21
Pedro blew up my cellular less than an hour later.
It was close to sunrise. The sexual earthquake that had been over
my head had finally slowed down. Panther was on her cellular, the
burner between her legs like she was on watch, talking to one of
her friends.
Pedro told me, “Got that information for
you.”
I fought the heaviness in my eyes. “What you find
out?”
Pedro’s sister worked at the Department of Motor
Vehicles. I’d memorized the plates on the Expedition the lion and
jackal had been in, passed the info on to Pedro yesterday
afternoon.
He said, “The vehicle is registered to somebody who
stays in L.A. County.”
“Local talent.”
“Looks that way.”
I gave him an update, told him what they had done
to Panther’s apartment.
I asked, “You feel like taking me for a drive in
that expensive Hyundai? Want to see how this talent lives. Might
have a conversation or two and you could help me do some
talking.”
“Me and my baseball bat could use some fun, but man
I got the kids.”
“Where’s the wife?”
“In jail.”
“Jail? What the fuck did Marissa do?”
“Things got outta hand on the picket line. They
locked strikers up, civil disobedience.”
“You serious?”
“I’m proud of Marissa. I really am. The kids
understand. They’re proud too.”
“Tell Marissa I said the same. Proud of her. But I
gotta handle my situation over here.”
He gave me the address. Had to hold my anger at
bay. Wanted to go out and hunt them down, but now wasn’t the time.
Didn’t want Panther involved any more than she already was.
But she was getting up, putting on her damp
clothes. She’d bur glarized her way into my conversation with
Pedro. She picked up her gun, put it in her bag. Grabbed her
shoes.
My cellular beeped. Arizona’s number came up on
caller-ID.
I let Pedro go, clicked over. Arizona came on the
line and told me the pickpocket was gone for the night, her needs
sent her out on a booty call. She invited me over for the same
lesson in sexual healing. I paused, glanced at Panther, told
Arizona I’d see her tomorrow.
She said, “Occupied?”
I licked my lips, rubbed my eyes. “Tired.”
“I’m really horny. Really want to hook up with you.
I’m laying here with the lights off. Touching myself. Would be nice
to have you inside of me right now. Getting it from the
back.”
Her tone was so damn sensual. Saw her naked in my
mind, the way she had been with me a few hours ago, that
honey-brown skin, long hair and Filipina features, standing on her
tiptoes, turning a slow three-sixty. Remembered how she had kissed
me. Tasted her tongue.
My eyes went back to Panther, then down to the
floor. Exhaled. Didn’t want to burn no bridges on either side of
the phone line, not before I had my business squared away with
Lisa.
Arizona said, “I could come to you.”
I kept my voice stiff and distant. “Next
time.”
“Just thought I’d give you first right of
refusal.”
“Thanks.”
She laughed. “Get your rest. See you tomorrow. I’m
depending on you.”
I hung up. Stared at my cellular phone to keep from
facing Panther. My cellular had zero bars across the top and the
LOW BATTERY message was flashing its warning. My cellular was a
minute from becoming as useful as a paperweight.
She said, “Whassup?”
“Battery needs to get charged.”
I got the charger and searched for an outlet,
ending up facing Panther. She looked at me with jealous eyes but
didn’t say anything. That last call left me in a fucked-up
situation. Panther had been supportive and vulnerable. For a moment
I saw that look in her eye, the one a woman gets when she wants to
know who else was sucking your dick.
I put my cellular on its charger.
She said, “Ready?”
I suited up, grabbed my two guns. Fitted the .380
in the leg strap, the .357 in the shoulder holster. Was nervous.
Not about the mission, but about Lisa tracking us. About the
police.
I told Panther, “Leave the burners.”
“Are you crazy?”
I took my hardware out, undid the leg strap and
shoulder harness. “If the po-po stops us again, they might search
your ride next time.”
“Why didn’t they search us then?”
“Think we just got lucky.”
She hesitated, then made a face, handed me her
burner. I tucked all three in a drawer.
Outside, I spent a few minutes going over Panther’s
ride. Popped the hood. Looked underneath. Men and women came out
while we were in the lot. Playtime was over for the working man.
Back home to the family. I searched high and low. Couldn’t find a
tracker.
The address Pedro gave me was twenty minutes away,
up Crenshaw to MLK Jr. Boulevard, then west to Coliseum Boulevard.
We sat there staring at an empty lot.
She said, “This can’t be right. This used to be a
small church.”
“Give me your phone.”
I called Pedro. Verified the address. I hung up,
gave her the cellular back.
I agreed with Panther, said, “This ain’t
right.”
I looked around at the fading darkness and
streetlights. We were in The Jungle, where Denzel Washington had
filmed Training Day. Smelled some ganja in the air.
Second-rate apartments lined the area, but on this one corner,
nothing but potholes and an empty lot. Cars passed by. Nobody
slowed down, nobody shot at us. No police rolled up on us.
I asked, “You sure this was a church?”
“Yeah. I know this area. I go to church right up
the street by Baldwin Hills Mall.”
“Where?”
“Maranatha. By the swap meet.”
“You go to church?”
“Of course I go to church.”
I had a bad feeling. Thought about calling my
brother. Panther handed me her phone again. I called my cellular
number, checked my messages. Nobody had called.
She said, “We better get back.”
“Yeah.”
“Try to get some of that oomph ... oomph ...”
“Omphaloskepsis.”
“Yeah. Get some of that.”
I closed my eyes. No sleep for the weary.
“Driver, I know this is a bad time, but this is
what I feel.”
“Panther, do we have to do this now?”
“We have to do this now.”
“Save it.”
“I have to be straight up. I’m not seeing or
sleeping with anybody else. If you don’t feel the same way, just
let me know. I’ll still be cool with you. I just have to
know.”
I didn’t open my eyes. “What do you want from me,
Panther?”
“Respect.” She didn’t raise her voice, just said
that in a level tone. “That’s all. I’m not trying to marry you or
trap you. I like you and I care about you. I’m trying to get to
know you. Maybe spend some time with you. That’s all I’m doing. All
I want is respect.”
She took to the street, Speed Racer with breasts
and an ass that wouldn’t quit, and hurried us toward our wonderful
accommodations on the gritty side of our second-rate Sin
City.
I didn’t say anything else while she rode back down
Crenshaw, not for a couple of minutes. In my silence, I wished I
had a shot of JD. Didn’t have any but I saw that liquid lover in my
mind, its color as beautiful as a memory gone by.
I said, “Marriage is overrated.”
She repeated, “Marriage is overrated? Where did
that come from?”
My mind moved from my ex-wife to Lisa. On my bitter
channel, Lisa was the clearest, had the best reception and
focus.
I said, “Was married once. Ever tell you
that?”
“No. Divorced?”
“Yeah, I’m divorced.”
Don’t know why I chose to talk about that. Fear was
rising up inside me. When a man was scared he had to talk about
something, anything, even if it was driftwood.
Then she simply asked, “What happened?”
“I went to jail.” I smiled. “She felt like I chose
my brother over her.”
I told her that my brother used to have a drug
problem. My wife and I were heading to her hometown in Tallapoosa
County. We were taking our Explorer on a cross-country trip. Part
of the reason I planned the trip was because of Rufus. A cousin
knew about a good rehab program for Rufus to get in down in
Memphis. We’d crossed into Shelby County when we were pulled over.
My wife was sleeping. Rufus was in the backseat. He jumped nervous.
Saw it in his pale eyes. Dogs went apeshit before they made it to
the Explorer. Rufus was breaking down. A hundred pounds of
marijuana and a shitload of cash were in his footlocker. The police
dragged my wife out of our SUV. Left her handcuffed and sitting on
the curb, sweating, crying, screaming, confused, her yellow and
blue sundress blowing in the summer breeze. Shit went down faster
than I could think. They were on me like they owned me. Always
after the big black man. I started yelling that everything was
mine, just knew I had to protect my brother.
Panther sounded surprised. “You went to jail for
your brother?”
“Did two years.”
“And your wife didn’t stand by you?”
Right then I remembered Memphis, being on the Gray
Goose, shackled, trying to stay awake so I could take in all the
sights because it was the last thing I was going to see for
years.
I said, “She never accepted a phone call. I wrote
her a six-page letter. Poured my heart out. She never wrote back.
Never came to see me.”
My hands closed tight, tried to strangle that
memory.
Blood was thicker than platinum, but handcuffs were
even thicker.
I’d do it again. I’d go to jail hundred times a
hundred for Rufus if I had to.
“That’s horrible.” Panther’s voice finally came to
me. “You two have kids?”
“Yeah. No. I mean, had a stepson.”
“How old?”
“He should be ten or eleven now.”
“Was he ... was he with you when ... when ...
?”
I shook my head, remembered the sheer hurt in my
ex-wife’s face. The last expression I saw, the one etched in my
mind. I hoped nobody else in the world ever had to respond to hurt
at that level. Hard to hurt like I did and try and show no emotion
for the choice I’d made.
I whispered, “Two roads diverged, but I could not
travel both. A man cannot be two travelers, only one. Most choose
the fair road, not the one with hills and undergrowth.”
“That from a book?”
“Yeah. Something I read when I was in that
cage.”
Panther’s warm fingers grazed my flesh, then her
hand lingered on the back of mine. I told her all those things to
push her away, but instead she put her hand on mine.
She fell silent.
I was silent too.
Panther got in the bed with her clothes on. I got
in behind her.
I kissed her neck. She moaned in a way that let me
know she’d wanted that for a while. I sucked her skin. Slow. Pulled
her top up, took out her breasts. Massaged and licked one, then the
other. She shivered, held the back of my neck. My hand moved
between her legs, massaged her pussy through her clothing. Her legs
opened and she welcomed me, let my hand slide inside her clothing,
let my finger go inside. She was damp, her heat rising. Felt her
climbing that stairway. I hardened. She moved slow against my hand
until she couldn’t move slow anymore. She was there, eyes tight,
mouth shaped like the letter O, all ragged breaths.
Her back arched when she began crossing that
threshold, a moaner, a wiggler, a screamer.
I kept fingering her, suckling her breast, watched
her face cringe and glow.
She came in jerky motions, whining, moaning my
name.
Her eyes opened wide. She swallowed.
I pulled her clothes off. Took mine off. Her legs
opened, welcomed me.
Day’s break eased into the room, squeaks and moans
fading with the rising of the sun.
The clock told me it was time to shower, get
dressed, head toward LAX.
Panther asked, “You gonna be able to make it on no
sleep?”
I didn’t answer. I didn’t know.
Her cellular rang. It was her mother, calling for
their morning conversation. Panther went into Southern-fried
daughter mode, all smiles and giggles, restless, moving that
cornbread and buttermilk body back and forth. Since she didn’t have
pajamas and slippers, she put on my suit coat and shoes. My clothes
swallowed her. She paced, checking the window every time she heard
a noise, her voice sounding like nothing was wrong. Overheard her
asking about her sister and her nieces, then they went on talking
about her brother being deployed in Iraq, another man living in a
combat zone.
My cellular blew up.
Lisa’s number showed up. My head wound came back to
life, throbbed.
I touched my old Band-Aid, stepped into the
bathroom and answered.
She wanted to meet.