CHAPTER 11

Saturday
Blue Valley, California
Rose studied a scanned page from the journal on
her laptop. ‘It’s so weird.’
Julian looked up from the diner’s very short,
single-sided menu. ‘What?’
‘He just seems so . . . I don’t know, so . . . it’s
like this journal was written yesterday.’
‘Because it’s not all “yea” and “forsooth” and
“verily”?’
Rose nodded. ‘I suppose so, yeah.’
‘Diaries and journals are informal. They’re usually
the most intimate of historical records. No one writes a diary
thinking it’s going to be read by anyone else, let alone some
historian from the future. It’s personal, and a much closer and
more reliable record of a person’s life than any census or public
document.
‘When I was a researcher for the BBC - Christ - ten
years ago now,’ Julian continued, looking down the menu once more,
‘I went through loads of unearthed correspondence from Roman
soldiers, dug out along Hadrian’s wall - amazing stuff that
could’ve been written by squaddies serving in Iraq; lads asking
their mums for extra pairs of underwear, for soap. The language
that normal people use and the things that fill their everyday
lives, what concerns them . . . none of that ever really changes. I
love that about history.’
The waitress came over with her pad flipped open
and ready to go. ‘What’ll you have?’
Julian puffed and bit on his lip for a moment
before looking up at her with a hopeful smile. ‘I don’t suppose you
got anything along the lines of a lasagne or a—’
She sighed. ‘Just what’s on the menu, sir.’
He nodded, suitably chastened. ‘Oh. Then, um . . .
a Ranch Burger, please.’
Rose waited until she’d finished scribbling. ‘And I
suppose I better have the caesar salad,’ she said.
‘Another drink with yer meals?’
Julian looked at Rose. ‘Another couple of
beers?’
‘Why not? The last lot went down easily.’
Rose watched her go before looking back at her
laptop, perched on the small table between them in their cosy
corner booth. ‘We’ve got all the pages digitised now?’
Julian nodded. ‘I flicked through and scanned them
last night. The Lambert journal is now tucked safely away, sealed,
dry and covered. Grace would approve, I’m sure. And very soon it’ll
make a nice exhibit for some local museum.’
‘That’s a relief. Knowing how clumsy you can be,
Jules, I had visions of you spilling coffee all over it, or
something.’
Julian grinned. ‘The ole girl would skin me
alive.’
Rose nodded. ‘She would that.’
Julian looked around the bar, empty except for a
couple of young men shooting pool on the far side, away from the
booths. A TV behind the counter was on FOX News. They were covering
the Reagan Presidential Library debate; six candidate hopefuls for
the Republicans were slugging it out between them.
‘I think he sounds really sweet.’
‘Who?’
‘This bloke, Benjamin Lambert.’
‘Don’t tell me you’re falling for a dead
guy?’
She smiled. ‘He comes across as tender, sensitive.
I like that.’
Rose had come across very few men in her life thus
far that she could genuinely describe as tender and sensitive. None
that had seen past her falsely confident cheeriness, and sensed the
insecurity inside. Not even Julian, who seemed to know her so well;
not even he sensed she felt like an ugly duckling amongst the
glamorous production assistants and floor managers and other media
muppets that swanned around their world.
Rose knew Julian thought highly of her. Respected
her talent, trusted her judgement. In fact she was certain most of
the male professionals she interacted with on a regular basis were
quietly impressed with her techie talk and media savviness, but
beyond that saw nothing more than a plain-Jane struggling to stay
in a size twelve.
‘I’m no glamorous Paris Hilton,’ she’d moaned
once.
‘Sod that. You’re the most talented filmmaker I’ve
ever worked with,’ Julian had replied sincerely.
Just what an ugly duckling needs to hear.
The waitress returned with their food and drinks,
deftly dealing them out with a cheerless smile. ‘Enjoy your meal,’
she said in a flat tone, and was gone.
Rose speared a leaf of lettuce with her fork whilst
looking at Julian’s plate. ‘God, I wish I could eat that sort of
crap and stay whippet-thin like you.’
‘I’ve got a fast metabolism - nervous energy.
Actually, I thought hitting my late thirties would slow me down a
bit,’ he said and then swigged a mouthful of beer.
‘God. What were you like at my age?’
‘Twenty-five? Much the same, I suppose. Nature’s
been kind so far. You wait till I hit my mid-forties, then I’ll age
ten or fifteen years overnight.’ He picked up his Ranch Burger,
which dripped melted cheese and bacon fat.
She shook her head and smiled wearily. ‘I guess
I’ll stick to eating rabbit food, drinking decaf and drooling over
my George Clooney screensaver.’ The only intimacy she shared these
days was with things that came with an AC adaptor. Filming,
editing, mixing. Filming, editing, mixing. And once in a blue moon
she got lucky with a bloke wearing beer goggles. It always seemed
to be a sound, lighting or camera guy, charmed more by her ability
to talk kit than anything else.
They ate in silence for a while, both hungry after
the afternoon’s hike out of the woods to the park’s camp site.
Julian worked through his burger with his eyes on the TV over the
bar, absent-mindedly regarding the suited, carefully groomed
candidates slinging uninspired soundbites at each other.
‘So okay then, Rosie,’ said Julian, wiping his
mouth with a napkin. ‘Down to business. We need to plan out what
we’re going to do.’
‘You’re the boss,’ she said dryly.
He put down his burger, wiped his hands and frowned
- deep in thought for a moment. ‘I think we could make something
more out of this, much better than the usual docu-channel fodder. I
think we could make a feature-length documentary, and we could try
for something that’s good enough for a theatrical release. There’s
no reason why we shouldn’t, frankly. What do you think?’
Her eyes widened as she chugged a mouthful of beer
from her bottle.
‘There’s beautiful scenery up here,’ he continued.
‘It’s made for a larger screen. Those woods and peaks, swirling
morning mist . . . the right background score?’
‘God, yes,’ she replied, grinning.
‘Something you and I could be proud of,’ he said,
picking up his bottle and clinking it on hers. He finished it and
wiped the suds from his lips. ‘Nice drop of lager, that.’
‘Jules, love. They call it beer here.’
He waved his hand. ‘Beer, shmeer. You want
another?’
‘Go on then.’
He caught the waitress’s eye and ordered two
more.
‘The thing is,’ he continued, ‘I need to head back
to the UK. This was meant to be a quickie project, cheap and
cheerful. Now it’s something altogether different, we’ll need a
bigger budget and some investment partners. I want to pitch it to
some more substantial players, not just the BBC.’
‘Oh, God. This could really make us!’
Julian felt a little light-headed. He wasn’t sure
if it was the adrenaline rush or the Budweiser.
‘What about me?’ asked Rose. ‘I need to get back to
our studio to put everything we’ve got together.’
He looked at her. Her cheeks were pink with
excitement.
‘Maybe you should stay here, Rose. I’ll be home for
no more than a week, I guess, and then be right back to help. I
just think someone needs to stick around and keep an eye on our
turf, if you know what I mean.’
She nodded. ‘Yeah, maybe you’re right.’
‘What’s the broadband like at our motel? You tried
it?’
‘I think it’s pretty good. Both our rooms have got
a connection. ’
The waitress brought the beers over. ‘Get you guys
anything else?’
Julian checked his watch. It was late and he knew
he needed to be up early to make his way to Reno-Tahoe
International airport to catch a flight to Denver and back to
Heathrow. Once they had a few interested partners and some budget
money to play around with, then he and Rose could celebrate
properly.
‘Just the bill, please,’ he replied.
When the waitress had gone he turned back to Rose.
‘Whilst I’m in London, could you knock up a short, tasty showreel
and send it over?’
‘Sure,’ she said, pushing her fringe back out of
her face, ‘no problem.’
She realised he was looking at her for longer than
was comfortable for either of them. Rose looked away awkwardly and
started peeling the label off her beer bottle. Julian chugged
another mouthful.
‘Reno’s about two or three hours’ drive. I’ll take
our hire car there, if you can get another one arranged
locally.’
She nodded as she finished the last of her beer, a
careless trickle running down her chin as she set the bottle down
on the table.
Julian leaned forward and wiped it away with his
thumb. ‘Lush.’
Rose felt it. She wondered if Julian had.
A little frisson. A momentary fizz of
excitement.
He looked awkward, slightly embarrassed and
withdrew his hand.
‘We need to go to my room and check the
bandwidth.’
Rose felt her cheeks colour. I can’t believe I just
said that.
‘Sorry?’
‘Of the broadband connection?’ she quickly
added.
The waitress came with the bill. He settled it and
left a tip.
‘Maybe we should test it,’ said Rose quietly.
‘Before you go and it’s too late to know if it’s good enough to
upload a showreel. ’
Julian smiled hesitantly and pushed his glasses up
the bridge of his nose. He sensed something in the invitation,
something that stepped outside of their tight professional
partnership. They were both high on the excitement of the story,
and several beers each was helping to leverage the mood . . . but
he knew where this had the potential to go and that in the morning
they’d both regret it.
‘Errr . . . I . . .’ he stammered.
Rose quickly looked down at her bottle and carried
on peeling the label.
‘Or maybe not,’ she replied uncomfortably.
‘Maybe it’s just fine. Yeah, I’m sure it
probably—’
‘Yeah, sure . . . it uhh . . . maybe . . . we
should check it in the morning.’
‘Sure.’
They both smiled and fidgeted for a moment, before
reaching for their coats.