I Travel Quite Across the Island
I MENTIONED before that I had a great mind to see
the whole island, and that I had travelled up the brook, and so on
to where I built my bower, and where I had an opening quite to the
sea on the other side of the island; I now resolved to travel quite
across to the seashore on that side; so taking my gun, a hatchet,
and my dog, and a larger quantity of powder and shot than usual,
with two biscuit cakes and a great bunch of raisins in my pouch for
my store, I began my journey. When I had passed the vale where my
bower stood, as above, I came within view of the sea to the west,
and it being a very clear day, I fairly descried land, whether an
island or a continent I could not tell; but it lay very high,
extending from the west to the west-southwest at a very great
distance; by my guess it could not be less than fifteen or twenty
leagues off.
I could not tell what part of the world this might
be, otherwise than that I knew it must be part of America; and, as
I concluded by all my observations, must be near the Spanish
dominions, and perhaps was all inhabited by savages, where if I
should have landed, I had been in a worse condition than I was now;
and therefore I acquiesced in the dispositions of Providence,
which, I began now to own, and to believe, ordered everything for
the best; I say, I quieted my mind with this, and left afflicting
myself with fruitless wishes of being there.
Besides, after some pause upon this affair, I
considered that if this land was the Spanish coast, I should
certainly, one time or other, see some vessel pass or repass one
way or other; but if not, then it was the savage coast between the
Spanish country and Brazil, which are indeed the worst of savages;
for they are cannibals, or men-eaters, and fail not to murder and
devour all the human bodies that fall into their hands.
With these considerations I walked very leisurely
forward. I found that side of the island, where I now was, much
pleasanter than mine, the open or savanna fields sweet, adorned
with flowers and grass, and full of very fine woods. I saw
abundance of parrots, and fain I would have caught one, if
possible, to have kept it to be tame and taught it to speak to me.
I did, after some painstaking, catch a young parrot, for I knocked
it down with a stick, and having recovered it, I brought it home;
but it was some years before I could make him speak. However, at
last I taught him to call me by my name very familiarly. But the
accident that followed, though it be a trifle, will be very
diverting in its place.
I was exceedingly diverted with this journey. I
found in the low grounds hares, as I thought them to be, and foxes,
but they differed greatly from all the other kinds I had met with;
nor could I satisfy myself to eat them, though I killed several.
But I had no need to be venturous; for I had no want of food, and
of that which was very good too; especially these three sorts,
viz., goats, pigeons, and turtle or tortoise; which, added to my
grapes, Leadenhall Market could not have furnished a table better
than I, in proportion to the company; and though my case was
deplorable enough, yet I had great cause for thankfulness, that I
was not driven to any extremities for food; but rather plenty, even
to dainties.
I never travelled in this journey above two miles
outright in a day, or thereabouts; but I took so many turns and
returns, to see what discoveries I could make, that I came weary
enough to the place where I resolved to sit down for all night; and
then I either reposed myself in a tree, or surrounded myself with a
row of stakes set upright in the ground, either from one tree to
another, or so as no wild creature could come at me without waking
me.
As soon as I came to the seashore, I was surprised
to see that I had taken up my lot on the worst side of the island;
for here indeed the shore was covered with innumerable turtles,
whereas on the other side I had found but three in a year and a
half. Here was also an infinite number of fowls of many kinds, some
which I had seen, and some of which I had not seen before, and many
of them very good meat; but such as I knew not the names of, except
those called penguins.
I could have shot as many as I pleased, but was
very sparing of my powder and shot; and therefore had more mind to
kill a she-goat, if I could, which I could better feed on; and
though there were many goats here more than on my side the island,
yet it was with much more difficulty that I could come near them,
the country being flat and even, and they saw me much sooner than
when I was on the hill.
I confess this side of the country was much
pleasanter than mine, but yet I had not the least inclination to
remove; for as I was fixed in my habitation, it became natural to
me, and I seemed all the while I was here to be, as it were, upon a
journey, and from home. However, I travelled along the shore of the
sea, towards the east, I suppose about twelve miles; and then
setting up a great pole upon the shore for a mark, I concluded I
would go home again; and that the next journey I took should be on
the other side of the island, east from my dwelling, and so round
till I came to my post again. Of which in its place.
I took another way to come back than that I went,
thinking I could easily keep all the island so much in my view that
I could not miss finding my first dwelling by viewing the country;
but I found myself mistaken; for being come about two or three
miles, I found myself descended into a very large valley, but so
surrounded with hills, and those hills covered with wood, that I
could not see which was my way by any direction but that of the
sun, nor even then, unless I knew very well the position of the sun
at that time of the day.
It happened, to my further misfortune, that the
weather proved hazy for three or four days while I was in this
valley; and not being able to see the sun, I wandered about very
uncomfortably, and at last was obliged to find out the seaside,
look for my post, and come back the same way I went; and then by
easy journeys I turned homeward, the weather being exceeding hot,
and my gun, ammunition, hatchet, and other things very heavy.
In this journey my dog surprised a young kid, and
seized upon it, and I, running in to take hold of it, caught it,
and saved it alive from the dog. I had a great mind to bring it
home if I could; for I had often been musing, whether it might not
be possible to get a kid or two and so raise a breed of tame goats,
which might supply me when my powder and shot should be all
spent.
I made a collar to this little creature, and with a
string which I made of some rope-yarn which I always carried about
me, I led him along, though with some difficulty, till I came to my
bower, and there I enclosed him and left him; for I was very
impatient to be at home, from whence I had been absent above a
month.
I cannot express what a satisfaction it was to me
to come into my old hutch and lie down in my hammock-bed. This
little wandering journey, without settled place of abode, had been
so unpleasant to me that my own house, as I called it to myself,
was a perfect settlement to me compared to that; and it rendered
everything about me so comfortable that I resolved I would never go
a great way from it again while it should be my lot to stay on the
island.
I reposed myself here a week, to rest and regale
myself after my long journey; during which most of the time was
taken up in the weighty affair of making a cage for my Poll, who
began now to be a mere domestic and to be mighty well acquainted
with me. Then I began to think of the poor kid, which I had penned
in within my little circle, and resolved to go and fetch it home,
or give it some food; accordingly I went, and found it where I left
it; for indeed it could not get out, but was almost starved for
want of food. I went and cut boughs of trees, and branches of such
shrubs as I could find, and threw it over, and having fed it, I
tied it as I did before to lead it away; but it was so tame with
being hungry that I had no need to have tied it, for it followed me
like a dog; and as I continually fed it, the creature became so
loving, so gentle, and so fond, that it became from that time one
of my domestics also, and would never leave me afterwards.
The rainy season of the autumnal equinox was now
come, and I kept the 30th of September in the same solemn manner as
before, being the anniversary of my landing on the island, having
now been there two years, and no more prospect of being delivered
than the first day I came there. I spent the whole day in humble
and thankful acknowledgements of the many wonderful mercies which
my solitary condition was attended with, and without which it might
have been infinitely more miserable. I gave humble and hearty
thanks that God had been pleased to discover to me, even that it
was possible I might be more happy in this solitary condition than
I should have been in a liberty of society and in all the pleasures
of the world. That He could fully make up to me the deficiencies of
my solitary state and the want of human society by His presence,
and the communications of His grace to my soul, supporting,
comforting, and encouraging me to depend upon His Providence here,
and hope for His eternal presence hereafter.
It was now that I began sensibly to feel how much
more happy this life I now led was, with all its miserable
circumstances, than the wicked, cursed, abominable life I led all
the past part of my days; and now I changed both my sorrows and my
joys; my very desires altered, my affections changed their gusts,
and my delights were perfectly new, from what they were at my first
coming, or indeed for the two years past.
Before, as I walked about, either on my hunting or
for viewing the country, the anguish of my soul at my condition
would break out upon me on a sudden, and my very heart would die
within me to think of the woods, the mountains, the deserts I was
in; and how I was a prisoner locked up with the eternal bars and
bolts of the ocean, in an uninhabited wilderness, without
redemption. In the midst of the greatest composures of my mind,
this would break out upon me like a storm and make me wring my
hands and weep like a child. Sometimes it would take me in the
middle of my work, and I would immediately sit down and sigh, and
look upon the ground for an hour or two together; and this was
still worse to me; for if I could burst out into tears or vent
myself by words, it would go off, and the grief having exhausted
itself would abate.
But now I began to exercise myself with new
thoughts; I daily read the Word of God and applied all the comforts
of it to my present state. One morning, being very sad, I opened
the Bible upon these words, ‘‘I will never, never leave thee, nor
forsake thee’’; immediately it occurred that these words were to
me; why else should they be directed in such a manner, just at the
moment when I was mourning over my condition, as one forsaken of
God and man? ‘‘Well then,’’ said I, ‘‘if God does not forsake me,
of what ill consequence can it be, or what matters it, though the
world should all forsake me; seeing on the other hand, if I had all
the world and should lose the favour and blessing of God, there
would be no comparison in the loss?’’
From this moment I began to conclude in my mind
that it was possible for me to be more happy in this forsaken,
solitary condition than it was probable I should ever have been in
any other particular state in the world; and with this thought I
was going to give thanks to God for bringing me to this
place.
I know not what it was, but something shocked my
mind at that thought, and I durst not speak the words. ‘‘How canst
thou be such a hypocrite,’’ said I, even audibly, ‘‘to pretend to
be thankful for a condition which however thou may’st endeavour to
be contented with, thou wouldst rather pray heartily to be
delivered from?’’ So I stopped there. But though I could not say I
thanked God for being there, yet I sincerely gave thanks to God for
opening my eyes, by whatever afflicting providences, to see the
former condition of my life, and to mourn for my wickedness, and
repent. I never opened the Bible or shut it but my very soul within
me blessed God for directing my friend in England, without any
order of mine, to pack it up among my goods; and for assisting me
afterwards to save it out of the wreck of the ship.