CHAPTER FOUR
Nicolas dragged his weary body out of the channel
onto the muddy bank, cradling Dahlia against his chest. He lay
looking up at the night sky. Clouds churned over his head, an
ominous warning of a coming storm. He had covered several miles
swimming and few more wading waist-deep in the reeds and swamp.
Tree trunks rose out of the water, silent sentinels everywhere,
guarding narrow strips of land. He was exhausted and his side
throbbed. He hoped it didn’t mean he’d reopened the wound. Not a
good thing when he was in the water.
He glanced down at the woman lying motionless on
top of him. They were both covered with streaks of black mud. He
pushed strands of her dark hair aside. “Dahlia. Wake up.” She had
finally lost consciousness out in the channel after fighting every
step of the way, holding back the wash of energy to keep from
giving away their position and gamely keeping up with him until her
body said enough. “You’re beginning to worry me.” It was the
truth, and he objected to worrying on principle. It was a useless
pastime and one he avoided at all costs. He shook her gently. “Come
on, Sleeping Beauty, wake up for me.”
Nicolas sat up, ignoring the shrieking protest his
body made. She looked vulnerable, starkly white beneath the mud.
Just looking at her caused a curious shift in his belly. He was a
man very much in control of himself, and yet, Dahlia had awakened
something long dormant and apparently strong within him. It was
uncomfortable not recognizing exactly what he was feeling.
Thunder boomed directly overhead, rattling the
trees and shaking the ground. Rain poured down on them, a heavy
deluge soaking them within minutes. Dahlia stirred, her slight body
shrinking away from the impact of the stinging rain. She turned her
head to try to escape the onslaught. Her lashes fluttered, drawing
his attention to their length. She looked up at him. He caught a
glimpse of fear quickly masked. She looked around her, slipping off
his lap to break physical contact.
“I guess I passed out. The overload gets me every
time.” Her gaze touched his face, jumped away. “It can be a
liability.”
He shrugged, the gesture casual. “I’m a GhostWalker
too, remember? I know what it’s like.” He got to his feet and
reached down, offering his hand.
Dahlia hesitated a moment before she put her hand
in his. “I still don’t know what a GhostWalker is.” She took a
careful look around. “You got us to the right place. The trapper’s
cabin is that way.” She indicated an area to their right.
Nicolas shouldered his pack. “Do you remember Dr.
Whitney? Dr. Peter Whitney?” He watched her closely. Her face
changed—her expression went blank. There was instant withdrawal,
not only physically; she distanced herself from him in her mind. He
could feel the separation and it was almost a blow. That stunned
him. Uncertain if he could cover his rare inner turmoil, he was the
one to look away, studying the direction she indicated before
setting out.
“I remember him.” Her voice was low and filled with
distaste.
“Did you figure out what he did to you?” Nicolas
kept his voice neutral and continued to walk ahead of her, keeping
his back to her so she wouldn’t have to hide her expression from
him. Or maybe he needed to hide his expression, he wasn’t entirely
certain which it was. Before he’d started off on the trail, he
noticed she was shivering, her body reacting to the harsh
conditions. In spite of the deluge of rain, the air was still warm.
It made him want to gather her up and hold her close. He shook his
head in an effort to rid himself of his extraordinary
thoughts.
Dahlia listened to the sound of the rain. She
always found it soothing. Even now, with it pouring down on top of
her, she felt she could lose part of herself in it. The part that
hurt people. The part she could never control. When she sat out in
the rain, it washed her clean. “I feel as if Whitney stole my life.
Yet at the same time, I feel as if I should be grateful to him. He
built my home and he hired Milly and Bernadette. He also provided
me with everything I could need or want. My brain requires. . .”
She broke off and stared at the silent trees on either side of
them, afraid she might shame herself with tears. She was exhausted
and vulnerable, filled with such grief she could barely breathe.
She couldn’t even look at Nicolas’s broad back while they walked,
not if he wanted to talk about Dr. Whitney.
“You aren’t alone, Dahlia. Whitney brought over a
number of children, most infants, from various foreign countries.
He found the little girls in orphanages, and he was very wealthy so
he didn’t have much opposition. No one wanted the children, so when
he paid for them, the authorities closed their eyes and asked no
questions.”
Her heart accelerated with every word he spoke. She
forced herself to listen to the cadence of his voice. He might not
have an inflection, but there was a carefulness, a way he had of
speaking that told her volumes. Nicolas was not as unaffected as he
seemed. “I was one of those children.” She made it a
statement.
“Yes.” He stopped on the small strip of solid
ground and surveyed the grove of trees growing in knee-deep water
straight ahead. “We’re going to have to cross this.”
Dahlia sighed. “I told you it was difficult. I’m
sorry.”
Nicolas turned his head and grinned at her. It was
fleeting and barely lit his eyes, but it warmed her. “I think we’re
already soaked.”
A reluctant smile touched her mouth briefly. “I
guess we are.”
“Is the rain getting the mud off of me?”
She tilted her head. A hint of laughter crept into
her eyes. “Actually it’s running down your face in a rather
dramatic fashion. I think you’d even manage to scare an
alligator.”
“Before you start laughing at me, you might take a
look at yourself.” Nicolas made the mistake of reaching out to
brush at a streak of mud on her face. At once her amusement
vanished and she moved her head to escape his touch. His hand
dropped to his side.
“Were you one of those children Whitney took out of
the orphanage?” She met his gaze, a dark, almost belligerent
challenge.
Nicolas stepped into the water. It was deeper than
he thought. He reached back and shackled Dahlia’s wrist, not giving
her time to pull away from the contact. She initially resisted, a
slight instinctive pull away from him, but he saw her set her jaw
and step into the black water right beside him. “I came much
later,” he answered matter-of-factly, pretending not to notice her
aversion to being touched. The water was over her breasts, nearly
to her shoulders.
“What did he do?”
“He had an idea that he could enhance psychic
abilities. He thought if he could find children with some signs of
talent, he could boost their capabilities and improve on their
ability to serve their country. He took the children to his
laboratory, hired nurses for them, and conducted his
experiments.”
“What exactly did he do to us?”
“Do you remember Lily?” He stopped walking to look
down at her.
Her breath caught in her throat. “I didn’t think
she was real.”
“She’s very real. Whitney kept her when he got rid
of all the others. He told her she was his biological daughter and
raised her as such. She had no knowledge of the enhancements, only
that she was different and couldn’t be around people for very long.
She lived a fairly solitary life. When some of the men in my unit
were killed and Whitney suspected murder, he brought her in on the
project to try to help him figure out what was happening to us.
Peter Whitney was murdered before he could tell her anything. Lily
figured it out and helped us all. She’s been looking for all the
other girls he brought over from the orphanages ever since. That’s
how she discovered the sanitarium and you.”
Dahlia rubbed her temple. “I actually feel sick for
her. It must have been a terrible blow to find out the truth about
Whitney. I remember her as being so nice. I always felt better if I
was with her.”
“She’s an anchor. Like I am. We trap emotions, and
to some extent energy, away from the others so they can function
better. Is Jesse an anchor?” He slipped the question in
deliberately as he turned away from her, tugging her through the
water with him.
“I don’t know. He must have been. It was easier to
be in his presence. I never really questioned why. I felt calmer
and more in control when he was around.”
Nicolas felt a strange burning in the region of his
belly. His chest grew tight. “Were you and Jesse close?” His tone
was strictly neutral.
She glanced at him, suddenly nervous and not
knowing why. “I guess we were. Closer than I am to most people. I
don’t know many people. I counted Jesse as family, the same way I
did Milly and Bernadette.”
There was honesty in her voice. Innocence. He let
his breath escape slowly, not liking himself very much in that
moment. He was learning things about himself he had never
considered a part of his character before. It wasn’t pleasant. “I’m
sorry about the two women, Dahlia. They were already dead when I
got there. I managed to take out the man who shot Jesse, but then
things got a bit hot.”
“I know you would have saved them if you could
have.” And she did know. “Tell me more about Whitney. What did he
do to us?” Just the dreaded name conjured up memories she had
worked to suppress.
“Lily can give you all the technical data if you
want it. I listened to it and understood about a third of what she
was saying. But basically, he removed all the filters in our
brains. We’re always on sensory overload. Of course he went a bit
further and used electric pulses and designer drugs, but you get
the idea. We feel things and hear things and can do things most
people can’t, but the cost is enormous. At least I volunteered. You
had no choice. Whitney has a lot to answer for.”
“Yes he does.” Dahlia closed her eyes against the
flood of bleak memories. Sounds of crying children. Pain that raged
in her head night and day. The shadowy figure always watching,
never smiling, never pleased. Not human. She thought of him that
way. A tormenter, devoid of all feeling. He was a monster from her
nightmares, something she pushed far away and tried never to think
about.
“Dahlia?” Nicolas drew her under his shoulder. It
was a measure of her distress that she didn’t notice. She had such
an aversion to physical contact, yet she remained close to his
body. He could feel her shivering right through the soaked clothes.
“I don’t want to upset you. You’ve had a rough day. We can have
this conversation another time.”
Dahlia looked up at the rain, nearly stumbled in
the water. The night sky was dark and cloudy and felt very much
like her weeping heart. “I have to be careful.” She tried to keep
her voice as expressionless as his. “If I feel too much of
anything, bad things can happen.” She looked up at his face. In the
night he looked made of granite, not flesh, a beautiful stone
carving with amazing eyes. “Did he do that to me?”
“Yes.” There was no reason to deny it. Peter
Whitney was dead, murdered by a man far more unscrupulous and far
more lethal than Peter had ever been. “I’m sorry. I wish I could
say we’ve found a cure, but we haven’t. We’ve found a way to make
it easier to live among other people, but so far, there is no way
to reverse the process.”
The water was becoming shallow. Dahlia waited until
they were back on solid ground before looking around to try to get
her bearings. “It’s over there, just through that grove of trees.
The cabin is small and doesn’t have hot water, but we can
improvise. It sits right on the bank of a canal that runs like a
ribbon through the island. Very few locals come out here because
accessing it so difficult. A few of the older trappers come once in
a while.” She talked fast, trying to keep his words from sinking
in. She hadn’t realized until that moment, until he said there was
no way to reverse the process, how she’d hoped he’d tell her they
had a miraculous cure for her.
She forced herself to shrug. “I’m alive. Did I
thank you for that? I doubt I would have made it away safely by
myself. I would have tried to rescue Jesse right then, with all of
them there. Do you think they tortured him to get him to tell them
where I was?”
Nicolas wrapped his arm around her waist and lifted
her over a rotted tree trunk, setting her smoothly down without
missing a stride. “These type of men torture for the thrill of it.
They don’t need excuses.”
They rounded a slight bend and found the shack. It
sat on the edge of a canal, just as Dahlia had said, one wall
sagging ominously. Cracks showed through the wood in places. A
burlap sack covered a window, but the crooked door was
locked.
“I’m going to get Jesse back,” Dahlia said, staring
at the lock.
It was a simple combination lock. As Nicolas
reached for it, the center spun, first one way and then the other.
Tumblers clicked into place, and the lock sprang open. It happened
fast and smooth and Nicolas realized Dahlia had opened the lock
without really thinking about doing it. She reached around him and
took it from the latch and shoved the door open. “I’m not leaving
him with those men.”
“I wouldn’t expect you to leave him behind.” He
looked around the small room. A mattress stuffed with moss lay on
the floor. “He’s like us.”
Dahlia looked at him sharply. “Whitney experimented
on him?”
“He’s telepathic. I’ve never come across a natural
telepath that strong. I’d say he was enhanced, and as far as I
know, no one else had Whitney’s formula.” Nicolas took out this
canteen and handed it to Dahlia. “We have plenty left. Drink as
much as you need.” He looked around him. “It isn’t a five-star
hotel, is it?”
Dahlia wrapped her arms around her waist, desperate
to control the continual shivering. More than anything she wanted
to be alone. She hadn’t spent so much time with another human being
in as long as she remembered, not even Milly and Bernadette. She
forced a small smile. “I’m going outside for a while, so if you
need to do anything private like dry off, the place is
yours.”
“There’s no need to keep watch yet. I’ll know if
someone comes up on us. You’re the one needing to dry off. My pack
is waterproof. At least it’s supposed to be.” He placed his rifle
on the rickety table before dragging out a shirt. “Wear this and we
can spread your clothes out to dry.”
Dahlia took the shirt with reluctance and watched
him as he took apart the rifle. He dried each part of the weapon
carefully and oiled it. She looked around the small room. There was
no hope of privacy, so she moved to the corner as far from him as
possible and turned her back on him.
“You have to be prepared for your friend to be
dead, Dahlia.”
She threw her wet clothing aside. “His name is
Jesse, Jesse Calhoun.” She glanced back to see if he was watching,
but he kept his back to her. She stripped off the thin, pale blue
bra and tossed it on the heap of soaked, muddy clothes and pulled
the dry shirt on quickly. “It wouldn’t make any sense to kill him.
If they were going to kill him, they would have done it back at the
sanitarium. They’re using him as bait to draw me to him. What other
possible motive could they have?” She peeled off her jeans and
underwear, trying not to be embarrassed, trying to act as though it
didn’t matter to her.
“I’d have to agree. They took him for insurance.
They figured if they didn’t get you, they’d take him and you’d
follow.”
“Which is exactly what I’m going to do.” She glared
belligerently at his back. Not that he’d told her it was a stupid
idea, but his neutral tone was becoming irritating. Of course she
had to go to Jesse’s aid. Jesse would never leave her in the
enemy’s hands.
Nicolas kept his head down and his eyes on his
rifle as he wiped it with a cloth. He could feel her mounting
agitation and guessed, from his experience as a GhostWalker, that
her rising anxiety stemmed from being in such close and continual
proximity to another human being. Added to her grief and shock, it
was a dangerous combination. “I don’t see any other recourse,” he
agreed. “Since they know we’re coming after them, and we can’t
forget they’ve put an assassin on our trail, we’ll have to outsmart
them.”
“I’m glad you understand.” She rinsed the mud from
her clothes before spreading them out to dry. She turned to watch
as Nicolas set his rifle aside and pulled a few more items from his
pack. One was a pillowcase she recognized from her room.
Nicolas opened a small tin and pulled out a tablet,
setting it on a box. In spite of needing to keep her own distance,
Dahlia moved closer, her eyes alive with curiosity. “What is
that?”
“I’ve got waterproof matches in here. Some things
are a bit damp. We were in the water a long time.” He shielded the
flare of the match with his hand and lit the tablet. “It’s called a
Sterno tab and it should give us enough heat to stop you from
shivering.”
Dahlia could already feel the heat flaring from the
small object. “What else do you have in that bag? I don’t suppose
you brought food with you.”
“Well, of course I did. Men don’t go anywhere
without food.”
His eyes sparkled with brief amusement. Warmth
washed over her. It was a small thing, but it had never happened
before. Dahlia crossed her arms beneath her breasts and turned
toward the warmth of the tablet, refusing to look at temptation. It
didn’t last long.
Nicolas began to deposit weapons on the wooden box
that served as a table. Two boot knives. Two knives that had been
tucked into a harness lying flat against his ribs. Another knife
produced from a sheath between his shoulder blades. A nine mm
Beretta and a belt filled with ammunition. She stared at it all.
“Good grief. You certainly believe in having an edge.”
“A person can never have too many weapons.”
She studied him, the fluid way he moved, his
watchful eyes. Everything about him screamed lethal. “You are a
weapon.”
He gave a small, fleeing grin that didn’t quite
reach his eyes. “There you go. It’s called being prepared.”
She was all too aware of him stripping off his wet
clothes and tossing them aside. The man had absolutely no modesty,
and her gaze kept straying to him in spite of her resolve. His size
dwarfed the room, and her. He was tall with wide shoulders and
obvious muscles. He turned slightly and she caught sight of the
nasty wound on his side, up high, near his heart.
“You’re hurt.”
He shrugged. “A few weeks ago. It’s almost healed.”
He dragged the first aid kit from his pack.
The wound didn’t look healed or several weeks old
to her. It looked raw and painful. “You should have told me.” His
black eyes moved over her face. She couldn’t tell what he was
thinking but something in his gaze disturbed her.
“What could you have done about it?”
“I would have tried harder to keep from passing
out.”
She watched him apply a powder and ointment before
he pressed a large pad over the area.
“Can you do that?”
She shrugged. “Sometimes. I pushed my limit this
time, but maybe with more incentive I could have forced myself to
keep going.” Even now her arms and legs ached from the long swim.
She rubbed her hands over her biceps. “At least you wouldn’t have
had to drag me along with your pack and rifle.”
“You don’t weigh enough to notice.”
She turned away from him, back to the warmth of the
tablet. She knew she was small. Even Jesse teased her about needing
to grow. It was a sore subject, but she tried never to show it
bothered her.
“Here’s some face wipes. Instant cleanup and then
we can eat.”
Dahlia turned just as he tossed the small box of
wipes to her. She snagged them out of the air and knew immediately
he was testing her reflexes. “I’m fine, Nicolas. I passed out from
the overload of energy, not because I wasn’t strong enough to
continue. It happens a lot. I stay away from situations that can
cause it. Really, you don’t have to worry, I’m perfectly fine now.
As a matter of fact, because I can utilize most energy, I last
longer at physical things than most people.”
He studied her averted face as he pulled on a much
drier pair of jeans. She didn’t look fine. She looked pale and sad.
He had no idea how to comfort her. Women weren’t his forte. She was
doing a lousy job wiping off the streaks of mud. He took the wipe
from her hand and awkwardly did it for her.
Dahlia’s survival instincts shrieked at her to pull
away, but she stood her ground. Nicolas was never awkward, not in
any situation she’d seen him in. Yet she could feel how
uncomfortable he was and recognized that he was trying to soothe
her.
“Whitney’s dead. He was murdered trying to protect
the men in my unit after he experimented on us. After his death,
several tapes were found. You were in them, that’s what led us to
you. In all the tapes of you learning martial arts you attacked or
defended ahead of your partner. You felt the energy coming at you
before they moved, didn’t you?” He brushed more mud from her face,
his touch so gentle she could barely feel it, yet electricity
crackled in the air between them.
There was admiration in his voice and respect.
Dahlia tried not to show it affected her, but her heart did its
funny little flip at the unexpected comment. She nodded. “That’s
pretty much how it works. Everything gives off energy, including
emotion. So when I’m practicing with someone, I can feel the force
of the attack before it actually reaches me. And I can take that
same energy and use it myself.”
“That’s pretty incredible, even for a GhostWalker.
But you aren’t telepathic?”
“Not strong. I can’t ordinarily initiate, even with
Jesse, and he’s a very strong telepath. You warned me, didn’t you?
I heard your voice warning me off. You must be a very strong
telepath as well.” She glanced at him, at the shadows in his eyes.
“Why do you call yourselves GhostWalkers?” She didn’t object to the
title, in fact, there was something very comforting in knowing
others were like her. That she wasn’t entirely alone, but part of a
group, even if she didn’t know them.
“We call ourselves GhostWalkers because we were put
in cages and no longer considered human, or alive. And we knew we
could escape into the shadows, into the night, and the night would
belong to us.” He tilted her face up for his inspection, two
fingers beneath her chin. “There, I think I’ve got it all.” His
hand slipped away, taking his warmth with him. She watched him
scrub the mud from his own face.
“Who are we?”
“Whitney thought his experiment failed because all
of you from the orphanage were children and you weren’t old enough
or disciplined enough to cope with the effects of what he’d done.
He waited a few years, believed he refined the process, and drew
from a military pool, thinking highly trained and disciplined men
would fare better.”
“I take it they didn’t.” She took the wipe from his
hand and gestured until he bent down. Dahlia wiped the streaks of
mud from his face.
Nicolas felt the breath leave his body. She wasn’t
touching him, not with her fingers, not skin to skin, but it felt
as if she were. His lungs burned for air, or maybe his body burned
for something else. Something far more intimate. He didn’t dare
move or breathe in case she stopped. Or didn’t stop. He was
uncertain which would be safer. His reaction was so unexpected, so
foreign to his nature, he stilled beneath her hand, a wild animal
gathering itself for a strike. He could feel himself coiling,
waiting. The strange part was, he had no idea what he was waiting
for.
For a moment the room crackled with tension, with
arcing electricity. It jumped from her skin to his and back again.
“Stop it.” She said it in a low voice.
His black gaze collided with hers. Air rushed into
his body and took her scent with it. He should have smelled the
swamp, but instead he smelled woman. Dahlia. He would always
know when she walked into the room. He would always know whenever
she was near. It had to be a chemistry thing. “I didn’t realize I
was the one doing it. I thought it was you.”
“It’s definitely you.” She handed him the dirty
wipe and stepped back, putting space between them.
She was giving them both the opportunity to drop
the subject. She wanted to let it alone. Nicolas wasn’t so certain
he wanted the same thing. Her moving away from him didn’t stop the
flood of awareness. He rubbed his hand over his arm. She was there,
under his skin, and he had no idea how she got there.
“Do you really have food in that pack?” Dahlia
asked.
Nicolas let the heat in his gaze burn over her
face. She stood her ground, but he felt her tense. He let the air
escape his lungs. Dahlia was not prepared to accept any part of
him. He relaxed and smiled at her. A quick, deliberate, male grin
that said all kinds of things and yet said nothing. “And coffee or
cocoa.”
“I think you’re a magician.” Dahlia eased away from
him even farther, moving around the makeshift table to put the
rickety piece of furniture between them as if that would stop the
strange awareness that was growing with every moment. Her heart was
beating loudly, a hard, steady rhythm that told her she was in
trouble.
What happened between them? She didn’t know. She
didn’t want to know, but she wanted it to go away. Dahlia didn’t
trust anyone enough to share such a moment of total awareness. And
there had been something proprietary in the energy rolling off of
him. An element that was both male and very confident. Very
determined. Extremely sexual. She glanced at him, then away. He was
a hunter, a man who took months to single-mindedly follow a target
and never missed. Dahlia shivered. She didn’t want him to focus on
her.
“I think cocoa would be perfect. A hot cup so I can
sleep.” She doubted she could do so even with the warm drink. She
couldn’t remember ever sleeping with someone in the same room with
her. The idea made her feel slightly ill.
Nicolas pulled out the MRE, a sealed bag of
prepared food the military provided for troops in the field.
“There’s plenty of food, Dahlia.”
“Is it edible?”
“I eat it all the time.”
A faint smile tugged at the corners of her mouth.
“That isn’t saying much. You probably would eat lizards and
snakes.”
“They can be quite tasty, cooked the right way. I
often ate snake with my grandfather on the reservation where I grew
up.”
He didn’t look at her, but kept busy preparing
their meal. Dahlia had a better sense of him now. The conversation
seemed casual enough, yet something in his voice told her he was
imparting information he rarely shared with anyone. He was wearing
only a pair of jeans. His bare chest was bronzed and heavily
muscled. She couldn’t help her gaze straying occasionally in his
direction.
She cleared her throat. “Your grandfather raised
you?”
“I never knew my parents. They died shortly after I
was born. Grandfather was a spirit guide and believed in the old
ways. It was fun growing up with him. We spent months in the
mountains tracking animals and learning to be a part of nature. He
was a good man and I was lucky to grow up with him.”
“You must have learned a lot from him.”
“Everything but the one thing that mattered.”
The regret in his voice was genuine and it tugged
at her. “What would that be?”
“How to heal. I know all the chants and the right
herbs and plants, but I just don’t have the gift the way he did.”
Nicolas divided some of the food and put the rest away. He had the
feeling they might need it later, and he believed in being
prepared. “He taught me that all lives are important and before we
learn to take life away, we should learn to give life back. And he
could. You should have seen him. He was a good man, highly
educated. He also knew the history of my people and the old ways.
He respected nature and life and he could bring harmony to a
chaotic situation just by being there.”
Dahlia sighed. “He sounds like a very intriguing
man. I had Milly and Bernadette. Bernadette was the medicine woman
in the bayou. Quite a few of the locals would come to ask her to
help them. She delivered babies and treated all sorts of things,
mostly with plants and herbs. She was a trained nurse, but she told
me her early and best education was here in the bayou with another
woman who knew medicine. She taught me quite a bit. I liked being
in the bayou, out in the open, away from everyone.”
She had to turn away from him, away from grief and
anger. She had to be in control at all times, as long as she was in
his company. He helped ease the bombardment of energy, but more
than once, Dahlia had lost control and others had suffered the
consequences. “I’m very tired. Do you think we should take turns
being on guard?”
“I doubt it’s necessary. There are enough natural
alarms around us. We’d both probably wake up immediately. I sleep
light.”
She didn’t doubt that he slept light. There was
something very self-contained about Nicolas Trevane. He exuded
confidence and authority. “I’m going outside for a few minutes. If
something does happen tonight or tomorrow, there’s a boat tied up
just around the bend. It’s old and it leaks, but it has gas in the
motor and will get you out of here.” It was one of the many avenues
of escape she kept out of necessity.
“We’re sticking together, Dahlia. I hope you don’t
think you’re going to hightail it out of here and go after Jesse on
your own.”
She shrugged. “We’re adults, Nicolas. I have to do
what’s right for me, and I guess you have to do the same. I’m not
leaving Jesse behind, and I’m not about to ask you to risk your
life going after these people to get him back.”
“My job is to keep you alive and escort you back to
Lily. I guess we’re going in the same direction.”
“There’s a small condo in the French Quarter Jesse
showed me once. We can go there. There are clothes and money and ID
stashed for me.” She opened the door, let the sound of the rain
into the small cabin, pausing in the open doorway to stare out into
the bayou. “Do you think they know who you are?”
“I doubt they’ll ever find out,” Nicolas
said.
Dahlia took a deep breath as she stepped outside,
closing the door behind her. The rain had lessened in strength,
falling in a light drizzle. The moment she was alone, she sagged
against the wall of the cabin and pressed her hand to her mouth,
afraid she might choke. She’d never been so off balance in her
life. The man had risked his life to save hers. He’d hauled her
through the swamp and provided clothes and food for her. She
couldn’t very well run off like a rabbit because she didn’t know
how to be in the company of people.
Maybe it was his company she was afraid of. She’d
never had such a reaction to anyone before. She wanted to put it
down to extreme circumstances, but Dahlia knew herself far better
than that. She’d lived most of her life under difficult conditions,
and she’d never had such an awareness of a man before.
Determined to get through the rest of the night
without making a fool of herself, Dahlia went back inside quickly.
Nicolas was the type of man who would come looking, and she didn’t
want that. There was dignity in returning on her own, unafraid, or
at least giving the illusion of being unafraid.
Dahlia went directly to the mattress. She wasn’t
going to be a baby about sharing the only place he could stretch
out in either. That, too, was beneath her dignity.
“You want the wall or the outside?” He didn’t look
at her, giving her space.
Her first inclination was to take the outside, but
he was far better with weapons, and she was smaller. She could
easily crawl off the mattress without disturbing him, whereas he
didn’t have a hope of doing the same. “I’ll take the wall.” She
hoped she didn’t suddenly develop claustrophobia.
Nicolas waited until she was lying on the thin
mattress. He knew what it took for her to allow him to have the
outside. It was more practical, but she had spent her life away
from people, living a solitary existence, talking only to a couple
of older women and Jesse Calhoun. Nicolas wanted a long talk with
Calhoun. The man had to have been working for the same people who
had used Dahlia as an operative. Just what had they been using her
for?
Nicolas felt Dahlia shrink away from his body when
he settled his weight beside her, stretching out fully. “Are you
going to be able to do this, Dahlia?”
She closed her eyes, wishing he hadn’t asked her.
Wishing his tone wasn’t so gentle, almost tender. Wishing the
warmth of his body didn’t envelope her and drive away the shivering
she hadn’t been able to stop since she’d found Milly and Bernadette
dead. Murdered, execution style. “What did you bring in the
pillowcase?”
“The pillowcase?”
“From my room. I saw you had a pillowcase from off
of my bed.”
“I picked up as many things that looked like they
might be of sentimental value to you and shoved them in it. A few
books, a sweater, a stuffed animal. I didn’t have much time.”
Dahlia turned her head to look at him. “That was
very considerate. I doubt if too many people would have thought of
it under the circumstances.”
Her drowsy voice conjured up images of satin
sheets. He’d never laid on a satin sheet in his life, but he
suddenly had visions of her looking up at him, naked, her dark hair
spread out on the pillow, candlelight playing lovingly over her
body. He didn’t trust himself to answer. And he didn’t trust his
body to behave, even as uncomfortable and as tired as he was.
He turned away from her, on his side, giving her as
much room as he could and took command of his breathing, slowing it
down so he could fall asleep. Once he touched the rifle that lay
beside him and the Beretta that was next to his hand. He could feel
the outline of his knife, sheathed, but unhooked in case of quick
need. He was ready should her enemies find them.