I Build My Fortress
MY THOUGHTS were now wholly employed about
securing myself against either savages, if any should appear, or
wild beasts, if any were in the island; and I had many thoughts of
the method how to do this, and what kind of dwelling to make;
whether I should make me a cave in the earth, or a tent upon the
earth. And, in short, I resolved upon both; the manner and
description of which it may not be improper to give an account
of.
I soon found the place I was in was not for my
settlement, particularly because it was upon a low moorish ground
near the sea, and I believed would not be wholesome, and more
particularly because there was no fresh water near it; so I
resolved to find a more healthy and more convenient spot of
ground.
I consulted several things in my situation, which I
found would be proper for me: first, health and fresh water I just
now mentioned; secondly, shelter from the heat of the sun; thirdly,
security from ravenous creatures, whether man or beast; fourthly, a
view to the sea, that if God sent any ship in sight, I might not
lose any advantage for my deliverance, of which I was not willing
to banish all my expectation yet.
In search of a place proper for this, I found a
little plain on the side of a rising hill, whose front towards this
little plain was steep as a house-side, so that nothing could come
down upon me from the top; on the side of this rock there was a
hollow place worn a little way in like the entrance or door of a
cave, but there was not really any cave or way into the rock at
all.
On the flat of the green, just before this hollow
place, I resolved to pitch my tent. This plain was not above an
hundred yards broad, and about twice as long, and lay like a green
before my door, and at the end of it descended irregularly every
way down into the low grounds by the seaside. It was on the
north-northwest side of the hill, so that I was sheltered from the
heat every day, till it came to a west and by south sun, or
thereabouts, which in those countries is near the setting.
Before I set up my tent, I drew a half circle
before the hollow place, which took in about ten yards in its
semi-diameter from the rock, and twenty yards in its diameter, from
its beginning and ending.
In this half circle I pitched two rows of strong
stakes, driving them into the ground till they stood very firm like
piles, the biggest end being out of the ground about five foot and
a half, and sharpened on the top. The two rows did not stand above
six inches from one another.
Then I took the pieces of cable which I had cut in
the ship, and laid them in rows one upon another, within the circle
between these two rows of stakes, up to the top, placing other
stakes in the inside, leaning against them, about two foot and a
half high, like a spur to a post; and this fence was so strong that
neither man nor beast could get into it or over it. This cost me a
great deal of time and labour, especially to cut the piles in the
woods, bring them to the place, and drive them into the
earth.
The entrance into this place I made to be, not by a
door, but by a short ladder to go over the top, which ladder, when
I was in, I lifted over after me, and so I was completely fenced
in, and fortified, as I thought, from all the world, and
consequently slept secure in the night, which otherwise I could not
have done, though, as it appeared afterwards, there was no need of
all this caution from the enemies that I apprehended danger
from.
Into this fence or fortress, with infinite labour,
I carried all my riches, all my provisions, ammunition, and stores,
of which you have the account above; and I made me a large tent,
which, to preserve me from the rains that in one part of the year
are very violent there, I made double, viz., one smaller tent
within, and one larger tent above it, and covered the uppermost
with a large tarpaulin which I had saved among the sails.
And now I lay no more for a while in the bed which
I had brought on shore, but in a hammock, which was indeed a very
good one and belonged to the mate of the ship.
Into this tent I brought all my provisions, and
every thing that would spoil by the wet, and having thus enclosed
all my goods, I made up the entrance, which till now I had left
open, and so passed and repassed, as I said, by a short
ladder.
When I had done this, I began to work my way into
the rock, and bringing all the earth and stones that I dug down out
through my tent, I laid them up within my fence in the nature of a
terrace, so that it raised the ground within about a foot and a
half; and thus I made a cave just behind my tent, which served me
like a cellar to my house.
It cost me much labour, and many days, before all
these things were brought to perfection, and therefore I must go
back to some other things which took up some of my thoughts. At the
same time it happened, after I had laid my scheme for the setting
up my tent and making the cave, that a storm of rain falling from a
thick dark cloud, a sudden flash of lightning happened, and after
that, a great clap of thunder, as is naturally the effect of it. I
was not so much surprised with the lightning, as I was with a
thought which darted into my mind as swift as the lightning itself:
O my powder! My very heart sunk within me, when I thought, that at
one blast all my powder might be destroyed; on which, not my
defence only, but the providing me food, as I thought, entirely
depended; I was nothing near so anxious about my own danger, though
had the powder took fire, I had never known who had hurt me.
Such impression did this make upon me, that after
the storm was over, I laid aside all my works, my building and
fortifying, and applied myself to make bags and boxes to separate
the powder, and keep it a little and a little in a parcel, in hope
that whatever might come, it might not all take fire at once, and
to keep it so apart that it should not be possible to make one part
fire another. I finished this work in about a fortnight, and I
think my powder, which in all was about 240 pounds’ weight, was
divided in not less than a hundred parcels; as to the barrel that
had been wet, I did not apprehend any danger from that, so I placed
it in my new cave, which in my fancy I called my kitchen, and the
rest I hid up and down in holes among the rocks, so that no wet
might come to it, marking very carefully where I laid it.
In the interval of time while this was doing, I
went out at least once every day with my gun, as well to divert
myself as to see if I could kill anything fit for food, and as near
as I could to acquaint myself with what the island produced. The
first time I went out, I presently discovered that there were goats
in the island, which was a great satisfaction to me; but then it
was attended with this misfortune to me, viz., that they were so
shy, so subtile, and so swift of foot that it was the difficultest
thing in the world to come at them. But I was not discouraged at
this, not doubting but I might now and then shoot one, as it soon
happened; for after I had found their haunts a little, I laid wait
in this manner for them: I observed, if they saw me in the valleys,
though they were upon the rocks, they would run away as in a
terrible fright; but if they were feeding in the valleys, and I was
upon the rocks, they took no notice of me; from whence I concluded,
that by the position of their optics, their sight was so directed
downward that they did not readily see objects that were above
them; so afterwards I took this method, I always climbed the rocks
first, to get above them, and then had frequently a fair mark. The
first shot I made among these creatures, I killed a she-goat which
had a little kid by her which she gave suck to, which grieved me
heartily; but when the old one fell, the kid stood stock still by
her till I came and took her up, and not only so, but when I
carried the old one with me upon my shoulders, the kid followed me
quite to my enclosure, upon which I laid down the dam and took the
kid in my arms, and carried it over my pale, in hopes to have bred
it up tame, but it would not eat, so I was forced to kill it and
eat it myself; these two supplied me with flesh a great while, for
I ate sparingly, and saved my provisions (my bread especially) as
much as possibly I could.
Having now fixed my habitation, I found it
absolutely necessary to provide a place to make a fire in, and fuel
to burn; and what I did for that, as also how I enlarged my cave,
and what conveniences I made, I shall give a full account of in its
place. But I must first give some little account of myself and of
my thoughts about living, which it may well be supposed were not a
few.
I had a dismal prospect of my condition, for as I
was not cast away upon that island without being driven, as is
said, by a violent storm quite out of the course of our intended
voyage and a great way, viz., some hundreds of leagues out of the
ordinary course of the trade of mankind, I had great reason to
consider it as a determination of Heaven, that in this desolate
place and in this desolate manner I should end my life; the tears
would run plentifully down my face when I made these reflections,
and sometimes I would expostulate with myself why Providence should
thus completely ruin its creatures and render them so absolutely
miserable, so without help abandoned, so entirely depressed, that
it could hardly be rational to be thankful for such a life.
But something always returned swift upon me to
check these thoughts and to reprove me; and particularly one day,
walking with my gun in my hand by the seaside, I was very pensive
upon the subject of my present condition, when Reason, as it were,
put in, expostulating with me t’ other way, thus: ‘‘Well, you are
in a desolate condition, ’tis true, but pray remember, where are
the rest of you? Did not you come eleven of you into the boat?
Where are the ten? Why were not they saved, and you lost? Why were
you singled out? Is it better to be here or there?’’ And then I
pointed to the sea. All evils are to be considered with the good
that is in them, and with what worse attends them.
Then it occurred to me again how well I was
furnished for my subsistence, and what would have been my case if
it had not happened, which was an hundred thousand to one, that the
ship floated from the place where she first struck, and was driven
so near to the shore that I had time to get all these things out of
her. What would have been my case if I had been to have lived in
the condition in which I at first came on shore, without
necessaries of life, or necessaries to supply and procure them?
‘‘Particularly,’’ said I aloud (though to myself), ‘‘what should I
have done without a gun, without ammunition, without any tools to
make anything or to work with, without clothes, bedding, a tent, or
any manner of coverings?’’ and that now I had all these to a
sufficient quantity, and was in a fair way to provide myself in
such a manner as to live without my gun when my ammunition was
spent; so that I had a tolerable view of subsisting without any
want as long as I lived; for I considered from the beginning how I
would provide for the accidents that might happen, and for the time
that was to come, even not only after my ammunition should be
spent, but even after my health or strength should decay.
I confess I had not entertained any notion of my
ammunition being destroyed at one blast, I mean my powder being
blown up by lightning, and this made the thoughts of it so
surprising to me when it lightened and thundered, as I observed
just now.
And now being to enter into a melancholy relation
of a scene of silent life, such perhaps as was never heard of in
the world before, I shall take it from its beginning, and continue
it in its order. It was, by my account, the 30th of September when,
in the manner as above said, I first set foot upon this horrid
island, when the sun, being, to us, in its autumnal equinox, was
almost just over my head, for I reckoned myself, by observation, to
be in the latitude of 9 degrees 22 minutes north of the line.
After I had been there about ten or twelve days, it
came into my thoughts, that I should lose my reckoning of time for
want of books, and pen and ink, and should even forget the Sabbath
days from the working days; but to prevent this, I cut it with my
knife upon a large post, in capital letters, and making it into a
great cross, I set it up on the shore where I first landed, viz.,
‘‘I came on shore here the 30th of September 1659.’’ Upon the sides
of this square post I cut every day a notch with my knife, and
every seventh notch was as long again as the rest, and every first
day of the month as long again as that long one; and thus I kept my
calendar, or weekly, monthly, and yearly reckoning of time.
In the next place we are to observe that among the
many things which I brought off the ship in the several voyages
which, as above mentioned, I made to it, I got several things of
less value, but not all less useful to me, which I omitted setting
down before; as in particular, pens, ink, and paper, several
parcels in the captain’s, mate’s, gunner’s, and carpenter’s
keeping, three or four compasses, some mathematical instruments,
dials, perspectives, charts, and books of navigation, all which I
huddled together, whether I might want them or no; also I found
three very good Bibles, which came to me in my cargo from England,
and which I had packed up among my things; some Portuguese books
also, and among them two or three Popish prayer-books, and several
other books, all which I carefully secured. And I must not forget
that we had in the ship a dog and two cats, of whose eminent
history I may have occasion to say something in its place; for I
carried both the cats with me, and as for the dog, he jumped out of
the ship of himself, and swam on shore to me the day after I went
on shore with my first cargo and was a trusty servant to me many
years; I wanted nothing that he could fetch me, nor any company
that he could make up to me; I only wanted to have him talk to me,
but that would not do. As I observed before, I found pen, ink, and
paper, and I husbanded them to the utmost; and I shall show that
while my ink lasted, I kept things very exact; but after that was
gone, I could not, for I could not make any ink by any means that I
could devise.
And this put me in mind that I wanted many things,
notwithstanding all that I had amassed together; and of these, this
of ink was one, as also spade, pickaxe, and shovel, to dig or
remove the earth; needles, pins, and thread; as for linen, I soon
learned to want that without much difficulty.
This want of tools made every work I did go on
heavily, and it was near a whole year before I had entirely
finished my little pale, or surrounded habitation. The piles, or
stakes, which were as heavy as I could well lift, were a long time
in cutting and preparing in the woods, and more by far in bringing
home, so that I spent sometimes two days in cutting and bringing
home one of those posts and a third day in driving it into the
ground; for which purpose I got a heavy piece of wood at first, but
at last bethought myself of one of the iron crows, which, however,
though I found it, yet it made driving those posts or piles very
laborious and tedious work.
But what need I have been concerned at the
tediousness of anything I had to do, seeing I had time enough to do
it in? Nor had I any other employment if that had been over, at
least that I could foresee, except the ranging the island to seek
for food, which I did more or less every day.
I now began to consider seriously my condition, and
the circumstance I was reduced to; and I drew up the state of my
affairs in writing, not so much to leave them to any that were to
come after me, for I was like to have but few heirs, as to deliver
my thoughts from daily poring upon them, and afflicting my mind;
and as my reason began now to master my despondency, I began to
comfort myself as well as I could, and to set the good against the
evil, that I might have something to distinguish my case from
worse; and I stated it very impartially, like debtor and creditor,
the comforts I enjoyed, against the miseries I suffered,
thus:


Upon the whole, here was an undoubted testimony
that there was scarce any condition in the world so miserable but
there was something negative or something positive to be thankful
for in it; and let this stand as a direction from the experience of
the most miserable of all conditions in this world, that we may
always find in it something to comfort ourselves from, and to set
in the description of good and evil, on the credit side of the
account.
Having now brought my mind a little to relish my
condition and given over looking out to sea, to see if I could spy
a ship; I say, giving over these things, I began to apply myself to
accommodate my way of living and to make things as easy to me as I
could.
I have already described my habitation, which was a
tent under the side of a rock, surrounded with a strong pale of
posts and cables, but I might now rather call it a wall; for I
raised a kind of wall up against it of turfs, about two foot thick
on the outside; and after some time (I think it was a year and a
half) I raised rafters from it, leaning to the rock, and thatched
or covered it with boughs of trees and such things as I could get
to keep out the rain, which I found at some times of the year very
violent.
I have already observed how I brought all my goods
into this pale, and into the cave which I had made behind me. But I
must observe, too, that at first this was a confused heap of goods,
which as they lay in no order, so they took up all my place; I had
no room to turn myself; so I set myself to enlarge my cave and
works farther into the earth, for it was a loose sandy rock, which
yielded easily to the labour I bestowed on it. And so, when I found
I was pretty safe as to beasts of prey, I worked sideways to the
right hand into the rock; and then turning to the right again,
worked quite out, and made me a door to come out on the outside of
my pale or fortification.
This gave me not only egress and regress, as it
were a back way to my tent and to my storehouse, but gave me room
to stow my goods.
And now I began to apply myself to make such
necessary things as I found I most wanted, particularly a chair and
a table; for without these I was not able to enjoy the few comforts
I had in the world; I could not write or eat, or do several things,
with so much pleasure without a table.
So I went to work; and here I must needs observe
that as reason is the substance and original of the mathematics, so
by stating and squaring everything by reason, and by making the
most rational judgment of things, every man may be in time master
of every mechanic art. I had never handled a tool in my life, and
yet in time, by labour, application, and contrivance, I found at
last that I wanted nothing but I could have made it, especially if
I had had tools; however, I made abundance of things even without
tools, and some with no more tools than an adze and a hatchet,
which perhaps were never made that way before, and that with
infinite labour. For example, if I wanted a board, I had no other
way but to cut down a tree, set it on an edge before me, and hew it
flat on either side with my axe, till I had brought it to be thin
as a plank, and then dub it smooth with my adze. It is true, by
this method I could make but one board out of a whole tree, but
this I had no remedy for but patience, any more than I had for the
prodigious deal of time and labour which it took me up to make a
plank or board. But my time or labour was little worth, and so it
was as well employed one way as another.
However, I made me a table and a chair, as I
observed above, in the first place, and this I did out of the short
pieces of boards that I brought on my raft from the ship. But when
I had wrought out some boards, as above, I made large shelves of
the breadth of a foot and a half, one over another, all along one
side of my cave, to lay all my tools, nails, and ironwork, and in a
word, to separate everything at large in their places, that I might
easily come at them; I knocked pieces into the wall of the rock to
hang my guns and all things that would hang up.
So that had my cave been to be seen, it looked like
a general magazine of all necessary things; and I had everything so
ready at my hand, that it was a great pleasure to me to see all my
goods in such order, and especially to find my stock of all
necessaries so great.
And now it was when I began to keep a journal of
every day’s employment; for, indeed, at first I was in too much
hurry, and not only hurry as to labour, but in too much
discomposure of mind, and my journal would have been full of many
dull things. For example, I must have said thus:
September the 30th. After I got to shore,
and had escaped drowning, instead of being thankful to God for my
deliverance, having first vomited with the great quantity of salt
water which was gotten into my stomach, and recovering myself a
little, I ran about the shore, wringing my hands and beating my
head and face, exclaiming at my misery and crying out I was undone,
undone, till, tired and faint, I was forced to lie down on the
ground to repose, but durst not sleep, for fear of being
devoured.
Some days after this, and after I had been on board
the ship and got all that I could out of her, yet I could not
forbear getting up to the top of a little mountain, and looking out
to sea, in hopes of seeing a ship, then fancy at a vast distance I
spied a sail, please myself with the hopes of it and then, after
looking steadily till I was almost blind, lose it quite, and sit
down and weep like a child, and thus increase my misery by my
folly.
But having gotten over these things in some measure
and having settled my household stuff and habitation, made me a
table and a chair, and all as handsome about me as I could, I began
to keep my journal, of which I shall here give you the copy (though
in it will be told all these particulars over again) as long as it
lasted, for, having no more ink, I was forced to leave it
off.