Chapter Twenty-three
“Quite a spread.” Tad Helfren left his van and stood for a few moments with his hands on his hips, surveying the scenery. The farm was the last one on a dead-end road, but it was easily the largest. According to the district map, everything Helfren looked at in every direction belonged to Connor Macleod. Between the stands of trees, he could see far across the lush fields to where the land dropped away steeply into the river valley. Even with the sky dark and overcast, the scenery was impressive.
He’d heard that the place had been a fixer-upper. The sprawling house was certainly old, but there was a new roof and fresh paint. It looked decent on the outside at least. He couldn’t say as much for the rest of the farm. Obviously Macleod hadn’t gotten around to fixing up the many barns and outbuildings, or perhaps he just didn’t give a damn about them. The only thing different between this and a hundred other tired old farms in the area was the number of trees. Most farmyards were bare. This one had tall stands of poplar between the buildings and in the corrals. Was it a case of a werewolf preferring to have ample cover handy, or was it simply nature reclaiming the neglected place? A thick forest of poplars and spruce flanked the south side of the yard. Beyond that, he knew from the map, the woods gave way to more fields. Just wild grass, according to some other farmers, no crops planted in years.
Of course, what use would a werewolf have for wheat or soybeans? Behind the fences were a considerable number of cows, horses, pigs and what-have-you. Maybe it was a private buffet. Dinner on the goddamn hoof whenever he wants it.
Helfren glanced to his right and spotted a swatch of black and white beneath a thick patch of blueberry bushes at the side of the house. Ever curious, he wandered over, his camera at the ready. Looks like fur . . .
Pushing a branch aside, he could see that the fur belonged to a dog, a Border Collie. Its throat was torn out and its blood was soaking into the grass. Helfren was puzzled as he studied it for clues. Why would Connor Macleod kill a dog? For fun? Sport? Maybe werewolves just plain didn’t like dogs. Practice? That must be it, Helfren decided. The red-haired editor was new to being a werewolf, so it stood to reason that Macleod would make her practice her skills. Apparently she hadn’t killed anything at Menzie’s farm. The police report had stated it was probably the work of a single animal. So maybe she’d just watched. And learned.
Helfren raised the digital camera and snapped a couple of frames. Lowered it and considered the dog. The kill was very recent. Too recent. He’d bet the dog had been dead an hour, maybe two at the most. Yet he’d been keeping close tabs on the editor, and checked her apartment building once more before he left town. Her truck had been parked in front all day, and he’d seen Connor Macleod pull up and head into the building—alone.
As he straightened up, he spotted another lump of fur amid the leaves. What the hell? Parting the branches, he saw several more dogs, all shapes and sizes and colors. All freshly dead. All deliberately piled in the midst of the bushes, like broken toys. And in the flower bed beyond that—he strained to see, unable to move closer because his feet seemed rooted to the ground.
There was a body. A human body.
Helfren’s mouth dried and he backed out of the brush quickly, his gaze darting everywhere at once. Was there another werewolf? The vet had brothers and a sister who lived in the area. Shitfire, what if the entire frickin’ family could shapeshift?
The man’s heart raced and he was having trouble pulling in enough air. If he was dealing with a whole nest of werewolves instead of just one or two, then he needed to regroup and reconsider. Refine his strategy. And from a safe distance, which meant getting the hell away from here now. Right now. Helfren made his way back to the driveway as quickly as his shaky legs would take him. But as he rounded the van to the driver’s side, he saw an old man half sitting, half lying, on the porch steps leading up to the house.
“Gervais? What the hell are you doing here?” His voice sounded strained even to himself as he gripped the door handle of the van.
“Just waiting for Macleod and his bitch to come home,” the man giggled, and slid down one stair. A large empty vodka bottle rolled to the ground. “I’ve got a lil’ surprise for ’em.”
Every one of Helfren’s survival instincts was screaming at him to open the damn door and get in the van. Instead, his reporter’s instincts considered Bernard Gervais. The guy was drunk as a skunk—but maybe he hadn’t been in this condition an hour or so ago. In fact, it was highly likely that Gervais was the one who had killed the dogs. He was mean enough to do it, and certainly pissed off at Macleod. But was he crazy enough to kill the man in the flower bed too? And what the hell had he used for a weapon? A hatchet?
You sick old bastard. Yet the bastard seemed to be in a good mood and maybe the vodka had made him talkative. There didn’t seem to be any weapon other than the empty bottle, and it had rolled out of reach. Helfren took a deep breath, then another. Reminded himself that he was no mere reporter—he was a paranormal investigator, a professional. And a professional would damn well investigate. He forced away his fear and slid his hands into his pockets to control their shaking. A moment later he was the picture of casual friendliness. “Hey, nice job with the dogs.” He considered himself a good actor, but still he had to force out every word. “That oughta burn Macleod’s ass. Perfect way to get even with a veterinarian in my books.”
“Hell, yeah.”
“And that guy back there, he musta tried to stop you. Guess you fixed his wagon.”
Gervais grinned. “Not done yet either.” He made a sweeping gesture at the paddocks and corrals.
Helfren struggled to hide his revulsion. He wasn’t much for law enforcement as a rule, but he’d call in an anonymous tip to the cops the minute he was on the road and headed for town. “I’ve really been depending on your expertise, Mr. Gervais. Thanks to you, I’ve got great footage of some wolves running through the golf course and some wolf prints near Menzie’s body. My readers are going to like that, but I need more. I didn’t get a damn thing from the vet clinic. No footage of anyone turning into a werewolf yet. I’m hoping you might know a little more than you’ve been telling.”
“ ’Course I do.”
“Is it a question of more money? ’Cause I thought I was paying you pretty well.”
“Don’t need your damn money.”
“What do you want then? I’m willing to negotiate but I need to know about the Macleod family. Are they all werewolves?”
“Every goddamn one of ’em. Think they’re safe here, think they’re protected. Wouldn’t feel so fuckin’ secure if there wasn’t a cop on their side.”
“A cop? One of the RCMP? What about him?” Helfren had drawn his pocket recorder and clicked it on, without even being aware he had done so. “Does he know about the werewolves?” Hell, maybe the guy was on the take. Maybe he was being paid to ignore evidence or something. According to his sources in town, the Macleods were far from poor.
“The sergeant’s one of them.” The old man spread his arms wide. He burped loudly, then followed it up with a long, drawn-out fart. “Too damn fuckin’ many of ’em now. Hate ’em all.”
“There are more werewolves?” Helfren didn’t have to fake his amazement.
“Shit, yeah.” Gervais spread his hand, counted awkwardly on his fingers. Wrapped his mouth around the names even more awkwardly. “LaLonde. McIntyre. Beauchamp. Lassiter. Rousseau. You see those names around here, there’s bound to be Changelings nearby. Then there’s Ghostkeeper—”
“What?”
“That’s a Métis name, city boy. Look it up in a fuckin’ history book.” Gervais’s expression hardened, his eyes narrowed. “And don’t forget those goddamn Watsons, too. That little bitch thinks she should lead the Pack, but she’s wrong.”
Helfren’s mind was whirling, and the dead dogs, even the dead man, faded in importance. This was beyond anything he’d ever dreamed of. He was in goddamn Werewolf Central. He could almost taste the books, the interviews. Hell, just think of the documentaries . . . He swallowed hard and found his voice at last. “So, these werewolves—are they working together?”
“Not all of ’em.”
Maybe there were different factions. Perhaps each family was a separate pack or clan or something. Helfren’s head was swimming as he continued questioning the old man. “But the wolf that did the killing over at Menzie’s. That was Macleod, right?”
“Ha. Not him. He doesn’t have the stomach for it.”
Helfren frowned. “But I thought you said—” he began and then corrected himself. No point in antagonizing his source. At least until he got all the information he could from the guy. He tried another tactic. “I guess I was mistaken, Mr. Gervais. I thought you knew who the killer werewolf was.”
“Haven’t figured it out, have you?” sniggered the old man.
The reporter drew on his patience, found the reservoir a little low. But he could act patient, by God. And humble. It always paid to act humble in an interview. You always learned more by appealing to someone’s sense of importance. “Mr. Gervais, you’re the only one who can help me. You’re the only one who knows the truth, who knows what’s really going on around here.”
“Damn right. Damn fuckin’ right I do.” The drunk giggled hysterically and slid down to the last step. Closed his eyes.
Helfren took a deep breath. “Please tell me who the killer is, sir. Where is he?”
Gervais said nothing, only chuckled deep in his throat. Helfren waited in the maddening silence, but the drunk was either playing him or he didn’t know as much as he’d said he did. Or maybe the vodka had finally knocked him out. Hell, if he’d consumed the entire bottle in one sitting, it was amazing he wasn’t dead. Disgusted, the reporter turned to leave.
And found himself face to face with the old man.
“How—how the hell did you do that?” Unnerved, the reporter backed up a step. Then a few more. Gervais followed, his gait steady, his eyes clear and focused. On Helfren.
“You really don’t know much of anything, do you Mr. Bigshot Reporter?”
The man’s voice had changed, dropped a couple of octaves and was suddenly free of its drunken slur. But it was the gleam of insanity in his eyes that made all the hair on Helfren’s body stand up. He continued backing away from Gervais, who was now between him and the van. The old man’s hands held no weapons, but Helfren was far from reassured. He struggled to find his voice, regain control of the situation. “Come now, Mr. Gervais, we had a business arrangement. You called me, remember? You called me to come up here and write a story. You wanted somebody to tell the truth about the werewolves.”
The old man seemed to consider that for a moment. “Of course,” he agreed. “That’s what this is all about. You want to know where the killer is, don’t you?”
Helfren nodded because he was expected to, not because he wanted the answer.
Slowly, Gervais’s lips drew back in a crazed and distorted grin. His teeth were long and pointed. “He’s right here.”
 
Hide. Gotta hide. Tad Helfren didn’t think for an instant that there was any place on Earth he could go where the monster couldn’t sniff him out. But there was a slim chance he could get off the creature’s radar if he wasn’t in plain sight. After all, what had once been Bernard Gervais was now preoccupied with chasing down and slaughtering every single animal on the Macleod farm, and, lucky for Helfren, Connor Macleod had kept a lot of livestock.
He couldn’t drag himself very far. He’d awakened in the flower bed by the front porch amid a tangle of crushed irises and lilies. The big purple and white flowers looked funereal to him and that had been enough to jolt the cloud from his brain and get him moving. Slowly, anyway. The taste of copper was in his mouth, and he was bleeding badly from dozens of bites and slices. For some insane reason he thought of an old phrase—Nature, red in tooth and claw. Insane because nature had nothing to do with the thing Gervais had become.
Helfren nearly blacked out a couple of times as he pulled himself by inches toward the porch. If he could just get underneath it . . . Blood ran into his eyes, half-blinding him. He could hear bone-chilling howls from elsewhere on the farm and animal screams that made him want to scream himself. His head spun as he finally got a hand on the lattice work, almost wept when a loose panel gave him access.
Once beneath the porch, he pressed the corner of the panel back into place and crawled farther into the sun-dappled dark. The earth felt cool and refreshing at first, then seemed to draw all the heat from his body. As he shivered, he drew the cell phone from his pocket. Sheer reporter’s instinct—or fucking insanity—had possessed him to snap a photo of his attacker, somewhere between having his leg broken and his scalp nearly sheared off. Sick but slick. It was that gutsy quality that made him the best damn investigator in the entire paranormal business.
He fumbled with the phone, squinted to see and swore at the signal bars. Only one out of three. Nevertheless, the web came up on command and he readied an e-mail to OtherWorld News. It would be the best damn front-page photo in the paper’s thirty-three year history.
And his last. He knew he was dying, but at least he’d finally be fucking famous. This once-in-a-lifetime photo might even get him nominated for a Pulitzer—posthumously of course. He grinned as he clumsily tapped out his message on the keypad with fingers he could no longer feel.
The cell phone went dark just as he was about to press send.
“No, no baby, don’t do this to me.” Helfren scrabbled at the keypad but the screen remained dark. “No, no, nooo,” he moaned. As he clutched the phone to his chest, frustrated tears joined the blood on his face. He was well and truly fucked. Visions of his name living on faded even as his breathing slowed but his mind continued to race. There would be no legacy, no final discovery to rock the scientific world and immortalize him. Sure, someone might find the damn phone when they found his body, but who would bother to charge it up, look at what was on it? It wasn’t like there’d be cops looking for clues—he’d be all too obviously dead of an animal attack. Case closed. Shit. Helfren couldn’t feel his body, couldn’t feel the cold anymore. Couldn’t see much of anything either. He was going to die alone under a dark porch like a damn rat.
I brought it on myself. The thought came out of nowhere, but it rang true and a few more tears leaked out. He might have been a great reporter but he hadn’t exactly been a stellar human being. It hadn’t always been that way, but somewhere along the line his ethics had disappeared. The story became everything. And he’d done just about everything to get his stories. Assumed identities, stolen artifacts and evidence, paid off authorities. Befriended others in his field only to rip off their leads and their contacts. Hell, he wasn’t James fucking Bond, he was just a jerk and an asshole.
What a crappy legacy. I wish . . .
His world went dark and still.
 
“Okay, you have to tell me what happens to your clothes. Every werewolf movie I’ve ever seen has the guy’s clothing in shreds, but I saw you. Your clothes were not only still on, but in perfect condition when you turned from wolf to human. So what’s the secret?” Zoey nestled her back against Connor, basking in his heat. She felt totally relaxed, thoroughly adored. And certain that the satisfied grin on her face was never going to come off.
Connor brought her hand to his mouth and kissed her fingertips one by one. “That’s a good question. I’m not sure how well I can explain it—Devlin’s the quantum physics expert in the family. He says the clothes go into some little pocket or compartment in another dimension.”
“What, like a parallel universe or something?”
He laughed. “This isn’t science fiction, honey.”
“Spoken like someone who is just way too used to being a werewolf!” She rubbed her forehead, thinking. “I know that according to Einstein, there are actually four dimensions, not three. Some scientists are now saying there are more, maybe even ten. I suppose there’d be room in one of those for an interdimensional clothes closet for werewolves.”
“You’re going to get along great with my brother. And it’s Changeling, not werewolf.”
“Semantics. So you send your stuff off to this other dimension, and then what?”
“You don’t send them. The clothes automatically go there when you become the wolf. But they don’t come back on their own. That’s where the skill comes in—you have to learn to bring your clothes back with you when you Change.”
“Bet you could lose a lot of clothes practicing. So is it difficult to learn?”
“No.” He ran a gentle hand along the side of her face, trailed fingers down her throat. “It’s not a step-by-step procedure like programming the TiVo—which I still rely on Culley to do, by the way. It’s more a case of getting the right feeling, of pulling your clothes to you with your mind. You get pretty good at it after a while, enough that all the things in your pockets come along too, whatever you had with you, whatever was touching you or your clothing. Books, tools, ID, and so forth.” Connor laughed suddenly.
“What’s funny?”
“Devlin took that to new heights once. Our mother wanted her piano moved upstairs, so Devlin figured if he was holding on to it while he Changed, then he could just run upstairs as a wolf and then Change back. Voilà, the piano would be moved.”
Zoey rolled her eyes. “Oh come on, Connor, there’s no way that would work. It’s not fair for you to try to put stuff like that over on me just because I’m new to all this.”
“Actually, it worked just fine. He Changed and the piano reappeared. But he hadn’t anticipated how much energy it would draw from him. He was so exhausted, he was bedridden for more than a week. According to my folks, Devlin would have been far better off to have stayed in human form and single-handedly carried the piano upstairs.”
She just shook her head, her mind boggling.“I still think you’re pulling my leg. It all sounds like magic.”
“Maybe that’s what magic really is. Using natural principles, even ones we don’t understand, to accomplish things.”
“Now it sounds dangerous,” she snorted.
“Not really. People do it all the time. Do you understand how your truck works? Yet you’re not afraid to drive it. And then there are computers. Most of us haven’t a clue how they work either, but we use them. Or we try to,” he said with a laugh. “The bottom line is, I don’t know how my clothes disappear and reappear, I only know that they do. And lucky thing too, because I’d hate to turn up bare-assed naked in the middle of the woods some night.”
“What if you were holding someone’s hand? Or accidentally brushed against someone when you Changed?”
“First of all, no one ever Changes close enough to a human to hurt or endanger them. It’s a cardinal rule. It’s drilled into all of us as children.”
“But what if another werewolf touched you? Would it hurt them?”
“Remember when you touched me right after I Changed? Multiply that to the power of a hundred or so if you’d touched me while I Changed.” Connor chuckled and lay back with his hands behind his head. “My oldest brother James and I got into a helluva fight when we were kids. We—”
“Wait a minute. James? There’s more of you?”
“I guess I forgot to tell you. There’s six altogether. You’ve already met Culley and Devlin, and you’ll meet Kenzie when she gets back. Carly lives in Wyoming right now.”
She waited a beat, then two, but Connor offered nothing more. The laughter in his eyes had been replaced with a faraway look, however. “Is James still living?” she asked carefully.
“Yes.” He blew out a breath. “And no. James lost his wife some years ago. Grief makes people do things, whatever they have to do I suppose, in order to survive the pain. He turned into a wolf and as far as I know, has never Changed back.”
“As far as you know. You mean, you don’t know where he is?”
Connor shook his head. “Nobody does. He’s been spotted once in a while near here, like he’s checking up on us or something, and then he’s gone again.”
“I’m sorry. That must be pretty rough on you, on the whole family.”
“Yeah. I miss him all the time.”
Zoey slipped her hand into Connor’s. “Finish the story you started. About when you and James were kids.”
“It’s not a very long story. We were fighting again, something we did a lot because he was a year older and figured he should get to tell me what to do. We were pretty much the same size, but I was losing as usual. Finally, when he was holding me down and punching me, I Changed. James got a shock much bigger than you did, enough to throw him clear across the room and stun him. He wasn’t injured but he had a headache for a week.”
“So Changelings fight dirty, do they?”
He laughed a little then. “I’ve heard it said that if something’s important enough to fight about, then there’s nothing unfair about using whatever you have to in order to win.”
“I’ll just remember that.”
Connor leaned over and lightly swatted her butt. “Lucky for you, I have a code of honor. Let’s get going. I’ve got animals to feed, and I’d like to get it done before it rains. Then maybe we can find something to eat for ourselves. I’m starving.”
She pulled her clothes on and headed into the bathroom to adjust her makeup, brush her hair. When she emerged, Connor was sitting motionless on the edge of the bed, staring at the cell phone in his hand.
“Is it the clinic? Do you have a call to go to?”
He turned to her and she was shocked to see his eyes filled with fury and grief. “No. It was Jessie, calling from the farm. Seems Bernie’s been there ahead of us.” He took a deep breath as if it were difficult to push out the words. “Jim Neely’s dead.”
 
The laneway was jammed with vehicles. Three police cruisers, an ambulance, a fire truck, the coroner’s van, the pickups of several curious neighbors and a Fish and Wildlife jeep. Connor parked his truck along the road. When he got out, however, he leaned back against the vehicle for support, blinking as if trying to clear his vision.
“Are you all right? What is it?” asked Zoey, taking his hand.
“Death. Good Christ, it’s everywhere. I can feel it, smell it, taste it.” He made a sweeping motion with his hand. “They’re all dead, Jim and all the animals too. Everything. Every damn living thing that was here.” He shook himself and straightened, but it was as if he was lifting an incredible weight on his shoulders. His eyes hardened until he looked at her. “I shouldn’t have brought you here. I don’t want you to have to see this. Or feel it either. Your psychic senses are already showing you this shit, aren’t they?”
There was no denying that she’d felt the discordant energies coming from the farm long before the truck stopped. Now she was picking up flashes of images in her mind of what had happened here, things that turned her insides to water. But she wasn’t about to give in. Not this time. “I can see it, yes. But I’m staying.”
“The Pack is here. Let me call Culley or Devlin to take you home. They’ll stay with you, watch over you until I can get back.”
She shook her head, resolute. “You said we’re a team, remember? Wherever you’re going, I’m going too, so get used to it, Connor Macleod.”
He was quiet for a moment, then nodded and took her hand. Together, they walked up the long, long drive beneath the somber sky.
Sergeant Fitzpatrick met them near the house. Other officers were keeping the little knot of neighbors back. “I’m sorry, Connor.”
“Not as sorry as I am.” Jessie appeared at the vet’s elbow, with Bill behind her. “Devlin figured out there was a danger, and I brought the Pack on the double.” Her face looked stricken. “We weren’t in time.”
“Bernie’s going to pay, Jess.” Connor’s voice was steel. Zoey shivered at the force of the emotions radiating from him. The hot fury had returned to balance the icy current of grief deep within. Even more intense was the guilt that ripped at him—guilt for having drawn such danger to the old man. Jessie had said that even a Changeling would have had little chance against what Bernard Gervais had become. A human would have no chance at all. And Neely had been very much human. Of course Connor would blame himself for his death. But she couldn’t tell him it wasn’t his fault, not yet. His heart wouldn’t be able to hear it.
“Bernie’s going to die,” said Jess. “And it still won’t be enough to balance this.”
Fitz put his hands up. “Stop right there. Do not say things like that,” he ordered. “Not now, not here, do you understand?”
“You’re addressing the Pack leader,” reminded Bill, and although his voice was quiet, Zoey could see the tensing of his muscles. Jessie herself looked irritated.
The sergeant glanced around, then lowered his voice to a fierce whisper. “Look, Lowen’s here and he says Jim Neely died from an animal attack, just like Al Menzie. But I’ve got officers all over the place here, human officers. You can’t walk around mentioning Bernie’s name in connection with Neely’s death unless you want even more werewolf rumors flying around this town.
“I’ve got guys asking questions already because we’ve found dead animals piled in the bushes, stacked in the barn. Deliberately thrown in the pond. What wolf does that? On top of that, there’s almost no blood left in or around the human body.” He yanked off his hat and ran a hand through his hair, then jammed the hat back on. “And you sure as hell cannot be talking about someone having to pay. This is a small town and, believe me, someone will hear it and that someone will remember you said it. And in the human world, a court will treat those words as an uttered threat if Bernie winds up dead or missing. So I’ve got plenty of reasons for telling you—even you, Jessie—to keep a lid on it.”
No one spoke for a long tense moment. Then Jessie put a hand on his arm. “Of course, Sergeant. Emotions are running high right now. Thank you for reminding us that we cannot let our guard down,” she said graciously. “We rely on you to keep the peace between our two worlds, and our trust is well-founded.”
Two worlds. Human and Changeling. Until very recently, Zoey had known of only one. Funny how fast things could change. . . .
“I’ve got the Pack divided into groups, searching for Bernie,” Jessie said to Connor. “Right now we’re going to join them, but we’ll be back later to help you bury your animals. Take care of Zoey.”
“Thanks, Jess. I will.”
Bill put a huge tattooed arm around Connor’s shoulders. “Jim Neely was a good man, but no one knew it till you came along. You made his last years some of the best, mate.”
Connor couldn’t say anything to that, only nodded.
Zoey watched Bill and Jessie walk away. “How many Pack members are out there?” She squeezed Connor’s hand, seeking to distract him from his sadness.
He blinked like a man waking up. “Twenty now. Jessie and Bill will make twenty out there.”
“They’ll have to work fast,” said Fitzpatrick. “I can’t keep the Fish and Game guys busy forever. Luckily their helicopter is over in the next district doing a moose count today, but they booked it for daybreak tomorrow if the rain holds off. I figure we have till then to find Bernie, before it’s too dangerous for us to be in wolfen form out there.” He nodded toward the open land. “They’ll be shooting every wolf they spot, just to be sure.”
“Can’t we stop them?” asked Zoey.
Connor shook his head. “They have no choice, not with two men dead. It’s a matter of public safety now. Not only will it be hell on the wolf population, but it’s going to make it difficult to be a Changeling in this region for a long time to come. Maybe years.”
“Right now, we’ve got other things to take care of. Did Neely have any family?” asked Fitzpatrick.
“No, there was no one. He’s—he was—a widower, no children. No siblings living,” said Connor. “We were his family, these last few years. Do you need me to identify him?”
“No, that’s not necessary. He’d been in enough scrapes back in his drinking days that we can officially identify him with fingerprints.”
“I’d like to see him just the same.”
The sergeant nodded. “You’ll get a chance to do that after he’s been taken to the morgue.”
“I’m his friend. I’ll do it now,” said Connor.
“Procedure—“ Fitz began, then stopped. “Hang procedure. Over here.” He led the way around the side of the house.
The group passed the blueberry bushes. RCMP officers with latex gloves were pulling the limp bodies of dead dogs from the patch and laying them out on the grass, where two Fish and Wildlife officers were examining them.
Connor looked over at Zoey. “You okay?”
She nodded and ran a nervous hand through her hair, wondering if any of them would ever be all right again. “I’ve already seen this.” And she had. But despite the ugly previews her psychic abilities gave her, the real thing was always worse.
A pair of officers was standing with Dr. Lowen Miller beside a bed of purple monkshood. Through her research of werewolves, Zoey had learned that these flowers were also known as wolfsbane because they were supposed to repel shapeshifters. It certainly hadn’t worked here. Most of the flowers had been crushed and in the center of the plants was a glaring yellow tarp. It seemed far too bright for the tragedy it covered.
To her surprise, the gruff doctor walked to Connor at once and put a hand on his shoulder, patting him like a child. Lowen guided him over to the flower bed and dismissed the officers.
“But sir—” began one.
The doctor glared. “Take a hike, son.”
The officers left.
Lowen knelt at one end of the tarp, holding a corner, watching for Connor’s nod that he was ready. The tarp was peeled back. Zoey didn’t look at what lay beneath it. What she did see was Connor’s face, stricken suddenly as if by a physical blow. Then his eyes closed in pain and grief.
“Goddammit, Jim,” he said quietly to the dead man. “This shouldn’t have happened to you.”
Lowen straightened the tarp and stood up. “I have some tests to do, but I think he had a heart attack. He may have been gone before the first blow landed, Connor.”
Zoey stared at the tarp and nodded. She could see it in her head, just as the doctor described. “He saw the wolf, and he died. He didn’t even have time to be scared. The wolf was surprised and—and disappointed.” Suddenly she was aware of both Connor and Lowen staring at her. Unbidden, she heard words from her past, the names that had both labeled and dismissed her. The Weird Kid. Creepy Girl. Freakazoid. Felt the sting of them again, even as she shoved them back into whatever mental closet they’d fallen out of.
She turned and walked off, heading for the front of the house, wanting to get away from the death and destruction. But there was no escape. Many of the vehicles had gone, most of the people associated with them as well, giving her a clear view of the entire farmyard. Hapless creatures large and small lay scattered as far as the eye could see. From here, she could identify the largest shapes by their color—the great shaggy heap that was certainly the Highland bull, the dappled gray hide of one of the horses, a pair of big pink sows. Her heart bled at the immense sadness of the scene, but she knew it must be worse for Connor.
“Thanks for that.” His voice behind her made her jump. Before she could recover, his powerful arms simply slid around her and gathered her back against him.
“Thanks for what?”
“It helps, knowing that Jim didn’t feel what that bastard did to him, that he was already gone. Bernie’s still responsible but at least Jim didn’t suffer.”
Connor took a great shuddering breath and Zoey squirmed, wanting to hold him but his grip was so tight that she couldn’t turn around. She had to settle for nuzzling and kissing the arm closest to her, placing her hands over his.
“I wish I’d been able to do more, see more,” she said, her voice tight with tears. “I wish I’d seen this in advance so we could have stopped it.”
He turned her around then, cupped her face in his huge hands. “Don’t do that to yourself. It’s bad enough that I feel that way, don’t you go there too.”
“I’m already there, dammit!” She burst into hot, angry tears then. “I’ve been there for years now. Always too late, too damn late to do any good at all. You and Jessie keep saying this ability is a gift, but I don’t see it that way. It’s a horrible thing to have, and I wish it didn’t exist. All it does is leave me standing over the dead. Helpless.”