priest could invoke the blessing of all seven Gods. I kept my mouth
shut about UL, fearing that Alara might postpone the wedding until
she could make contact with the Gorim of Ulgo. Alara and Olane
bickered back and forth, their faces both locked in those icy smiles
that absolutely reeked of false politeness and were meant to conceal
their real feelings but didn't even come close to succeeding. Spurious
reasoning about the two priests flowed back and forth until we were
all knee-deep in logical fallacies. 'Both of them!' I decided finally,
just to put an end to it.
'I didn't quite follow that, Pol,' Alara said sweetly.
'Both priests will officiate.'
'But - I
'No buts. Both priests, ladies, and that's the end of this.' I had to
do that fairly often during that undeclared war.
When the wedding day finally arrived, I was exhausted. if I could
just survive this one day, I was definitely going to give myself a
vacation. I felt that if I heard, 'But, Olane, dear -' or 'But, Alara,
sweetie -' one more time, I'd just scream.
The ceremony, since there were two priests in contention, dragged
on for two hours, and the wedding guests, who were really looking
forward to the post-ceremonial festivities, grew restive.
Ildera was stunningly beautiful, and Geran so handsome that the
village girls of Annath were almost audibly gnashing their teeth
over the fact that they'd let him get away.
I largely ignored the wedding sermons, but I did choke just a bit
when the Sendarian priest invoked the blessing of Torak on the
marriage. This was most definitely the wrong wedding for that.
Then the ceremony was finally over, and Geran and Ildera were
man and wife. They endured the wedding supper, obviously
impatient to go to the neat stone cottage Geran and his father had
built at the south end of Annath's single street. They definitely had
plans for the evening. Father, Darral, and Grettan kept the peace
during the supper, but that was about as far as the pacification went.
We all trooped down that long street, accompanying the happy
couple home, and then I went back to Darral's house and fell into
bed. I was absolutely exhausted.
The citizens of Annath and the Algar clansmen were all very
civilized, of course, so the fights didn't start until after the sun went
down.
*CHAPTER40
I spoke with father the next morning, and he entertained me with
a humorous description of the post-wedding festivities. I always
take father's accounts of such events with a large grain of salt, since
father has a deep-seated need for artful embellishment.
'Broke the priest's jaw?' I exclaimed at one point.
'As neatly as you'd snap a twig,' father smirked. 'Caught him
right on the point of the chin with his fist. Of course, the priest
wasn't expecting it. Over in Algaria, people don't hit the priests of
Belar. He won't be giving any of those long-winded sermons of his
for a while - at least not until his jaw heals. Then, just after that '
Knapp the tavern keeper was trying to get everybody to take the'
fight outside, and some rascal bonked him on top of the head with
a stool.'
'Bonked?'
'That's the sound it made, Pol - "Bonk!" just like that. Knapp
went down like a poled ox, and the revelers continued to break up
his tavern.'
I sighed.
'What's wrong?'
'I was looking forward to a day of rest. I guess I'd better go tend
the injured.'
'They'll heal, Pol. It was a friendly fight. Nobody even thought
about drawing a dagger.'
'Broken bones need to be set, father.'
'You can't fix everything, Pol.'
'Who came up with that rule? What are your plans?'
'I think I'll go back to the Vale. Chamdar's in Tolnedra right now,
but I'm sure he's got Grolims and Dagashi snooping around in
Sendaria. I don't want to attract attention to this place, and I am
fairly recognizable.'
'Wise decision. Give my best to the twins.'
'I'll do that.'
I spent the rest of the morning tending to the assorted cuts, bruises,
abrasions, and broken bones, and then I went on down to visit
the newly-weds. They were polite, of course, but I got the distinct
impression that they had plans for the rest of the day so I trudged
on home and went back to bed.
In the days that followed Alara rearranged the events of the
wedding day in her own mind so that it became a day of absolute
triumph for her. Oh, well, it didn't hurt anything, and if it made
her happy
The location of Geran's cottage down at the south end of town
was slightly inconvenient, but that might have had something to do
with his selection of the site. His mother was a bit possessive about
him and more than just a bit domineering. We all loved her, of
course, but she had a tendency to be just a bit erratic. I probably
should have paid closer attention to that.
There was a world out there beyond the last house in Annath,
however, and it kept moving along, whether we noticed it or
not.
It was at about the same time as the wedding that Taur Urgas
came up with his insane scheme to assassinate emperor Zakath of
Mallorea. The scheme involved Zakath's beloved, and she was
among the casualties when everything fell apart. After that, Zakath
became obsessed with the idea of exterminating the Murgo race
a commendable goal, I suppose, but it did sort of get in the way
when more important things were going on. Taur Urgas was every
bit as crazy as Drosta had said he was, and Zakath wasn't much
better. Cho-Ram of Algaria later cured the insanity of Taur Urgas,
and Cyradis, the Seeress of Kell, cured Zakath's. They used entirely
different methods, however.
I don't think I'd fully realized just how much my isolation in
Annath had kept me out of touch with current affairs until father
stopped by in the spring of 5349 and told me of the dissension
among the Angaraks. There's a kind of charm about rustic life, but
the entire world could end, and it'd take several years for the news
to reach a place like Annath.
Then, in the autumn of that same year, tragedy struck my little
family. It was an ordinary autumn day with a chill in the air and
with the leaves of birch and aspen a riot of bright colors. As usual,
Darral and Geran went to work in the stone quarry. Then, just before
lunch, the south face of the quarry quite suddenly broke away and
fell to the floor of the pit, crushing my nephew, Darral.
Accidents happen all the time, and a stone quarry's not the safest
place in the world to work, but as it turned out, the death of Darral
was no accident. It was the first hint we had that Chamdar - or
Asharak the Murgo, whichever you prefer - had found us at last.
My grief at Darral's death almost incapacitated me. Father made it
to Annath in time for the funeral, but I almost completely ignored
him. I was in no mood for platitudes. I stayed in my room for two
weeks, and when I finally came out, father was gone. Alara moved
woodenly about her kitchen, but I didn't really pay much attention.
I started taking my meals in my room, since I didn't want to talk
to anybody, much less those who shared my grief.
When I finally did come out, I discovered that Alara had gone
strange on me. I was confident that I could take care of it, but that
was a mistake. No physician should ever treat the illnesses of her
own family, since objectivity is essential in the practice of medicine,
and who can be objective about her own family? I delayed, and by
the time I got around to my diagnosis, it was too late. Of course, it
may have been too late right at the outset, since Alara's madness
had an outside source.
'Whatever is the matter, Pol?' she asked me one afternoon a week
or so after I'd come out of my seclusion. She'd found me with tears
in my eyes and her tone was concerned. 'Did you hurt yourself?'
She sounded only mildly interested and a little vague.
I looked at her sharply. Her face was placid, and that should have
alerted me right then and there.
'Come along now, dear,' she said in a comforting sort of
way'Pull yourself together. It's time for us to start fixing supper. Darral
will be coming home from work soon, and he'll be hungry.'
That jerked me back to reality almost immediately. I'd seen this
delusion in others after a death in the family. Sometimes the human
mind does strange things to protect itself. If something's just too
horrible to contemplate, the mind will refuse to contemplate it. In
Alara's mind, Darral was still alive, and he'd be coming home for
supper before long.
There are two ways to deal with this not uncommon condition.
My own emotional turmoil caused me to choose the wrong one.
'Have you forgotten, Alara?' I said mildly. 'Darral had to go on a
business trip. He wants to see if he can find more bidders for our
yearly production of stone block.'
'Why didn't he tell me?' She sounded a little hurt.
I reverted to subterfuge at that point. I smacked my forehead with
my palm. 'It's my fault, Alara,' I lied. 'He came home this morning
- while you were visiting with Ildera. He told me that there were
some builders in Erat he wanted to talk with and that he'd be gone
for a few weeks. There were some wagoners who were going in
that direction, and one of them had offered him a ride. He had to
leave immediately. one of our neighbor ladies fell ill, and I was so
busy with her that I forgot to tell you that Darral was away on
business. I'm very sorry, Alara.'
'Oh, that's all right, Pol,' she forgave me. Then her face brightened.
'Here's a thought. Now that Darral won't be underfoot for a while,
we'll be able to concentrate on our autumn housecleaning. We'll
have everything all bright and shiny when he comes home.'
I knew right then that I'd made a mistake, but it was too late
now to correct it. The 'business trip' would only reinforce Alara's
delusion and make it that much harder to cure in the long run.
'Why don't you fix us a light supper, dear?' I suggested. 'I have to
go tell Ildera something.'
'All right, Pol. Don't be too long now.'
I hurried on down to the far end of Annath to the somewhat
blocky cottage Geran had built for him and his bride. Geran was a
conscientious builder who wanted the things he constructed to last,
so there were hints of 'fortress' about his cottage. I knocked at the
stout door.
Ildera, blonde and lovely, opened it. 'Aunt Pol,' she greeted me.
I glanced around quickly to make sure she was alone. 'Is there
something the matter?' she asked.
'We've got a problem, Ildera,' I told her.
'Oh?'
'Alara's mind has slipped.'
'Dear Gods!'
'It's not dangerous - yet. She's not raving or anything, but she's
erased the memory of Darral's death from her mind. This afternoon
she told me that she was expecting him home for supper.'
'Oh, Aunt Pol!' Ildera's eyes had gone wide. 'What can we do?'
'We lie to her, Ildera. I conjured up a story about a business trip
on the spur of the moment - just to get her past suppertime - and
now we're stuck with it, I'm afraid. Tell Geran about it when he
comes home. We'll all have to tell Alara the same story. I said that
Darral caught a ride with some wagoners and that he's going to
Erat to drum up some more business. I came here to make sure that
we'd all be telling her the same story.'
'We're going to have to tell her the truth eventually, Aunt Pol.'
'I'm not so sure about that, Ildera. Darral's business trip might
have to be protracted.'
'Can't you -?'Ildera made a vaguely mysterious gesture intended
to suggest sorcery. The knowledge that I was 'talented' had been a
part of Ildera's indoctrination in our little family, and as is usually
the case, she grossly overestimated the kinds of things I could do
with that talent.
'I don't think so, Ildera. The mind's a very complicated piece of
machinery. If you fix one part of it, you might damage another part
beyond repair. I love Alara too much to start experimenting on her.
There are some combinations of herbs that'll keep her calm and
happy. I'll rely on those until I can come up with a safe alternative.'
'Whatever you think best, Aunt Pol.' Ildera laughed a bit ruefully.
'The Gods know that I wouldn't be very good at it. I can't even dig
a splinter out of my own finger.' Then her expression grew serious.
'You do realize that this means that we'll have to isolate her from
the rest of the village, don't you? One wrong word could destroy
her sanity for good.'
'I'll work on that,' I promised her. 'Tell Geran about this, and tell
him that I'll take care of it. I don't want him sticking his nose into
it. That wrong word you mentioned could come from him just as
easily as from some village gossip.'
'I don't think he'll cause you any problems there, Aunt Pol. He's
so busy examining every inch of the south face of the quarry for
the flaw that caused that rock-slide that he can't even think about
anything else.'
'As long as it keeps him out of the way. Oh, my father sent word
that he'll be visiting us again soon. If he stops here before he comes
on up to our house, tell him about Alara's condition and how we're
dealing with it. Warn him that I'll rip out his beard if he interferes.'
'Aunt Pol!'
'Well, part of it, anyway. I'd better get on back home. One of us
is going to have to stay with Alara almost constantly from now on.'
Father arrived two days later, but I didn't want to talk with him
in front of Alara. 'Get out of here, father!' I ordered. 'I'm busy. GO
talk with Geran and Ildera. They'll tell you what's happening.' I
pointed at the door. 'Out!' I commanded.
Father, of course, totally misunderstood. He assumed that my
outburst was the result of my ongoing grief, and he was wrong. I
had something much more important to deal with.
Later that day I sent ffor Ildera, and she sat with her mother-in-law
while I took father out to the edge of the forest so that we could
talk.
'She's completely insane?' Father sighed when I told him about
Alara's condition.
'I didn't say that, Old Wolf. All I said was that she's blocked out
the fact that she's a widow.'
'That sounds fairly insane to me, Pol.'
'You really don't know what you're talking about, father.
Insanity's rarely total. Alara's illness is limited to one fact. Aside
from that, she's perfectly all right.'
'Your definition of "all right" is worlds apart from mine, Pol.
How long do you plan to let this go on?'
'As long as it takes, father. I won't destroy Alara just to satisfy
some picky little concept of reality. She's a bit lonesome for her
husband, but that's as far as her misery goes. I'll keep her happy
for the rest of her life, if I have to.'
He shrugged. 'You're the expert, Pol.'
'I'm glad you noticed that. What are you up to at the moment?'
'I'm marking time, Pol, just like everybody else. The whole
universe is holding its breath waiting for Ildera to start to bulge.'
'That's a crude way to put it.'
'I'm a crude sort of fellow.'
'You know, I've noticed that myself.'
After father went back to the Vale, Ildera and I let it be generally
known in Annath that Alara was 'under the weather' and needed
absolute peace and quiet - 'her recent bereavement, you
understand'. The ladies of Annath all nodded sagely, pretending to
understand, and so there weren't any visitors to our house on the north
end of town. We made sure that Alara never left the house
unaccompanied, and Geran's new wife demonstrated a surprising agility at
changing the subject whenever someone encountered her and her
mother-in-law in the village streets. She could cut off the word
condolences' almost before it left anyone's lips. Protecting Alara's
tenuous grip on sanity became our major occupation, and we grew
better and better at it. Ildera, however, had another job to see to,
and I occasionally fretted about her failure to get on with it. She
continued to aid me in caring for Alara, and her waistline stayed
trim and girlish.
In 5351, Javelin paid father a visit in the Vale to report that
Asharak the Murgo had vanished, despite the best efforts of
Drasnian intelligence to keep him under surveillance. As it turned out, of
course, Asharak had evaded those who'd been assigned the job of
following him at least once already. He'd come to the vicinity of
Annath not too long after the wedding of Geran and Ildera to tamper
- with the geology of the south face of the stone quarry.
Father immediately went to Tol Honeth and virtually
disassembled the city trying to find traces of Chamdar, and when that
failed, he expanded his search to the rest of Tolnedra. That futile
search kept him very busy for the next couple of years.
Meanwhile, back in Annath, Ildera and I took turns keeping watch
over Alara, calling on Geran to fill in for us when we were both
exhausted. The 'tonic' Alara took twice a day kept her just a little
vague about the passage of time, and my recently found skill at
implanting some memories and erasing others made it all the easier
for us to control her perception of time. That was the key to keeping
Alara tranquil. As long as she didn't know how long Darral's
'business trip' was really taking, she stayed happy. I even went so
far as to 'dusty-up' the house a few times - usually while she was
asleep or down at the other end of town visiting Ildera - so that we
could spend a week cleaning house. We cleaned house four times
during the autumn of 5353, but Alara only remembered the last time.
House-cleaning is tedious and repetitious anyway, so the memory of
having done it isn't the sort of memory one clings to very hard.
I'm sure that there are some self-righteous people who'll read this
and be outraged by my ongoing deception of Alara. These are the
sort of people who secretly delight in causing pain 'for her own
good'. It wouldn't really pay people like that to take me to task for
my way of dealing with Alara's insanity. I might just decide that
it'd be good for them if their heads were on backward.
Another Erastide came and went, and Annath, as usual, was cut off
from the rest of the world by the heavy winter snows. Our little
family celebration of the holiday was subdued. By now, the villagers
all knew that Alara was 'a little strange', and they good-heartedly
respected our need to keep her more or less in seclusion. They
weren't indifferent, though, and any time Ildera or I were out and
about, they'd ask how our Alara was doing. The best we could give
them was, 'about the same', and they'd sigh and nod mournfully.
Villagers the world over can be nosey, but their curiosity grows out
of a genuine concern for their neighbors.
It was obvious to me by now that Alara would never really get
better. Her condition was permanent. There wasn't any cure, but
my combination of herbs and 'tampering' kept her moderately
serene and sometimes even a little happy. Under the circumstances,
it was the best I could manage.
Then, when the spring thaw of 5354 was melting off the snow
and the local streams were all running bank full, Ildera came up
the muddy street of Annath early one morning with a radiant smile
on her face. 'I think I'm pregnant, Aunt Pol,' she announced.
'It's about time,' I noted.
She looked just a little hurt, but then I laughed and threw my
arms about her. 'I'm only teasing, Ildera,' I told her, holding her
very close. 'I'm so happy for you.'
'I'm sort of pleased about it myself,' she said. 'Now, what should
I do to put a stop to all the throwing up every morning?'
'Eat something, dear.'
'You said what?'
'Put something to eat on the table beside the bed before you go
to sleep. When you wake up in the morning, eat it before you get
out of bed.'
'Would that work?'
'It always has. Trust me, Ildera. This is one aspect of medicine
that I'm very good at. I've had lots of practice.' I looked appraisingly
at her tummy. 'You don't show yet.'
She made a rueful little face. 'There goes my girlish figure, I guess.
None of my dresses are going to fit, though.'
'I'll sew you up some nice smocks, Ildera.'
'Should we tell Alara?' she asked, glancing at her mother-in-law's
bedroom door.
'Let me think about that a bit first.' Then I laid my hand on her
still-girlish belly and sent a gently probing thought into her. 'Three
weeks,' I said.
'Three weeks what? Please, Aunt Pol, don't be cryptic.'
'You've been pregnant for three weeks.'
'Oh. It must have been that last blizzard then.'
'I didn't exactly follow that, dear.'
'Well it was snowing very hard outside, and there wasn't really
anything else to do that afternoon.' She gave me an arch little smile.
'Should I go on, Aunt Pol?' she asked me.
This time, I was the one who blushed. 'No, Ildera,' I said. 'I sort
of get the picture.'
'I thought that maybe you might be curious - from a professional
point of view. Are you absolutely sure you don't want all the details,
Aunt Pol?'
'Ildera! You stop that immediately!' My face was actually flaming
by now.
Her laughter was silvery. 'Got you that time, didn't I, Aunt Pol?'
she said. What an adorable girl she was! I absolutely loved her.
That night I sent my thought out to the twins down in the Vale.
'Have you any idea at all of where my father is?' I asked them.
'He was in Tolnedra the last time we talked with him, Pol,' Belkira
replied. 'He's moving around a lot, so he's a little hard to keep track of.'
'I need to get a message to him,' I told them. 'There are some unfriendly
ears out there, though, so I don't want to get too specific.'
'If it's urgent, we'll come up there, and then you can go looking for
him,' Beltira offered.
'No, it's not that urgent - not yet, anyway. It's just that something's
going on here that takes a certain fairly predictable amount of time.' I
thought that was nice and cryptic. 'Have you found anything new and
exciting in the Mrin lately?'
'Nothing recently,' Belkira replied. 'Everything seems to be frozen.'
'It's springtime now, Uncle,' I told him. 'Have you ever noticed how
spring always seems to thaw things out?' I was fairly sure that the
twins would catch the meaning I'd hidden in that seemingly casual
observation.
'Why yes,' Beltira agreed, 'now that you mention it, we've noticed the
same thing ourselves. How far along is spring where you are?'
'About three weeks, uncle. The snow's starting to melt, and the
wildflowers should come peeping through before too long.'
I was fairly sure that if some Grolim happened to be listening.
he'd be just fascinated by my weather report.
'I've always rather liked wildflowers,' Belkira added.
,I'm fond of them myself. If you hear from my father, give him my
regards, would you?'
'Of course, Pol.'
I was rather smug about the way I'd managed to tell them about
Ildera's condition without actually coming right out and saying
anything about it. As it turned out, however, I seem to have
underestimated Chamdar by more than a little.
In the years following what happened at Annath, father, my uncles
and I have pieced together Chamdar's movements during the fourth
decade of the fifty-fourth century. Father in particular became almost
obsessed with the project and he was the one who finally verified
Chamdar's involvement in what happened to Darral. He happened
across a talkative old fellow in one of those rowdy taverns in Muros
who, after some prodding, dredged up an incident out of a nearly
dormant memory. He recalled that a Murgo matching Chamdar's
description had been asking for directions to Annath in 5349 ~ 'On
accounta that wuz th' same year my old ox, Butter, died. Calt him
Butter 'cuz he wuz alluz buttin' his head aginst me.'
At some point in his shady past my father had developed the
knack of winnowing not only thoughts, but also images, out of
other men's minds, and so when the somewhat tipsy old fellow
remembered the incident, father was able to recognize Chamdar
from his informant's rather blurred recollection. Chamdar had
passed through Muros in 5349, and he had been looking for Annath
just before Darral had been killed. I wouldn't want to have to pursue
our case against Chamdar in a court of law, but it had never been
our intention to take him before a magistrate. We had quicker, more
certain ways to obtain justice.
Anyway, after I'd confirmed Ildera's pregnancy, we talked things
over with Geran, and we decided not to try to keep it a secret from
Alara. As it turned out, the news that she was about to become a
grandmother made Alara very happy, and if things had turned out
differently, it might even have restored her to sanity.
It was quiet in Annath that spring and summer. The menfolk
went to work in the quarry every morning, and the women cooked,
cleaned, washed clothes, and gossiped. Ildera bloomed - slowly of
course - and she frequently gave vent to the pregnant woman's
universal complaint, 'Why does this have to take so long?' All in
all, it was a fairly normal pregnancy.
I thought things over frequently during the late spring and early
summer, and I decided that after the baby was born, our family
should probably move again. We'd been in Annath for twenty years
now, and even though Annath was isolated, I felt that it wouldn't
be a good idea for us to remain there much longer. I ran through
My mental catalogue of all the towns and villages in Sendaria,
crossing out all the places where I'd previously lived, since local folklore
will cling to incidents that took place generations ago. I definitely
didn't want to run across someone who might be able to dredge
certain memories out of the long gone past. All it takes sometimes
is for some idler to say to his friends, 'Have you noticed how much
she looks like that lady they say lived over on Shadylane about
three hundred years ago?' and my secret's out. Ultimately, I settled
on the town of Wala, some miles to the south of the main road
between Muros and Camaar. I hadn't lived in southern Sendaria for
centuries, and Wala was a fairly new town, founded less than two
hundred years ago.
To avoid any possible discovery, the twins and I relied rather
heavily on the members of Ildera's clan to carry messages back and
forth to each other. When there are unfriendly ears about, it's not
a good idea to shout - figuratively speaking - back and forth. It
was late summer when a horsehide clad Algar brought me a letter
from them advising me that they'd finally located my father.
Actually, I believe it was Mandorallen who tracked him down and gave
him the message that 'a certain kinswoman of thine is with child'.
Mandorallen's the perfect one to carry a message like that, since he
wouldn't even think of trying to puzzle out what it meant.
Father immediately returned to the Vale, but - wisely, I thought
- decided not to come to Annath. We didn't know where Chamdar
was, and father didn't want to lead him right to me and my family.
Instead, father went off to central Sendaria and started thrashing
around in order to attract Chamdar's attention.
It was late autumn when Alara's condition took a turn for the
worse. All during the spring and summer, she'd been so caught up
in the progress of Ildera's pregnancy that she'd seemed at times
almost normal. Then as the leaves began to turn, she quite suddenly
developed a fixation that Darral was lost somewhere in the
surrounding mountains. I know now who it was who'd implanted that
fixation, but at the time it totally baffled me. I simply couldn't let
her out of my sight for a moment. The minute I turned my back,
she was gone. I frequently - after hours of searching - found her
wandering aimlessly in the surrounding forest, plaintively calling
out her husband's name. Those pitiful cries tore at my heart, and I
couldn't bring myself to scold her.
In retrospect, I'll concede that Chamdar was no ordinary Grolim.
He was extraordinarily skilled at concealing himself. I never once
caught any sense of his presence nor any hint of what he was doing
to Alara's mind. Moreover, he knew me far better than I was prepared
to admit. He knew, for example, that all it took to send me
off into the surrounding forest was Alara's absence. Most Grolims
wouldn't have had any conception of my love for the members of
my family, since love's an alien concept to the Grolims. Chamdar
not only understood it, but he also used it to skillfully pull me out
of Annath at the critical moment.
Winter came early that year. The first heavy snowfall swept across
the mountains before the aspen trees had even finished shedding
their leaves, and that combination always makes for a very cluttered
forest. When a thick, wet snow piles up on unshed leaves, its weight
breaks branches, and it's very difficult to wade your way through
the resulting brush-pile. After Alara had escaped me a few times, I
gave some thought to throwing caution to the winds and conducting
my searches for her from the air. I firmly set that idea aside, however.
There was no point in announcing my location to Chamdar just to
keep my feet dry.
I'm sure the irony of that didn't escape you. In essence, I was trying
to hide from somebody who already knew exactly where I was.
Chamdar was playing me like a lute. Every time I think of it, my
blood starts to boil. If I knew how to do it, I'd resurrect him so that
Garion could set fire to him again.
Then about sunset on Erastide eve, Ildera went into false labor. I'm
certain now that Chamdar arranged that as well. A village lady
brought Geran's urgent summons to me, and I quickly looked in
on Alara. She appeared to be sound asleep, so I carefully reached
into her dozing mind and reinforced that sleep. Then I gathered up
my instruments and went on down to the other end of town to
deliver the newest member of my family.
Ildera's false labor continued for several hours, and then her
contractions and labor pains diminished.
'What's wrong, Aunt Pol?' Geran demanded, his voice a little
shrill.
'Nothing's wrong, Geran,' I assured him. 'This happens all the
time. Ildera's just not quite ready yet, that's all.'
'You mean she's practicing?'
I'd never heard it put quite that way before, and it struck me as
enormously funny.
Geran was a bit offended by my laughter, however.
'She's just fine, Geran,' I assured him. 'This is what midwives call
"false labor". It happens so often that there's even a name for it.
The real thing will come along in the next day or so. She'll sleep
now, and you might as well do the same thing. Nothing's going to
happen for a while.'
Then I closed up my bag and trudged back up through the snow
to my own house.
And Alara wasn't there when I returned.
I should have realized at that point that Chamdar had broken my
grip on Alara's mind. Nobody wakes up after I tell him to sleep until
I'm ready for him to wake up.
It had been quite cold for a week or more, but there hadn't been
any fresh snow, so the village itself and all the surrounding area
was criss-crossed with footprints that went off in all directions. I
concentrated my search to the north, the direction Alara had usually
taken on those futile quests of hers, but once again, Chamdar was
ahead of me. This time, she went south. Although it was dangerous,
I sent out brief spurts of searching thought, but I still couldn't find
her. That seemed very odd to me. I kept ranging back and forth in
wide arcs, and eventually reached an open meadow back in the
forest. There were deer tracks, rabbit tracks, and lots of bird tracks
out in that meadow, but no human footprints. Alara had not gone
north.
I judged that it was very close to midnight by now, and it was
bitterly cold out there in that dark forest. I'd already covered the
north, the northeast and the northwest in my methodical search.
Since Annath lay at the bottom of a gorge, sheer cliffs blocked off
the east and west. That left the southern quarter, and I was at least
five miles away from that.
At that point, I threw caution to the winds and changed form. If
that happened to alert Chamdar, that was just too bad. As cold as
it had become, Alara's main danger now lay in the distinct
possibility that she'd freeze to death before dawn. I absolutely had to find
her.
I had no way of knowing that not long after I'd left Ildera's
bedside, her false labor became genuine. Geran tried desperately to
find me, but of course he couldn't. The local midwife attended Ildera
during the birth, and Garion was born shortly after midnight.
I was nowhere near, but fortunately, the delivery wasn't too
difficult. Ildera was an Alorn, after all, and Alorn women are all designed
for childbirth.
It took me all night to find Alara. Her body lay at the foot of a
fairly high cliff six or eight miles south of the stone quarry. That
explained why I'd been unable to find her with my mind when I'd
first discovered that she was missing. The frozen condition of her
body was a clear indication that she'd died before I'd even become
aware of the fact that she'd wandered off.
I was absolutely devastated when I found her, and I wept and
tore at my hair, blaming myself again and again.
Then I suddenly stopped, staring in horror at the thick column
of smoke rising from Annath in that first faint light of the dawn of
Erastide. Something was burning in a village made entirely of stone!
I swallowed my grief, and as it subsided, I sensed my father's
presence. He was much closer to the fire than I
was. 'Father!' It was
almost a silent scream.
'You'd better get back here, Pol!' he replied bleakly. 'Now!'
I have no idea whatsoever of how I traveled those miles from
Alara's frozen body to Geran's burning house. For all I knew, I
translocated myself, and that's very dangerous out there in
the
mountains. If there happens to be a peak in your way, you'll go
through it, not around, and thats not the sort of thing I'd care to
experiment with.
Father was kneeling over a small, blanket-wrapped bundle in . the
door yard, and Geran's solid stone house was totally engulfed in
flames. 'What happened here, father?' I almost shrieked at him.
'It was Chamdar!' he roared back at me, his eyes filled with
vengeful fury. 'What were you thinking of, Pol? Why did you run off like
that?'
The question cut into me like a knife, and now, even after all
these years, I can still feel it twisting inside me.
*CHAPTER41
I looked at Geran's familiar stone cottage now engulfed in
impossible flame, and tears were streaming from my eyes. 'Is there any
hope at all?' I asked father, though I knew there wasn't.
'None,' he answered shortly, wiping his own eyes with a
deliberately rough hand. 'They're both already dead.'
My entire family had been destroyed in a single night, and no
matter how I squirmed and tried to evade it, I knew that it was my
fault. 'I've failed, father!' I cried out in anguish. 'I've failed!'
'There's no time for that now, Pol!' he snapped. 'We've got to get
the baby out of here. Chamdar got away from me, and he could be
anywhere.' Father's reddened eyes grew hard as he looked at the
fire erupting from the very stones of the cottage. He was quite
obviously considering some unpleasant things to do to Chamdar.
'Why did you let him escape?' I asked, realizing that I hadn't
been the only one who'd failed that night.
'I didn't have any choice,' father explained. 'That idiot threw the
baby at me. There's nothing we can do here, Pol. Let's move!'
I reached down and tenderly lifted the baby. I turned back the
blanket and looked for the first time into the face of the Godslayer.
It was a very ordinary face, but the whole world seemed to reel as
I looked into those drowsy blue eyes. Someday he might indeed
slay a God, but right now, he was just a sleepy, orphaned baby. I
held him very close against my heart. Chamdar'd have to go through
me to get this one.
'I suppose we'd better come up with a name for him,' father said.
'People might talk if we just call him "Godslayer".'
'His name's Garion, father. Ildera and I decided on that months
ago.'
'Garion? Not bad, I guess. Where did you come up with it?'
'Ildera had a dream. I think there might have been some tampering
involved. She told me that his real name would be "Belgarion", but
that we should call him "Garion" until he grows up.' I steeled my
heart. 'Chamdar's got a lot to answer for. doesn't he?'
'Indeed he does,' father replied in a flinty kind of voice, 'and I'm
personally going to see to it that it takes him at least a week to do
all his answering. What happened to Alara?'
'She's dead too, father. She fell off a cliff. We'll have to bury her
on our way out of town.'
'Make that two weeks!' he grated. 'I'm sure I can come up with
a way to keep Chamdar alive for at least that long.'
'Good!' I said. 'I'll take Garion to safety. You go after Chamdar.
Take notes, father. I want lots of details when you tell me about it.'
I was feeling at least as savage as father was at that point.
'Not a chance, Pol.' Father said it regretfully. 'I've got to get the
two of you to safety first. Our main responsibility's wrapped up in
that blanket. I'll deal with Chamdar after I know you're safe.'
We left the now collapsing house and followed the snow-covered
road on down past the quarry, and then we set off through the trees
to the base of the cliff that had claimed Alara. About all we could
really do was to pile rocks over her, and we couldn't even mark
her grave. Her gravestone's in my heart, though, and I'm sure it'll
always be there.
Father stole a she-goat from an isolated farmstead, and I devised
a nursing bottle. The little nanny-goat seemed actually fond of
Garion, and probably wouldn't have objected to nursing him. I
didn't really think that'd be appropriate, though. The goat probably
thought I was being silly, but over the centuries, goats have learned
to expect humans to be silly, I suppose. Father and I stuck to the
woods on our journey down to the low country, and he was very
careful to erase our tracks in the snow as we went. If it'd been up
to me, I'd have left those tracks where they were and set off signal
fires to attract Chamdar or any of his Grolim underlings. I was
feeling vengeful, and I really wanted to kill Angaraks about then.
We avoided all roads and camped out in caves or under fallen
trees. It took us several days to reach the foothills, and we came out
onto a fairly well-traveled road near the village of Outer Gralt. We
didn't go into the town, but continued on, making our way toward
my house on the shores of Lake Erat, the place I always go when
things fall apart.
,,As it always is when I've been away for a long time, the interior
of the house was chill and dusty. I built a fire in the kitchen stove
while father went on out beyond the rose-thicket to have a word
with the twins.
He came back shivering. He dutifully stamped the snow off his
feet at the door, looking longingly at my roaring stove.
'Don't bother,' I told him. 'You have to milk the goat. She's in
the stable. You'd better feed her as well.'
'Couldn't I just? '
'No, father. You're up and moving now, and I know how hard it
is to get you started again once you've settled down. Get your chores
done first, then you can sit down by the stove.'
He sighed and went back out. There were some things I needed
back in the house, so I deposited Garion in a drawer so that I could
search unimpeded. An open drawer's a very good place to stow a
newborn infant, did you know that?
I found a cradle and some baby clothes back in the house. Over
the years, quite a few babies had been born there, and I seldom
throw anything away that I might need later. By the time father
returned with a pail of warm goat's milk, Garion was dressed, lying
in an eight-hundred year old cradle, and holding a little rattle that
had been made generations ago.
'I think it's colder down here than it is up in the mountains,'
father noted, holding his hands out over the stove.
'It just seems that way, father. Were you able to contact the
twins?'
'Oh, I got them, all right. I just hope they understood what I was
saying to them when I said we needed them in the rose-garden.'
'I'm sure they did.'
'I'm still going to stay here until they arrive. Then I'm going to
track down Chamdar and settle this once and for all. I should have
killed him a long time ago.'
'You're starting to sound like uncle Beldin.'
'Beldin's approach to problems might be simplistic, Pol, but it
does have the charm of being permanent.' Then he looked at me
gravely. 'Have you decided where you're going to take the baby
yet? I probably ought to know the name of the town.'
'I don't think I'll go to a town, father - not this time. Towns have
a tendency to leak information. I don't like being at the mercy of
the gabbiest old drunkard in town. I think I'll try an isolated farm
instead, and I'm going to do something differently this time.'
'Oh? What's that ?'
'I've always made a point of telling the young man in question
who he really is so that he understands the necessity for ordinariness.'
'What's wrong with that?'
'Some of them haven't been very good actors. Sometimes they get
carried away - probably because they're related to you.'
'What's that supposed to mean?'
'You over-act, father. I'm sorry, but you do. You go to extremes
I'll fix it so that Garion doesn't have to act.
'How do you plan to manage that ?'
'It's simple, father. I just won't tell him who he is. I'll let him find
it out for himself. I'll raise him as an ordinary farm boy, and he'll
believe that he's an ordinary farm boy. Acting won't be necessary.
All he'll have to do is just be himself.'
'I think that might be a little dangerous, Pol. He's bound to find
out eventually who you are. You give that away a dozen times a
day.'
'Then I'll have to learn to control myself, won't I?
He shook his head stubbornly. 'It won't work. There are dozens
of books out there that describe you all the way down to your
toenails.'
'They won't mean very much to him if he can't read. will they?'
'Pol! He's going to be a king! You can't put an illiterate on a
throne!'
'Dras Bull-neck worked out fairly well, as I recall.
'That was three thousand years ago, Pol. The world was different
then.'
'Not all that much different, father. If it bothers you so much, you
can teach him how to read after he's been crowned.'
'Me? Why me?'
I gave him a smug little smirk that spoke volumes. and then let
it drop.
The twins arrived the following morning to take over father's
guard-duty, and my vengeful parent went off in search of Asharak
the Murgo.
I spent the rest of that winter in the kitchen with Garion - and
with whichever of the twins wasn't on guard duty at the moment.
I planned to leave just as soon as the weather broke. and I didn't
see much sense in heating the whole house, so I kept the kitchen
doors closed. The kitchen had a large iron stove, and that suited me
right down to the ground. The other rooms had fireplaces. which
ae
are pretty, but not very efficient.
Garion and I grew very close during those interminable months.
He was a loveable baby, and I owed him a great deal because of
my ghastly failure at Annath. His mind was barely awakened, but
a bit of gentle probing gave me a few hints about what he'd become,
and a few more hints about how much trouble I'd have raising him
without losing my mind. This boy was going to be a challenge.
Spring eventually arrived, and after the mud had dried on the
local country lanes, I selected a few of my most nondescript dresses,
some odds and ends of clothing for Garion, and bundled them all
up in a slightly threadbare blanket. Then I bade the twins goodbye
and set out with my bundle slung over one shoulder and Garion in
my arms and my goat trailing along behind me.
I reached the village of Upper Gralt, which wasn't at all like Outer
Gralt, by late afternoon. I went to a seedy-looking inn and haggled
down the price of a single room for the night. I wanted to give the
impression of teetering perilously on the brink of poverty. After I'd
fed Garion and put him down for the night, I went on back
downstairs to have a word with the innkeeper. 'I'm looking for work,' I
told him.
'Sorry, but I'm not hiring right now.'
'That wasn't what I had in mind,' I told him. 'Do you know of
any local farmers who might need a good cook or housekeeper?'
He frowned, scratching at one cheek. 'You might try Faldor,' he
suggested. 'Some of his farmhands were by last week, and they said
that Faldor's cook's starting to slip quite a bit. She's getting old, and
she's slowing down. Faldor's men were complaining about the meals
always being late and only about half-cooked. It's coming on toward
planting time, and if a farm kitchen's falling apart at planting time
or harvest time, the farm hands start looking for new jobs. Faldor's
got a big farm, and he can't plant it all by himself. If there's not an
opening for a cook right now, there probably will be in just a few
weeks.'
'Where's his farm?'
'About a day's walk off toward the west. Faldor's a good-hearted
fellow, and even if he can't hire you right away, he'll make sure
that you and your baby don't go hungry. Just follow that road that
leads west out of here toward the Medalia highway. Faldor's place
is the only one on the south side of the road, so you can't miss it.'
'I'll find it,' I assured him. 'Thank you for the information.' Then
I checked on my goat out in the stables, climbed back up the stairs,
and went to bed, nestling Garion close in my arms.
The next morning dawned clear and bright. I fed Garion and we
were on the road leading off toward the west soon after the sun
had peeped above the horizon. I knew exactly where I was going
and I now had a sense of purpose, so my goat and I stepped right
along.
It was about mid-afternoon when we topped a rise and saw a
large neat farmstead lying about a half mile south of the road in
the next valley. It looked almost as if it were walled in, but that
wasn't actually the case. The farm buildings were laid out in a
square, with the barns, stables, and work-shops on the ground floor
and the sleeping rooms for the farm hands lining a second floor
gallery. All the buildings faced inward onto a large open compound,
and everything was all in one place. The largest building stood at
the back of the compound opposite that main gate. It was neat,
well-organized, and convenient.
I definitely approved of what I saw, though it all may have been
arranged so that I would well in advance. I went on down the hill
and entered the compound, a little puzzled at what sounded very
much like a bell singing out in measured tones.
As soon as I entered, I saw that what I'd been hearing hadn't
been a bell, but the sound of a smith hammering on a glowing
horseshoe in his open-fronted smithy.
That, of course, explains how I missed the sound of that secret
personal bell of mine. It was artfully concealed in the sound of that
hammer on the steel anvil.
The smith's hammering had a steady, no-nonsense rhythm to it,
announcing that here was a fellow who was serious about his work.
He was a rather plain-looking young man, about twenty-five and
of medium height and deceptively medium build. The heavy sound
of his hammer spoke volumes about just how strong he really was.
He wore an ordinary tunic and a burn--spotted leather apron. That
made a lot of sense. When you work with white-hot metal, you
should really have something sturdy between your skin and the
work.
I waited until the smith turned and quenched the horseshoe in
the water barrel beside his anvil, sending up a cloud of steam.
'Excuse me, Master smith,' I said politely, shifting Garion in my
arms, 'have you any idea of where I might find farmer Faldor?'
Then he turned to look at me. I rather liked his open, honest face.
'He's probably in his counting-room at this time of day, Mistress,'
he replied politely in a pleasant voice.
. 'Thank you,' I said, inclining my head. 'Now we come to the more
technical questions. Exactly where is farmer Faldor's
counting-room?'
He laughed, and I noticed that he had very even, white teeth. His
laugh was open and honest. I was taking to this man right away. I
knew instinctively that he could be a very good friend. 'Why don't
I just show you the way, Mistress?' he offered, laying down his
hammer. 'My name's Durnik, by the way.'
'And mine's Pol.' I curtsied slightly. 'I'm happy to make your
acquaintance, Goodman Durnik.'
'And I yours, Mistress Pol,' he replied, ducking his head slightly
in a sort of bow. 'I'll take you up to meet Faldor. We can hope that
his column of figures all added up today.'
'Does he have trouble making them come out?'
'All the time, Mistress Pol. All the time. Faldor's a very good
farmer and the best master in this part of Sendaria, but arithmetic's
not his strong point. He gets grouchy when his numbers don't add
up.' Durnik pointed at the main house. 'His quarters are upstairs
over the kitchen and dining-room. I don't envy him that. The smells
coming out of the kitchen lately haven't been too appetizing.'
'That's sort of what I'm here to talk with him about, Goodman
Durnik.'
'Are you a cook, perhaps?' His brown eyes grew hopeful.
'I can boil water without burning the bottom of it, if that's what
you mean.'
'Praise the Gods,' he said fervently. 'Poor Nala can't even manage
that any more. Can you imagine what burning water smells like?'
We both laughed as we crossed the compound to the large kitchen door.
'Wait here,' I told my goat. I knew that it was probably a waste
of breath. She'd go exploring as soon as I was out of sight,
but I was sure that I could find her again.
The kitchen was well-designed, I saw, with work-tables and
cutboards in the center, stoves and ovens lining the walls, and the
storage bins and pantries at the back. It was very cluttered, however,
,with knives and pans littering the work-tables rather than being
hung back up where they belonged. There was definitely a problem
here
and its source was snoring in a chair by the stove. It was fairly
"late in the afternoon, but supper hadn't even been started yet. The
kitchen was disorganized, and the kitchen helpers were wandering
around aimlessly while the head cook snored. It was clear that
Mistress Nala wasn't taking her job seriously any more.
Farmer Faldor was a tall, lean, horse-faced man with a long nose
and an even longer chin. As I was to discover, he was a devoutly
religious man who felt it to be his duty to look after the well-being
of his employees, physical as well as spiritual. When I first saw him,
he was struggling with a column of figures. One glance told me
where he was making his mistake, but I didn't think I should point
it out to him until I got to know him better.
'This is Mistress Pol, Faldor,' Durnik introduced me. 'She wanted
to speak with you about the possibility of employment in the
kitchen.'
'Mistress Pol,' Faldor greeted me, politely rising to his feet.
'Farmer Faldor,' I replied with a little curtsey.
'Have you had much experience working in kitchens?'
'Oh, yes,' I replied, 'a great deal of experience.'
'Our kitchen certainly needs help right now,' he said mournfully.
'Nala used to be very good, but she's older now and putting on a
lot of weight. It's slowing her down. She just can't seem to get
started any more.'
'It's an occupational hazard, Master Faldor. It has to do with
tasting.'
'I didn't exactly follow that, Mistress Pol.'
'A good cook has to check the quality of what she's preparing.
The only way I know of to do that is to taste it. If a cook isn't careful
about that, every sip or nibble goes straight to her hips. How many
are you feeding currently?'
'Fifty-three right now,' he replied. 'There'll be more when we get
into the planting. Do you think you could handle that big a kitchen?'
'Easily, Master Faldor, but why don't we wait until after supper
before we make any permanent decisions? You might not like my
cooking, and it's good business to examine the product before you
buy it.'
'That makes sense, Mistress Pol,' he agreed.
Just then Garion started to fuss a bit. I put him over my shoulder
and patted his back to make him burp.
'Your baby, Mistress Pol?' Faldor asked.
'My nephew,' I replied sadly. 'His parents died.'
Faldor sighed. 'Tragic,' he murmured.
'Yes. I'll step around Mistress Nala rather carefully, Master
Faldor,' I promised. 'From what I gather, she's served well and
faithfully here, and it wouldn't be proper to just push her aside.'
'I'm glad you understand that, Mistress Pol,' he said gravely.
'That's assuming that my cooking doesn't make everyone sick,' I
amended with a slight smile. 'How many kitchen helpers are there?'
,,.'Six - counting Nala herself. Would that be enough?'
'More than enough, Master Faldor. Is there someplace where
I could put my belongings? It's a little late, and I'd better get to fixing
supper if we want to eat before midnight.'
'Why don't you show her to that vacant room up on the west
side, Durnik?' Faldor suggested. Then he sighed with some
resignation.
'And I guess I'd better get back to my addition here. This
thing refuses to come out even.'
'Would it help at all if I told you that twelve and nine make
twenty-one and not twenty-two?' I asked him mildly.
He stared down at his figures and then carefully counted it out
on his fingers. 'Why, I do believe you're right, Mistress Pol,' he said
'It does, doesn't it?'
'It always has before.' Then Durnik and I left.
'Is he usually that pliable?' I asked Durnik as we went on down
stairs.
'I didn't quite follow that, Mistress Pol.'
'He didn't ask where I'd worked before, he didn't really ask if I
knew anything at all about cooking, and he didn't even ask where
I'd come from.'
'Mistress Pol,' Durnik said, 'the kitchen here is sort of a continuing
disaster - like a fire in the barn or an epidemic of cow-pox. Faldor's
not pliable so much as he's desperate. If Torak himself showed up
claiming to be a cook, Faldor'd hire him without a second thought.'
'I see. Well, I guess I'll have to fix that.'
I dropped off my bundle in the small room Durnik showed me,
asked him to round up my goat and put her in the stables, and then
I went back to the kitchen. Nala was still sleeping, and the other
kitchen helpers were sort of aimlessly going through the motions
of getting ready to start on the evening meal. 'I'm the new
kitchen helper, ladies,' I told them. 'My name's Pol, and I think we'd better
get started on supper, don't you?'
'We can't really do that until Nala wakes up, Mistress Pol,' a
thin, pale girl with a runny nose told me, sniffing. 'She might get
offended.'
'We won't actually be doing anything but just getting things
ready,' I lied, '- you know, peeling carrots, cutting up vegetables,
putting water to boil - that sort of thing.'
'Oh,' she said, wiping her nose on her sleeve. 'That might be all
right, I guess.' I saw immediately that I had a long way to go here.
Nala's semi-comatose state had encouraged a great deal of laxity in
the kitchen.
I decided that stew would probably have to do for this evening.
There wasn't really enough time for anything else. I took an oblique
approach to the other kitchen helpers. After I'd stowed Garion in
an out-of-the way vegetable bin, I started making 'suggestions',
usually prefaced with 'would you like to -' or 'Don't you think
that -'or 'shouldn't we perhaps -'. Then, when I'd managed to put
them all to work, I went into the spice pantry to inventory the
condiments. I was muttering darkly even before I was finished. The
spice jars were all there, of course, but half of them were empty. I
threw a furtive look back over my shoulder to make sure I wasn't
being observed, and then I cheated.
Nala awoke when we started braising the stew meat. 'What's
going on here?' she demanded.
'We were just getting things ready to start fixing supper Nala,'
the girl with the runny nose reported. 'Mistress Pol here thought it
might be a good idea. You know how Faldor is when supper's late.'
'Mistress Pol?' Nala asked, eyeing me suspiciously.
'I just came to work here this afternoon, Mistress Nala,' I said to
her with a polite little curtsey. 'Enna here said you were feeling a
little under the weather.' I put one arm familiarly around the
shoulder of the red-nosed girl. 'I didn't think we should disturb you.
What do you think? Would stew be all right for this evening?'
Nala pretended to consider it. 'Whatever you decide, Mistress
Pol,' she consented with a little shrug. What else could she say?
Everything was ready to go into the stew-pot.
I looked at her rather closely. 'You don't look at all well, Mistress
Nala,' I said with mock concern. Then I laid the back of my hand
to her forehead. 'You've got a fever,' I told her. 'We'd better do
something about that just as soon as we get the stew to simmering
and the biscuits in the oven.'
'I do feel a little feverish, Pol,' she admitted.
Of course she felt feverish. I'd just elevated her temperature with
the back of my hand. I really wanted this job.
The vegetables and braised stew meat cascaded into the large
bubbling stew-pots, and then I compounded a mixture of ordinary
cooking spices to counteract Nala's 'fever'. After that, I hovered over the
'stew-pots with my collection of seasonings.
The stew we served that evening was barely adequate in my
opinion, but Faldor and his farm hands went at it like starving men,
some of them even going so far as to pour the last dribblings of
gravy over biscuits.
'Oh, my,' Faldor said, groaning and putting his hands on his belly.
'I think I ate too much.'
'You're not the only one, Faldor,' Durnik agreed, also groaning.
Then he gestured toward me as I stood in the doorway with Garion
in my arms. 'I think we should keep her, don't you?'
'Um,' Faldor replied. 'I'll tell you what, Durnik. As soon as you're '
able to walk, why don't you just nip across the compound and close
and lock the gate? We wouldn't want to let her get away, now
would we?'
And that was how I cooked my way into a permanent place
at Faldor's farm. As I mentioned, the stew wasn't really all that
spectacular, but it was several cuts above what Nala had been '
offering.
As soon as supper was over, I beckoned to Enna, the pale blonde
girl with the red nose. 'Yes, Mistress Pol?' she said, coming
'
obediently.
I reached out and touched her nose. 'How long have you had the
sniffles?' I asked her.
'Weeks,' she said, rolling her eyes upward.
'I rather thought you might have.'
'It's not a cold, Mistress Pol,' she said. 'I don't feel achy or
feverish.'
'No, it's not a cold. It's spring, Enna, and there are some things
in bloom right now that don't agree with you. Let's fix that right
now.'
'Are you a physician, Mistress Pol?'
'I wouldn't go all that far, Enna,' I replied. 'I know a few home
remedies is about all. Let's dry up that nose of yours. We do work
around food, after all, and - well, I'm sure you get my point.'
She giggled and then she sniffed. 'Yes, ma'am.'
Though we all still deferred to Nala, her instructions became
increasingly vague. By the end of the week, I was the one who was
really running the kitchen, but I'd still periodically carry a spoonful
of whatever we were preparing to her for approval. It didn't really
inconvenience me that much, so I spoon-fed her.
Within a month, the goat, Garion and I were all settled in, and
I'm sure that in the minds of Faldor, Durnik and the other farm
workers we'd always been there. I cleaned and straightened up our
little sleeping room, but Garion spent most of his time in that
vegetable bin. I always knew just exactly where he was, even when my
back was turned to him.
I was very comfortable at
faldars all the way down to the bone, and in a very real sense, I'd
created the Sendars, so coming here was much like coming home.
It was midsummer when uncle Beltira stopped by, ostensibly to
ask directions to Upper Gralt. I took him just outside the gate and
pretended to be pointing out the way while we talked.
We've been tearing this end of Sendaria apart looking for you,
Pol,' he said. 'I'd have walked right by if I hadn't caught sight of
your goat. Why didn't you get in touch with us?'
'I'm trying to stay out of sight until father tracks down Chamdar.
Is he having any luck with that?'
He hasn't told us so yet. He's in Tolnedra right now. The last
time he talked with us, he and that young Prince Kheldar were hot
on the trail of Asharak the Murgo. We've been out of touch for a
few weeks, so we can't be sure if they've succeeded yet or not.'
Well, I'd better stay under cover until they find him and start
shipping pieces of him back to Ctuchik. Get word to father about
where I am, but you'd probably better have Drasnian intelligence
carry the message. As long as Chamdar's still all in one piece, I'd
rather not have my location echoing off every hilltop.'
He nodded. 'You seem almost happy here, Pol,' he observed.
'I like what I'm doing, and I like the people here on this farm. I
wouldn't exactly say that I'm happy, though. That might change
after father and Silk dispose of Chamdar.'
'Who's Silk?'
'Prince Kheldar. It was his nickname at the academy. I'd better
get back to the kitchen. My helpers all mean well, but they need a
lot of supervision. Give my best to uncle Belkira.'
'I will, Pol. We love you, you know.'
'Yes, as a matter of fact I do - and I love you too. Now scoot.'
And then we both laughed.
Garion started crawling shortly after Beltira's visit, and my life
suddenly became much more interesting. He was in a kitchen, after
all, and a crawling baby underfoot in a place where there are knives,
cleavers, pots of boiling water, and scurrying kitchen workers added
a certain amount of excitement to my life. I could never be exactly
sure of where he was. Dear Gods, that little boy could move fast! I
soon became adept at herding him around with my feet. I'm sure I
frequently looked like an acrobat - pinching a pie-crust with one
hand, seasoning a bowl of dressing with the other and scooping a
very active little boy out of harm's way with my foot. Garion thought
that was lots of fun, but it didn't entertain me all that much. I really
began to give some serious consideration to putting him on a leash
or something.
Harvest time on a farm is the busiest part of the year for the
people who grow food for a living, and my kitchen was no exception.
Notice that I could call it my kitchen now. Mistress Nala's legs finally
went bad on her, and so she went off to live with her youngest
daughter on the northern end of Lake Medalia. Anyway, Faldor's
farm hands had to be fed four times a day during the harvest, and
that kept my helpers and me busy from well before dawn until
several hours past sunset. I think everybody on the farm was very
happy to see the last wagonload of turnips come in out of the fields.
And then after the harvest was done and all the leaves had fallen
from the trees, an itinerant storyteller stopped by to cadge a few
meals out of Faldor. He was a shabbily-dressed old rascal with
mis-matched shoes and a piece of rope for a belt. His hair and beard
were white and close-cropped, and he had glue on his fingers. He
must have had, since everything he touched stuck to them. I knew
that he was coming of course, since I'd sensed his familiar presence
when he was still five miles beyond the gate.
No, I didn't even consider locking the gate before he arrived. Well,
not very seriously, anyway.
My goat recognized him, of course, and she smoothly jumped the
gate of her stall and ran out to greet him, her tail wagging furiously.
He smiled and scratched her ears, and then he asked Durnik the
smith where he might find 'the owner of this fine establishment'.
He introduced himself to Faldor, pretending to be 'the greatest
story-teller in all of Sendaria', which might even have been true,
now that I think of it, and then he gravitated to my kitchen where
all the food and drink was. He turned on his not inconsiderable
charm and entertained my helpers while we prepared supper. He
made it look as if he were trying to ingratiate himself with me when
he took some time out from his random pilferage to play with
Garion. I was being careful not to watch him too obviously, but I
did happen to catch a glimpse of the tears that filled his eyes once or
twice while he and Garion were playing a little game of 'tickle-tickle,
giggle-giggle'. My feelings for the Old Wolf softened noticeably at
that point. Though he tries to hide it, father does have his sentimental
side.
He paid for his supper that evening by telling stories after we'd
all eaten. The one that got the most applause was the one he called
'How Belgarath and four companions stole back the Orb of Aldur
from the One-Eyed God of Angarak'. The farm hands went
absolutely wild over that,"one. 'My friend,' Faldor said at the end of the
story, 'that was absolutely amazing! You told that story almost as
if you'd actually been there in person!'
I had a little trouble keeping a straight face along about then. I'll
admit, however, that if he really sets his mind to it, my father can
hold an audience spellbound for hours on end, and he never seems
to tire of the sound of his own voice.
Then, after Faldor and his farmhands had all retired for the night
and I'd shooed my helpers off to their beds, father, Garion and I
had the kitchen to ourselves. I blew out most of the lamps, leaving
only one still burning to dimly light my kitchen. I laid out a few
things in preparation for tomorrow's breakfast, and father was
sitting off in a corner holding the sleeping little boy on his lap.
I caught a faint flicker of movement at the kitchen door, and I
turned quickly. It was my little nanny goat, and her golden eyes
glowed in the dim light. 'You,' I commanded her, 'go back to the
stables where you belong.'
'Oh, leave her be, Pol,' father said tolerantly. 'She's a member of
the family too, you know.'
'Peculiar notion.' I murmured. Then I looked him squarely in the
face. 'Well, Old Wolf,' I said quietly, 'did you finally run Chamdar
down?'
'We didn't even get close to him, Pol,' he admitted, dropping
his characterization and speaking very seriously. 'I'm giving some
thought to taking a run down to Rak Cthol and jerking out Ctuchik's
liver.'
'Interesting notion. What's he done lately that you don't like?'
'He's sending counterfeit Chamdars into the west.'
'Would you like to clarify that?'
'He's modified some ordinary Murgos - or Grolims, for all I know
to make them look exactly like Asharak the Murgo. That makes
Drasnian intelligence absolutely worthless. Silk was terribly upset
when I told him that he'd been following the wrong man. That was
the only good thing to come out of the whole affair.'
'That one went by a little fast, father.'
'Our Prince Kheldar's terribly impressed with himself, Pol. He
was in dire need of a large dose of humility. His face almost fell off
when I told him that he'd been wasting his time on a forgery.'
'Then you haven't really got any idea at all of where the real
Chamdar might be?'
'Not a clue, Pol. Not a clue. About the best I can do to distract
him is to go up into the Alorn kingdoms and thrash around, making
a lot of noise and spreading rumors. Chamdar's got access to a lot
of gold, so he can hire spies in addition to the Dagashi who're
probably standing at every crossroads from Val alorn to Sthiss Tor.
The best way I know of to distract his Dagashi and his home-grown
spies is to flop around waving my arms to make sure that a lot of
Alorns are talking about "that funny old man who tells stories".
That'll be the easy part. All it takes to get an Alorn to start talking
is a couple of tankards of ale, and all it takes to make him stop is
about two dozen more.' He looked at me gravely. 'It isn't much,
Pol, but it's about the best I can come up with for the moment.
You're awfully exposed here, you know. Maybe you'd better go
back to your house on Lake Erat.'
'No, father, I'll stay right here. My manor house is just a little too
isolated, and it's very important for Garion to have people around
him while he's growing up. A hermit wouldn't make a very good
king.'
'And you actually like it here, don't you Pol?' he asked shrewdly.
'It's as good a place as any, father. I'm doing something that I
like to do, and very few people stop by here. I like these people,
and they like me. I'm as happy here as I'd be anyplace, I guess.
,,Besides, if Garion grows up here, he'll be honest, anyway, and
',honesty's a rare commodity on thrones lately, I've noticed.'
'Do you really want to submerge yourself in this rustic setting,
Pol?,
'I think that maybe I do, father. I'm still bleeding from what
happened in Annath, and steady work and quiet surroundings help
to heal that sort of thing.'
'It is a step down the social scale, Pol. You started out as the
Duchess of Erat, ruling over this entire kingdom, and now you're
the head cook on a remote farm. Are you sure you wouldn't
prefer to take Garion to Sulturn or Muros and buy him an
apprenticeship the way you've done with the others?'
, father. Garion's not like the others. He's going to be the Child
of light - if he isn't already - and I don't want to clutter his mind
with carpentry, tombstones, or shoemaking. I want him to have a
mind, but one that's uncluttered and undeveloped. That's the
best way I know of to prepare him for some of the surprises that'll
come up as he goes along.'
'I don't see how keeping him stupid is going to prepare him for
what's in store for him.'
'How old were you when you stumbled across the Master's tower
that snowy night seven thousand years ago?o
'Not very. Fifteen or sixteen at the most, I think.'
'You turned out all right ~ except for a few bad habits - and you
were probably much stupider than Garion's going to be. I'll see to
that personally.'
'You're going to stay here., then?'
'I think I should, father. I'm having one of those feelings. This is
the place where Garion's supposed to grow up. It's not fancy, and
he won't be important here. but this is the place. I knew that when
I first saw it. It's a little isolated and awfully provincial. but there
are people here who Garion absolutely has to get to know, and I'll
do what's right for him., no matter what it costs me.'
Father lifted the drowsing baby and stroked his bushy face across
the little boy's nose. Garion giggled, and father laughed. 'Garion,
my boy,' he said expansively. 'you may just be the luckiest fellow
in the world to have your Aunt Pol to look after you.' Then the old
fraud gave me a sly look and winked. 'That's except for me, of
course. She's been looking after me for longer than I care to
remember. I guess that makes us both lucky, wouldn't you say?'
Garion giggled again.
I looked fondly at this shabby old man and the giggling baby.
and I remembered something uncle Beltira had said a long time
ago. He'd been explaining the unspoken game father and I have
been playing with each other for centuries. He'd told the young
prince that our sometimes spiteful-seeming remarks were not what
they really appeared on the surface. The gentle twin had smiled and
had said, 'It's just their way to avoid coming right out and admitting
that they're genuinely fond of each other, Geran. They'd be too
embarrassed to admit that they love each other, so they play this
little game instead. It's their own private and peculiar way to keep
saying "I love you" over and over again. They might not even know
it themselves, but they say it to each other almost every time they
meet.'
I was ruefully forced to admit that the twins and Beldin had seen
through our little subterfuge all the time - even if father and I hadn't.
I'd spent three thousand and more years trying to avoid that simple
admission, but finally it was so obvious to me that I wondered why
I'd gone to all the trouble. I loved my father. It was as simple as
that. I loved him in spite of his many flaws and bad habits. That
'stunning realization brought tears of happiness to my eyes as that
,'love filled my heart.
'There, now,' mother's voice echoed a little smugly in my mind.
'That wasn't really all that hard, was it?' There was a slight difference
to that usually sourceless voice this time, however. It seemed to
be coming from the kitchen doorway. I turned sharply and stared
unbelievingly at the little nanny-goat standing there looking intently
at me with her mischievous golden eyes.
'Somebody had to feed the baby, Pol,' mother's voice explained. 'I
thought it might be best to keep it in the family.'
I gave up entirely at that point and burst out in a sort of rueful
laughter.
'What's so funny, Pol?' father asked me in a puzzled voice.
'Nothing, father,' I replied. 'Nothing at all.'
EPILOgUE
IT WAS A GREY, THREATENING sort of winter day on the Isle of
the winds. his royal highness, crown prince Geran o a spent
the day up on the battlements of the Hall of the Rivan King making
snowmen - or snow-soldiers, to be more precise. Wolf was with him,
as always. Wolf didn't really contribute very much to the project, but
watched quizzically with his chin resting on his crossed paws
instead. There were a lot of things that went on in the Hall of the
Rivan King that Wolf didn't understand, but he was polite enough
not to make an issue of them.
It was about noon when one of mother's ladies in waiting brought
Geran's four-year-old sister, Princess Beldaran, up to the
battlements. 'Her Majesty says that the little one needs some fresh air,
your Highness,' the countess - or whatever she was - told Geran.
'You're supposed to watch her.'
Prince Geran sighed. It wasn't that he didn't love his baby sister,
but he was currently involved in a work of art, and no artist likes
to be disturbed when he's afire with creativity. Princess Beldaran
was bundled up in furs to the point that she could barely move her
short little arms. Beldaran didn't contribute much to her brother's
masterpiece either, but made snowballs instead, gravely inspecting
each one as it was completed, brushing off a few protruding lumps
with one mittened hand, and then throwing it at her brother without
so much as a change of expression. She didn't hit him very often,
but it was just often enough to distract him. He ground his teeth
together and ignored her. He loved her, but he did ignore her a lot.
He'd discovered that it was quieter that way. Beldaran's voice was
very much like mother's. 'Expressive' was father's word for it. Geran
had some other words he used to describe his sister's penetrating
voice, but he was very careful not to use those words around mother.
He was much relieved when the Countess - or whatever - came
back up about a hour later to retrieve Beldaran. He was getting into
putting the final touches to his art-work, and he really wanted to
concentrate. After much consideration, he decided that the carrots
he'd used for noses were just too comic-looking, so he replaced them
with turnips. That was much better, he decided. He'd been working
on these snow-sculptures for a week now, and they seemed to be
coming along splendidly. Seven fierce, though bulbous, white
soldiers already lined the battlements to glare down at the harbor, and
Prince Geran was confident that if winter just lasted long enough,
he'd have a whole regiment to command.
'Isn't that one bully, Wolf?' Geran asked his companion after he'd
put the finishing touches on the seventh sentinel.
'One does not see the purpose of this,' Wolf noted politely. Geran
thought he detected a note of criticism in his friend's observation.
Wolf was so practical sometimes.
Prince Geran fell back on his grandfather's suggestion at that
point. 'It is a custom,' he explained.
'Oh,' Wolf said. 'That is all right, then. Customs do not need a
purpose.'
Grandfather had taught Geran the language of wolves during the
summer the boy had spent in the Vale. It had really been necessary
at that time, since grandfather and grandmother spoke exclusively
in wolvish. Geran was rather proud of his command of the language,
though Wolf sometimes gave him peculiar looks. Quite a bit of
wolvish is conveyed by movements of the ears, and Geran couldn't
wiggle his ears, so he moved them with his fingers instead. Wolf
seemed to think that was just a bit odd.
Geran was very proud of Wolf. Other boys on the Isle of the
Winds had dogs, and they called them pets. Wolf, however, was
Geran's companion, and they talked together all the time. Wolf,
Geran had noted, had some strange attitudes, and it was sometimes
necessary to step around him carefully to avoid giving offense.
Geran knew that wolves do play, but wolvish play is a kind of
affectionate romping. Wolf couldn't really understand the
complexity of human play, so Geran frequently fell back on the word
custom'.
Geran seldom thought about Wolf's origins. Grandmother had
found Wolf as an orphaned puppy in the forest near Kell over in
Mallorea, and Geran concentrated very hard on erasing all his own
memories of what had happened in Mallorea. He did have occasional
nightmares about Zandramas, though - mostly involving the tiny
points of light that glowed beneath her skin. Those nightmares were
becoming less and less frequent, though, and Geran was confident
that if he refused to think about them, they'd eventually go away
entirely. He firmly pushed those fleeting thoughts out of his mind
and concentrated instead on his snow-sentries.
Evening was settling over the battlements high above the city of
Riva when father came up to fetch his son and Wolf. Geran knew
that father was the Rivan King and 'Overlord of the West', but in
Geran's eyes those were simply job-titles. Father was just 'father'
no matter what others chose to call him. Father's face was sort of
ordinary - unless some kind of emergency came along. When that
happened, father's face became the least ordinary face in the whole
world. Those rare emergencies sometimes obliged father to go get
his sword, and when that happened, most sensible people ran for
cover.
Father gravely surveyed his son's work in the gathering twilight.
'Nice soldiers,' he observed.
'They'd look a lot better if you'd let me borrow some of the things
from the armory,' Geran said hopefully.
'That might not be a very good idea, Geran,' father replied. 'Not
unless you want to spend the whole summer polishing the rust off
them.'
'I guess I hadn't thought of that,' Geran admitted.
'One is curious to know how your day has gone,' father said
politely to Wolf.
'It has been satisfactory,' Wolf replied.
'One is pleased that you have found it so.'
Father and Geran made a special point of not speaking in Wolvish
around mother. Mother didn't like 'secret languages'. She always
seemed to think that people who spoke in languages she didn't
understand were speaking about her. Geran was forced to admit
that quite frequently she was right about that. People did talk about
mother a lot, and secret languages, be they Wolvish or the
fingerwiggling Drasnian variety, tended to keep the noise level down on
the Isle of the Winds. Geran loved mother, but she was excitable.
'Did you have a nice day, dear?' mother asked when Geran and
father entered the royal apartment after dutifully stamping the snow
off their feet in the corridor outside. Wolf, of course, didn't stamp
his paws, but he'd already chewed the ice out from between his
toes, so he didn't really track in very much water.
'It was just bully, mother,' Geran replied. All the boys Prince
Geran knew used the word 'bully' every chance they got, and Geran
was very fashion-conscious, so he also sprinkled his speech with
'bullies'. It was the stylish thing to do, after all.
'Your bath's ready, Geran,' mother told him.
'I'm not really all that dirty, mother,' he said without thinking.
Then he bit his tongue. Why did he always start talking before he
considered the consequences?
'I don't care if you don't think you're dirty!' mother said, her
voice going up several octaves. 'I told you to go bathe! Now move!'
'Yes, mother.'
Father flickered a quick 'you'd better do as she says' at Geran
with a few barely perceptible moves of his fingers. 'You'll get in
trouble if you don't.'
Geran sighed and nodded. He was very nearly as tall as mother
by now, but she still loomed large in his awareness. Prince Geran
was seven years old, and Wolf considered him to be an adult. Geran
felt that his maturity entitled him to a little respect, but he didn't
get very much of that from mother. He didn't really think that was
very fair.
Living in the same house with mother was a constant adventure,
and Geran had long since discovered that the best way to hold down
the level of excitement was to do exactly as mother told him to do.
Prince Geran had noticed that he was not alone in making that
discovery. The unspoken motto of the entire castle - the-entire Isle
of the Winds, most likely - was 'don't cross the Queen'. the Rivans
all adored their tiny queen anyway, and it wasn't really all that
much trouble to do exactly as she told them to do. Keeping Queen
Ce'Nedra happy was a national pastime, and making sure that
everybody understood its importance was one of the major parts of
the job of Kail, the Rivan Warder.
After Prince Geran had taken a rather rudimentary bath, he joined
the rest of the family in the dining-room of the royal apartment. He
had, however, made sure that the insides of his ears were slightly
damp. Mother had this thing about clean ears. Prince Geran felt that
as long as he could still hear, his ears were clean enough, but he
always ducked his head under the water at the end of his bath just
to keep mother happy.
He joined his family at the table, and the serving maid brought
in dinner. They were having ham that evening, and Geran liked
ham. There was, however, one major drawback to a ham dinner,
and that was the traditional inclusion of spinach. For the life of him,
Prince Geran could not understand why mother felt that ham and
spinach went together. Geran privately felt that spinach didn't really
go with anything. To make matters even worse, Wolf didn't care
for spinach either, so Geran couldn't furtively slip forkfuls of the
awful stuff under the table to his friend the way he could with
chunks of the roast goat the kitchen periodically delivered to the
royal table. Geran didn't care much for goat, but it ranked way
above spinach in his opinion.
'How's your dinner, dear?' mother asked him.
'Bully, mother,' he replied quickly. 'Real bully.'
She rolled her eyes upward at his choice of language. Geran felt
that mother didn't really have a very well-developed sense of style.
'What did Captain Greldik have to say?' mother asked father.
Geran knew Captain Greldik, the vagrant Cherek sea-captain, and
he rather liked him Mother, however, didn't approve of Captain
Greldik. So far as Geran knew, no woman approved of Captain
Greldik. They all seemed to feel that Greldik had a few too many
bad habits. Worse yet, he didn't even care.
'Oh,' father said, 'I'm glad you reminded me. He says that Velvet's
expecting a baby.'
'Silk's going to be a father?' mother exclaimed.
'That's what Greldik says.'
'I think the whole institution of parenthood's going to have to be
redefined,' mother laughed.
'With Silk and Velvet for parents, we know what the baby's
profession's going to be,' father added.
Geran didn't quite understand that part, since he was pondering
a strategic dilemma just then. He'd put on a robe after his bath, and
the robe had pockets - nice deep ones that were certainly large
enough to hold and conceal the spinach on his plate until he could
find an opportunity to dispose of the awful stuff. The problem with
that lay in mother's unfortunate habit of conducting impromptu
searches of his pockets without any warning. Geran had lost a whole
pocketful of perfectly good fishing worms that way one day last
summer. He was fairly sure that the echoes of the scream she'd
emitted when she'd reached into his pocket and encountered the
worms was still bouncing around in the rafters somewhere.
Deciding that concealing the spinach in the pocket of his robe was just
too risky, Geran reluctantly choked it down, vowing once again that
his first act when he ascended the throne would be to issue a royal
decree banishing spinach forever from his realm.
Prince Geran might have tried to outlast mother on the spinach
business, sitting stubbornly in his chair without touching it until
dawn or later, but it was rapidly coming up on the high point of
his day. For the past several months, mother had been reading to
him after she'd settled him down in his bed, and it was no ordinary
book she was reading. This book had been written by his very own
Aunt Pol, and he knew most of the people who appeared in the
later pages. He knew Barak and Silk, Lelldorin and Mandorallen,
Durnik and Queen Porenn, and Hettar and Adara. Aunt Pol's book
was almost like a family reunion.
'Have you finished?' mother asked him after he'd laid his fork
down.
'Yes, mother.'
'Have you been a good boy today?' Geran wondered what mother
might do if he said, 'No.'
He prudently decided not to try it. 'Very good, mother,' he said
instead. 'I didn't break a single thing.'
'Amazing,' she said. 'Now I suppose you'd like to have me read
to you?'
'If it's not too much trouble, mother.' Geran knew the value of
the polite approach when he wanted something.
'Very well,' mother said. 'You go pop into bed, and I'll be along
just as soon as I get Beldaran settled in for the night.'
Geran got up, kissed his father good night, and went to his
bedroom. He set his candle down on the little table beside his bed and
looked around quickly, giving his room a quick pre-emptive~ survey.
It wasn't too bad, but just to be on the safe side, he kicked the worst
of the clutter under his bed.
'One is curious to know why you do that each night,' Wolf said.
'It is a new custom,' Geran replied, moving his ears with his
fingers. 'One believes that if one's mother does not see what is lying
on the floor of one's den, one's mother will not talk about it. '
Wolf's tongue lolled out in wolfish laughter. 'One notices that
you are quick to learn,' he said. Then he hopped effortlessly up onto
the bed, yawned and curled himself up into a furry ball the way he
always did.
Prince Geran looked around and decided that the room was
probably neat enough. Sometimes Geran's 'things' got ahead of him, and
the only real disadvantage of having mother read to him every
evening was the opportunity it gave her for a daily inspection. It
seemed to Geran that mother had an unwholesome obsession with
neatness. He'd frequently tried to explain to her that when he had
his 'things' spread out on the floor, he could find exactly what he
wanted almost immediately, but that when he put them all away
as she wanted him to, it took hours to find what he wanted and
that the search immediately returned everything right back to the
floor where it had been in the first place. She'd listen patiently each
time, and then she'd repeat the rather worn-out command, 'clean
this pig-pen up'. He had once - and only once ~ suggested that the
chore was beneath his dignity and that one of the servants should
do it. He still shuddered at the memory of her reaction to that
particular suggestion. He was positive that had there been a good
following wind that day, mother's speech would have been clearly
audible on the Sendarian coast.
He climbed up into his bed and placed several pillows on the
side nearest the candle so that mother could prop herself up while
reading. He reasoned that if she were comfortable, she might read
longer. Then he snuggled down under the bolster, wriggling his
feet down underneath Wolf. The really keen thing about having
Wolf sleep with him was how warm Wolf was. Geran's feet never
got cold.
After a little while mother came into the room with Aunt Pol's
book under her arm. She absently scratched Wolf's ears, and Wolf's
golden eyes opened briefly, and he wagged his tail a couple of times
in appreciation. Then his eyes closed again. Wolf had told Geran
that he was quite fond of mother, but Wolf wasn't very
demonstrative, since he felt that it wasn't dignified.
Mother climbed into bed, plumped up the pillows Geran had
placed there for her use, and then tucked her feet under one corner
of his down-filled bolster. 'Are you warm enough?' she asked him.
'Yes, mother. Everything's just bully.'
She opened the book on her lap. 'Where were we?' she asked.
'Aunt Pol was looking for the crazy lady out in the snow,' Geran
replied. 'At least that was what was happening when I fell asleep.'
Then a momentary apprehension came over him. 'You didn't go on
without me, did you?' he asked.
She laughed, 'Geran dear, this is a book. It doesn't run off or
disappear once it's been read. Oh, speaking of that, how are your
lessons coming?'
He sighed. 'All right - I guess. The book my tutor's got me reading
isn't very interesting. It's a history book. Why do I have to have a
Tolnedran tutor, mother? Why can't I have an Alorn one instead?'
'Because Tolnedrans are better teachers than Alorns, dear.' Mother
did have opinions, Geran had noticed.
She leafed her way through the last third of Aunt Pol's book.
'Ah,' she said, 'here we are.'
'Before you start, mother, could I ask a question?'
'Of course.'
'Aunt Pol can do magic, can't she?'
'She doesn't really like that term, Geran, and neither does your
grandfather.'
'I won't use it in front of them, then. If she can do magic things,
why didn't she just wiggle her fingers and make the crazy lady not
crazy any more?'
'I guess there are some things that magic can't do.'
That was a terrible let-down for Prince Geran. He'd long felt that
some training in magic might be very useful when he became king.
The people in father's government always seemed to be worrying
about money, and if the king could just wave his hand and fill the
room with it, they could all take the rest of the day off and go
fishing, or something.
Mother took up the story of Aunt Pol's search for the madwoman,
Alara, and it seemed to Geran that he could almost see the frigid
mountains and dark forests around the village of Annath as Aunt
Pol continued her desperate search. He almost held his breath,
hoping that the gloomy part he was sure was coming might be averted.
It wasn't, though.
'I hate it when a story does that,' he said.
'This isn't exactly a story, Geran,' mother explained..'This really
happened exactly the way Aunt Pol says it did.'
'Are we going to get to any happy parts soon?'
'Why don't you stop asking questions and find out?'
That seemed totally uncalled for to Geran.
Mother continued to read, and after a few minutes, Geran raised
his hand slightly, even as he would have in his class-room. 'Could
I ask just one question, mother?'
'If you wish.'
'How did grandfather know that Chamdar was burning down that
house?'
'Your grandfather knows all kinds of things, Geran - even things
he's not supposed to know. This time, though, I think that voice he
carries around in his head told him about it.'
'I wish I had a voice inside my head to tell me things. That might
keep me out of a lot of trouble.'
'Amen!' mother agreed fervently. Then she went on with the story.
When she got to the part about Aunt Pol's house on the shores
of Lake Erat, Geran interrupted again without even thinking about
it. 'Have you ever been there, mother? - Aunt Pol's house, I mean.'
'A couple of times,' mother replied.
'Is it really as big as she says it is?'
'Bigger, probably. Someday she might take you there and you'll
be able to see it for yourself.'
'That'd be just bully, mother!' he said excitedly.
'What is it with this "bully" business?'
'All the boys my age say that a lot. It sort of means "very, very
nice". It's a real good word. Everybody uses it all the time.'
'Oh, one of those. It'll pass - eventually.'
'What?'
'Never mind.' Then mother went back to her reading.
Prince Geran's eyelids began to droop when the story got as far as
Faldor's farm. That part wasn't really very exciting, and somewhere
during that endless discussion of how to make a pot of stew, the
Crown Prince of Riva drifted off to sleep.
The little boy's regular breathing told Queen Ce'Nedra that she'd
lost her audience. She slipped a scrap of paper between the pages
of the book, and then she leaned back reflectively.
Aunt Pol's book had filled in all the gaps Ce'Nedra had noticed
in Belgarath's book - and then some. The wealth of characters, many
of them the towering figures of legend, quite nearly filled the Rivan
Queen with awe. Riva Iron-grip was here, and Brand, the man who'd
struck down a God. Beldaran, the most beautiful woman in history,
was here. Asrana and Ontrose had nearly broken Ce'Nedra's heart.
Aunt Pol's book had virtually erased the entire library of the History
Department of the University of Tol Honeth and replaced it with
what had really happened.
The staggering march of history was right here on the Rivan
Queen's lap. She opened it again and read the part she loved the
most, that quiet little scene in the kitchen at Faldor's farm when
Polgara was no longer the Duchess of Erat, but merely the cook on
a remote Sendarian farm. Rank meant absolutely nothing there,
however. What really mattered was Polgara's gentle, unspoken
realization that in spite of all his flaws and his seeming desertion of her
mother before she and Beldaran were born, Polgara really loved her
vagabond father. The animosity she'd clung to for all those centuries
had been rather gently evaporated.
That subterranean little game Aunt Pol and her father had played
with each other for centuries had produced a surprise winner, a
winner they hadn't even realized was taking part in their game.
They'd spent three thousand years nipping at each other in
halfserious play, and for all that time, the wolf Poledra had watched
them play, patiently waiting for them to squirm around into the
exact position where she wanted them to be, and then she had
pounced.
'You'd understand that, wouldn't you, Wolf?' she murmured to
her son's companion.
Wolf opened his golden eyes and thumped his tail briefly in
acknowledgment on the bed.
That startled Ce'Nedra just a bit. Wolf seemed to know exactly
what she was thinking. Who was this Wolf, anyhow? She quickly
pushed that thought into the back of her mind. The possibility that
Wolf might not be who - or what - he seemed was something
Ce'Nedra wasn't prepared to deal with just now. For now, the
discovery that Poledra had won that game was enough for one evening.
Reluctant or not, though, there was one realization that crashed in
on the Rivan Queen. Her husband's family pre-dated the cracking of
the world, and there was no getting around the fact that it was the
most important family in human history. When Ce'Nedra had first
met Garion, she'd rather scornfully dismissed him as an illiterate,
orphaned scullery boy from Sendaria, and she'd been wrong on all
points. She herself had taught Garion how to read, but she was forced
to admit that all she'd really done had been to open the book for him.
She'd almost had to run to keep up with him once he'd learned the
alphabet. He'd washed a few pots and pans in Faldor's kitchen, but
he was a king, not a scullery boy. Garion wasn't a Sendarian, either,
and as for his being an orphan, he was the farthest thing in the world
from being an orphan. His family stretched back to the dawn of time.
Ce'Nedra had fretted about the possibility that her husband might
outrank her, but he didn't just outrank her, he transcended her. That
really went down hard for the Rivan Queen.
She sighed. A whole group of unpleasant realizations were
crowding in on Ce'Nedra. She glanced at her own reflection in her son's
smeary mirror, and she lightly touched her deep red hair with her
fingers. 'Well,' she sniffed, 'at least I'm prettier than he is.'
Then she realized just how ridiculous that final defense was, and
she laughed in spite of herself. She threw up her arms in surrender.
'I give up,' she said, still laughing.
Then she slipped out of bed, tucked the bolster up under Geran's
chin and lightly kissed him. 'Sleep well, my dear little Prince,' she
murmured.
Then, not knowing exactly why, she stroked Wolf's head. 'You
too, dear friend,' she said to him. 'Watch over our little boy.'
The Wolf looked at her gravely with those calm golden eyes, and
then he did something totally unexpected. He gave the side of her
'face a quick, wet lick with his long tongue.
Ce'Nedra giggled in spite of herself, trying to wipe her cheek.
'She threw her arms around Wolf's massive head and hugged him.
Then the Rivan Queen blew out the candle, tiptoed out of the
room, and quietly closed the door behind her.
Wolf lay there on the foot of Geran's bed looking at the dying fire
in the fireplace with those golden eyes of his for quite a long time.
Everything seemed to be as it was supposed to be, so Wolf sighed
contentedly, stretched his muzzle out on his front paws, and went
back to sleep.