LaShae’s first meeting with Sammy at the Blue Water Bar and Grill had gone well. Her instincts told her that with just a little more gentle persuasion, she could not only get him to appear on her show this week, but she could convince him to press charges against the minister who had raped him when he was a boy. Although Sammy hadn’t told her his exact age, she guessed he was no more than thirty-one or two. The poor man was extremely shy and reserved and had made direct eye contact with her only once. She’d never seen such blue eyes. Beautiful blue eyes. He was not a handsome man, but he could be. If he cut his shaggy blond hair, learned how to dress better, and built up a bit of self-confidence, he would be quite appealing.
When she had asked for a second meeting, he had agreed. Reluctantly. That’s why she had told him she would come to his motel room this evening. Normally, she wouldn’t meet someone she didn’t know—male or female—under circumstances that might prove dangerous to either of them. But her instincts told her that Sammy needed her trust; otherwise, he would never return that trust.
She pulled her Lexus into the parking area at the Triple Eight Motel in Bessemer, not the nicest place to stay or the safest neighborhood. But she kept a pistol in her glove compartment and carried pepper spray on her key chain. And her cell phone stayed clipped to her purse strap practically twenty-four-seven.
Just as her hand grasped the car door handle, her phone rang. Groaning, she released the handle, grabbed her phone, and checked the caller ID: Rodney. Why was he calling her? Sunday dinner had ended badly, with him storming out in anger. She had thought about contacting him today, but decided to allow him time to cool off first.
She could let the call go to voice mail and call him back later tonight or even in the morning. After all, what could he possibly have to say to her that couldn’t wait.
Go ahead and talk to him. No point in putting it off.
She flipped open the phone. “Hello.”
“LaShae … I’m sorry,” Rodney said.
Regret welled up inside her. He had nothing to be sorry about; she did. “You had every right to be angry. After all, I’m the one who had an affair.”
Silence.
“I’m the one who should be saying I’m sorry,” she told him.
“You can’t take all the blame. If I’d been a better hus band… If I hadn’t neglected you so much…”
She couldn’t bear hearing him beg for her forgiveness, not when she and not he had broken their marriage vows. “Why don’t you come for Sunday dinner again next week and we’ll try again?”
“I’d like that. Thank you for giving me another chance.”
“I’m not promising anything. It’s just Sunday dinner,” she said. “I want us not only to do what is best for Martin, but what’s best for the two of us as well.”
“LaShae …”
“Yes?”
“I love you. No matter what.”
She swallowed hard. “I love you, too.”
She closed the cell and slipped it into the pouch clipped to her purse handle. Loving Rodney was not the problem. She would probably always love him. No, the problem was that she was in love with Ben Thompson.
LaShae opened the car door, stepped out, and searched for Room Ten. When she reached Sammy’s room, she paused, opened her purse, clicked on the small tape recorder she used for interviews, closed her purse, and knocked on the door.
No response.
She waited for several minutes, then knocked again.
Nothing.
She knocked louder and harder. “Sammy? It’s LaShae Goodloe.” Not wanting to disturb other guests or bring undue attention to herself, she kept her voice low.
The door opened just a crack and Sammy peered through the minute opening, his bright blue eyes staring at her. “I–I wasn’t sure you’d come.”
“I’m here and I very much want to talk to you again.” She waited for him to respond, and when he didn’t, she said, “I want to help you.”
He unhooked the chain and opened the door several inches, but didn’t invite her into his room. “I don’t think you can help me. I don’t think anyone can.”
“Please, Sammy, give me a chance.”
Silence.
He eased the door open slowly. With his head bowed and his gaze downcast, he stepped back to allow her enough space to enter.
The maternal part of her nature wanted to put her arms around him, hug him, and tell him she truly did want to help him. But common sense kept her from acting on motherly instinct.
She entered the dingy, dismal room, the last room on the end of a U-shaped, sixties motel that should have been condemned years ago. No doubt the other residents were local hookers, drug addicts, and down-on-their-luck men who paid for a room by the week. Shivering at the thought of cockroaches in dark corners, rusted sink and shower faucets in the bathroom, and mold growing beneath the smelly carpet, LaShae wished that she could turn around and leave.
“This place is actually cleaner than it looks,” Sammy told her, as if he’d read her mind. “There aren’t any bugs or anything. And the sheets are clean.” He kept wringing his hands together nervously.
She reached out and placed her hand over his. He jerked away from her. Their gazes met for a brief second before he looked away.
Poor, pitiful man.
“It’s all right,” she said.
He nodded.
She glanced around the room, spotted two chairs on either side of a small table, and noted the three liter plastic bottle of cola on the tabletop. Apparently, Sammy had already poured himself a glass because one of the two glasses was empty where the other was half full.
“May I sit down?” she asked.
“Yes, please.”
When she sat in one of the two chairs, he came over, and sat across from her. With his gaze downcast, he asked, “Would you like some Coke?”
“Yes, thank you.” She placed her purse in the chair beside her.
“I’ve got ice,” he said, then got up to retrieve the ice bucket from where it sat on the cheap, scarred wooden dresser.
While Sammy busied himself adding ice to his drink and putting it into her glass, LaShae snapped open her purse, just enough to enable the recording device to better pick up their conversation.
“I hope Coke is okay,” Sammy said as he unscrewed the cap and poured the cola into her glass. “I didn’t know if you preferred Coke or Pepsi or maybe RC.”
“Coke is fine.”
He picked up his glass, took a sip, then holding it with both hands brought it down to rest above his lap. He sat there quietly, shyly, not saying a word, just staring at the floor.
“I’d very much like for you to come on my show and talk about what happened to you,” LaShae said. “Even if you don’t want to name your rapist—”
“Reverend Boyd Morrow,” Sammy blurted out.
LaShae breathed in deeply. “I know how much courage that took—to tell me the man’s name.”
Saying nothing, Sammy lifted his glass to his lips and took another sip of cola.
Taking her cue from him, LaShae picked up her glass and took several sips of Coke, then put her glass down, and held out her hand to Sammy. “If you decide to press charges against this Reverend Morrow, I and WBNN will stand by you and help you in every way possible.”
Nodding as he listened, Sammy continued sipping on his cola. “Maybe, I will press charges. If you …” He looked up at her with those incredible blue eyes. “If you promise that you won’t desert me.”
LaShae smiled at him, then hesitantly reached over and patted his arm. He stared down at her hand on his arm.
“I promise,” she said.
He nodded again.
She leaned back in the chair, lifted her glass, and told him, “Whenever you’re ready to tell me more about what happened, how Reverend Morrow abused you, I’m ready to listen.”
“You won’t hate me or judge me or think I’m terrible, will you?”
She took a hefty sip of Coke, set the glass down, and smiled at him again, hoping her friendliness translated into caring. “You’re the victim, Sammy. You were an innocent young boy. I’m very proud of you for having the courage to tell me about what happened.”
Suddenly, LaShae’s vision blurred. Just for an instant. She shook her head. Her vision cleared momentarily.
“Are you all right?” he asked.
“Yes, I–I think so. I feel odd. A bit dizzy.”
“Maybe you’re hungry,” he said. “Did you miss lunch or—”
“Sammy, I–I’m …” She tried to stand, but couldn’t manage to get to her feet. She flopped back down into the chair. “I don’t know what’s wrong—”
She tried to focus on him, but when she did, she realized two things: Sammy loomed over her, staring down at her with an odd smile on his face, and she knew she was going to pass out. Right now.
Judd removed his muddy boots and left them on the back porch. He had stomped through the woods until well after dark, trying his best to work off some of the frustration that plagued him. He had left Griffin’s Rest Sunday morning, running away from Lindsay and the emotions she evoked in him.
After entering the kitchen, he removed his leather jacket, flung it across the back of the nearest chair, and headed toward the cupboard where he kept his whiskey stored. Yesterday, he’d drunk himself into a mindless stupor, finding a few hours of forgetfulness in his alcoholic haze. In the past, when he’d gotten drunk, he had been trying to forget about Jennifer, about how much he had loved her, about how she had died. But last night, he’d been trying to forget Lindsay.
He opened the cupboard, reached in, and yanked out the three-quarters’ empty bottle of Jack Daniels. Gripping the bottle in one hand, he stared at it, seeing it for what it was— his friend and his enemy. A friend who could ease the pain inside him. But only temporarily. An enemy that made false promises.
He set the bottle on the counter.
He wanted a drink.
No, he needed a drink.
Six months ago, he wouldn’t have thought twice about drowning his sorrows. Hell, a few weeks ago, he would have gotten drunk and stayed drunk for a week. But that was before …
Before he realized that he hated himself for having hurt Lindsay. Before he admitted to himself that after almost four years of being incapable of caring about himself or anyone else, he actually cared about Lindsay McAllister.
He didn’t want to care, but God help him, he couldn’t stop himself.
Judd left the bottle of Jack Daniels on the counter.
As he prepared the coffeemaker, his hands trembled.
He had gone cold turkey six months ago. He could do it again.
This time for good.
He stood and watched as the black liquid drained down into the glass coffeepot. Staring sightlessly, his mind wandering, his thoughts taking him away from the present moment, Judd didn’t fight the inevitable memories that were gradually replacing the memories of his wife.
Lindsay smelled fresh and clean, like Ivory soap and baby powder. Her scent filled his nostrils, floating through him, enticing him in a way expensive perfume could not. Chanel No. 5 or any other heavy perfume reminded him of Jennifer.
Nothing about Lindsay reminded him of his wife. They were as different as night and day. Comparing them would be like comparing apples to oranges.
He had loved Jennifer. God in heaven, how he had loved that woman. She had been exciting, flirtatious, effervescent, and lusciously beautiful. With her on his arm, every man who saw them envied him, wanted to be him. Until she came into his life, he had never truly been in love, had never known what it was like for one person to be the other’s sole reason for living.
Whatever problems they’d had in their brief marriage, they would have worked out. He had never doubted for a minute that they would have spent the rest of their lives together, had children together, grown old together.
Anguish stabbed through him, a pain so severe that he doubled over as tears misted his eyes. It had been years since he had felt this intensely.
Snapping straight up as the pain subsided, Judd glanced from the coffeemaker to the bottle of whiskey.
Damn you, Lindsay McAllister. Damn you for making me feel again.
He grabbed the bottle, opened it, turned it upside down over the sink, and poured the reddish brown liquid down the drain, then tossed the empty bottle into the topless trash can halfway across the room.
With the coffee brewing, his stomach knotted and his hands shaky, Judd checked the refrigerator. Empty, except for a couple of moldy items that could have, at one time, been something edible. When he rummaged in the pantry, he found two cans of soup and a half-full box of crackers. Probably stale.
Soup, crackers, and coffee tonight. Tomorrow morning, he’d make a trip to the nearest store for more supplies. And he’d call Dr. Meng. If he couldn’t manage to stay sober on his own, he wanted to have a backup plan. He might need her help.
LaShae’s eyelids fluttered. Despite feeling lethargic, her limbs heavy, her mind foggy, she managed to open her eyes. The room was dimly lit and eerily quiet, except for music. Instrumental. No words. The tune unfamiliar. Classical. Mozart, perhaps.
Where was she? Not at home.
Think, LaShae. Try to remember.
I left the station and drove to Bessemer to meet with Sammy.
Sammy!
Where was Sammy?
She looked around the empty room. Sammy’s motel room. Was she alone? Where was he?
When she tried to sit up, she realized she couldn’t.
Why couldn’t she get up?
Her arms were spread out wide on either side of her and her wrists were bound with rope that disappeared under the bed. Attached to the bed railing? She struggled against the confinement, but couldn’t escape her bondage. The ropes held her bound tightly.
She lifted one foot and then the other. Her legs were free. She raised her left leg, then her right leg, finally kicking as hard as she could, thrashing about uselessly.
Who had done this to her? And why?
And where was Sammy? What had happened to him?
Had someone killed him?
She searched the room again. Empty. She was alone.
Scream! She opened her mouth to yell for help and realized she couldn’t. A thick rag tied across her open mouth effectively gagged her.
Had someone raped her and then left? She looked down at her body. She was fully clothed, could feel her bra against her breasts, could feel her panties still in place, and could even feel the shoes on her feet. No one had undressed her.
She heard a noise. What? Where?
The bathroom door opened. Her gaze focused on the shadowy figure moving toward her. Slowly. Precisely.
Whoever he was, he wasn’t in any hurry.
What was he holding in his hand?
As he approached LaShae, her heartbeat went wild, adrenaline pumping through her rapidly. He stopped several feet away and looked at her. She studied him closely, her eyesight slightly fuzzy and her brain foggy. She had no idea what had happened or what was going to happen. Managing one coherent thought at a time, she wondered if she would live long enough to give this man’s description to the police. If his intent was rape, she might survive. If not, if he killed her …
No, God, please. No! I don’t want to die.
Don’t punish me. I swear I’ll be good for the rest of my life. I’ll make my marriage to Rodney work. I’ll be a faithful wife, a loving mother …
Her gaze focused on the object the man held in his hand, the handle a light wood or a plastic that looked like wood. LaShae’s heart stopped when she recognized the tool he clutched.
A shiny new axe.
Merciful Lord!
Talking, trying to make him understand her words through the gag in her mouth, she struggled against the ropes that trapped her.
Please, don’t kill me.
He moved closer, stopping at the side of the bed. She gazed up at him, pleading with him, letting her eyes speak for her. He returned her stare. The man’s eyes were brown, as was his hair, and his cheeks flushed pink. He looked familiar, but she couldn’t quite place him. She had seen him somewhere before, hadn’t she?
“Hello, my pretty flower,” he said.
LaShae gasped. The man standing beside the bed, holding an axe in his hand was Sammy. And yet he was not Sammy. Where were his blue eyes? His blond hair?
A wig? Contacts?
She mumbled incoherently through the gag, trying to ask him why? Why was he going to kill her?
Was he really a victim of childhood rape or had he lied to her, lured her into a trap? God, she felt like a fool. She hadn’t been naive since she’d been a teenager, if then. Why had she been so trusting?
“Don’t fret, my lovely LaShae,” he told her as his free hand reached down and stroked her cheek. “You’ll never grow old and ugly. I’m picking you before you wither, while you’re still fresh and beautiful.”
She tried again to talk to him, but her words came out garbled.
He stroked her cheek, her neck, her shoulder. “I’ve been practicing, so I should be able to take off your head with one powerful chop.” He grasped her chin between his fingers and thumb, then squeezed. “I don’t want you to suffer.”
LaShae keened loudly, the sound muffled beneath the thick gag.
Don’t. Please, please don’t!
Griffin felt her presence before he glanced up and saw Yvette standing in the doorway of his den. He had known many stunningly attractive women over the years, but none as completely beautiful as this incredible woman whose heart and soul were as beautiful as her face and body. He admired Yvette, respected her, loved her.
He owed her his life.
“Good evening,” she said in that soft, mellow voice he had first heard eighteen years ago. An angel’s voice in the depths of hell.
“Come in.” He invited with a wave of his hand.
She entered the den like a puff of smoke, her walk so graceful that she seemed to float as she moved.
“I’ve spent the last hour with Barbara Jean,” Yvette told him.
Griffin nodded.
“I can tell you what she remembers. In detail.”
“Is it enough for me to send for a sketch artist?”
“Perhaps.”
“Tell me.”
Yvette thought for several seconds before she spoke again. “He was average height and probably average build, just as she has said. He was wearing a tan overcoat and a hat and sunglasses.”
“None of this information is new.” He eyed her knowingly. “There’s more, isn’t there?”
“His hair was brown. His cheeks very pink. Either flushed or chapped. He was clean-shaven. She’s very certain of those facts. His clothing was inexpensive, but his gloves were furlined leather and she believes the scarf around his neck was silk.”
“He wore a combination of his own expensive clothes and cheaper apparel.”
“He was quite fair, his face round and full, his nose large, rather prominent. Not handsome, but not ugly.”
“Anything else?” Griffin asked, knowing that even with an artist’s sketch, it was unlikely anyone could ID the suspect from this description. But it was far more than they’d ever had. And there was always the off chance that even a sketch showing a guy in sunglasses and wearing a hat might be of some use. After all, they now had a partial description.
“Does Barbara Jean have any idea that you were—?”
“No. When we spoke, she simply repeated what she had already told you in the past,” Yvette said. “The rest, I gained by invading her private thoughts.”
Griff took Yvette’s small, slender hands into his, lifted them to his lips and kissed first one and then the other. “Don’t feel guilty for using your special talent. You did it for the right reason, for a good cause.”
“The end always justifies the means.” Her voice held a tone of self-condemnation.
“Not always,” he told her. “But sometimes.”
Curling her fingers around his hand. “Damar is very protective of Barbara Jean.”
Griff nodded.
“She reminds him of his wife.”
“Damn! I should have known it was something like that. He hasn’t shown any interest in a woman in all these years, now suddenly …” Griff eyed Yvette speculatively. “He didn’t tell you that, did he?”
“No.”
“He wouldn’t want either of us to know, would he?”
“He hasn’t admitted it to himself.”
“Then how did you …” Griff groaned. “You probed his subconscious?”
“Not intentionally. But it happens sometimes. Especially with you and Damar. I’ve told you that our connection is quite strong. The three of us.”
“Three tortured souls spit out of the bowels of hell together. That would tend to bind people together, wouldn’t it?”
With only a slight hesitation, a glimmer of remembrance behind those luminous black eyes, Yvette said, “Send for your sketch artist and I’ll work with him alone, without Barbara Jean knowing.”
“Very well. I’ll have someone here by morning.”
When Yvette left him alone in his den, Griff tried not to think about the past. Eighteen years ago, fifteen years ago. Ten years ago.
Damar Sanders and Yvette Meng would be a part of his life from now until they died. He was as bound to them as if they were blood kin, his brother and his sister. Spirit siblings, their relationship forged in fire and brimstone.
Ruddy fed off her fear, devouring it the way a starving man consumes food. He wished he could remove the gag from her mouth so that he could hear her scream, but he couldn’t risk it. Someone might hear. He had brought along a CD player with a favorite Mozart CD to muffle any noise he or LaShae might make.
She thrashed about on the bed, fighting to free herself. Poor darling. Like an animal caught in a snare. If she could, she would no doubt chew off her hands at the wrists to escape.
“If you lie still, it will be easier for me to take off your head with one chop,” he told her, and loved the terror he saw in her eyes. “If you keep squirming, it might take several tries. We don’t want that, do we? You don’t want to suffer and I don’t want you to suffer.”
Tears flooded her eyes.
Such pretty pale brown eyes.
“I’ve never chopped off a head before, but I decided that since time was running out and the game would soon end, that I should try it. On a human, that is. I’ve practiced numerous times on various animals. Cats and dogs mostly.”
She went still suddenly, her gaze fixed on his as tears streamed down her face. She was begging him for her life. Silent begging. Not as satisfying as hearing her plead and beg and bargain, but it would do. This time.
He knelt down, reached under the bed and pulled out a large wooden chopping block that he had picked up at the local Dollar Store. Resting the axe against the nightstand, he reached over, lifted LaShae’s head, and slid the block beneath her neck. She continued staring up at him, silent and still.
“I’ll make it quick,” he said. “I promise.”
He lifted the axe over his shoulder, then brought it down with all his strength. The first blow severed her head, which rolled sideways on the block. Two arteries in her neck sprayed blood at least eight or nine feet, all the way across the bedspread and onto Ruddy’s slacks. He would simply remove this pair and leave them. He had bought them at the same time he’d bought the axe, the chopping block, and the other necessities this morning.
He noted that her head itself didn’t bleed much, but her eyes moved around some while her body trembled for only a few seconds. Then it was over.
He went into the bathroom, stripped out of his bloody clothes, tossed them into the shower, then washed his hands, and put on clean slacks and a shirt. When he went back into the bedroom, he flipped open the black vinyl duffel bag and removed his digital camera. He took several pictures. Hurriedly.
He would stay only long enough to savor the kill. The photos would allow him to enjoy this moment over and over again. For days, weeks, months.
After placing the camera back in the duffel bag, he removed the single, long-stemmed red rose he’d gotten at a local grocery store this afternoon.
Ruddy laid the rose between LaShae’s lovely breasts.