cold winter gusts it kicked up. Yes, this would go much faster than the box that had delivered him to Segue.
This morning he’d been on the verge of war with the angels. Now he would throw himself on their mercy.