EPILOGUE
I didn’t go into work the next day, or the day
after that, or even the week after that. I’ve been drinking a lot,
not with a conscious effort but more as a pastime. It’s a nicer
place to drink, since Red Road Contracting finished up. I don’t
think I drove them off, but maybe I did. There’s still a lot to do
in the cabin; I think I was making them nervous.
The new deck is my favorite part. It’s about as
big as the house and goes out the back door toward the hills.
There’s an opening in the middle where they said I could plant a
tree in the spring, but for now it’s where I toss the empty beer
cans. It’s an easy shot from the lawn chair, which I placed against
the log wall of the house, and my sheepskin coat keeps me warm
enough. The cooler is right beside the chair, so I don’t have to
get up much. Sometimes, at night, the beer freezes, but I just wait
for it to thaw the next morning.
Periodically, vehicles come up the driveway; some
of them are official and some of them aren’t. The DCI Suburban was
one of the official ones, and they brought the Bullet back sans
bullet holes. They left the keys on the counter, and she sits out
there pawing the ground, waiting. I guess Ferg got a new truck. Vic
came by once, but now she just calls and talks to the phone
machine. I’ve developed a tactic for dealing with these drive-by
visits. No matter what time of day it is or what I might be doing,
whenever I hear somebody coming up the driveway, I just step off
the deck and start walking toward the hills. In a couple of
minutes, I can be in those hills. Sometimes I walk; sometimes I
just pick out a rock and sit. Nobody stays very long, but I lose
track of time out there, and sometimes I remember coming out when
it’s still light, only to look around and find that it’s dark.
Sometimes, it’s the other way around, and I get to watch the sun
come up.
People leave food, but nobody ever leaves beer
so, every once in a while, I have to make the run into the
outskirts of Durant to buy it at the Texaco station near the
highway. I haven’t shaved in a while, so the kid that works there
doesn’t know me, or pretends that he doesn’t.
I have a friend that showed up after a few days.
One morning when I woke up in the lawn chair, he was lying out at
the end of the back pasture, just at the sage. He didn’t make any
move to come in closer but just sat out there all day watching me.
He would circle around the house, only to return to the sage after
a while. I didn’t think he meant any harm; like me he just didn’t
choose to go anywhere else. The next trip into the Texaco station,
I bought dog food and left it in a bowl at the edge of the deck,
along with water. Every morning it was gone and, after a few days,
he slept there, as long as I didn’t move much, which was okay,
because I wasn’t moving much these days. He had lost a little
weight since escaping from Vonnie’s mudroom, and Vic mentioned in
one of her telephone reports that the Game and Fish guys had had
quite a rodeo when he ran off.
One day, Henry’s truck came up the drive and, as
I started my usual retreat to the back forty, the dog ambled along
after me. When I sat on one of my favorite rocks, he came over and
sat down not too far away, and we waited for Henry to leave the
house together. I reached over and rubbed my hand across the dog’s
big head, and he looked up at me. He had sad eyes, and it was as if
he had had enough, too. As I petted him, he leaned on my leg. He
really was a big brute, with a shoulder spread as wide as the trunk
of my body. The hair was curly on his back with all kinds of
reddish swirls and swoops. It looked like a bad toupee.
Cady called, but I knew her schedule and would
call back and leave vague messages with her secretary while she was
either in the law library, taking depositions, or doing whatever
lawyers do when their secretaries answer the phone. It was odd to
think of my daughter with a secretary, so I just kind of thought of
Patti with an i as a babysitter who talked with a funny,
South Philadelphia accent.
Vic called at about five-thirty at the end of
each day with a report of ongoing concerns. “Hello, shithead. This
is the person who’s doing your job for you as you lay out there and
grow increasingly fat and stupid in your nest of depression and
self-pity . . .” The messages always started that way.
“We had a drive-by egging on the middle school,
which leads me to believe there may have been an accomplice . . .”
I nodded. Sound detective work.
“Vandalism was reported at the old stockyard.
Reporting person said someone had moved his irrigation system twice
in the last month, and this time the irrigation wheel-line assembly
was broken. The attending officer questioned reporting person as to
what the fuck he was doing irrigating in November? Answer, came
there none . . .” I nodded some more.
“There was an official protest made as to the
language used by said attending officer that was deemed profane and
inconsiderate of the station and age of the reporting person,
shortly after the irrigation incident . . .” I shrugged. It was to
be expected.
“The officer is currently available for any and
all comment . . .” I bet.
“Caller requested an officer to go tell her
neighbor to turn his radio down. Caller would not give her name,
and said she did not know her neighbor’s name. The attending
officer did find a handsome, young dentist working on a car stereo
in his Land Rover. It was NPR out of Montana, and the attending
officer informed the dentist that he could go ahead and listen to
whatever he damn well pleased as loud as he damn well pleased and
to not pay any attention to the witch next door . . .” I knew
Bessie Peterson, and this was far from over.
“Further complaints of noise were duly noted . .
.” Um-hmm . . .
“Jim Keller returned from his hunting trip, and
rumor has it he and the Mrs. are going to be going their separate
ways. Personally, I think it’s the best thing that could happen to
Bryan.”
I nodded.
“Department received a memo faxed over from the
hospital asking for the formal release of Mr. George Malcolm Esper.
Jesus . . . Malcolm . . . I’d try and run away, too. I signed it
and got Ruby to fax it back over before the little fucker escaped
again . . .”
There was a long pause before the next one and
with a soft and melancholy quality that I had never heard from her
before. “Attending officer thought about filing a missing persons
bulletin for a sad, overweight, self-deprecating, yet strangely
charming sheriff today. The officer thought it might be of interest
to the missing person that said officer had turned down not one,
but two high-paying, high-profile jobs because she guessed she’d
just lost interest in being anywhere else . . .” My eyes welled up
a bit, and I waited.
“Walt, you need to come back to work, you’re not
fit for anything else . . .” Another pause. “Ruby misses you,
Ferg’s bored, Lucian is about to irritate the shit out of all of us
because I don’t think he sees his position as being temporary, and
Dorothy says she’s ready to come out there and kick your ass but
doesn’t know if she should bring coleslaw?” There was another long
pause.
“It’s been almost two weeks, and that’s long
enough. I just thought that I should tell you that this is my last
call because I’m starting to feel like an enabler . . . If you want
to know what’s going on in the kingdom, you’re going to have to
come out and fight a few dragons.” Another pause. “Anyway . . . the
attending officer misses you.” She hung up, and my last contact
with the outside world went dead.
Along with one of his food drops, Henry had left
a message on the back of the manila envelope that contained the
last photographs of Cody Pritchard. “There is lasagna in the
refrigerator along with supplies to make sandwiches and a six-pack
of canned iced tea.” Fingered in the dust on the smooth surface of
the piano lid were the words, PLAY ME. I ate the lasagna.
This morning a maroon van bounced up the
driveway, and it was only when I got back and discovered there was
a frozen box of turkey Hot Pockets, one ceremonial beer, and the
Cheyenne Rifle of the Dead, that I remembered it was Thanksgiving.
The rifle was lying across my recliner, looking much as it had when
I had left it in the tack shed. I spent the rest of the morning
trying not to look at it; but, by lunchtime, when I had come in
from the deck to eat a Hot Pocket with the beer of temptation, I
leaned against the counter and looked at the .45-70. A thought
occurred to me, and I fished around in the pocket of my coat and
pulled out one of Omar’s cartridges. I walked over and picked up
the rifle and lowered the falling block with the lever. Empty. I
guess Lonnie didn’t trust me, either. I placed the round in the
breech and then pulled the lever back up. I know it was my
imagination, but the rifle felt much heavier.
I took a moment to think about the Old Cheyenne
and how revenge doesn’t ever fit when there aren’t any bad guys. It
wasn’t that revenge was a dish best served cold, it was that it was
a dish best not served at all. I thought about what it was the Old
Cheyenne really wanted; it wasn’t hard to figure out. The dead just
want the same thing as the living: understanding.
I thought about how the two women’s situations
were alike, and how different the two cultures’ reactions were.
When Melissa had met this crisis in her life, her family and
friends had restored her, but when Vonnie had faced abuse, she had
met silence and recrimination, and the violation done to her
child’s soul had been swept under the Turkish rugs. Granted, it
could be said that it was the times and not the culture that had
dictated these reactions, and I hoped that was true. I really
did.
I walked through the open door and onto the deck
with the rifle in my hands. The sun was headed off to the west, and
I could barely make out its faint glow through the heavy, ironclad
bottoms of the clouds. I watched as the first flakes began drifting
down; they would pile up against the hills, and the familiar
landmarks of the ranch would gently disappear.
The dog turned to look at me from the far side of
the deck but, when he saw the rifle, he began to rise and growl. I
wasn’t quite sure what to do, so I just stood there. He moved off
and settled over the edge, periodically raising his head to look at
me again, register a disapproving growl, and disappear.
I crossed to the lawn chair and sat down with the
buffalo rifle across my lap. I reached over and flipped open the
top of the cooler to find nothing. I was out and, if I wanted
another beer, I was going to have to make the run. I sat there and
looked at the hills and the increasingly gloomy world. I looked
down at the Sharps.
I thought about what Dena Many Camps had said
when she had run her fingers over the owl feathers and had quickly
unbraided her hair; that there are spirits that linger near this
ghost weapon and that they can easily take away the souls of those
still living for the enjoyment of their society. I hoped the Old
Cheyenne had come and gotten Vonnie, taking her to the Camp of the
Dead. She was damn fine company, and she deserved better than she
had gotten in this world. I strained my eyes into the distance and
saw her there with them, and she was laughing and pulling a wayward
slip of butterscotch back with two fingers. I saw her there along
with Lonnie’s legs. Maybe half truths were all you got in this
life.
When I looked back down, I saw that the dog was
looking into the snow where I had been staring, and the wind
narrowed his eyes until he looked back at me. Just as I had thought
all along, he could see them too.
I listened to the Canada geese as they honked
their way south. They only flew about thirty feet off the ground,
and I could hear the whir of their wings as they passed overhead.
Then the ceremonial Rainier I had drunk earlier overtook me, and I
fell asleep.
I awoke to the rattling sound of somebody
slamming a hated yet familiar vehicle door, and he entered through
the open front one of the cabin. It sounded like he was setting
things on the counter and in the refrigerator. He made a number of
trips and, through the open kitchen window, the smell of turkey and
dressing joined with the cold air of the late afternoon.
There was a minuscule break in the clouds, and
the thin sliver became a deep red as the sun started to drop over
the mountains. I pulled my hat even farther down as the dog looked
over the scattering angels of snow that had collected on the deck
and on me. He rested his head on the edge and looked at me with the
expectation of retreat glowing in his dark eyes, but I wasn’t
moving. I was too tired. Chances were Henry would leave the food
and go, but I have to say that I was growing irritated as he
lingered in my kitchen and arranged things in preparation for the
movable feast. I waited, but he didn’t go away.
After a while, he stepped onto the deck from the
back of the cabin, and the beast growled a low and resonant
warning. “Wahampi . . .” Things got quiet again; evidently, the dog
had a strong Sioux streak. I didn’t move, in hopes that he would
leave, but that hope faded and the lid on the cooler squealed as
over 220 pounds sat on it. Damn Indians, you never could get rid of
them on Thanksgiving.
I could hear more geese flying over as he popped
the tops on two of the canned iced teas and handed me one. I didn’t
take it at first, but he just held it there against my hand until I
did. The honking continued and, with the beat of their downdraft,
it sounded like every goose in the high plains was leaving. “You
know, Lonnie told me something about those geese . . .”
I waited awhile, but finally responded.
“Yep?”
“You know how they always fly in that
V?”
“Yeah?”
“And one side of the V is always
longer?”
He waited forever, and there was nothing else I
could do. “Why is that?”
“Because . . . there are more geese on one side
than the other. Um-hmm, yes it is so . . .”