CHAPTER ELEVEN
 
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This was what she’d wanted. She’d planned on inviting Jace up to her room to test her theory about her visions, but the way he gripped her hand with such obvious anger gave her second thoughts. And third thoughts.
The man was pissed. She’d suspected he might be, so the tension-filled silence as they waited for the elevator to reach their floor shouldn’t have affected her so strongly. But it did.
Her skin practically itched with apprehension.
She could get Jace into bed; there was no doubt in her mind—attraction still buzzed between them beneath everything else—but she didn’t want their first time to be tainted with anger. She wanted them to be the people they’d been earlier this morning. People who could laugh together, who were obviously sharing something more than their bodies. Even if it was foolish to want something more than sex with Jace Lu, she didn’t care. Even if being with him was actually in some way responsible for bringing on her horrific visions.
She couldn’t imagine how such a thing could be possible, but she couldn’t ignore the evidence. No visions until she and Jace had kissed for the first time, and then—bam—two incidents right in a row, both times right after she’d been in a deep lip-lock with Jace. The timing should have been enough to bring back her suspicions that he couldn’t be trusted, but it didn’t. She trusted Jace, and, as unexpected as it was, she could tell he cared about her and wanted to help.
All the more reason to make sure she was honest with him from here on out. Which meant she should tell him about her plan before she put it in motion. A heads-up that she might go mental on him midnooky would probably be appreciated.
“Jace, can we talk now?”
“Are we in the room?” His chilly tone invited no further comment. Good thing she’d never needed an invitation to speak her mind. At least, not with him. No matter how brusque he could be, she felt comfortable with Jace. He could never intimidate her the way even her big brother could.
“I can tell you’re upset,” she said in her most mollifying tone, “but I need to tell—”
“Upset doesn’t cover it,” he snapped. “You disobeyed a direct order.”
“I didn’t realize I’d signed up for the military,” she snapped back, her clear-the-air intentions fading fast. Where did he get off? Hadn’t she made it obvious she wasn’t going to put up with this kind of crap?
“And you put yourself in danger by going back to your apartment,” Jace said, ignoring her. “The place where you were pushed down the stairs less than twenty-four hours ago.”
“I didn’t—”
“Don’t lie to me. I’ve seen you when you know the layout of a place. Half the time no one can tell you’re blind,” he said. “There’s no way you fell down the stairs of your own apartment building. You—”
“Fine, I might have been pushed. By the invisible demon you don’t believe in. I also heard a woman telling me to run, just like I heard a woman screaming in the ruins. So I’m still feeling invisible demons and hearing imaginary women. Are you happy now?”
“No, I’m not happy. I think it’s pretty clear I’m not happy.” He pulled her out into the hall when the elevator doors dinged open.
The smell of freshly cut flowers filled the air, reminding Sam of the arrangement she’d been taking to the Choes. She wondered if those flowers had really been on the floor of the murder scene, the way she’d seen them in her vision, and if so, how they’d made it from the Dumpster to their apartment. Jace was the only one she knew of who’d seen her throw them away. It was just another little fact that should have made her wary, should have made her run the other way when Jace let go of her hand to slide the key to their room into the card reader.
But she didn’t. Jace wasn’t capable of killing someone in cold blood, just like he wasn’t capable of hurting her, no matter how angry he was.
“Putting yourself in danger for a change of clothes was a dumb call.” Jace’s lecture began in earnest as soon as the door slammed closed behind them. “And dumb calls are a good way to end up dead. I don’t know what—”
“I didn’t go back to my apartment,” she said. “I went to my ex-boyfriend’s house to talk to him about the demons.”
“What?” He somehow managed to make that single word sound as ominous as a death threat.
Great. Well, no time like the present to put that Jace-would-never-hurt-me theory to the test.
“He still had some of my clothes at his place, so I changed there. He’s a doctor of demonic anthropology with a minor in occult practices,” she said, standing her ground as she heard Jace move closer. “I thought he could help.”
“And did he? Did he help you?” His hands landed possessively on her hips, making her breath hitch. He still sounded mad as hell, but the way he touched her … Damn. Electricity practically radiated from his fingertips.
Maybe she’d been wrong about the anger thing. The jealousy was nice, too. He was obviously jealous that she’d had clothes at another man’s house. She’d always thought envy a ridiculous emotion, but she couldn’t deny Jace’s possessiveness turned her on. A lot.
“He’s trying,” Sam said, her voice trembling a bit as his body heat warmed her face. Jace was bending down, which meant his lips were probably only a few inches away from her own. “He’s going to look into a few of his books and see if there could really be some sort of psychic connection between me and the aura demons my parents summoned when I was a kid.”
“There’s no such thing as an aura demon.” His hands slid up to her waist and under her sweater, until they rested on the bare skin of her back. They were warm, but they still made her shiver. She wanted to arch under his fingers like a cat, to let him know how even such a simple touch drove her crazy.
“A hundred years ago people would have said there was no such thing as demons. Period.” Sam leaned closer, bringing her hands to Jace’s chest, loving the way his muscles bunched beneath her fingertips. He smelled just slightly of sweat and general New York City street grime, but that did nothing to dampen her excitement. Arguing with Jace was fast becoming one of her favorite forms of foreplay. “Now we know better.”
“I don’t think so.” He pulled her even closer, letting her feel that disagreement had a similar effect on him. “Demon is just a name.”
“What do you mean?” Sam tilted her hips, a thrill running through her as she nudged where Jace was already as hard as he’d been that first time on the street. God, she couldn’t wait to get his clothes off, to finally have the chance to live out some of the fantasies she’d had about this man.
No. Not about this man. The Jace Lu she’d fantasized about was a bad boy without a cause. He hadn’t had a sense of humor or cared about her. And he certainly wouldn’t have trembled when she touched him.
She liked this man even better than her dream Jace—maybe she even loved him.
“The things I hunt aren’t demons—at least, not in the original sense of the word,” he said, his breath hot against her forehead and his hands sliding farther up her back, teasing at the close of her bra. “They’re reptile-mammal hybrids, descended from dinosaurs. They’re animals without—”
“Animals who can think and plan way better than people give them credit for. After thousands of years living in caves, they adapted to a radically new environment and then manipulated that environment to make themselves at home, all within the space of a few days.” The close of her bra snapped open with a practiced little flip of Jace’s fingers. Sam’s nails dug into Jace’s shirt as her nipples pebbled tight inside the loosening cups of her bra.
Why were they still talking? She had no idea, but for some reason their conversation about demons was really doing it for her. Maybe it was just the deliberate delay of pleasure that made her skin itch and her sex throb. Or maybe it was just being this close to Jace. They could probably be discussing the weather and she’d get hot, wet.
“So they’re smarter than your average lizard.” He shrugged. “That doesn’t prove there are invisible demons.” His lips pressed soft kisses to her temple, then her cheek.
“It doesn’t prove that there aren’t, either. What if aura demons are to the demons what we are to dogs and cats? Smarter? More dangerous?” Sam met Jace’s lips for a not-so-sweet kiss before he tugged at the bottom of her sweater, pulling it up and over her head. He pulled her deeper into the room. She followed eagerly, kicking off her shoes as she went.
“More dangerous than a demon that can shoot poisonous quills out of its stomach?” he asked, his voice muffled as he pulled off his own shirt. Seconds later, Sam heard metal jingling and the hushed slide of leather through loopholes. Jace was taking off his belt. Her body threw a celebration, complete with bells and whistles and nervous thrills shooting across every inch of her skin.
“Think about it, survival of the fittest. It’s a basic law of nature.” Sam’s mouth went strangely dry. This was it. They were getting naked. He was getting naked.
“Exactly.”
“What?” she asked, struggling to follow the conversation.
“Survival of the fittest. I’m agreeing with you.”
Oh. Right. “Right. So what could be more fit than a predator you can’t even see?” she asked. “That you couldn’t fight with teeth or claws or human weapons even if you could see it?”
Jace was silent for a long moment. “I see your point.”
“But you still don’t believe in aura demons.”
“I don’t know what I believe,” he said, a weary, vulnerable note in his voice that touched something inside of her, and made her want to hold him for reasons that had nothing to do with sating their mutual hunger.
She heard the little boy Jace might have been in that voice, a scared, confused little boy who didn’t have much in the world to hold on to. It made her wonder about his childhood, if maybe it had been even less cheery than her own. At least she remembered a time of happiness before that night in the barn, and after she came to live with her brother.
“I do know that I’m exhausted, I’m dirty, and I’m worried about your safety,” he said. “There are probably a dozen things I should be doing instead of what I’m about to do, but I don’t care.”
“You don’t?”
“No, I don’t. I need to know if you taste as sweet as you look.”
Oh, my. Her skin felt three sizes too small as she imagined where he would taste her, how he’d put those full, soft lips and teasing tongue to use on every place where she ached.
“Now, take off your bra.”
There was a note of the won’t-take-no-for-an-answer Jace in his tone, but this time it didn’t bother Sam. A part of her thought it should, but it didn’t. The feeling that he wouldn’t be taking no for an answer only made her throb.
“Now, Sam. Take off your bra and your pants.”
Sam’s lips buzzed as she let her bra slide down her arms, then tugged at her jeans, popping open buttons and shoving the rough denim down to her ankles before stepping free. This was exactly what she wanted, what she needed. So why was she so nervous?
“Come here,” Jace said, the husky note in his voice letting her know he appreciated seeing her in nothing but a pair of black panties.
Seeing her. Shit, she hadn’t said anything about her theory on where her visions were coming from.
“Jace, I—”
“Come here. I want your tits in my mouth.”
Damn. How could she argue with a sentiment like that? Or waste any more time with potentially useless explanations? Either she’d have a vision while she and Jace were rolling around in bed, or she wouldn’t. Talking to him about the possibility would only convince him she was even crazier than he thought she was already.
“Even though you think I’m kind of crazy?” she asked, realizing what was causing her hesitation. How could Jace want her when he thought she was nuts? She was allegedly the crazy one, but she didn’t find head cases particularly sexy.
“Only kind of?”
The teasing note in his voice made her feel a little better. “Jace, I’m serious. I—”
“I don’t think you’re crazy.” His hands closed gently around her wrists and pulled her against him. “I think you’re beautiful.”
Oh. God. He was naked. Totally naked. She could feel every delicious inch of his skin.
“You really are soft all over,” she said, running her fingertips down his chest and then lower, skimming over his hips, down to where his body showed her just how desirable he found her. Tentatively she ran her fingers up and down his length, amazed at the petal softness of the skin covering the seven or eight inches of hot, hard male flesh.
“You feel like a flower,” she breathed, blushing before the words were even completely out of her mouth.
Jace made a noise, half laugh, half snort, that made her smile. “A flower?” The kisses he feathered across her shoulder were gentle, undemanding, as if he sensed she needed to move into this slowly.
“A manly flower,” she said, breath hissing out as his hand slid up her wrists, past her elbows. His thumbs brushed lightly across her nipples, making them pebble even tighter as frissons of excitement flowed down between her legs.
“That may be the strangest compliment I’ve ever received.” His thumbs brushed across her again, drawing a moan from low in her throat.
“Thanks,” Sam said, finally starting to grow tired of conversation. There were better things she could be doing with her mouth. Slowly she stroked Jace up and down, once, twice, until his breath hitched.
“But you know I love flowers. They’re one of my favorite things in the world,” she continued, sinking down to her knees, until her lips were level with Jace’s erection. “I love the way they smell.” She inhaled the musky scent of male arousal and slightly salty skin and sighed. Way better than roses. “I love the way they feel.” She leaned closer, teasing her lips across Jace’s tip until his cock twitched against her mouth. “I even love the way they taste.”
Her lips parted as she took just the tip of him into her mouth and suckled, drawing the head of his cock in and out, in and out, with a gentle suction until she tasted the most intimate flavor of the man she loved.
Love. The emotion kept sneaking into her heart no matter how many times she told herself there was no future for her and Jace Lu, and she was tired of fighting it. It was insane to fall so hard for a man—even a man she’d known and fantasized about for years—in less than a day, but it was hardly the craziest thing that had ever happened to her. The unexpected and unlikely happened far more often than most people realized.
Which made a foolish part of her hope that Jace might feel the same way. It was unexpected and unlikely. But that didn’t mean it couldn’t happen.
“You have to stop,” he said softly, as his fingers threaded through her hair.
“Do I?” She pulled him even deeper, relaxing her throat until she took as much of him as she could into her mouth.
He groaned, a tortured sound that made her breath come faster and her sex ache. Giving pleasure was almost as good as receiving it. Almost. “Yes, you do.” One hand fisted in the hair at the base of her neck and pulled her away from his cock with a force-fulness that made her gasp in surprise. And pleasure.
No matter what she preferred in “real life,” in the bedroom she couldn’t deny that she liked a man who wasn’t afraid to take control. Who wouldn’t think twice about scooping her up and throwing her on the bed. Who didn’t ask permission to do what he wanted to her body, simply gave her orders he expected her to obey.
“Spread your legs,” Jace said as he climbed onto the bed after her. His hands were already behind her knees, but he didn’t make a move. He was waiting for her to do as she was told.
“Yes, sir.” Her voice was light, teasing, but the feelings rocketing through her body were anything but. Her nipples pulled so tight they stung in the cool air of the hotel room, her hands fisted in the quilt beneath her, and every muscle in her body tensed and trembled. It had been so long since she felt this way, so exposed, so vulnerable to a man.
Hell, she’d never felt like this. Never been on the verge of tears because of the way a man pressed soft, adoring kisses up and down her thighs, drawing closer and closer to where her body wept with need. She was dying for Jace to be inside her, to fill her where she ached, wanted him so badly that her thighs began to churn on either side of him, as if somehow her writhing limbs could force him to move something more useful than his mouth between her legs. Sure, oral sex was nice and all, but—
Her breath whooshed in with equal parts surprise and excitement. Holy. God. What the hell was he doing down there? With his tongue, moving in and out and up and down and around and around her clit until her body sang with pure joy. Pure passion. She’d never felt anything like this, never known having a man taste her could be so completely transporting. Obviously she’d never had someone do this properly.
But Jace did. God, he did. Again and again he played through her folds until she was certain he’d tormented every needy inch of her flesh. But then he’d find previously unexplored territory, teaching her that there was more to pleasuring a woman than mindlessly circling her clit. Every place his tongue licked and teased had its own little pleasures, sweet torments that built the pressure within her until she could barely breathe.
“Please.” Sam’s head thrashed back and forth on the blankets, her hands fisted into the sheets until she swore she could feel her nails digging into her palms even through the thick fabric. Her heels dug into the mattress beneath her as she shamelessly strained to get closer to Jace’s mouth, Jace’s tongue.
“Sammy, God, Sammy,” Jace murmured, his words humming against her sex before he drove his tongue deep inside her, moaning as if he’d never tasted anything better than her pussy. Then his hands were on her thighs, spreading her even wider, pinning her to the bed as he moved from her clit to her entrance, from teasing flicks of his tongue to forceful plunges into where she ached like she’d never ached before.
She would have sworn it was impossible to be this aroused without reaching climax, but somehow Jace just kept taking her higher. And higher. Until she cried out wordlessly for him to let her fall, for him to push her off the edge. She wasn’t afraid of falling anymore, but this relentless climb was too beautiful and horrible to bear much longer. She was going to lose her mind. She needed to come, needed Jace to make her come, like she’d never needed anything.
“Come for me, Sammy. Come,” Jace demanded.
And that was all it took. She exploded, her body clamping down on where Jace’s tongue still worked in and out, in and out, wickedly awakening fresh desire even as she spiraled out of control, her body writhing on the bed like a woman possessed.
Which she was not. No demonic possession or connection. No visions, nothing dancing before her eyes—open or closed. She didn’t know whether to be relieved or disappointed. But then, it was hard to be anything except mind-numbingly aroused when Jace captured her mouth with his, driving his tongue between her lips, letting her taste her own sweet-salty heat before he positioned himself at her entrance and shoved slowly, achingly slowly, inside her. Inch by inch, velvety soft flesh, bare and hot, moving deeper and deeper, until he filled her completely and then just a little bit more.
“Sammy.” It was only her name, nothing special, but when combined with one of those kisses—the kind he’d given her at the hospital, the kind that made her certain she didn’t ever want to live without this man—it was enough to send her over the edge again, sobbing his name.