I Seldom Go from My Cell
IN THIS disposition I continued for near a year
after this; and so far was I from desiring an occasion for falling
upon these wretches, that in all that time I never once went up the
hill to see whether there were any of them in sight, or to know
whether any of them had been on shore there or not, that I might
not be tempted to renew any of my contrivances against them, or be
provoked by any advantage which might present itself to fall upon
them; only this I did, I went and removed my boat, which I had on
the other side the island, and carried it down to the east end of
the whole island, where I ran it into a little cove which I found
under some high rocks, and where I knew, by reason of the currents,
the savages durst not, at least would not, come with their boats
upon any account whatsoever.
I SELDOM GO FROM MY CELL
With my boat I carried away everything that I had
left there belonging to her, though not necessary for the bare
going thither, viz., a mast and sail which I had made for her, and
a thing like an anchor, but indeed which could not be called either
anchor or grappling; however, it was the best I could make of its
kind. All these I removed, that there might not be the least shadow
of any discovery, or any appearance of any boat or of any human
habitation upon the island.
Besides this, I kept myself, as I said, more
retired than ever, and seldom went from my cell, other than upon my
constant employment, viz., to milk my she-goats and manage my
little flock in the wood; which, as it was quite on the other part
of the island, was quite out of danger; for certain it is that
these savage people who sometimes haunted this island never came
with any thoughts of finding anything here; and consequently never
wandered off from the coast; and I doubt not but they might have
been several times on shore, after my apprehensions of them had
made me cautious, as well as before; and indeed, I looked back with
some horror upon the thoughts of what my condition would have been,
if I had chopped6 upon them and been
discovered before that, when naked and unarmed, except with one
gun, and that loaden often only with small shot, I walked
everywhere, peeping and peeping about the island to see what I
could get; what a surprise should I have been in, if, when I
discovered the print of a man’s foot, I had instead of that seen
fifteen or twenty savages and found them pursuing me, and by the
swiftness of their running, no possibility of my escaping
them!
The thoughts of this sometimes sunk my very soul
within me, and distressed my mind so much that I could not soon
recover it, to think what I should have done, and how I not only
should not have had presence of mind enough to do what I might have
done; much less what now, after so much consideration and
preparation, I might be able to do. Indeed, after serious thinking
of these things, I would be very melancholy, and sometimes it would
last a great while; but I resolved it at last all into thankfulness
to that Providence which had delivered me from so many unseen
dangers and had kept me from those mischiefs which I could no way
have been the agent in delivering myself from, because I had not
the least notion of any such thing depending, or the least
supposition of it being possible.
This renewed a contemplation which often had come
to my thoughts in former time, when first I began to see the
merciful dispositions of Heaven in the dangers we run through in
this life. How wonderfully we are delivered, when we know nothing
of it. How when we are in (a quandary, as we call it), a doubt or
hesitation, whether to go this way, or that way, a secret hint
shalldirect us this way, when we intended to go that way; nay, when
sense, our own inclination, and perhaps business has called to go
the other way, yet a strange impression upon the mind, from we know
not what springs, and by we know not what power, shall overrule us
to go this way; and it shall afterwards appear that had we gone
that way which we should have gone, and even to our imagination
ought to have gone, we should have been ruined and lost. Upon
these, and many like reflections, I afterwards made it a certain
rule with me that whenever I found those secret hints, or pressings
of my mind, to doing or not doing anything that presented, or to
going this way or that way, I never failed to obey the secret
dictate; though I knew no other reason for it than that such a
pressure, or such a hint, hung upon my mind. I could give many
examples of the success of this conduct in the course of my life;
but more especially in the latter part of my inhabiting this
unhappy island; besides many occasions which it is very likely I
might have taken notice of, if I had seen with the same eyes then
that I saw with now. But ’tis never too late to be wise; and I
cannot but advise all considering men, whose lives are attended
with such extraordinary incidents as mine, or even though not so
extraordinary, not to slight such secret intimations of Providence,
let them come from what invisible intelligence they will, that I
shall not discuss, and perhaps cannot account for; but certainly
they are a proof of the converse of spirits and the secret
communication between those embodied and those unembodied; and such
a proof as can never be withstood. Of which I shall have occasion
to give some very remarkable instances in the remainder of my
solitary residence in this dismal place.
I believe the reader of this will not think strange
if I confess that these anxieties, these constant dangers I lived
in, and the concern that was now upon me, put an end to all
invention and to all the contrivances that I had laid for my future
accommodations and conveniences. I had the care of my safety more
now upon my hands than that of my food. I cared not to drive a nail
or chop a stick of wood now, for fear the noise I should make
should be heard; much less would I fire a gun, for the same reason;
and above all, I was intolerably uneasy at making any fire, lest
the smoke, which is visible at a great distance in the day, should
betray me; and for this reason I removed that part of my business
which required fire, such as burning of pots and pipes, etc., into
my new apartment in the woods, where after I had been some time, I
found, to my unspeakable consolation, a mere natural cave in the
earth, which went in a vast way, and where, I dare say, no savage,
had he been at the mouth of it, would be so hardy as to venture in,
nor indeed would any man else, but one who, like me, wanted nothing
so much as a safe retreat.
The mouth of this hollow was at the bottom of a
great rock, where, by mere accident (I would say, if I did not see
abundant reason to ascribe all such things now to Providence), I
was cutting down some thick branches of trees to make charcoal; and
before I go on, I must observe the reason of my making this
charcoal, which was thus:
I was afraid of making a smoke about my habitation,
as I said before; and yet I could not live there without baking my
bread, cooking my meat, etc.; so I contrived to burn some wood
here, as I had seen done in England, under turf, till it became
chark, or dry coal; and then putting the fire out, I preserved the
coal to carry home and perform the other services which fire was
wanting for at home, without danger of smoke.
But this by the by. While I was cutting down some
wood here, I perceived that behind a very thick branch of low
brushwood, or underwood, there was a kind of hollow place; I was
curious to look into it, and getting with difficulty into the mouth
of it, I found it was pretty large, that is to say, sufficient for
me to stand upright in it, and perhaps another with me; but I must
confess to you, I made more haste out than I did in, when looking
farther into the place, and which was perfectly dark, I saw two
broad shining eyes of some creature, whether devil or man I knew
not, which twinkled like two stars, the dim light from the cave’s
mouth shining directly in and making the reflection.
However, after some pause, I recovered myself, and
began to call myself a thousand fools, and tell myself that he that
was afraid to see the Devil was not fit to live twenty years in an
island all alone; and that I durst to believe there was nothing in
this cave that was more frightful than myself; upon this, plucking
up my courage, I took up a great firebrand, and in I rushed again,
with the stick flaming in my hand; I had not gone three steps in
but I was almost as much frighted as I was before; for I heard a
very loud sigh, like that of a man in some pain, and it was
followed by a broken noise, as if of words half expressed, and then
a deep sigh again. I stepped back, and was indeed struck with such
a surprise that it put me into a cold sweat; and if I had had a hat
on my head, I will not answer for it that my hair might not have
lifted it off. But still plucking up my spirits as well as I could,
and encouraging myself a little with considering that the power and
presence of God was everywhere and was able to protect me, upon
this I stepped forward again, and by the light of the firebrand,
holding it up a little over my head, I saw lying on the ground a
most monstrous, frightful old he-goat, just making his will, as we
say, and gasping for life, and dying indeed of mere old age.
I stirred him a little to see if I could get him
out, and he essayed to get up, but was not able to raise himself;
and I thought with myself, he might even lie there; for if he had
frighted me so, he would certainly fright any of the savages, if
any of them should be so hardy as to come in there while he had any
life in him.
I was now recovered from my surprise and began to
look round me, when I found the cave was but very small, that is to
say, it might be about twelve foot over, but in no manner of shape,
either round or square, no hands having ever been employed in
making it but those of mere nature. I observed also that there was
a place at the farther side of it that went in farther but was so
low that it required me to creep upon my hands and knees to go into
it, and whither I went I knew not; so having no candle, I gave it
over for some time; but resolved to come again the next day,
provided with candles and a tinderbox, which I had made of the lock
of one of the muskets, with some wildfire in the pan.
Accordingly, the next day I came provided with six
large candles of my own making, for I made very good candles now of
goat’s tallow; and going into this low place, I was obliged to
creep upon all fours, as I have said, almost ten yards; which, by
the way, I thought was a venture bold enough, considering that I
knew not how far it might go, nor what was beyond it. When I was
got through the strait, I found the roof rose higher up, I believe
near twenty foot; but never was such a glorious sight seen in the
island, I dare say, as it was to look round the sides and roof of
this vault, or cave; the walls reflected a hundred thousand lights
to me from my two candles; what it was in the rock, whether
diamonds, or any other precious stones, or gold, which I rather
supposed it to be, I knew not.
The place I was in was a most delightful cavity or
grotto of its kind, as could be expected, though perfectly dark;
the floor was dry and level and had a sort of small loose gravel
upon it, so that there was no nauseous or venomous creature to be
seen, neither was there any damp or wet on the sides or roof. The
only difficulty in it was the entrance, which, however, as it was a
place of security, and such a retreat as I wanted, I thought that
was a convenience; so that I was really rejoiced at the discovery
and resolved, without any delay, to bring some of those things
which I was most anxious about to this place; particularly, I
resolved to bring hither my magazine of powder, and all my spare
arms, viz., two fowling pieces (for I had three in all) and three
muskets (for of them I had eight in all); so I kept at my castle
only five, which stood ready mounted, like pieces of cannon, on my
outmost fence; and were ready also to take out upon any
expedition.
Upon this occasion of removing my ammunition, I
took occasion to open the barrel of powder which I took up out of
the sea, and which had been wet; and I found that the water had
penetrated about three or four inches into the powder on every
side, which, caking and growing hard, had preserved the inside like
a kernel in a shell; so that I had near sixty pound of very good
powder in the centre of the cask; and this was an agreeable
discovery to me at that time; so I carried all away thither, never
keeping above two or three pound of powder with me in my castle,
for fear of a surprise of any kind. I also carried thither all the
lead I had left for bullets.
I fancied myself now like one of the ancient
giants, which were said to live in caves and holes in the rocks,
where none could come at them; for I persuaded myself, while I was
here, if five hundred savages were to hunt me, they could never
find me out; or if they did, they would not venture to attack me
here.
The old goat which I found expiring died in the
mouth of the cave the next day after I made this discovery; and I
found it much easier to dig a great hole there and throw him in and
cover him with earth than to drag him out; so I interred him there,
to prevent offence to my nose.
I was now in my twenty-third year of residence in
this island and was so naturalized to the place and to the manner
of living that could I have but enjoyed the certainty that no
savages would come to the place to disturb me, I could have been
content to have capitulated for spending the rest of my time there,
even to the last moment, till I had laid me down and died, like the
old goat in the cave. I had also arrived to some little diversions
and amusements, which made the time pass more pleasantly with me a
great deal than it did before; as, first, I had taught my Poll, as
I noted before, to speak; and he did it so familiarly, and talked
so articulately and plain, that it was very pleasant to me; and he
lived with me no less than six and twenty years. How long he might
live afterwards I know not; though I know they have a notion in
Brazil that they live a hundred years; perhaps poor Poll may be
alive there still, calling after poor Robin Crusoe to this day. I
wish no Englishman the ill luck to come there and hear him; but if
he did, he would certainly believe it was the Devil. My dog was a
very pleasant and loving companion to me for no less than sixteen
years of my time, and then died of mere old age; as for my cats,
they multiplied, as I have observed, to that degree, that I was
obliged to shoot several of them at first to keep them from
devouring me and all I had; but at length, when the two old ones I
brought with me were gone, and after some time continually driving
them from me and letting them have no provision with me, they all
ran wild into the woods, except two or three favourites, which I
kept tame, and whose young, when they had any, I always drowned;
and these were part of my family. Besides these, I always kept two
or three household kids about me, which I taught to feed out of my
hand; and I had two more parrots, which talked pretty well, and
would all call ‘‘Robin Crusoe,’’ but none like my first; nor indeed
did I take the pains with any of them that I had done with him. I
had also several tame seafowls, whose names I know not, which I
caught upon the shore, and cut their wings; and the little stakes
which I had planted before my castle wall being now grown up to a
good thick grove, these fowls all lived among these low trees and
bred there, which was very agreeable to me; so that, as I said
above, I began to be very well contented with the life I led, if it
might but have been secured from the dread of the savages.
But it was otherwise directed; and it may not be
amiss for all people who shall meet with my story to make this just
observation from it, viz., how frequently, in the course of our
lives, the evil which in itself we seek most to shun, and which,
when we are fallen into, is the most dreadful to us, is oftentimes
the very means or door of our deliverance, by which alone we can be
raised again from the affliction we are fallen into. I could give
many examples of this in the course of my unaccountable life; but
in nothing was it more particularly remarkable than in the
circumstances of my last years of solitary residence in this
island.
It was now the month of December, as I said above,
in my twenty-third year; and this, being the southern solstice, for
winter I cannot call it, was the particular time of my harvest, and
required my being pretty much abroad in the fields; when, going out
pretty early in the morning, even before it was thorough daylight,
I was surprised with seeing a light of some fire upon the shore, at
a distance from me of about two miles, towards the end of the
island, where I had observed some savages had been, as before, but
not on the other side; but to my great affliction, it was on my
side of the island.
I was indeed terribly surprised at the sight, and
stopped short within my grove, not daring to go out, lest I might
be surprised; and yet I had no more peace within, from the
apprehensions I had that if these savages, in rambling over the
island, should find my corn standing, or cut, or any of my works
and improvements, they would immediately conclude that there were
people in the place, and would then never give over till they had
found me out. In this extremity I went back directly to my castle,
pulled up the ladder after me, and made all things without look as
wild and natural as I could.
Then I prepared myself within, putting myself in a
posture of defence; I loaded all my cannon, as I called them; that
is to say, my muskets, which were mounted upon my new
fortification, and all my pistols, and resolved to defend myself to
the last gasp, not forgetting seriously to commend myself to the
Divine protection, and earnestly to pray to God to deliver me out
of the hands of the barbarians; and in this posture I continued
about two hours; but began to be mighty impatient for intelligence
abroad, for I had no spies to send out.
After sitting a while longer and musing what I
should do in this case, I was not able to bear sitting in ignorance
any longer; so setting up my ladder to the side of the hill, where
there was a flat place, as I observed before, and then pulling the
ladder up after me, I set it up again and mounted to the top of the
hill; and pulling out my perspective-glass, which I had taken on
purpose, I laid me down flat on my belly on the ground and began to
look for the place. I presently found there was no less than nine
naked savages sitting round a small fire they had made, not to warm
them, for they had no need of that, the weather being extreme hot;
but, as I suppose, to dress some of their barbarous diet of human
flesh, which they had brought with them, whether alive or dead I
could not know.
They had two canoes with them, which they had
hauled up upon the shore; and as it was then tide of ebb, they
seemed to me to wait for the return of the flood to go away again;
it is not easy to imagine what confusion this sight put me into,
especially seeing them come on my side the island, and so near me
too; but when I observed their coming must be always with the
current of the ebb, I began afterwards to be more sedate in my
mind, being satisfied that I might go abroad with safety all the
time of the tide of flood, if they were not on shore before. And
having made this observation, I went abroad about my harvest work
with the more composure.
As I expected, so it proved; for as soon as the
tide made to the westward, I saw them all take boat, and row (or
paddle, as we call it) all away. I should have observed that, for
an hour and more before they went off, they went to dancing, and I
could easily discern their postures and gestures by my glasses. I
could not perceive, by my nicest observation, but that they were
stark naked and had not the least covering upon them; but whether
they were men or women, that I could not distinguish.
As soon as I saw them shipped and gone, I took two
guns upon my shoulders and two pistols at my girdle and my great
sword by my side, without a scabbard, and with all the speed I was
able to make I went away to the hill where I had discovered the
first appearance of all; and as soon as I got thither, which was
not less than two hours (for I could not go apace, being so loaden
with arms as I was), I perceived there had been three canoes more
of savages on that place; and looking out farther, I saw they were
all at sea together, making over for the main.
This was a dreadful sight to me, especially when,
going down to the shore, I could see the marks of horror which the
dismal work they had been about had left behind it, viz., the
blood, the bones, and part of the flesh of human bodies, eaten and
devoured by those wretches, with merriment and sport. I was so
filled with indignation at the sight that I began now to
premeditate the destruction of the next that I saw there, let them
be who or how many soever.
It seemed evident to me that the visits which they
thus made to this island are not very frequent; for it was above
fifteen months before any more of them came on shore there again;
that is to say, I neither saw them, or any footsteps, or signals of
them, in all that time; for as to the rainy seasons, then they are
sure not to come abroad, at least not so far; yet all this while I
lived uncomfortably, by reason of the constant apprehensions I was
in of their coming upon me by surprise; from whence I observe that
the expectation of evil is more bitter than the suffering;
especially if there is no room to shake off that expectation, or
those apprehensions.
During all this time, I was in the murdering
humour, and took up most of my hours, which should have been better
employed, in contriving how to circumvent and fall upon them the
very next time I should see them; especially if they should be
divided, as they were the last time, into two parties; nor did I
consider at all that if I killed one party, suppose ten or a dozen,
I was still the next day, or week, or month, to kill another, and
so another, even ad infinitum, till I should be at length no
less a murderer than they were in being man-eaters, and perhaps
much more so.
I spent my days now in great perplexity and anxiety
of mind, expecting that I should one day or other fall into the
hands of these merciless creatures; and if I did at any time
venture abroad, it was not without looking round me with the
greatest care and caution imaginable; and now I found to my great
comfort how happy it was that I provided for a tame flock or herd
of goats; for I durst not upon any account fire my gun, especially
near that side of the island where they usually came, lest I should
alarm the savages; and if they had fled from me now, I was sure to
have them come back again, with perhaps two or three hundred canoes
with them, in a few days, and then I knew what to expect.
However, I wore out a year and three months more
before I ever saw any more of these savages, and then I found them
again, as I shall soon observe. It is true, they might have been
there once or twice; but either they made no stay, or at least I
did not hear them; but in the month of May, as near as I could
calculate, and in my four and twentieth year, I had a very strange
encounter with them, of which in its place.