Catt Dahman
TITANIC QED
Chapter One: Titanic: Boarding Call
The Titanic was a colossal sea creature that breathed dark soot from her four smokestacks as she towered high in the water. Howard, clutching his leather satchel close to his chest, took his first up-close look at the ship and saw her as a leviathan, ravenous and grotesque. Passengers entered her sinister labyrinths to find themselves a part of the mystical, Bacchanalian voyage, or so he thought.
If asked to describe the Titanic, he would use those exact words, and he sighed as he turned his eyes away, shivering.
“You are fretting again, Howard,” Delora said. Her skirts rustled lightly, and she turned her face to the sun, her hat shading her face. The weather was glorious for sailing.
“She is so big. What secrets does she hold?”
“Of course, she is big; that is the point, dear. This is the most fascinating ship on earth, and we are going to be on her maiden voyage. This is exciting, Howard,” Delora said.
She had concerns for her nephew; he was handsome with pleasant features and large, brown eyes, was brilliant of mind, but was always overly anxious.
“And she is a luxurious ship. I understand the furnishings are French and quite opulent,” his other aunt, Annie, added. She patted her hair back into place, straightening her hat, as she made sure she was well turned out for the boarding.
“Once we are upon her, she is in control, Auntie. Is she not a frightening beast? Such power. La belle dame sans merci.”
Annie shook her head, becoming angry at his histrionics, “Stop right now. She is a marvelous ship, and I cannot wait to enjoy every amenity available. You are being petulant and ridiculously morbid,” she told him before pausing to take a deep breath. Howard was prone to these moods, and it was not something he could control. She tried again, “Dear, enjoy this. This is a once-in-a-lifetime chance and you, above all, should enjoy something unique.”
Howard took Annie’s elbow as they walked around a family who had stopped to let the little ones have a look at the majestic Titanic. The ship was almost nine hundred feet long, over ninety feet wide and almost three hundred feet tall. Although she was one of the three biggest ships ever built by the White Star Line and was set up as a fine hotel and devoted to luxury, Howard shuddered with a bit of revulsion as he watched her become bigger and closer as they walked in her direction.
It was to this steel giant that they were surrendering themselves.
“Does she not seem… foreboding?”
“Not at all,” Delora said.
“Are we early?” Howard asked.
“We are just on time. All the third class has been loaded, and the second class, and now it’s our turn. Isn’t that tidy? Oh, there is Mr. Astor and his new wife… ummm… provide introductions, Howard, please?” She refused to see anything malignant in her path, but saw the ship and the colorful passengers as one of the greatest adventures of her lifetime.
A grandiloquent trip abroad, full of rich food, lovely fashion, interesting people, and exquisite sights had only been a prerequisite to this voyage. The European tour was only an appetizer, and here was her main course; she was excited.
Howard made the formal introductions for his aunts and himself, and they shared niceties and formalities. He was very excited to meet Mr. Astor as the wealthy businessman had written a book some twenty years earlier about trips to other planets, and Howard enjoyed tales of the stars. Jupiter’s terrible monsters in the book were interesting, but Howard dearly wanted to ask more about Saturn’s dark, quiet spirits that gave travelers to the planet a foresight into their own deaths. How had Mr. Astor imagined such beings, and what were the origins of the spirits?
Having reread the book many times, Howard could not wait for the chance to expound on the possibilities of other, old beings on other planets. He hoped Mr. Astor would explain some finer points of his literature. He wanted to ask how a writer just opened himself up to imagination.
Mrs. Astor was shy and spoke in a soft voice, often looking to her husband for reassurances. “Are you acquainted with many people, dear?”
“More than I care to acknowledge,” Astor said, “and more than I would share a drink with.” He smiled at his new wife.
Madeline Astor adjusted her sleeve as she bit her lip. She did not know what that might mean and did not want to ask him here with others around.
Delora Phillips patted her arm comfortingly, and Maddy Astor thought the other woman looked to be a woman to whom she could ask questions, perhaps.
With John Astor her husband, Maddy had found that many only wished to be acquainted with her to be around them for financial or social reasons, to better themselves. Many of her husband’s colleagues were much older than she was, with grown children older than Maddy.
Besides her maid, there wasn’t a female she knew well enough to talk with. Just thinking about it made her want to cling to John’s arm or fade into the shadows. Who wanted to talk to her when John Astor, handsome and smart, was around?
“Over there… that’s Dorothy Gibson. I have seen her movies. Isn’t she lovely, Maddy?” John Astor asked.
“Oh… why, yes….” Maddy automatically agreed although she did not think the actress was particularly stunning. She blushed, realizing she had thought jealously.
“Your skin is much finer,” Annie told Maddy, “and with a touch of rouge upon your cheeks, you’d positivity glow.”
“I think so as well,” John Astor said. He suddenly noticed Howard’s melancholy. “Do you get ill aboard ships, Sir? Pardon my rudeness, but I noted your dismay. I have been told that a little mint with your tea is very soothing although I have never suffered the affliction.”
Delora laughed lightly, “He’s a little disquieted. He is convinced the ship is some kind of beast, waiting to gulp us down. It’s but anxiety and his nerves.”
Astor and his wife, Madeline, both laughed compassionately although her eyes looked troubled. Maddy whispered, “I’ve a bit of nerves as well though I can’t imagine why. Perhaps… so many people and so many strong voices, and our voices so quiet within our own thoughts… oh, forgive my silliness.”
Astor raised an eyebrow as he patted her, “It’s common with maiden voyages and superstitions, especially of the sea. Everyone fears and is fascinated by the oceans. Mint tea will help.
Maddy giggled a little.
“That is so true,” Howard agreed, “Mrs. Astor, I hope you will feel calm once we are underway and will have a wonderful voyage.”
John Astor smiled but tilted his head conspiratorially, “I heard that JP Morgan himself cancelled at the last moment, and so did several others. Do not let the tales and the much-ado disturb you. It is only last minute trepidations.”
“Exactly as we have said,” Annie said, unruffled. She and Mrs. Astor walked together to the ship.
“After all, it is not as if we are going aboard Callisto,” Howard slipped in slyly.
John Astor laughed heartily, “I see you have read my little story? Did you enjoy the adventure?”
“I found your ideas of faith and technology much more significant, Sir. It is a brilliant commentary upon the nature of the unknown and was a wonderful story.”
“Then we shall plan an evening of cigars, brandy, and intellectual debate, yes? I should like it if you joined me for that.”
Howard said he would be honored. He had never imagined the wealthy gentleman would be quite so gracious.
“Welcome aboard the RMS Titanic, ladies and gentlemen. I am Captain Edward Smith at your service.” The captain stood poker stiff in his uniform; his hat sat firmly upon his head with gold braiding and metal shining brightly on his it, and epaulets on his shoulder boards. His grey hair, beard, and moustache were neatly trimmed, and his blue eyes twinkled with excitement and pleasure as he greeted each guest with a handclasp.
The Captain was an added benefit for this trip, as most, wealthier travelers would sail only with him, not only for his excellent naval reputation, but also for his superior manners, joviality, and grandiosity. His place aboard was expected as he had formerly commanded the Titanic’s sister ship, the Olympic, which had suffered a collision, one near collision, and a few voyages when she had thrown her propeller. The Titanic’s maiden voyage was delayed a month because the builders were forced to send her parts to her sister ship so the Olympic might stay in service.
Beaming proudly, the Captain leaned down to pet the Astor’s Airedale, Kitty, who looked all around at the activity and panted with interest as she watched men and women arriving or leaving the ship. She was one of seven dogs brought aboard. Many passengers and crew stopped to pet her.
First officer William Murdoch, emulating the Captain, clasped Mr. Astor’s hand firmly and expressed interest in the man’s real estate business; he flashed warm smiles at all the women and then grasped Howard’s hand and welcomed him. “Would that be some of your writing work, Sir?” He motioned to the leather bag Howard carried.
He was expected to know a little about each of the first class guests, and if his memory were as sharp as he thought, this gentleman was an American writer and poet and would be working while on the trip to New York. For all the amenities the big ships offered, men and some women spent a great deal of time writing letters or working on little stories.
Before the end of the trip, he would have listened to poems, short stories, and story ideas, as well as have looked upon countless sketches of anything from sea monsters and plant anatomy to naughty hand-drawn French postcards and stick figures. Mr. Murphy always was privy to a range of creativity.
“It is my work. I hope to begin some stories or a novel, perhaps, while I am aboard. It seems to have the proper affecting mood to allow me a bit of morbid inventiveness.”
“I hope that the tone is instead is one of positivity,” Murdoch said.
“Sir, I doubt anything I write shall be positive as we are simply not masters of our own fate. There are so many forces among us that we certainly are not capable of understanding and goodly so, for that knowledge….”
“Enough! Oh, Howard,” Delora chided her nephew, “we are about to have a darb adventure and enjoy ourselves. Please contain yourself. Now, who will show us to our cabins?” Her eyes cautioned Murdoch against asking any more about her nephew’s writing.
Howard’s moods vexed her.
He was, in turn, embarrassed about being corrected since he was only answering a question as well and fully as he could. It seemed to him that if one did not wish to know, then he should not ask.
Charles Lightoller the Second Officer shook his head, wondering about the statement the young man made. He was about the same age as the First Officer, but was a more hardened, sea-experienced man with a heavy jaw and piercing eyes.
He acted quickly, motioning a steward forward, “Edward Daniels, steward. Mr. Daniels, please show the gentleman and ladies to their compartments. If you will, please be sure to attend to these guests especially closely.”
“Oh, Mr. Lightoller, how considerate,” Delora said.
Howard nodded but thought to himself that this probably was a euphemism for the steward to watch him close in case he were so inclined to jump off the stern one evening and end it all; it almost caused Howard to smile.
“I can assure you that this man will serve your every need and make your stay enjoyable.”
To Howard’s chagrin, his aunts were almost giggling, but as he caught Lightoller’s eyes, he saw a bit of a twinkle and knew this was another way the White Star Line of ships’ officers made guests feel special.
He gave the officer a nod of thanks for making the old gals feel giddy as young girls. Delora and Annie both seemed to feel as special as the Astors, and that was a priceless gift.
Howard thought the Captain was capable, that Mr. Murdoch was a good seaman (but possibly a bit tender-emotioned), but that Mr. Lightoller was a far more intelligent man that most realized.
Behind that passive, strong face was a very capable and sturdy personality that Howard thought to work in as a character in one of his own bits of writing.
Lightoller had piercing eyes that were likely to miss nothing.
Howard and his aunts followed Daniels, the steward, as he pointed out various, amazing features as proudly as if the ship were his own. He asked after their maid.
“She is in second class, Sir, and will come up for her duties,” Annie said. “We found her in London and brought her along, but we’re not accustomed to having a maid with us all the time.”
“No? How curious. You are ladies what can buckle her own boots, I bet?” he grinned as he asked.
Delora let loose with peals of laughter. For all her sternness at times, she could let go of her proper manners at times and enjoy a jest, “Oh that is wonderful. Annie, let’s remember to tell everyone back home that.”
Annie wiped tears of mirth from her eyes, “I shall not likely forget.”
Howard decided that he liked Daniels immensely.
As the wealthiest man aboard, if not in the entire world, John Astor was watched by other passengers, as he and his very young wife nodded to them while they followed their dog and the stewards.
Other stewards greeted Kitty and took her leash to hand to another steward. A well-dressed, personal maid greeted them when they opened the door to the suite.
If anyone thought it unusual or spectacle, he turned his face and smiled instead. Although public opinion was divided on the subject of Astor divorcing his wife and remarrying, the men and women aboard the ship were quickly won over by Mr. Astor’s hardy good looks, by his wife, Maddy’s innocent, soft eyes and gentle manners, and by the fact that Astor made it a habit to thank each person who helped them. He hailed friends, tipped his hat dozens of time to the ladies, even to those of a lower class, asked after friends’ families, and still remained attentive to Maddy.
“Hello, Captain, fair seas, I hope?” A woman greeted the captain with a strong voice and happy waves to other guests. She almost had missed seeing the Astors’ arrival; something that everyone had agreed was not to be missed. Beautifully dressed and terribly wealthy, she was American and from a strong family stock. Little did she know that many passengers awaited her arrival as well, just to see the outspoken Mrs. Brown.
“Madame, thank you for joining us on this voyage.” Captain Smith gave Maggie Brown a faint bow and smiled winningly, “It is wonderful to see you. When I saw you had booked passage, I dare say I was overjoyed at being at your service.”
“Good to see you, too. You are such a honeyed-talker. How could I miss a sail-over with my favorite Captain?”
“I am flattered, Ma’am.”
“I hope the dining room and gymnasium are both ready for me,” She laughed loudly. As an American, she was louder than the British: buxom and immediately likable. Her exuberance and friendliness were contagious. Men liked her straightforward, no nonsense manners while women felt her trustworthy and sensible. If her dresses were a bit outdated, it was only because she liked them in that style and did not allow others to rule her choices.
“We’ve the warm pool if you so want a little exercise. What is better than a bit of a warm bath while building muscles?” Captain Smith made his arm muscle tighten and held it out to Mrs. Smith.
“Oh, Captain, you have found magic then. I think you are becoming younger,” Maggie Brown declared as she and the officers laughed.
“If that is so, then I shall be in the warm pool three times a day,” Lightoller said.
“I will see you there,” Mrs. Brown nodded, still enjoying the mirth.
Smith and his officers greeted each first class passenger by name, down to the youngest babe. Three hundred and twenty-four persons were in first class that the officers and Captain had to remember by name and by every detail.
The First Officer, Henry Wilde, brushed aside the lack of sleep from the night before as he was called to help command this voyage at the last minute.
Listening to the conversations between his own greetings, he found interest in the young man having hinted at a distressing element to the transatlantic crossing, just as Henry had felt. He, too, felt uneasy although he never would have breathed a word except to tell his wife about his misgivings.
Sailors were notorious for their superstitions, but he would not add his concerns atop the others.
Wilde called out to his crewmates, “I might need the pool a dozen times a day. Aye, I feel old some days.”
As the final passengers came aboard, visitors left the ship to go stand with hundreds of people waving back at those aboard the ship, yelling farewells. The photographer finished taking the last pictures and disembarked with a cluster of others.
Two crewmen and a stow-away had last minute fears that they couldn’t explain, and without much thought, they left the ship with the others.
Some seamen swore they could tell if a voyage were going to have poor consequences, but they also had more superstitions than any other workers and would often perform ritualistic rites to prevent bad luck. While the rest of the crew had no ill feelings, those who survived what was coming said they did feel a slight concern when they left port.
Jenny Cavendar, also an American, stood close to Maggie Brown and waved back to all who waved from the shore. “Can you believe we are here? Isn’t this the most wonderful thing?” She was young, but strong in sensibility. Not prone to triflings, she enjoyed the voyage for what it was: a first time.
Her father Peter agreed, “Never forget this moment. We are making history aboard the biggest ship on earth. And it is unsinkable, so it is the safest ship as well.”
He was one of the wealthiest men aboard, but as a Texan, he was more cowboy than millionaire, less interested in fine manners than in adventure.
“It’s beautiful,” Jenny said, as they toured the ship. She tried to behave lady-like but knew her father felt high society was a passing ideal whereas hard work, character, and determination were forever. Had he not said that a million times?
Jenny’s mother died in childbirth, and although Jenny wished her mother had lived and raised her, too, she knew that Peter Cavendar was an amazing father. He had given her this gift: to enjoy the grandest ship in the world.
Everywhere she looked, no expense was spared to make the décor as beautiful and elegant as possible. There was fine, polished oak paneling, huge windows along A Deck so that one felt a part of the seascape, and plush furniture, gleaming tables, couches, chairs, and lamps so plentiful that one only had to take a few steps to reach them.
The grand staircase, designed in a Louis XIV style and covered by seventeenth century William-and-Mary-style oak paneling was topped by a dome of wrought iron and glass so that light from the outside could shine in. It had gold plated light fixtures and bronze cherubs and ran all the way to E deck. Passengers often stood and gazed at it. The staircase was the heart of the ship.
Feeling like a princess, Jenny descended the stairs, one hand on her father’s elbow. It was the most elegant staircase she had ever seen.
“You need a crown,” Peter Cavendar said, reading her mind.
“Oh? Shall you buy me one set with emeralds and pearls? When I go out for a horse ride, I will make the other horses so envious.”
“Eh.” Mr. Cavendar groaned, as he smiled at his daughter.
Everywhere Jenny looked, there was something new and exciting. One of the dining rooms had trellises on the wall and wicker furniture with cushions of green and blue so it was reminiscent of an outdoor café in Paris. Mirrors and glass made the room twinkle as if with sunshine.
They toured for so long that instead of going to their staterooms, her father had to hurry them along to get prepared for dinner with the Captain. Jenny had time to wash her face and allow her maid to sweep her hair into an elaborate style with extensions, pins, and feathers to add height to the dark tresses.
She added a touch of rouge to her cheeks, and over her undergarments, dressed in chiffon, a green gown that was embroidered with green beading at the neck, hemline, and wrists. It had an under-lining of emerald green that flounced up in the back.
“You look lovely,” Peter Cavendar told her, “quite in fashion.”
“Not bad for a backwards girl from Texas?”
“You are every bit fashionable because I paid for it,” Peter laughed. He had the money, and he did not begrudge his daughter a single cent he spent, but the trunks of Parisian gowns had been very costly.
He did not know how a piece of fabric, netting, and a feather could be so expensive, but seeing them on his daughter and knowing how pleased she was with her image gave him pride. Luckily, next month, the gowns would be forgotten, and she would want a new saddle or boots.
As her father escorted her into the dining room, Jenny felt all eyes on her and knew this was a moment like one she would never have again. The room was over a hundred feet long and the width of the ship, furnished in Jacobean style with the furniture of honey-oak and the décor fashioned after the style of Hatfield, England.
A steward met them and escorted them to their seats. At the Captain’s table, she sat across from her father with a gentleman named Howard, to her left and a gentleman named John at her right. Both stood and introduced themselves.
The Captain entered the dining hall, and conversations quieted to whispers as every eye followed his movements.
For a second, he stood and allowed them to capture the moment of the Captain joining the first dinner of the maiden voyage. He looked around, and each person felt he personally had been welcomed. Captain Smith joined those at his table, after surrendering his hat to a steward, introducing himself again, and taking his seat at the head of the table.
Jenny was so overwhelmed that her hands shook. The shaking was so bad that she could hardly manage a bite of the appetizer: a bowl of scallops with verdant herbs. The waiter filled each bowl of meat and greenery with a savory scented, creamy soup topped off with a tiny scoop of something red and a silver spoon.
“How impressive,” John remarked, “that they have used the scallop’s roe as decoration. See, those tiny beads. Take a bit of the scallop meat and broth with a few bits of the roe; it’s very delicious.” He showed Jenny and Howard.
Jenny tried it and nodded, “Yes, isn’t it lovely?” She was thankful her father explained the dishes as she hardly heard the Master of Ceremonies as he announced each dish. She was too overwhelmed to concentrate.
Each dish was formally announced, and the patrons chatted and praised each as it was served, making for a leisurely dinner.
Peter Cavendar motioned with his spoon, “Fertility, isn’t it? Doesn’t the scallop shell refer to that? I am trying to recall.” His Texas accent began more distinct as he drank spirits.
Maggie Brown laughed openly, as she appreciated his comment, quite veiled but a little naughty. She ate her soup with zeal. The British passengers pretended they did not hear the comment.
“I believe it refers also to Atlantis,” Howard said.
“Does it?” Peter asked.
Howard nodded, “And that’s a little worrisome, considering that the island ended up at the bottom of the sea, the inhabitants swallowed by beasts. In spite of all the brilliance of the culture and all the advances the men made, it all lies imbued with sea water and left to decay.”
“A mythical place,” Peter Cavendar asked, “of legends? Ah, you are the writer, yes? You know the legends of Atlantis?”
Howard shrugged and managed a blush, “I aim to be a writer, perhaps. My little poems have gotten a little notice, and I am working on more pieces, but I hope for inspiration on this journey. If you would care to read anything, I would be honored, Mr. Cavendar, Miss Cavendar, Mrs. Brown.”
Delora Philips leaned slightly across her nephew to speak to Jenny, “Oh, tell him no, or you shall end up feeling terribly bleak. He is so brilliant but has the propensity to be quite morbid.” She gave an exaggerated shudder and laughed. She was thrilled to notice he had offered to socialize, albeit with his writing.
“Why I’d be downright honored,” Maggie Brown declared, “as it is a grand opportunity to read the fledgling starts of a story. Perhaps we will all play parts in the drama as characters.”
“I hope not, Mrs. Brown, as it is a grievously frightening tale,” Howard said.
“All the more for me to want to be a part,” Mrs. Brown said, winning an appreciative smile from Howard.
Delora broke in to ask the Captain a question, changing the conversation before Howard could embark upon another dismal description of his work.
Howard was so talented but prone to dark moods just as his father had been. Delora often feared if they didn’t help Howard, he, too, might be hospitalized for anxiety.
Jenny barely picked at the other hors d’ourves, Oysters a la Russe, raw oysters, served with the top shells removed and the meat topped with a sauce of vodka, horseradish, lemon, tomatoes, salt, and sprinkled with coarsely ground black pepper. It was a wonderful dish, but there was so much food she feared her corset would pop if she ate more than a few bites of each course.
Several exclaimed over the dish, asking about the ingredients so they could have the dish prepared at home. Despite the courses that were to follow, many ate a half or full dozen of the oysters and sauce.
Next, was a tiny dish of poached salmon with a dollop of heavily whipped Mousselinesauce. Most were too excited by everything to eat much, but they tried a bite of each dish.
The next course was Filet Mignon Lili, topped with seared fois gras with truffles sitting on a bed of crispy potatoes and covered in a sauce of red wine. It was served with two other dishes, but everyone in the upcoming days spoke only of the beef dish.
“How does this steak compare with your beef, Mr. Cavendar?” The Captain asked. “Is it as flavorful?”
“It compares quite well, actually.” As guests looked to Peter Cavendar, he shrugged, “I have a few cows in Texas. We have a bit of a ranch there.”
Jenny almost swallowed her carrot whole as she suppressed an unladylike giggle. Her father referring to their ranch as “a bit” amused her to no end. He was undoubtedly one of the wealthiest men at this table and, as always, modest.
Maggie Brown caught Jenny’s glance and gave her a big wink so the women were able to share a secret joke. Jenny liked the woman already and hoped they would become good friends.
After lamb in a light mint sauce and roast duckling, they cleaned their palates with a sweet, tart lemony champagne mixture like candy. The main course was served: roasted squab with wilted watercress. Then, there was asparagus with saffron-champagne vinaigrette served with silver tongs, pasta, cheese, chocolate éclairs, Waldorf salad, peaches in Chartreuse Jelly, and coffee served by the waiters.
“Have you ever had a meal so fancy?” Jenny asked Howard and John, sitting on either side of her.
“I fear not. Captain, are all dinners this extravagant?”
“They are sumptuous and varied, but nothing compares to the maiden- night-voyage dinner,” he told Howard. He led them to stand and applaud the Master of Ceremonies and the Lead Chef.
Captain Smith tipped an imaginary hat all around, and said, “I must check on the bridge but will be in the Smoking Room as soon as I am able.”
As the men retired for cigars and brandy and the ladies went to their lounge for coffee, the Captain’s eyes twinkled as he suggested the younger people might enjoy a stroll that Mr. Murphy would lead along the ship’s boat deck.
“I hope you are including me in that invitation, Captain,” Maggie Brown smiled. She took Mr. Murphy’s arm, “I aim to be a younger person tonight.”
Mr. Murphy took this task seriously and wanted to provide answers to questions about the ship and her navigation and show off her finer points. He was proud to lead a special tour of the ship.
As they walked, Howard, Jenny, John, and a pretty red-haired young woman watched as some of the other cliques of young adults ran over to cheer and exclaim about the sea, seen from the boat deck in the evening. Stars twinkled, reflecting on the water’s surface.
“Do you ever miss living on land, Mr. Murphy?” Maggie asked.
“I do live on land; it’s just covered by a little water,” he chuckled. He already knew this was a woman he could jest with.
Murphy leaned against a railing while smoking a cigar and watching his young charges as Mrs. Brown asked questions about the ship and his service at sea. Personal maids ducked into shadows to watch and show propriety without interfering.
“Sixteen,” Murphy answered about the number of watertight bulkheads.
“And how many crew?” John asked.
“More’n eight hundred, Sir. The firemen work around the clock so we have lights and warmth.”
“And the pool is heated, yes? Is that common?”
Murphy told John that it was not, and this was the first line to have warmed pools. “And the Turkish baths are a Moroccan style. You will want to visit them.”
“Mr. William Stead?” Howard asked as he noticed a gentleman close to the rail, looking out onto the water. Mr. Murphy motioned the small group over so he could make introductions.
“I doubted I would find you aboard a ship,” Howard told Mr. Stead after shaking his hand. He was so thrilled to meet the man he could not wait to say itched told the others, “Mr. Stead is a wonderful writer.”
Stead laughed heartily, wiping his eyes, “Indeed? Thank you, but I am invited to a conference and will meet President Taft. How could I refuse? But ‘tis true that it is curious to find me here on this ship. I loathe ships.”
“Please tell us why, Sir,” Bernice, the red-haired girl begged, sensing a mystery and eager to delve into this one.
“Mr. Stead, besides being a journalist and well known writer, has written works concerning safety aboard ships and penned a tale of dismal trials taking place on an ocean liner that crashes into an iceberg,” Howard said.
“Ice? In the ocean?” Bernice asked as she laughed.
“Oh, it happens, to be sure,” Stead told them, “and more than you think. It is good we are aboard an unsinkable ship. We are perfectly safe, or I would not be here, but I did imagine the ice for the story I wrote.”
“I shall have to read it, Mr. Stead,” Jenny said, “for it sounds deliciously eerie.”
“Is there a copy aboard?” Maggie asked Officer Murphy.
“Ummm. On that question, you have me stumped.”
“And was the Captain not named Smith as well? I mean aboard the ill-fated one in your book?” Howard asked.
Stead nodded, “You are very well read, Sir. They did share the same name. Is this not a wonderful coincidence?”
“That makes me shiver. What vivid imaginations you both have,” Jenny said.
“How strange,” John said quietly, frowning slightly.
“Imaginations?” Howard thought aloud, “is it that or is it a tendency to take reality and think, ‘what if’. And besides, is fiction not reality, only more acute in detail?”
“You do not think fiction is made up?” Stead asked, astounded.
“It is what has not yet been actualized,” Howard said. “Mr. Astor’s book… why we might one day soon voyage to Saturn.”
“Would you travel on that ship, Mr. Murdoch?” Jenny asked.
The Officer pretended to shiver, “I will take the seas if it is all the same to you. I am not one for the stars. It is safer here.”
As John began asking questions, Mrs. Brown, Jenny, and Bernice left them in a deep discussion about psychic messages, ship folklore, and strange tales.
The topics were too serious for a discussion after a heavy meal. The three ladies joined more of the young people who asked questions of Mr. Murphy and watched the sea.
Howard, John, and Mr. Stead continued to chat until late. Howard considered it was one of the most important talks he had.
Jenny and Bernice waved good-bye to Mrs. Brown, and the women slept well that night, as did almost all of the 2,224 passengers and crew. It can only be wondered if they would have rested so dreamlessly had they known some interesting facts, some of which the trio of men discussed that first night aboard the Titanic.
Stead wrote, not only about the Captain of his fictional tale being named Smith, but in particular, E J Smith. Another tale was published in 1889 and outlined nearly the same sort of story in which passengers drowned because of a shortage of lifeboats.
They did not discuss this:
The Titanic captain had added collapsible lifeboats but was still short by half because she was said to be unsinkable.
More than fifty passengers refused to sail from South Hampton after disturbing dreams about a disaster.
That first night at sea, two or three dozen claimed they had upsetting nightmares about the impending sinking of the ship and of sea monsters attacking them on board the Titanic.
For weeks, Howard had been besieged by worries about ancient monsters, beating at iron-like walls, and roaring to be released from watery prisons.
Sometimes, Howard could almost hear their unholy whispers and feel a chill in the vibrations from their fight to be freed. He felt that if the ship offered a blood token, was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and if the beasts had a chance, they would escape their sleep and unleash misery upon everyone aboard the ship; he simply could not stop thinking about such things.
His aunts called the problem an anxiety and nervous imagination, but he was afraid.
In one of the cargo holds, a plump laundress sipped rotgut whiskey behind large, wooden crates as she cried. The noise of the engines filled her ears, and she felt almost overwhelmed by the smells of the cargo bay, coal, oils, rats, and mice.
She was upset about the loss of a man, a way-ward pregnancy, and no hope for her future; she was besotted with anguish. Since she could not talk it over with her fellow stewardesses and didn’t have a friend about, drinking and sitting far away from the grandeur was all she could think to do.
The laundress mentally cursed the man with dark curls and flashing green eyes who had won her trust, taken her virginity, and left her with an unwanted pregnancy. What had she been thinking to fool about with the man? She beat her fist against a crate; she would lose her job and where would she end up?
Disgusted and sure there was no other choice left to her, the laundress made a snap decision. With only a dull knife, she carved at her wrists to open them, wishing to be finished with her life and to stop her sadness. Although she might have died from blood loss in the cold compartment, her carving attempts were poor and certainly survivable. But it was right then that the cargo shifted slightly, crushing her between two crates so tightly, that she was barely able to get her breath.
Eyes wide and fearful, she called out, but her voice was quiet among the clamoring and banging of the engines, roars of the furnaces, yelling of firemen, and clanging of the shovels. Whispers and movements of passengers, decks above her were like thunder. The ocean waves pounded the steel hulls like giant hands, demanding entrance.
What was that? She could not see through the steel of the ship, and there was no porthole, and yet, it was if she could see out the glass and into the water.
At first, it was a grey-black shape, moving like lightning as it swam by, but then the woman could see it had terrible, rough skin. Its sleek, but enormous body was broken by sharp angles that formed gigantic fins and a slashing, deadly tail.
How she could see, she did not know, or care. She only wanted to stop seeing it. While there was much in the world she didn’t know such as how to repair her own life, there was one thing she did know for sure: the creature was real, and it was right outside the steel hull.
To her horror, it turned its head as it swam along the side, showing her its face if it could be called that. It had a long snout, dead black eyes, and a mouth full of rows upon rows of huge, sharp teeth. She saw that unlike other fish, this one had a look of malevolence and was only waiting the right time to attack. It enjoyed the hunt and the long moments before it would strike, and it savored the terror it had caused.
Her bosom filled with more than a fear of the fish biting her; she imagined an endless lifetime of punishment locked into the jaw of this creature. In its belly, she would struggle as her soul faced eternal misery.
Lines of blood streaked her neck as her eardrums burst, and she moaned as she imagined slimy tentacles rising from the oily floor to rip her apart as her bladder let loose and a cloying iciness rose beneath her dress, caressing her legs abominably.
Her bleeding wrists were not doing the job quickly enough, and it was what she had wanted, to die, but she fought it now, kicking at the crates and hammering against them with her crimson-stained fists.
How could she die among the horrifying voices and the monsters that lived deep in the water and deep in the ship itself? The big fish seemed to be grinning at her from the dark waters where it swam.
The Titanic shuddered only a bit, but it was enough for the crates to shift once more, crushing her flesh between them, grinding against her bones as her head broke open. Blood saturated the wood and pooled on the floor around the cargo.
Had the ship made it to shore days later, laborers would have found a decomposing mess hardly recognizable as having been human. There was less damage than the fish would have done, the shark known as a carcharodon megalodon, a species that has been extinct for millions of years, but it was enough carnage that the shark would have been frenzied with excitement had it seen her. As it was, it smelled her.
She would never been found.
But hers was not the only blood to christen the steel of the ship. As the Titanic was built, hard hats, machinery guards, and safety lines were unused, and two-hundred fifty men were injured as some fell from great heights, some were mangled or crushed, some suffered head injuries, and many lost legs, arms, feet, or hands.
Reports were hidden or forgotten, but more than a dozen died on the ship as it was constructed.
“So much blood,” Howard moaned in his sleep.
A terrible set of events became a perfect storm.
Chapter Two: April 14, 1912, 9:40
Howard’s Account
Every day aboard the ship, there was plenty to do for entertainment if one wanted. There were the meals: breakfast was American and British with fruits, meats, eggs, tomatoes, and potatoes, and lunches were of various meat and vegetable dishes.
If one were to take a bite of each dish, he would find himself full before sampling but half. I cannot imagine how much food the ship carried, but each meal was an event to be cheered over and recollected for hours afterwards.
While the first class passengers dined upon fancy meals in elaborate settings, second class partook of very elegant meals as well, and Steerage was served hearty, flavorful dishes. Captain Smith told us during one of the lavish dinners that formerly those in Steerage had to bring their own meals but aboard this fine ship, everyone was treated well. He said the Steerage had a lounge and a smoking room as well.
Of course, no one in first class had concerned themselves with the meals of the other classes, but it was a tidbit he shared with us. The Captain, so knowledgeable of his ship, quoted the tonnage of food brought aboard and told us what supplies the kitchens and pantries held.
Each class had a dining area, smoking room, and gathering areas, and bedchambers were comfortable and roomy, but none could compare to the cabins that first class enjoyed. We had private toilet facilities, dressing rooms, and bedchambers, forming five rooms dressed in Queen Anne décor. It was said Mr. Astor and Mr. Ismay had staterooms that were more richly appointed and much larger than the other rooms.
After breakfast, many of the passengers strolled along the ship and used the Reception Room, with its white walls and ceiling and dark carpets, to meet others and talk. To show off Parisian fashion, the ladies wore their richest gowns of purple, blue, green, off-white, pale yellow, and cream. The room was a peacock of vibrant colors and designed (so the Captain told us) so that the dress colors were viewable in the natural light of day since they would seem muddied by gaslight.
He laughingly said that allowed women to wear purple in the daylight hours so the color wasn’t ruined, and we’d never see a lady wear purple in the evening. Amazingly, that was true.
The married men and women and those older than twenty-five, all gathered in the Reception Room to share the news of the day. It was rather formal and the place my aunts enjoyed most. I saw them sitting at a table.
“Howard, do come meet Mrs. Gibson.”
I tipped my hat and called back, “I have met her. How goes the trip, ma’am?”
“Wonderfully, thank you, Sir,” she called back.
I could see my well-meaning aunties were desirous that I might join them so they would have the opportunity to introduce me to more proper ladies of wealth and family name. I could think of nothing more monotonous than being set up, unless it was the insipid gossip they indulged in.
I tipped my hat again and went along my way.
The younger people and some of the older ones as well, gathered in the Lounge, on the Promenade Deck, to play cards, gossip, and to meet one another. It was decorated in a French style with boiseries, or carvings on the walls; this was where I enjoyed going when I was not in the library or in my stateroom writing. It was a jubilant room, not in line with my usual, morbid moods, but quite enjoyable.
The older women retired to the Reading and Writing Room to relax with cozy blankets tucked around them as they sat around the fireplace to chase away the chill. The ladies could stand before a big bow window and gaze out to the Promenade Deck while staying toasty warm. It was one of the most pleasingly furnished rooms of all.
The men enjoyed the Smoking Room, paneled in mahogany with inlays of mother-of-pearl, stained glass depictions of ports of the world, and a large fireplace. There was a bar where cigars and drinks were available to the gentlemen.
Lunch was usually at Parisian café for lively meals. Many of us also enjoyed the warmed swimming pool. The water was always tepid and very clean, and the stewards were about to hand out fluffy, soft towels or glasses of freshly squeezed juice.
Inside, the Turkish baths had designs built about the portholes so that the Moroccan theme was never ruined. Expensive tiles of blue and green covered the room. The gymnasium was filled with the most modern exercise equipment available, punching bags, mats, and knotted climbing ropes.
I tried each venue as one should take pleasure in all that is offered, but I enjoyed nothing as much as a walk along the decks so I could feel the chilled air, smell the salt of the water, and watch the seas. Oceans covered so much of the earth; I wondered what secrets they held, and what denizens lived beneath the waves.
The evening meals were luxurious, but my stomach was bothering me as it often did. Physicians were unsure why I suffered bouts of anguish from pain in
my belly and thought it might be related to anxiety. For some months, I was bothered by spells of pain deep within my gut that frequently sent me to bed for days.
I was able only to pick at the meals, to taste each dish, and to fill myself with only the dullest of foods. I avoided alcoholic beverages. I was determined not to go abed with my ailment, and I struggled to maintain my composure, brushing away my aunts’ concerns about my pallor.
As my aunts begged me, I disregarded my qualms, the ache in my stomach, and bantered eagerly with the gentlemen whom I met on the voyage.
I escorted the single ladies along the decks, choosing cheerful topics and laughing often, but I did not find a young lady who captivated me beyond friendship.
I did form strong friendships with Jenny Cavendar, John Morton, Mr. Behr, and his fiancée Helen Monypenny. Mrs. Brown and Mr. Stead, the journalist, frequently joined me for walks or conversations as well.
But while I tried to put aside my dark fears, William Stead told frightening tales at every meeting, and as startling as they were, it was impossible not to want to listen. Most often, Mr. Stead entertained us in the Library or the Smoking Room, allowing us to gather about his chair while he spoke; he was most enjoyable to hear speak.
One evening at dinner no less, he told us a story about a mummy case that was part of an Egyptian collection and that was supposedly aboard the ship.
Captain Smith chuckled and refused to say if it were part of the cargo when the women asked him about the case. He told us, “I cannot confirm or deny that it is aboard, but I can assure you all that it is of no threat either way.”
Maggie Brown chuckled and leaned close to me, “He should be in politics.”
“I wonder if the mummy is aboard,” I said.
She shrugged.
Stead told us, “Four men bought the mummy case containing Amen-Ra.
One of the men, supposedly blind, walked into the desert, and was never seen again, and the next man was accidentally shot, and his wounded arm was amputated. He never recovered from the loss of his arm. The third man lost his fortune suddenly, and the fourth ended up homeless and on the street.
They sold the mummy and case cheaply, and the set was bought by a wealthy Londoner.”
“And did he have bad luck?” Maggie Brown laughed loudly, waving a bit of pork joint upon her fork. She was fascinated by the story so far.
Stead nodded eagerly, “He did. His home burned, and several of his family members fell ill. He was so frightened by his turn of poor luck that he donated the mummy and its case to the British museum.”
“So he shared the curse,” Captain Smith said, half listening as he read another message sent from his First Officer.
Again, there were warnings that ice fields lay ahead although we didn’t know it then.
“Steady at twenty-two knots,” he ordered. They had seen no ice but were on notice to watch for any sign of it.
“We have made better time every day,” Thomas Andrews said proudly. He had designed the ship, and that very night, he was going back to his stateroom to list cosmetic changes he wanted to make to the Titanic to make it even more luxurious; he told us this at dinner.
“Now, the winds have died down, and we shall make even better time,” the Captain said and then waved as if to have Stead go ahead with the story. “Fine ship, Andrews.”
Maggie brown interrupted, “What happened to the mummy, then?”
Stead shrugged, “Some of the crew moving it was injured, and one died. People viewing the exhibit and the workers at the museum suffered illnesses and accidents. The museum curator was so concerned, that he had sealed the mummy in her case in the basement. It remained there for years until a wealthy American purchased it, and it is here right now in the cargo hold.”
Mrs. Astor fanned herself, “Oh, goodness. That’s a terrible story.” She was young and extraordinarily lovely, but like a lady of good breeding, she was always prone to faints and paleness.
I genuinely liked her and admired her genteel manners; except for my own companionship, I preferred a hearty female like Maggie Brown. Yes, she was older than I, but I was not looking for a ‘we’; it was something I had discovered about my own tastes.
“It is just a story, Maddy. Do not worry yourself. We have a mystery to solve. An American. That narrows it down so we can figure out if she is aboard the ship,” Maggie Brown said, “Who here is likely to have bought a cursed mummy?”
“I did not,” Peter Cavendar said, “I saw you looked to me first.”
“You would not tell us if you did own the mummy,” Maggie said.
Jenny laughed as she covered a smile, “I would tell.”
“I don’t believe in curses,” John Astor said.
“Curses aren’t real, but evil is always with us, struggling to be set free,” I said. All eyes turned to me, and I felt my aunts’ disapproval, “and I dare anyone to say he has not had a nightmare or felt a shiver at times, maybe right on this voyage.”
“We’ve had fine weather and a great trip. I will take your wager. I have enjoyed these last few days,” Astor said. He took his wife’s shaking hand and clasped it tightly before planting a kiss on her knuckles.
I had made people uncomfortable.
Mr. Stead, Mrs. Brown, Jenny, and John gave me smiles of support, so I felt a little better but was sorry Mrs. Astor was frightened.
Thomas Andrews frowned and said, “I have slept fine. I say you are affrighting the ladies, Sir.” He did not say it rudely but casually, and he looked at Mr. Stead as well, to show the story of the mummy was disquieting. It was his reminder that most ladies were not accustomed to such tales at dinner.
Maggie Brown was an exception.
I was not there to argue. I apologized under the glare of Aunt Annie and the frown of Aunt Delora. I considered that Stead had been the one who told the story of the Egyptian curse and said that the mummy was aboard; I had only commented upon the idea of curses being phantasmagoric.
Mr. Stead cast me a devilish grin, and I knew all was fine.
After dinner, I strolled along the deck alone, looking out to the water. The sea was like glass, calm, dark, and reflective. It was like nothing I had ever seen. The ship cut a trail through the black glass with no moon to light the way, only the ship’s lights to break up the pitch-black ink of the night.
There, just out of the corner of my eye, what did I see?
It looked to be a giant fish, a shark perhaps, but it was too big. The dorsal fin (or I supposed it to be) was a tall, dark triangular shape that cut through the water quickly, and then I saw what might be his tail or caudal fin, and it was large as well. One determines a fish’s size by the length of fin to fin and by my estimate, this monster was a hundred feet long or more.
Impossible, a whale, then?
But when he swam by, keeping up with the ship, I knew he was real and fast to be keeping our speed of twenty-two knots, whatever he was. He was a leviathan.
I could hardly believe my eyes. What a chance of my lifetime this was.
However, despite my excitement, I felt the most terrible dread as I watched the shark swimming in the gloomy waters. It was more than a question of why a fish would want to follow a loud, large ship as this. How was he so massive?
He was a titan shark, and I was aboard a titan of a ship. Explicable as it was, I felt the creature came to issue a challenge; I felt he was malignantly aware of us and was a threat to us.
And there in that strange, yellowish mist, what was that? We were at sea and nowhere near land, and yet I could swear there was a landscape in the mist, a place with diseased trees that dripped with ichors, and a hazy, soggy bog as the ground.
In the reddish sky, terrible bat-like creatures with beaks of molded green chased yellow-winged, bird-like things that were sharp angles and pudgy white flesh. When the bat-things snatched the birdish creatures from the air with terrible talons, dark red blood and pieces of gossamer flesh fell to the damp ground to be sucked and slurped into the miasma.
I could faintly hear horrible shrieks and an incessant buzzing. Far away, out of my sight, I heard the clumping of heavy feet and a wail so high-pitched and mournful that it made my ears ache. I was almost out of my wits with fright, wondering what prodigious beast might make such a clamor.
My skin prickled, and the nape of my neck broke out in chills.
“Go away, foul things,” I whispered to myself.
Beneath the gnarled trees were boughs and deadfalls from which creatures peeked. They were not soft furry animals but absolute visions from hell. Fangs sprouted from long, oily snouts, and they raked long, steely claws when they spied onlookers.
Three crew men stared at the mist as well, jaws agape. I knew, now, that I was not seeing with the sights of a madman, as they, too, saw the landscape wafting and juxtaposed over the sea. The great fish swam between the ship and the landscape that followed. I had no doubt that they were somehow, infernally connected.
“What is that?” the man asked as he clutched his head as if viewing the other world caused tremendous headache and nausea. He gagged. “And the feckin’ fish… the boat is mor’n ninety feet abeam, and he’s longer. Do you see ’im?”
One of the crewmen ran to the railing and climbed up on it to better watch the enormous fish. “Look at ’im.”
“Climb down,” I urged him, “or you will fall.”
He chuckled at such an idea, but as the ship normally shivered as she sailed, he went wide-eyed with panic and fear before he plunged over the railing and into the sea.
We must report it as a man overboard and call for help although he would have little time to survive swimming in the frigid water, but we stared, frozen.
“There he is,” one of the other crewmen called, and I suddenly did not know if he meant he saw his crewmate or the big shark.
I watched as the fallen man showed as a small dark spot on the white of the wave-wash; he was afloat and struggling against the iciness of the sea. The poor devil must be mightily cold.
“Eh?” one of the men made a sound between a groan and a yelp.
Bursting like a grape, the man in the water suddenly split open as several of the shark’s teeth snagged him. The fish made a jerk to the side, and the wet, split crewman flipped into the black maw; the beast swam under the waves and off to the side. Had we not been watching, we would not have seen the terrible creature make a meal of the poor sod.
But the horror was not ended.
I had hardly accepted the huge shark and what he had done as my attention was drawn back to the fog lying on the water.
I saw a figure in the fog, his legs heavily plated with flesh-armour, the color of unwashed linens. There were spiraling horns and a little sucking, grasping, round mouth with rows upon rows of sharp teeth; he looked at us hungrily. His gelatinous, rheumy eyes followed our movements. Despite the armour, hunger, and his ferocity, I felt he was a weakling and a coward in a fight and would behave slug-like.
That repulsed me.
With a look of hatred, he (it was a male creature, for he had prodigious male genitalia) spit a wad of phlegm at us, and it sailed across (what I imagined were) dimensions and time to land right on the deck. The slime reeked of rot and vomit. Any predator would take one whiff and flee from the creature so repulsive was his spittle.
The huge fish swam ahead of us, and the yellow mist faded.
One of the crewmen approached the substance, a wad the fish spit on the deck. They were vacillating, unsure if they should approach or run away, and they still had to give a report to their seniors about the loss of a man. What a dreadful time this was for every one of us.
“Do not get near it; it is a dreadful thing,” I said, settling the issue. I felt a deep trepidation as they walked closer to the slime. Why did no one heed my warnings? If it smelt badly, it also looked nauseating, and looking upon it made my teeth throb with pain. I cannot begin to explain how terrible the jelly was.
The man looked at the stinking chaos of pudding, and of all things, he reached out with a finger to poke at it. I wanted to shriek at him to stop. Did he not realize how dangerous it was? Had he not realized that the fish had just eaten his crewmate?
Immediately, he began to howl with pain as the goo burned and eroded his finger to the bone like an acid. It spread up his hand, thinning out, until there was no flesh but just bare bones that glistened in the faint light.
He passed out from the pain, his eyes rolling back in his head so only the white portion showed. His crewmate grabbed a bucket of seawater that he used for mopping the deck. Throwing the water on his friend’s hand and arm, he saved the man from being scalded alive.
“I best get ‘im to the infirmary.” The husky crewman hefted the injured man over his shoulder and set off to get medical aid. “Sir, I can only beg ye not to speak of this.”
“You can be assured I shall not. I dare think no one would believe me if I did tell. Will you inform the Captain then?”
“Aye. Well, he’s asleepin’, but I’ll be finding Mr. Murdoch as soon as this man is seen to.”
“Good deal. Be about it, and hurry,” I said.
I was not sure what the man would do. He might throw the wounded man over the railing before having to tell this outlandish story. Whatever he did, it did not matter, for I would not approach Mr. Murdoch about the terrible matter.
I broke a chair and scooped the disgusting mess out into the sea. The mess let out a squeal that made my teeth ache as it hissed and shuddered in the black water. Soon, we were almost out of sight of it, but I saw the big fish swim over and raise its head to swallow the slime.
I had never seen such a thing as this fish. It was huge, ancient, and monstrous. His teeth were of nightmares.
A prehistoric creature, he had a thick snout; black, lifeless eyes that betrayed no pity or compassion, only hunger; and a dull, rough skin that I imagined would skin anyone who touched him. His mouth was cavernous, peeled back to reveal rows of sharp teeth, each longer than my hand from wrist to finger tips.
I knew at once that he must have escaped from that yellow-misted world where monsters abounded. His dead eyes and gigantic size made me sure he was not of our world but what world could he be from? And, moreover, how had we entered into a dimension rip? My head buzzed with all the horror and the questions I had.
I was sick and afraid. Where were we? Where had this ship taken us, and were we moving away or closer to the abominations?
I felt ill.
In fear, I went to my room and crawled into bed, fully clothed but for my jacket and shoes, pulled the covers up to my chin, and tried to force the images from my head.
As large as the Titanic was, I felt very small and vulnerable with the giant shark circling the ship and the mist so close as to almost be touched. In the morning, I would peruse the library to find out what the leviathan was.
As it was, I never had the chance.
Chapter Three: Iceberg, 10:00-11:40
At 10:40 in the Marconi Room, Jack Phillips received a message from the Californian, a ship that was fairly close. “Say old man, we are stopped and surrounded by ice.” It was at least the sixth message about ice the operator had taken, and all the ships were relaying that they were among ice fields.
Jack was tired and had been busy sending passengers’ messages all evening. For a small fee, the passengers could message family and friends and enjoyed that extravagance. Because his system was down the day before, he was backlogged and trying to catch up with his typing.
“Shut up! Shut up! I am busy,” he sent back. Why a radio operator wanted to send messages and chat about the weather, relaying the same words over and over, he did not know nor care, but then he was not a man to enjoy idle chatter either.
Jack Phillips and Harold Bride, trained by the Marconi School, could type over twenty-five words a minute, and they sent message after message for those who paid, as well as messages for the officers when ordered.
While the two men received messages from several other ships that there were ice fields everywhere, they were so busy sending messages for the passengers that they never passed the messages to the officers, assuming that they were aware of the ice fields. After all, posts about ice fields had been coming in since early in the morning.
Captain Smith may not have been aware of the reports from the evening. He knew there was ice, but was not aware that there were ice fields that evening.
The Marconi operator for the Californian, the nearest ship to the Titanic, retired to bed as they were stuck in the ice.
William Murdoch relieved Charles Lightoller at 10:00. The Captain was asleep but he told the crew that if anything changed, to awaken him. He had redirected them to the south slightly, and they were staying steady at twenty-two knots, almost their top speed. The seas were calm and beautiful under a moonless, star-filled sky.
At 11:30, two men in the crow’s nest were watching the waters. They noticed a yellow haze and thought they saw movement as the ship sped along.
They thought they must be imagining things because there was no way they saw a landmass off to the side or rodent-like creatures skittering about the mammoth legs of a creature that towered so tall they could not see its head. In this area, there were no islands or anything else that was solid ground.
‘The giant was a behemoth,’ like the Bible said. And then, just as the Good Book described, ‘there was a leviathan.’
A giant fin and tail swam between the ship and the mist.
Men of the sea could always claim they had seen amazing, unbelievable creatures, lights, and ghost ships, but these two men never witnessed anything such as this.
“I’m a’seeing things,” Fleet said, rubbing his eyes. They were not issued binoculars and sorely wished for them. What kind of lookout was kept without necessary equipment?
But there close to the mist’s edge, was something queer. At first, it was a small, jagged dark shape that blocked the stars on the horizon. As the ship sped along, the shape became large, arising mountainous from the water for almost seventy feet; it was clear, not white, and was the product of eons of melting and refreezing. As it had no color, it reflected the moonless sky like a mirror. It was a black-berg.
Had they not been watching the giant fish and the mist, they would have seen the iceberg sooner. It was as if the shark had purposely distracted them.
“Iceberg,” breathed Fleet. He was not imagining that. It was five hundred yards away. Distracted, he made a mistake.
After ringing the big brass bell three times, they signaled the bridge; the sixth officer, Mr. Moody, contacted Mr. Murdoch who instinctively ordered “Hard-a-starboard.”
Only a few seconds elapsed from the sighting until the ship began changing course; the system was smooth, and each man responded as he was well trained.
At the time of the orders, Mr. Murdoch had no doubt the orders he gave would result in nothing more than a slight list as they turned. No one would even notice, except for the crewmen.
Murdoch rang the alarm bell ten seconds so those below knew the doors were about to be closed and they should get to safety. It was standard protocol. He told the engine room to stop all engines and ordered, “Full astern.” And he closed the watertight doors.
Although the ship veered to port, part of the iceberg, a spar under the water, struck the ship on the starboard side, cutting open small gashes, six in all, along three hundred feet, opening five of the sixteen watertight compartments.
The over-all damage was small, but rivets popped with the pressure, forming a hole about the size of a door. It had been a mere thirty-seven seconds between the sighting of the iceberg and the collision.
Water rushed in at seven tons per second, which was about fifteen times faster than it was pumped out. Firemen barely got out of the compartments before ice water shot through the holes.
As trained, they vented the steam so that the freezing water would not cause the hot coal to explode, and they found themselves waist deep in the cold water before they could escape the flooding.
The bulkhead, although very tall and with watertight doors, did not reach through all of the ship’s decks. Water filled one compartment and ran into the next as the ship settled into the sea. As each compartment filled, it dipped lower, allowing the sea to pour into the next area, like dominoes falling.
Captain Smith, like many of the others, felt a shudder; those deeper in the ship felt more of a rumbling and bumping. He found the curious movements unusual and was at once concerned. What had caused them to reverse the engines?
The Captain went immediately to the bridge for a full report, nodding at Mr. Murdoch grimly. The orders were exactly as he would have given. There were ice, broken off the berg on the upper decks and passengers who had awakened and were walking saw it and kicked at it happily. A few of the younger men played a game with the ice.
Captain Smith knew the ship, and he knew the Titanic had struck the iceberg, but he could not imagine how much damage was done or what the damage might mean.
“Someone one bring Thomas Andrews to me at once,” Captain Smith ordered. Of all aboard the ship, Thomas Andrews, the architect who designed the ship, knew her the best. Smith cursed his luck aboard the sister ship to the Olympic, who had given him trouble in the past.
Andrews appeared quickly, saying he was awake, felt the movements, and was headed for the bridge when he was called; together the men went below to check the damage.
Bruce Ismay tried to have a conversation with them, but they hurried along, too busy to listen, “We were making excellent time. She will stay afloat. Start the engines,” he called.
“It was but a small shudder,” Thomas Andrews said, hopefully.
“More like a dragging,” Smith agreed, “but it was a berg.”
“And the berg caught her side?”
“We were turning when she hit. I fear it was a low impact.”
He was correct. When the ship hit the spar of ice, she was turning so that ice snagged at the lowest part of the ship, well below the waterline.
“You designed her. What are your initial thoughts?”
“She has bulkheads, and she can limp along easily with two or three of them filled. She might stand even a fourth damaged. If it is worse than that, we will be fine until the rescue ships arrive if they are quick about it,” Andrews said.
The forward cargo held; the squash court and the mailroom were awash with several inches of seawater. Over 3,500 bags of mail were soaked, but there was more to consider than mere mail.
The ship was flooded with fifteen feet of water. The forward holds were under water.
“Boiler Room six is under water,” William Abrams said, “Captain, things ain’t right. There’s things in Boiler five, and we heard a horrid screaming from the mail hold.”
“Did you check the mail hold?”
“No, Sir.”
“Why didn’t you check? Of all things….”
“Captain, you can yell all you want, but not a man among us would venture into that room….”
“They were drowning and needed aid,” Thomas Andrews said, “That’s cruel of you to ignore their cries for help.”
“I beg your pardon, Sir, but I’ve work many a’ship, and that weren’t the screams of any man a-taken by the sea. We heard the screams of men having their flesh and minds ripped away.”
“Really now,” Andrews said. He had no time for such drama. Men brought him reports, and he took the information in and considered it.
Abrams nodded, “it is bad enough what we’ve got around us. Never ‘ave I imagined such madness, Sir.”
“Mr. Abrams, please explain about Boiler Room 5, and remember I have much to do,” Captain Smith said, but he became aware of shouting and squealing coming from the boiler room in question. He walked over to look with Abrams and went pale as milk. The firemen struggled to pump the water out, but they had to stop often and swipe at the creatures that swam, splashing dangerously on the water.
At first, Captain Smith thought the creatures were fish swimming on the surface, but he did not understand why men hit them with shovels until one of the lumps washed close enough for him to see it clearly.
“My God,” Captain Smith said, as he looked at the rat-like thing that had stubby legs, webbed claw feet for swimming, and a scaled body with some type of fungus or fur between its scales. It had the repulsive face of a spider complete with wicked-looking little fangs and a tiny opened orifice as a mouth. The creature’s eight eyes, two large and six small, focused on the Captain, moving as he moved. With revulsion, he kicked it away.
It was so obscene that it was an affront to every living thing on earth.
“What….” Thomas Andrews could not form the question properly.
One of the firemen yelled and shook the creature that grasped him before it could sink those terrible fangs into his flesh. The slick scales made it hard to grasp the abomination, so it wriggled and slid in the man’s hands.
Fortunately, it could not hold on well because of the webbing of its feet, and with a curse, the fireman dashed it into the steel wall. Because the man threw it like a ball, the creature exploded into red and green glop.
“What… what are they, Abrams?” The Captain could not help but imagine the poor souls in the mail hold if those appalling things swarmed them. No wonder they shrieked. What if it were something worse although the Captain could not imagine anything more repellent.
“I don’t know, Captain. They may come from deep in the ship or washed in wit’ the water, but I ain’t never seen such things and don’t think they are… natural.”
“They aren’t from the ship,” Andrews said.
“They ain’t from a sea that I ever seen,” said Abrams and Andrews who were in a standoff with the origin of the creatures.
“They are from hell itself,” the Captain muttered.
“I have seen some terrible lookin’ fish, but these swim on the top of the water like they are a-breathin’ air. I don’t know where they’d be from beside hell, Mr. Andrews,” said Abrams, agreeing with Captain Smith.
The flooding rose to three feet and had a bloody, oily sheen that surrounded the dead bodies of the rat-spiders. The firemen crushed several dozen of the disgusting creatures.
From a corner, white tendrils rose from the dark water, feeling along the wall blindly and stretching out thinly to reach for one of the men. The fireman stood, in shock, watching the slender, slimy appendages reach out for his face. He moaned.
“What is that?” Andrews shouted, “Man, get away from that thing.”
The fearful crewmember broke and ran toward the door, as the tendrils found nothing to grab onto. Had he looked over his shoulder, he might have tripped and fallen.
“Get out. Everyone out,” Smith ordered. The stunned shock was broken, and all the men ran from the room as Abrams sealed it.
Smith was relieved no one was hurt, but he could not erase the vision of the spider-faced rats swimming and the white tendrils that went after one of the firemen. It was more than he could accept.
Most seamen could tell tales about sea monsters. A quarter of the stories were true. Half of the stories were believed to be true by the drunken men who claimed the visions. These visages were not stories but were real, yet the monstrosities did not fit the usual creatures of sealore as they were not a big squid or mermaids. Maybe that is what made it all worse.
Right before the door closed, Smith saw the owner of the white tendrils: a horrible black beetle that released and contracted the tendrils from its shining, dark carapace. A worse outrage was that the creature had human-like, blue eyes, which showed intelligence as it regarded the men. The beetle knew it had missed its chance to grab the fireman but promised, in its gaze, that it would find another chance to get someone.
Smith walked to the side and vomited. No one remarked upon that.
“Mr. Andrews, what is your professional evaluation of the situation?” Smith asked. “Of the ship, not the creatures, please.”
Thomas Andrews turned sad eyes to the Captain and took a deep breath before he spoke, “The water cannot be pumped out. The damage is too great; the ship is doomed. She cannot stay afloat for more than two hours, Sir.”
“And of the rest….”
“Of the creatures, I cannot begin to suggest anything about where they have come from, why, or what they are about,” Andrews said, “but I wish I had not laid eyes upon the beasts.”
Smith nodded and motioned them to walk with him. He went back to the bridge, wondering what to say and what to do. In all his training and experience, he was not prepared for his ship to sink like this or to be attacked by monsters, something about those human-like, blue eyes….
His men stared, awaiting orders. Captain Smith’s eyes were far away, and he felt weak. Trying to think, he kept seeing the white tendrils, trying to grab the crewman.
“The life boats are to be uncovered. Send a distress call.” He sat down in a chair and lit a cigar, his eyes glazed over. He now could see nothing but the monster’s eyes watching him and taunting him.
It knew he had failed as a Captain. It was down in the hold laughing at him, making jest of his failure and enjoying it all. It was satisfied and pleased with another life’s dread and fear. It drank in sorrow. It probably lapped up tears.
“Captain, should we not load the lifeboats with… umm… women and children first?” Lightoller asked. He did not know what to make of the Captain’s disposition. He already felt that only the first ones in the boats stood a chance; they had too many passengers and crews and too few lifeboats.
Lightoller swallowed back his fears, focusing on his duties and what he had, all of his adult life, been trained for. If nothing else, he would do his job well. That is what a real man did in crisis. He was expected to survive to help others, and failing that, give his own life for those of women or children in need.
So be it.
“We have two hours, I should say. The damage is too great, and the flooding is massive. I said we could make it with two or possibly three compartments flooded and that we could float dead in the water and wait for rescue with four damaged, but men, five of the compartments are broken open.” Andrews told the other men.
“Five?” Lightoller repeated, eyes huge.
“So they have reported. Sirs, we simply cannot stay afloat with the five damaged. Again, we have two hours, and then we are going down. The Titanic will sink,” Andrews finished.
Captain Smith nodded as he stared into nothing.
Lightoller wondered what caused the Captain to turn this pale and give up, but he did not dare ask. It had to be more than the ship sinking.
Once given the order, Jack Phillips and Harold Bride tapped out QED. The QE meant to listen and pay attention; this was serious. The D meant distress. They typed MGY, the ship’s call sign. To other operators, this meant the mighty Titanic, the unsinkable ship, was sinking and needed help quickly. They also typed SOS for save our ship.
The closest ship, the Carpathia, could be there in four hours. They set a steady course and turned to render aid.
In less than two hours, Titanic would sink.
Chapter Four: The Unthinkable, Unsinkable
When the stewards and stewardesses beat upon the doors, everyone was mystified as to why anyone would be awakened at almost midnight. Men and a few women clasped robes around themselves and demanded to know why their sleep was interrupted. Some were irritated, and a few were furious, but no one expressed worry.
The stewards said there was some sort of problem and everyone should dress warmly, put on life belts, and go to the boat deck. Delora and Annie Phillips were most put out at being awakened and being told to go into the cold weather. If this were a drill, they would scream at someone for awakening them.
“This ship is unsinkable, so why should we put on life jackets? What a silly protocol,” Annie fumed, “I feel this is a terrible breach of manners, and I intend to write a stern letter, regarding this issue.”
“We are being told to bring everyone to the boat deck to board the lifeboats,” the steward said.
“Those little boats hardly seem safe,” Delora said.
Howard dressed quickly and told them he would meet them on the boat deck and that they were to follow orders. “It’s probably some mistake, but in case the circumstances are dire, it is best to follow orders until we see what is amiss.”
Delora nodded, “You are right, Howard. I am sure the Captain will give us a full account once we are on the boat deck. Let’s imagine it is a new adventure, lest we leave anything doable undone.”
Annie shrugged, “Let’s look and see what it is about but go have a cup of tea while we see what is wrong. I have no desire to go out into the chill.”
“Did we hit the big fish?” Howard asked quietly.
“Fish?” Delora almost yelped, “What on earth are you on about?”
The steward shook his head, “No, Sir. It is a bit of ice we bumped. There is no… umm… fish involved here.”
Howard ignored his aunts’ furious eyes. “Howard, why are you going on about a fish? Have you lost your senses? I have told you about these fantasies….”
“Shhh. Please. I haven’t time to explain, but will you please reserve yourself?” Howard snapped. Surprised by his reaction, both women went silent.
In the hallway, other stewards awakened more passengers who were still in their cabins, waited for them to dress and don the life belts, and then sent them to the boat deck. A few passengers noted that they had felt a jolt a little earlier and wondered if something were wrong.
“What is this all about?” Maggie Brown demanded. “One of those boys just ran by and said they had been playing football with chunks of ice on the deck. Why would there be ice?”
“I do not know all the details, Ma’am,” the steward Edward Daniels told her. “We are to get everyone dressed and up to the top.”
“Are they playing football with ice? Hmmm? Are they?”
“It is said they were,” Daniels admitted.
John Morton, the young man who often sat by Jenny Cavendar at dinner, walked into view. He was fully dressed and wide-awake. He told them, “There is ice on the deck, and they say we’ve hit an iceberg.”
“An iceberg?” Maggie Brown looked to others’ faces.
“A jape. Oh, what a jest this is,” Stead declared, “they are playing upon my little book. An iceberg? Indeed,” he said as he laughed heartily.
“Sir, I saw the ice myself,” John protested.
Stead frowned. If this were real, then how curious he should be here; this was life imitating art.
The Prescotts protested loudly as the excitement awakened their young daughter. Caroline screamed angrily as her mother buckled the life belt around her. She did not wish to be up this late nor buckled into anything. She wanted to be in bed and cozy.
In fury, she threw her little red ball, and it plunked to the ground.
Then, it rolled quickly down the hallway, gaining speed.
“We’re listing,” John said, “did you see the ball? We are listing toward the bow and port. We must have hit the ice close to the front of the ship.” He did not know, but not only was he correct, but the lower decks and the bowels of the ship were partially flooded.
“I don’t know if that is so….” Stead said.
“But it seems so. You saw the ball and how it rolled. It stands to reason, logically, does it not?” John persisted.
Daniels looked at the carpets and refused to guess what was happening.
The Beckwiths, mother and stepfather of Helen Monypenny came out into the hallway, worried and irritated at being awakened and told to dress. “What is this about?”
Karl Behr joined them in the hallway, looking to Helen to be sure she was all right. She smiled his way.
Helen’s mother booked the European grand tour for her daughter, hoping to discourage the romance between them, but Karl Behr, unswayed, followed them and managed to book passage on the Titanic as well. Neither of the young people wanted to be swayed in their affections, and they wished to be married.
Helen reached for Karl’s hand, scared by John’s statements. Her mother glared but thought she would wait until later to chide her daughter for a public display of affection.
“Are we sinking?” Helen asked, “What does all of this mean. Mr. Morton? Are we in any danger?”
“Oh, goodness, Missy, do not even suggest such a thing,” Maggie Brown chuckled, “we are on an unsinkable ship. No doubt there is a problem; we are practicing, and the Captain is being overly cautious. Come along, and let’s join the rest.”
“I want to know what’s going on,” John said, “I saw the ice, and I know what I was told, but I also heard there is a rush to get into the lifeboats.”
“No emergency signals are going off,” Karl pointed out.
“Daniels, can you not tell us anything more?” Stead asked, “What is happening here?”
“The truth is, Sir, I have been told nothing. None of us have. The Captain has gone quiet, and it is said he is not speaking much. I suppose we did hit something, and it is said it was an iceberg we hit. I just do not know anything is the fact of the matter.”
“I would like to see and know for myself what the problem is,” said John Morton, a tall man, heavier and larger than almost every other man aboard, not fat, but large. He was also a Texan, which is why he and the Cavendars had made such an easy friendship.
“And?”
“And Mrs. Brown, I am going to the depths of this ship and find out the truth for myself. I don’t feel anyone has been honest or is about to become truthful either,” John said.
Many a time, he had refused to ask one of the ranch hands to handle a problem, but roped a difficult bull himself, broke a horse, and dug a trench. He was one to do his own work. “No one knows anything.”
“Should we know?” Mrs. Beckwith asked, “We must follow orders and go to the boats as ordered. Helen, you need to dress warmly.”
“I cannot advocate getting aboard little lifeboats in the chilled air unless there is a very good reason. We should know the facts,” John said.
“I have to agree,” Stead nodded and said.
Peter Cavendar nodded, “I shall go with you. Jenny….”
“I’m going along, too,” she said.
“I would rather have you wait for us where it is warm and safe,” Peter said, “Mr. Murdoch told us there are twelve miles of corridors. We may have a long walk.”
Jenny sighed, “I am safe when I am with you, Father.” She knew she won the argument.
Edward Daniels began wringing his hands, “My orders are for you to go to the boat decks. Please.”
“Are we sinking? What is the damage?” John asked.
Daniels shook his head, “I wasn’t told, Sir.”
“Then how can we be sure of anything?” Helen asked.
“I have my own reasons for saying that if we are safe here on the ship, then we shouldn’t dare get on those tiny boats,” Howard said. “I believe we are amid some loathsome creatures in the sea.” He held a hand up so his aunts went about their business and did not chide him again.
“Creatures?”
“Let me only say I have seen some strange things from the deck. A crewman was injured horribly and is in the infirmary right now. I saw it for myself. A second crewman fell from the deck and was… well, lost.”
“What? Who knows about this? I haven’t heard a word of this,” Daniels declared.
Howard looked the other men in the eye, one by one, “Upon my word. I saw it myself, and the crewman was to report to Mr. Lightoller when the injured fellow was safe in the infirmary and with a physician. I suspect no one is focused on that now if we have a problem with an iceberg.”
“Then we know very little, as I said. Again, I am going to find out what is happening,” John repeated.
All around, passengers were following stewards and stewardesses to the boat deck, their faces sleepy and dazed. Most declared they would go to the lounge and have a drink but no farther.
“I am going along,” Maggie Brown said, “I want to know what is going on. I have never made it my practice to follow someone like a sheep. I would rather know the facts and make my own choices.”
Jenny and Helen looked at her with renewed respect. A fine, wealthy lady like Mrs. Brown had decided to go into the depths of the ship to find out facts for herself. This was an interesting moment.
It seemed women could wear high fashion and have good manners yet could remain independent and strong. How tough Maggie Brown really was, they could not imagine.
Mr. Stead, Bernice, Howard, and seven others said they were going as well, making Daniels groan. Ignoring her mother’s protests and grasps, Helen brushed her away and said she would go with Karl Behr. Eighteen passengers gazed at Edward Daniels defiantly, and he wilted under their glares, shrugged, and said he would escort them.
Mrs. Beckwith hissed as she called Helen back and threatened her, and then begged her to remain. Helen was sure if she let her mother, once again, give her orders, she would never become a strong woman herself. Helen wanted to marry and share a relationship but not be so desperate to have a man about that she gave up her own thoughts and ideals.
“Come along,” Daniels said. He did not know what he was to do with this large group of passengers headed off to explore the below-decks like a bunch of mystery-hunters. They did not understand he had orders to carry out.
A fellow steward hailed Daniels, “You’re going the wrong way, Mate. We are to go fill the boats.”
“I’ve an errand with these passengers.”
“Ah. It is no madder than anything else. We’ve the call to gather everyone at the boat deck and more have stopped at D to have a drink or play cards. Everyone is quite daft.”
“What’s the Captain saying?” Daniels asked, “Has he given any orders or spoken to anyone? What are we being told now?”
The other steward shrugged, “He’s not talking, much less givin’ orders. I’ve heard it’s chaotic except for Mr. Murdoch and Mr. Lightoller.”
They were the strongest and most sensible of the officers. Daniels felt relieved to know they were both taking control of the situation. “They will know what to do. They are the best officers….”
“But we know nothing, still,” Helen said.
“I know this is a smart idea that we are going to see for ourselves,” John said, “If y ‘all do not wish to go along, I will personally come find you and tell you what is going on.”
“I know you would, Mr. Morton, but we want to see,” Maggie said.
The large group descended the grand staircase, watching as many other passengers ascended in coats and life belts. Jenny always enjoyed the staircase, pretending to be a princess, but tonight, she hardly saw the exquisite details and opulence of the stairs.
Some of those going up the stairs carried small leather or embroidered bags or purses and wore coats but most carried nothing. Many women had donned furs as the ship had gone chilly.
“Mr. Astor. Mrs. Astor,” said Stead as he bowed a little as he greeted them. His eyes twinkled. “Out for a stroll this late?”
“I see they’ve awakened you.”
“Yes, they have. Mrs. Astor, I am sure everything is fine,” Stead told her, but she was all but burying her face in her husband’s shoulder.
“This is quite the farce,” John Astor declared, “Maddy is upset.” He slid to one side as she stopped to cling to an older, female friend she had made on the voyage. She whispered frantically, and the other women nodded in sympathy.
“Is she all right?” Maggie Brown asked.
“Her nerves are delicate. Being awakened like that… and we left her dog in the room. She is easily frightened.”
“It will all be fine,” Daniels said, “Sir.”
Astor was frowning, having left his warm bed in the palatial rooms. They had time to wash their faces in the private bathroom and dress before being led out.
His room had a private promenade and from there, he said, he had looked down; he confided in whispers so his wife could not hear; he had seen the queerest things.
Howard leaned forward, “What did you see?” He was curious, hoped to be backed up on his observations but was also afraid.
“The sea is closer. I would wager we are lower in the water. Is that not mad? And there seems to be a list to the ship. But that is not of concern as the ship cannot sink and we have lifeboats if needed.” He brushed the idea away with a wave in the air, “but what I saw was unbelievable,” said Astor.
“I feel I would believe, Sir, for I have had strange experiences and seen oddities,” Howard said, encouraging Mr. Astor.
“I have long enjoyed studying fish and have done my share of fishing in fresh water and salt, and I have seen some oddities, but nothing like this,” John Astor told them.
Howard, Stead, John, and the others listened.
“ A giant fin broke the calm waters, and its dorsal fin was seven or eight feet tall, maybe taller. I think he might have been a hundred feet long or longer.”
Stead laughed, “You’re having a jest.”
“It’s no jest. I saw it tonight as well when I was taking air earlier, and it frightened me. It is that large, indeed,” Howard said, “and it’s true what he is saying, about the fish, I mean, but there is far worse out there.”
“You are both serious? You did not say it was a fish you saw. You said one of the crewman was injured, and one fell into the water.”
Howard nodded at Stead, “I could not say it then, you’d have thought me addled, but the fish took the man when he fell into the sea.”
“And the other?” John Morton asked.
“They are the more loathsome, dangerous creatures imaginable. I fear we have traveled into a most horrid place. And time. There are horrid, dead creatures is all I can say. You would have to see them for yourself, but I do not wish that upon any of you.”
“Impossible,” Peter Cavendar said, “it’s no more than your nerves and a case of writer’s imagination.”
“But you said it was impossible anything was amiss until John confirmed we had hit ice,” Jenny said.
“Ice? So it’s true?” Astor asked.
“We’re going down to check on things ourselves in a great adventure,” Maggie Brown said, “so we know the facts, but John here confirmed that the ship indeed hit an iceberg as there is ice on the top deck, and we are lower in the water and listing a little.”
“And because of that large shark, I fear the waters might not be safe for us in little life boats,” Howard added.
“Good God,” Astor whispered, “I’ll take Maddy up at once and see what’s going on above us. Carry on and God speed. I agree we might be safer here than on the little boats.”
“God speed to you as well, Sir,” John said.
“I’ll take Maddy up and we shall have a brandy and then see what the business is. Hopefully in a short time, we shall be able to return to our rooms. Our dog, Kitty, gets nervous when left alone,” he said loudly.
Maddy Astor clung to her husband, her face pale.
“Are you alright, Dear?” Maggie Brown asked.
Maddy clandestinely touched her lower stomach and made a shhh sound. Maggie nodded with a broad smile. “You take care of her, John; she’s a doll. You be strong now, Mrs. Astor.”
John Astor clasped her with his arms about her, “I shall.”
They followed the steward and were out of sight within seconds. Benjamin Guggenheim and his group walked up the stairs, followed by Isidor Strauss, the founder of Macy’s, Bruce Ismay, head of the White Start Shipping Line, the Thayers, and Countessa de’Rothes.
On D deck, Daniels grinned, “Even if we take on water, the bulkheads are beneath this deck, and the water can go no farther. We’re all quite safe.”
“Unless the bulkheads have been breached,” John said.
“Oh, Sir, I am sure….” However, he did not finish. It was impossible.
Passengers streamed into the Reception Room, seeking warmth and human contact. Families and couples burrowed beneath blankets before the fireplaces. Some of the stewards made pots of tea and coffee, took out more blankets, and spoke in soft, calm voices. They served wine, fruit, and cheeses.
“Scotland Road, we call the walkway along this deck. It is the nickname for it; it’s the busiest passage in the ship,” Daniels said as they walked lower. “Third class and crew are always about the walkway. “No one was rushing about but standing around on E deck, confused and dazed. “This is where we gather, see, in the salon.”
The crewmembers seemed calm and unconcerned, unsure of what was really happening. The idea of sinking was a vague thought. Passengers, awakened from their bunks, stood about, asking questions in other languages; answers never came.
“Do ye know what’s a’happenin’?” a steward asked Daniels. He looked at everyone watching him and threw his arms up, “What ‘ave ye ‘eard? ‘Tis a foine mess we have got ‘ere.”
“We have no word from above. We are looking to find out.”
“All of ye?”
Daniels nodded, his face flushed, “All of us. We will find out and let you know.” He thought the group with him was a spectacle.
F deck was for third class passengers and featured the beautiful Turkish baths that some had enjoyed. Stewards here calmed passengers and told them that there was nothing wrong at all and there was no need to do anything but gather in the salons with life belts. They assured everyone that this was a minor issue, but protocol demanded the reaction.
Several stewards blocked the stairway so none of the third class passengers could go up the stairs, but they did not bother the large group going down, led by Daniels. Instead they looked at them curiously, wondering what they were about and why.
From that deck, they would use a regular stairway, as the grand stairway did not extend that deeply.
“Ya can’na go down to G. She’s flooded,” said a steward as he passed them.
Daniels grabbed another steward, “We want to know what’s going on. Above, we have no news of what is happening here.”
All around them stood the third class in their dining area. Women wept, and men cursed, demanding to know what was happening. Those who could not understand English were vexed.
The steward sighed, “Some of the firemen have locked themselves away and are pumping out water to keep the lights on so we can send distress signals and see, or we’d be in pitch black.
I fear they will remain there until the ship goes down. The mail workers are trying to save the mail and refuse to leave. G deck is a mad house. The mail cargo room and boilers have flooded fully.”
“Well, we’ll make them get out of there and go to the life boats,” Maggie said. Before anyone could say a word, she walked down the hallway. Everyone followed her. “When will these people be taken up?”
“As soon as first and second class are loaded into lifeboats, Ma’am,” Daniels replied.
“The staff neglected the lifeboat drill,” Maggie said, “and it will be pandemonium. Think of how long it will take to get these people loaded when half don’t speak English.”
John stared ahead, going still. Before him was the beginning of seawater that had flooded into the ship. He stood in an inch of water. He suggested most wait there and keep dry.
The water was twenty-eight degrees and painfully cold, but he walked along until his knees were immersed. “I will go see what is happening.”
In a minute, his toes were numb, and it felt as if knives pierced his shins.
Opening the doorway to the heated pool, he found that instead of water in a pool surrounded by elegant marble tiles and decor that made one think of Roman baths, the entire room was a pool. Movement caught his eye.
Claire Cotton, her brother Sam, Howard, and Karl Behr followed John.
“Be careful. The pool is somewhere. and you would go under. It’s impossible to know where the pool lies,” John said.
“What is that? Oh no, have people fallen in?” Claire asked, wading forward.” No one came to help them?”
“Stay to the walls,” John warned again.
On the surface were floating, flesh-colored bodies moving slightly. At the far side, a figure was sitting with her head down, weeping, her long hair covering her face that was barely above the water. Her body was immersed in the freezing cold water.
The group skirted along the edge next to the wall to get to her.
The lights were dull.
“We are coming. It is all right now. You’re safe,” Claire called. “Just a second, and we shall be right there with you, and we will find something warm for you.” She wondered how the stewards could neglect their passengers in this way, leaving them to drown by the pool and freeze in cold water. The Third Class was treated horribly, she thought.
“We are here,” Daniels called.
“Stay there. Claire, please go back. We can get her out,” John pleaded.
Howard forced himself forward. Below his knees, the icy water felt like painful daggers, stabbing into his flesh repeatedly. It was so cold that it hurt. His bones felt like glass breaking, and his skin was going through terrible pains. The nerves burned and ached and felt torn, crushed and stabbed, all at once. Howard shivered with cold and pain.
How could the woman sit in the water and not scream and still be alive? Why was she naked like the rest of them? How had they lost their clothing? Something was terribly amiss.
Claire and Sam reached the woman first, and Claire knelt, murmuring reassurances. Claire’s skirts were soaked, and her teeth chattered, but she was determined to save the woman. A hot bath or warm blanket was a luxury she thought of continuously, as a person dying of thirst might dream of water.
Pale with the cold, the figure looked bloated and much too soft, Howard thought. Her naked flesh looked like soft, whipped cream. If someone were to touch it, his hand might be engulfed.
Howard called out a warning, but it was too late. The creature, that looked human from a distance and that pretended to be a person, raised its abominable head. It was not hair hanging down her face, but very fine, very dark tentacles. It brushed back the strands absently.
Serpent’s eyes, gold and cruel, looked at them, and the being was not smiling but had a frog-like mouth, lipless, wide, and wet. There was no nose or ears, and its arms were thin appendages with three splayed fingers on each.
“Oh dear, God,” Jack cried, stumbling backwards and almost falling.
Howard stood frozen in place as the frog snapped out its long, black tongue towards Claire. She screamed as the barbs and saliva took the flesh from her cheek in a bloody, raw strip. It sounded like cloth being ripped. In a flash, it swallowed the strip of skin.
Sam pulled at Clair, but she slipped to her hands and knees, clasping at her face and wailing. Before she could get up, the frog-women lashed out twice more, removing Claire’s right eye and other cheek; she shrieked. The eye socket was empty, as if someone had scooped away the organ and left only a bare stripe from the top of her cheekbone, across her eye, and to her hairline. It had taken only a few seconds to remove her face.
Sam grabbed Claire under her arms and pulled her away, but the creature was able to steal flesh from the girl’s ankles and legs, leaving bloodied swatches. It swallowed the tattered bits of her stockings along with her flesh. Claire threw one arm over her face to protect herself and used the other for balance as she kicked at the frog-people.
John kicked the one attacking Claire in the face, and the creature’s skin was soft. Bones and white flesh caved in, leaving a hole where the face and mouth of the creature had been. John did not know if it were a beast or a girl, but the thing squealed with pain.
“Look out,” Peter Cavendar called. He and the rest were dry but watching fearfully.
Karl helped Sam pull Claire away, but the creatures that were floating complacently upon the pool’s surface suddenly became active, kicking over to the group with frog-like movements of their dark, slimy, back legs. All of them showed wide mouths and yellow eyes as they swam closer, flicking their tongues in the air as if tasting blood.
Sam and Claire tried to avoid them, dodging to the side, but they fell into the pool, vanishing under the surface. Karl stepped back before he fell in.
No one could get to the brother and sister as the monsters dove after them.
When Sam and Claire surfaced, they wailed with pain as the creatures used their tongues to slurp flesh from their bodies, staining the water bright red. The frog-people attacked in a frenzy. Each time they flicked their tongues out at their victims, a section of flesh ripped away from Claire or Sam who could not swim.
With the attention of the creatures diverted, Karl and John sloshed along the wall to get away, hoping that their legs would not, in their numbness, give way and cause them to fall.
“Get out; get out; hurry,” John said, pushing at the rest.
Karl reached for Helen, but she pulled away. She was staring out a porthole that was even with the waterline outside.
“What is it?” he asked, huffing and glancing behind to make sure the creatures were not coming.
“I do not quite know,” she said. In shock, she spoke dully, staring out the porthole. “And look how much lower we are in the water.” Tears ran down her cheeks as she puzzled over what had happened to Claire and Sam Cotton. Had those been frogs of some gigantic type?
Stead looked out the porthole next to Helen and cursed. He did not apologize for his language.
At first, he saw a gigantic fin breaking the surface, swimming back and forth as if it could smell the blood. The fish swerved, swimming away, and Stead was disappointed not to see it.
No, not disappointed, but rather nervous. He felt dread.
Then he screamed.
Everyone pushed backwards out of the room, but before the door was closed, they saw the leviathan swimming at a tremendous speed towards the porthole and then bash it with its nose. The porthole exploded, and the sea rushed in, but the thing was not satisfied and used its great teeth to bite and gnash at the opening as if it could get its enormous bulk inside.
Peter Cavendar slammed the door closed.
“What were those things?” Jenny asked. “What kind of monsters are they and where did they come from? The sea? Were they frogs?”
“Nothing like that lives in the sea,” Stead murmured.
“We’re doomed. We’re in a place of the damned,” Charles Whitmore mumbled.
Jenny ignored him, “They looked like frogs, but frogs do not do that to people. And that fish, he thought to come right inside with us.”
“Out on the deck, I saw far worse,” Howard said, “and you may not believe me, but I’ll tell you quickly.” He related his story fully now.
“I can’t imagine what that was like. I would have fainted,” Jenny said, “and the frogs, why they must be a part of this, in some way. Howard, how could they be here? What is allowing them to come into our world?”
“I can only think the worlds have somehow crossed one another. Perhaps it is this spot on the sea.”
“They killed those poor people,” Maggie Brown wiped her eyes. Everyone wanted to run away and hide, but each tried to stay strong. She wanted to hide under the covers of her bed.
“I can’t say I believe it, but after seeing those horrid things, I can’t disbelieve it either,” Peter Cavendar said, “but if you did indeed see those things, and we know you saw the shark because we saw it; it’s old. It’s older than we can imagine. I think we have somehow crossed another time.”
“Exactly,” Howard agreed.
Maggie asked what Howard and Stead thought it could be that they were seeing.
Stead shrugged, “Sea monsters are the easy answer, but those are vile things, things that are disgusting to the human race. They looked abnormal or unnatural. I admit the shark scared me nearly to fainting.”
“I think the ship somehow entered a rip in worlds. Our worlds have collided, and we can go into theirs, and they can… are coming into ours. And they are hungry,” Howard said.
“Impossible,” John said, “but doesn’t this entire event seem impossible? I have wet trousers and wet, cold feet, and I saw frogs consume two people.” He shook his head, and Jenny took his hand and said, “I believe every word of what Howard told us.”
“Of course, it is the truth,” Jenny said, “As we have seen it ourselves.”
The water grew deeper, and most stayed behind, watching. Those already wet: Peter and Lewis Darby went to check the mailroom. The plan was to look since they were already here, then to hurry up the stairs, and make the Captain listen to them. If he would not, then the officers must.
The squash court was like a swimming pool, and no one wanted to go inside the room for fear more frogs were there.
They were up to their chests when they reached the mailroom, fearful that something was swimming nearby. The others located fire axes and other things to use as weapons. “ ‘ Ello, mailroom. We’ve come to help you.” Lewis Darby hoped those from the mail cargo room already had gone up the stairs.
When they opened the door, they found a lake of soggy letters and mailbags that were lost to the seawater.
Daniels said eight were down there at work usually. There were body parts, pale bits of flesh and yellow fat, and a lot of blood. The surface of the water was very busy. Daniels could not say if the people he knew were there or if other, unfortunate souls were torn apart in this room.
Those who saw inside were horrified and shielded their eyes. Peter closed the door, but one of the creatures slipped through the water with lightning speed.
The fish swam right at Lewis, latched onto his leg, and began biting him. He howled as he slapped at it; his hand slid off the fish with the slime it excreted. John grabbed it, its mouth full of Lewis’ flesh, and slammed it on the ground far away where Stead wacked it with a fire axe.
The women of the group gasped and turned pale.
“Hit it again, Mr. Stead,” Maggie called out.
“It is dead,” he promised her, but he pounded it a few more times.
“Now, it is very dead,” Maggie said.
Stead looked over the dead fish carefully and curiously but refused to touch the monstrosity. “That is a piranha, one of the most deadly fish in South America. See the teeth?”
“South America, where the water is warm? That is mad,” Helen Monypenny said.
“Well, it looks like one and behaves like one. The teeth and the bodystructure… this is a piranha, but piranha are not colored purple, and they do not have lizard tails, see. So it is a piranha but an abomination of one,” Stead explained. He showed them that the fish’s body did not end in a fin but a slender tail.
“It is quite larger than piranha grow,” Howard said.
Maggie tore strips from her chemise, and after she looked at the bites, she felt Lewis would be fine after she bandaged him. She warned him to keep his wounds dry. “I need some whiskey to clean the wound. It always works for me.”
“For to drink or for to burn my wound?” Lewis asked, trying to remain chipper.
“Both,” Maggie Brown said, “I know it hurts, and it is bleeding a lot, but I think the damage is less than you imagine.”
Daniels paced as he thought and told them, “F has to be underwater at the bow or close to it. There is nothing else we can do. The firemen have locked themselves away, and we cannot help anyone down here, now.”
Shivering the entire way, Charles Whitmore talked to himself, shrugging off comforting words. “We’re quite doomed.”
“We are not. We are going up now, so try to be calm, Mr. Whitmore, please.”
They trudged back along the walkway until they found the activity of the third class. They heard the screams towards the bow but did not have the fortitude to investigate or to wade through the rising water again.
“There are injured people back there?” a steward asked.
John Morton used his hand to grasp the steward’s elbow, “Go down there, but know, there is ice-cold water, and it is rising quickly. Most are dead. What you are hearing are the screams of the crewmen, left fighting back there. If they win the battle, they will come here, but if they lose, you do not want to be anywhere near.”
“I’m going,” the steward said as he and another ran down the flooding hallway towards the mailroom, pool, and monsters. No one ever saw the men again.
“Foolish,” Stead shook his head sadly.
Several of the stewards locked the doors of the dining salons, and the hammering to be let out was faint and inconsistent.
“Why have they been locked away?” Maggie Brown asked, “What is going on with you? The water is coming.”
“Oh, mum, they’ve tried to rush the stairs several times, and someone will be injured. Some of the more daft ones have tried to run the other way, splashing along; it’s more’n a bit of madness ‘ere,” the stewardess said, shaking her head.
Daniels nodded and patted her arm as he told the others, “We’ve no practice except for life boat drills, and we’ve been told we must follow orders. I mean when we get orders….”
“We have told them to relax and wait,” the stewardess, Alicia said. She saw that some of the people before her were soaking wet. “Is the water rising? It’s still coming up? Is it true?”
“Just back there it begins. In a bit, this will flood, too,” John told her, “and you have to get everyone to the boat decks. It is just as Mrs. Brown said.”
“Oh, Sir, the ship is unsinkable. Surely, it will not come up this far? We have only to wait….”Alicia acted confused.
“The ship is sinking. We have confirmed it just now,” Maggie Brown said, as she got right to the point. “Get everyone topside.”
“I shall when we have the orders. We’re a’waiting the First Class to board,” Alicia snapped, thinking that these people were a prime example of why they could not go up yet.
“Send the rest to their rooms. They will not make it. We haven’t the room for all the passengers. There are not enough boats. Lock it down, and go up, yourselves,” Daniels told Alicia, making a decision.
“Not enough boats?” Karl all but yelled, “How can that be?”
As they argued, there came a queer sound from the other hallway, a sliding, thumping noise that was loathsome to hear. What could make sure a curious sound? It sounded huge, and from what they had just seen, the group of first class passengers was afraid to know.
Karl peeked around the corner, looked far down the hall, and saw light sucked into a wavering brownish-yellow mist from which several, huge, slimy masses emerged. Firemen, maids, cooks, and passengers ran from the hallway, screaming. What Karl saw was impossible, but it was real. Some of the men fought the creatures.
“Run upstairs,” John shouted.
Instead, the fleeing third class and crewmen ran to the other rooms, urging the rest to follow so they could lock the doors. Alicia motioned as many as possible to take the stairs instead, but it was chaos, and the noises grew louder as did the screams.
“What is it?” Alicia demanded.
Jets of blood misted and sprayed the floors, walls, and ceilings.
“Vermis.” Howard stood, unable to move as he saw the new terror approaching. It was horrible, and yet, he was fascinated, despite his fear. Three worms appeared from the brown-yellow mist, undulating and sliding on the shining, white slime they excreted from their bodies. The one in the lead humped and hunched along, its large mass thumping on the floor.
There was no mistaking which end was the front although it was eyeless. One raised its vile head and opened its mouth, gnawing at the air. The maw was a black hole filled with ichors and rows of tiny, sharp teeth that were already blood- stained. It did not make a sound with this oral cavity or lungs, but everyone could hear the infernal bellow as thoughts, ora cacophony in the mind.
Howard covered his ears, but it did not help; his ears did not hear the noise. He would have done better to claw the brain from his skull. How could he hear the clamor in his head?
A woman ran by, and the huge worm snatched her off her feet, bit her in half, and swallowed her in two gulps. As the worm swallowed, the large lumps of her body slid towards the other end beneath its grayish-pink, wet skin. A stream of white slime oozed outwards as the worm wriggled with satisfaction.
Helen Monypenny screamed as she ran after Maggie Brown, almost tripping up the stairs. They did not look back.
The big worm contracted his body and let loose a most foul stench of gas and then contracted harder and out popped a sludge of slimy feces so he could have room to digest the women he had just eaten. The fetid pile of bowel slime smelt reptilian, musky, and vile.
“No, oh this cannot be,” Charles Whitmore moaned. He, as the rest, had seen the frogs and spider-things, as well as the horrible fish outside the ship, but these creatures were so massive that they could not have entered with the water and thus, could not be sliding along the hallways. He thought maybe his mind had snapped; in fact, he hoped that it had so this would not be real.
“What folly is this?” Alicia asked Daniels as if he and his group had brought the creatures.
“Monsters,” someone said.
“So I see. Monsters indeed.”
“And there is a giant fish outside, frog things that have tongues that will take one’s skin, a small fish with a lizard’s tail that is like deadly piranhas, and the vermis here,” Howard said, “and these are the least frightening of all the creatures.”
“Worse? I’d rather not see. I shall stay with my charges,” Alicia said. The stewardess, her lips trembling, ran after the passengers, stopped to help a woman with a child, and closed herself into the lounge with the rest. The doors slammed closed.
William Stead motioned the rest to follow.
Jenny Cavendar ran, but one of the behemoths slipped onto her path, blocking her way. She froze; only her quick thinking saved her. If it swung to its left, it would swallow her. She moved only her eyes, looking to the rest for help.
Although she had thought clearly and rationally, her large eyes darted all about; in seconds she would panic and run, and would be eaten alive.
“How does it sense? Can it smell or see?” asked Karl. “We have to know that, Hurry. Think.”
“I do not think it can see.” Howard waved his arms trying to get the creature to turn away from Jenny. When he stomped his feet, it violently lifted its body and slammed itself towards him. “Vibration.”
“Step lightly and unevenly, Jenny,” Peter called to his daughter. Holding her breath, she tiptoed away from the creature.
Peter Cavendar dodged one of the monsters in his way, hugged a wall, and grasped Jenny’s arm to pull her along as they both made it to the stairway.
Howard was glad he was correct in thinking vibrations were the key, and he did feel heroic, but Howard was very afraid.
Little red-haired Bernice panicked when one of the big worms brushed against her, leaving thick, viscous slime upon her body. Had she stayed still, she might have been fine, but the feel of the slime and the musty, dead-mouse smell of the worm terrified her, so she tried to push it away and dart back towards the water.
Her hands sank into the thick goo.
She shuddered with revulsion.
“Not that way,” Daniels yelled.
“Come on, Bernice. Stay against the wall and slide back this way. You will be fine,” Stead called to her from the stairs. Exasperated, he wanted to run and help the girl but was petrified to leave the bottom stair. It was all he could do to keep from running up with the women.
“Oh, Bernice….” Jenny watched from the stairs, horrified.
The worm shuddered with a disgusting show of excitement and pleasure when Bernice pressed on its skin. It turned and opened its mouth, inhaling her scent as an aperitif. Saliva dripped as the rows of teeth beckoned.
The other two worms, sharing the excitement, bawled, the noise echoing in everyone’s head.
James and Edward Perry, acting in unison as only brothers can, lunged for Bernice, pulling at her, but it became a tug of war when the behemoth bit down on her arm, right above the elbow. The worm pulled at the morsel.
Bernice’s screams went high-pitched and desperate with pain. It was if knives had pierced her skin; then, blades ground against her arm’s bone. Over and over, she shrieked. As she began to faint, she fell to her knees. The worm took her arm with him, and the girl went sliding head first into the slime as James and Edward pulled at her other arm.
All three slipped several yards down the hallway before Karl Behr and Charles Whitmore were able to get them to their feet and up the stairs. Whitmore carried Bernice in his arms as the ruined remains of the arm hung, dripping blood. He passed her to Stead.
The last of their group ascended, but Charles Whitmore returned to stand next to Howard and stare at the worms. Neither moved.
Whitmore was splashed with the wounded girl’s blood.
Some of the men from Third Class and the shipmen used makeshift weapons to beat on the three creatures, but many were swallowed, and when an injury was inflicted, the slippery flesh wiggled and shifted to mend the wound. Some ran away to lock themselves in the nearby rooms when that did not work.
“It can’t be real and yet it is,” Whitmore whispered.
“Our worst nightmares have come to life,” Howard agreed, “I think they are beings from another place and have always been alongside us. They do not seem very surprised to see us. But we’ve been separated by something… a gate maybe… and it’s been breached.” It was mad to stand and philosophize, but they did just that.
“It has to be closed. If we knew what opened it, we could close it. What if… I mean… the entire world could be infected,” Whitmore went on, “and what we have seen will follow us. We will never be free of them. Everywhere… monsters….”
“But maybe we won’t know or see them if the gateway is closed,” Howard tried to think, but one of the worms moved closer.
Whitmore laughed madly, “And we can live, knowing they are here, whether we see them or not? Can you go on and live your life normally whilst knowing those things are there and separated from us by a gossamer gate? The thinnest of mists?”
“How I wish we might have had this conversation somewhere else and at another time,” Howard said.
“I would rather not know. How can I cleanse this from my head?”
“Shhh.”
“They can see us, the other monsters I mean, and at any second could breach that space and be with us again. That is, if we even survive.”
“Be quiet, Whitmore.”
“You fool. They have arrived, and hell is on earth. This is damnation.”
Howard snapped, “They are worms, man! Calm yourself.”
Whitmore stepped down to the floor, “They are so old, and we have seen leviathan and behemoth. It is the end, my boy. I won’t play their games.” He pulled a silver flask from his jacket and tore off his collar until he had a wick set into the top.
“What are you about? Stop this,” Howard said. The worm came closer, and in seconds, it would swallow both men.
“The Gods were sorely displeased when Prometheus gave men fire.” With a wicked grin, Charles Whitmore lit the wick, yelled for Howard to go, and leaped into the maw of the monster.
As Howard ran, he saw Whitmore consumed, but the creature was burning slowly, its flesh sizzling. There were monsters a’plenty, but that particular one might die.
The other man had gone mad with the sights and vapors of the creatures, but he had gone down fighting.
The war had begun.
Chapter Five: Midnight on the Titanic
Scotland Road was crowded as crewmen and passengers hurried up and down the walkway, some about normal business of keeping the ship going and others with nothing else to do to keep their minds occupied. Most had no idea what was amiss, and if they did know, they were not overly concerned.
On E Deck, the group found first aid, cleaned and bandaged Lewis’ leg, and tied a better tourniquet about Bernice’s elbow. After the cleaning, a bandage, and morphine, she was drowsy and barely able to walk but begged not to be left behind in between crying with the pain and terror of her ordeal.
The stewards on E thought the stories of the injuries and creatures were some type of jest but not comical. No one believed the recollections. When finally, after much cajoling, a few of the stewards went down the stairs to see for themselves, they understood.
When the stewards came back up, pale and shaking, they locked the gates that led to below decks. The gates, heavy and black, slid together and would never reopen.
“You saw the… the behemoths?” Howard asked.
“Swimming in rising water. E Deck is flooding,” a steward reported, “how can those… things be in the ship? Did they come from below decks?”
“We should be so fortunate. We do not know where they are from. The sea? Does it matter? They are here almost upon us,” Karl told all of them. He kept a steady arm about Helen.
“What about the people below? They have locked themselves down there in rooms because of those things,” Jenny said, “we’ve got to kill the things and get everyone up to the boats.”
Some nodded in agreement but many refused to meet her face.
“What? Why are they locked behind gates? Those worms will get them or they will drown. Am I the only one with sense here?” Jenny asked. “You have locked them down there.”
Peter took his daughter’s arm, “Jenny, those people have barricaded themselves for safety. They are waiting for everyone to get aboard the boats, and then, I am sure someone will come escort them to the boats as well.”
“Then why did Mr. Daniels say there aren’t enough boats?” Maggie Brown asked. She was suspicious, too.
When all eyes turned on Daniels, he shrugged, “I’m just a steward.”
“But?”
“Mrs. Brown, really….”
William Stead huffed, “He knows. We all know. The ship was said to be unsinkable. It is the mighty Titanic. We’ve not the lifeboats aboard for everyone. That is the end-all.”
“We will double up. No doubt, ships are racing to our rescue, so it will not take long. How many boats are we short? A few?”
“Mrs. Brown….”
“Daniels?” She could be very stubborn. Her eyebrows lowered with her frown.
“By half. We are short by half,” Daniels whispered.
Everyone now understood why the gates were locked and why no one would be coming back for the many trapped below. Helen set her face against Karl’s shoulder and wept.
“They will all….” Jenny stammered, “What will we do?” The concept had not yet hit her fully.
“Make our ways to the boat decks. We have no choice and no time to waste,” Daniels said.
Peter Cavendar took Jenny’s arm, and John Morton took her other arm as they hurried up the next staircase. Jenny kept looking back at the locked gate and then at the stewards who were making ready to lock the next gate. They had sad faces.
Daniels ushered his group up another deck to D: where many sat in the First Class Reception Room, the second class gathered in their dining salon, and the third class met in their dining salon. In the fact of disaster, the classes did not mix.
Below, the water was fifty feet deep in the bow, and the quarters on E Deck were flooded at the bow.
Above, on the boat deck, Mr. Murdoch gritted his teeth. His orders were to load women and children first, but there were few waiting to board. “Come along.”
Margaret Hays felt her hat blown away by the steam, but Mr. Murdoch was right there to catch it and hand it back to her with a smile as she entered the boat, holding her Pomeranian dog wrapped in a little blanket.
Way down on the lower decks, the kennels were under water. No one had remembered the pets.
“Let the wounded aboard.” William Stead, Karl Bahr, and Howard, helped Lewis along and John carried Bernice.
“What happened?” Murdoch asked, “Should they go to the infirmary, yes?”
“It is… well, it will soon flood, Sir,” Karl told Murdoch.
Murdock looked at the bandage on Lewis’ leg; it was soaked in blood. He pulled back in horror as he saw Bernice’s arm was gone. Tight bed sheets wound about her upper arm, pinpricked with dots of blood. Her face was pale, and her head lolled. “She is… I mean… is she… what happened?”
“Below decks… accidents. Please.”
The two wounded passengers went into the boat with the rest. The boat was thirty feet long and nine feet wide and could hold sixty-five people, yet less than thirty were on board.
Mr. Tucker helped several of the ladies, bundling them with rugs to keep them warm; he sat down as well. A Frenchman and his three friends climbed in. Mr. Mereʼchal carried a deck of cards that he had picked up as the men left their card game, and a book about Sherlock Holmes. “If I grow weary I can play card or read about Mr. Holmes adventures, nʼest ce pas?”
They tucked Lewis into place with a blanket and lay Bernice upon the seat, covering her with layers of blankets to warm her. Murdoch did not put either of the injured into life belts.
“Anyone else? Anyone? We are to get into life jackets and life boats and abandon ship,” Murdoch reminded those on the boat deck, but no one else came forwards.
Everyone was afraid of the small boats and said it was much too cold to be out. “Please. We need to fill the boat so we can lower it. Will you go aboard?”
Stead and his friends waved off the offer; they had too much to do. Others climbed aboard.
“You are all brave, Sirs,” Murdoch told Howard, John, and Karl, and Stead.
Murdock motioned two of the ship’s lookouts and an Able Seaman to join the group. An Able Seaman was trained in almost aspects of the upper deck and might be a lookout, help navigate, clean up a deck, or operate machinery. They were also excellent with lifeboats and more expert with them than any other crewmen.
Other men climbed aboard so they would have enough men to row the boat when Murphy asked them.
Slowly they were lowered to the sea. Fifth Officer Lowe called out instructions. The men had little practice in lowering the lifeboats, much less using them, and even in practice they had only rowed up and down the side of the ship a few minutes.
“Oh my, the plug isn’t in,” cried Margaret Hays. Quickly they stuffed whatever fabric they could find into the hole. An actress stripped off her undergarments without a blush and used it to hold back the water until the plug was placed. Ice-cold water sloshed at the bottom of the little boat as it floated away. It was 12:45 AM, an hour and five minutes after the Titanic had hit the iceberg. Crewman Hogg was put in command of the boat.
Joseph Boxhall, Fourth Officer, grabbed Murdoch’s sleeve, “Look, Sir, there’s a ship… there in the mist… see it?”
He had just found out that they were going to sink; the Captain failed to tell him as he stared into nothing and refused to give orders. Boxhall was relieved that Lightoller and Murdoch had taken over.
Murdoch turned to see the ship’s lights and the ship itself as it glowed. Murdoch knew there was no way he could see a ship in the black of the night, and yet, he could.
“We should have them row in that direction,” Boxhall said.
“No,” Howard told Boxhall, “For the love of all that is holy, don’t have the passengers row for that ship. Look at it.”
It was an old sailing vessel with her masts strangely draped in liquideous moss. Humanoid figures dotted the railing, but they changed shape often, melting into humans, and then into things with fish-like faces, and then into things with slender bodies and spindly arms that reached out to the ship. It was too far to see them clearly, and yet, Murdoch could make out that the things were male and female, all nude, as they stood there. Their eyes were very hungry.
“What is it… are they?”
“I don’t know, but I doubt we want to go any closer to see,” Howard said.
“That… I must be going mad.”
“Mr. Murdoch, I think what the Captain saw drove him mad. We need you. Ignore those visions. They cannot always come through,” Howard told him. In lifeboat seven, already upon the water, the men cheered and tried to row that direction, but Murdoch called to them, warning them not to believe anything they saw.
The Pomeranian, Lady, whined as it looked at the visage.
“Don’t row to it. It is but a mirage,” Murphy called to those in the boat. “It is not real, and if it is, we do not want anything to do with it.”
In a few minutes, the mysterious sailing ship was lost to the dark as if it had never been there.
“The Flying Dutchman,” Boxhall said.
“No. It was worse. Be glad it is gone away.” Howard said.
Bruce Ismay, in his nightclothes, looked around. He asked, “What is gone away? Was it a ship to help us?”
“No Sir,” Murdoch said, “Sir, please, let us prepare. Perhaps you might go and dress more… ummm… warmly.”
“They say to put couples onboard. Should we not just put the women and children aboard? We know….” Ismay tried.
“Sir, please….” Murdoch begged, “If you will move away, we can get the boats loaded and away.” He was about to become rude to one of the owners of the ship line.
He moved to the side to speak with Ismay and allowed Lowe to load the next boat.
Helen Monypenny, who screamed she would not get aboard the lifeboat, interrupted them. Sallie and Richard Beckwith, her mother and stepfather, struggled to calm her, but she was terrified to get into such a small boat. The big fish could swallow it whole.
“I am not about to get into the tiny boat, not with creatures and that big fish just waiting to gobble us up. I will not,” she screamed.
“Helen, please, this is embarrassing,” Sallie Beckwith whispered.
“So is your marriage to a man a decade younger than yourself,” Helen hissed back.
Every eye was on Helen because of her outburst. Everyone stared, jaws dropping with alarm.
In a second, they would all panic and jump off the boat since many of the men were already saying the lifeboats looked unsafe. With the cold, it was safer to stay upon the ship, they said.
“A fish?” Ismay asked.
“Let us finish and lower the boat,” called Lowe.
If Murdoch had thought twice about allowing men aboard, he now ground his teeth and made a choice, “Go aboard, Mr. Beckwith… Mr. Behr. Anyone else? Go aboard, please.”
Karl Behr saw that Helen would not go without him. He looked to Howard who nodded his head, “Go with her, Behr. We will all be along soon on the other lifeboats,” Howard said.
Helen gasped, stopping her tantrum of fear. She cocked her head and opened her mouth, but closed it at once. Her shock went deep.
She and Karl knew there would be no more lifeboats later and that most men might be left behind. They knew what fearsome creatures were filling the ship.
Karl gripped Helen’s hand, “Howard, it has been an honor, Sir.”
“Godspeed, Mr. Behr and Miss Monypenny. It was a fine adventure and testament to your fortitude. Keep your spirits,” Howard called.
Murdoch seized the moment and ordered Third Officer Pitman aboard and motioned for the boat to be lowered as no others came forward. He feared that either the stewards were not bringing people to the boat decks or that the passengers were refusing to board. The boat lowered with starts and stops since the pulleys were covered in fresh paint.
There came a terrible jerk and jolt.
“Lower away,” Bruce Ismay called.
Lowe lost his temper, “Would you get the hell out of my way, and stop shouting? If I lower them fast, I will tip the boat and drown the lot of them. Let me do my job, will you?”
Ismay walked away, his head down.
The boat was quite a ways below when Henry and Isaac Fraunthal ran towards Murdoch,
“Wait for us.”
Isaac had dreamed, not two nights before, that the ship hit something and sank. He told his brother, Henry, and the two men spoke of the awful nightmare, not worried, but in passing. However, as soon as they heard the ship had hit something, they felt the dream was coming true. Neither man had any doubt that the Titanic was going down.
“They’ve already gone….” Murdoch reached for the men, but they jumped madly, crushing one of the female passengers and almost tossing everyone into the sea.
Murdoch walked slowly after Lowe to look down, fearing the boat had turned over, and found everyone, in the lifeboat, huddled about one of the women. One of the men called up that the woman was unconscious, and before she had fainted, she clasped her ribs, crying out that they were broken.
“But it is okay,” the man called again, “we have a doctor aboard. Mr. Fraunthal is here.”Murdoch and Howard traded glances and sighed.
Chapter Six: Going on 1:00 and No Help in Sight…
The water reached the bow where the name of the ship was painted; D Deck, where everyone had gathered, was flooded towards the bow, and C Deck began to flood.
In some places, water fell in streams into rooms and halls from above even as water rose from below.
Howard walked over to see what happened with Lightoller and those boats. Lightoller and Officer Wilde took the Captain’s orders to mean women and children only, so he motioned for only the women to climb aboard and to be quick about it.
“Hitchens and Fleet will be in charge. Mr. Leenie will help. Please help, Mr. Leenie, if you will.” Lightoller pushed the coal stoker to the boat.
“Row and watch out for the ladies.”
“Now stop arguing and go, Maggie, Dear,” William Stead urged.
“I cannot leave you all behind. We’ve work to do,” Maggie Brown protested. You need my help… to… well… we are a team.”
Stead nodded, “And we will get the job done. You have work here on this boat. Keep everyone safe; you know what I mean. Watch for signs.”
“The yellowy mist,” Howard mouthed to her.
She nodded back at them but was ready to protest again when Stead motioned for a crewman to help him. The crewman picked Maggie Brown up off her feet and put her into the boat.
She took a second to smile at the men who had become her friends, before comforting the other women, making sure they were bundled up and calm; she realized that she did have a job to do aboard the lifeboat.
Hudson Allison was immediately concerned when he found out the ship had hit an iceberg and escorted his family up to the boat deck. His wife, Bessie, fretted because they could not find the nurse or their youngest child, Trevor, who was less than a year old.
“I will find them and take them aboard a lifeboat myself. Do not worry, Bessie. You and Loraine stay here bundled up, and we’ll meet up soon.” Loraine was not quite three.”
Maggie Brown patted Bessie’s arm and tickled the little girl.
Quigg Baxter brought his mother up in his arms as she had a nerve affliction and put her into a seat next to his sister and Mrs. Brown, who tucked blankets around everyone. He blew kisses to them and backed away from the boat. His mother and sister protested, crying and saying they could not go without him.
“Women and children first. The rest of us will be along soon,” Quigg said.
His mother said they would wait and made a move to get out of the boat. Quigg shook his head, “Now follow the rules. I will not be but a few minutes behind you. I have one other passenger to bring to the lifeboat. Let me get her now.” He left, returning in a second with his secret girlfriend, Antonia, who was in a nightgown and fur coat.
“Who is this?” Quigg’s mother asked.
“You can meet properly in the boat. I fear you will have the time.”
He had her sit with his family, quickly introducing them. At least the shock of meeting her kept his mother and sister from trying to leave the ship again. The shock that she was a cabernet singer he had met and that he had sneaked aboard might keep them lively until rescued.
“Take my brandy,” he told his mother.
“I have told you before about that drinking.”
“Etes vous bien, Ma’am? Au revoir, bon espoir vous autres,” he said. He might love the liquor and drink a little too much, but he wasn’t a fool and knew he was doomed and wouldn’t make it off the ship alive. He could get a drink below and thought he might get good and drunk. Mr. Lightoller’s eyes were too fierce and too sad for him to believe anything else except that they were doomed.
Bessie Allison asked again what the man next to her said.
“I said I saw your husband on the other side of the ship getting aboard a lifeboat. They are still loading.”
“Hold up, Sir,” said Bessie as she stood, holding her daughter, “I want to join my husband and son.” Mr. Lightoller helped her out of the boat.
“I need another man to row. Who has experience with boats?” Lightoller asked. He looked at Quigg, but Quigg shook his head.
It was really too late since the boat was gone, already lowered down the side. Murphy cut his eyes to Howard and Stead, but they stepped back, shaking their heads.
“I do,” said Mr. Peuchen. He was part of the Royal Canadian Yacht Club. As the boat was lowered, he proved himself sea-worthy by sliding down a rope into the boat. He was more than fifty years old and had to lower himself hand over hand for twenty-five feet. Many clapped and cheered as he made his way to a set of oars.
“He is loading just women and children? Does he not realize we’re going down and that the men left behind will surely drown?” Howard asked Stead as they walked back to the other side.
“Ahhh, there are two sides about it. Mr. Lightoller is following strict orders and thinks he will save all the women and children, at least of first class, and many of second. No one is concerned about the poor third class but a few of us.”
“Those poor men and women.”
“Mr. Murdoch saw few women lining up; they aren’t scared yet, so he is loading all he can. Did you see he let ten of the firemen board? Good man. And look there, more crewmen than passengers. He is trying to load them full, but there’s no one waiting….”
“It is good the firemen made it up here and were not attacked.”
“Maybe they were and only the ten made it,” Stead pointed out. “If the passengers only knew the terrible creatures we have seen and that there are not enough boats….”
“They would rush the boats, over-fill them, and all would end up in the ice water. I cannot tell you what is best, my boy,” Stead sighed, “but let us find our other friends and see if we can help get more people up here. If the first class refuses to come, then let us bring the second and third to the boats, eh?”
The Strauses walked away from the boat deck, prompting Howard to ask why they had not boarded a lifeboat after having come up.
Ida Straus smiled gently, “I refused to board without my husband; we have lived a long life together, and if we go, it shall be together.”
“Come to this side. Mr. Murdoch will allow you both to board,” Howard said. He knew Murdoch would not deny Mr. Strauss.
Isador Straus shook his head, “I am almost seventy years old. That is very old, and I cannot take the place of a young person. I cannot take a privilege that is not afforded to those of lesser class passage. That would be wrong.” He suddenly winked, “but we sent our maid to safety. Mrs. Bird shall be safe.”
“It’s an honor having made your acquaintance, Sir and Ma’am,” Howard told them, “God speed.”
The older couple strolled about the deck as if they were out for a late-night walk. They held hands. Howard burned that image into his brain: the sight of an old couple, still in love and determined to be together, even in death. There was something very powerful there.
They heard screaming. Both men ran back to Lightoller, wondering how many times they would run abeam the boat. The situation was curious. Because the ship was listing a great deal, the port side had a three-foot space between the lifeboat and the side of the ship. To board, each had to get over the gap.
Men held women and swung them out across the gap to land in the little boat, but the women, to their credit, were brushing themselves off and were finding seats as quickly as possible.
A year-old-baby was tossed to his mother and then his two-month-old sister was tossed. The mother was from third class, but her husband felt the collision and got them dressed and to the lifeboats as quickly as possible. They had not faced the flooding or the monsters. He waved goodbye to his family.
Husbands waved to their wives, saying aloud they would be along soon, but whispered to one another that at least they would be gentlemen and go down with the ship. Each would make jest and say, “After you,” as they stepped back after tucking women into blankets and saying good-bye.
Wives cried for their husbands, claiming the crewmen were crude and did not know what they were doing; they resented the presence of those men over that of their husbands. Single men escorted single women to the boat.
One of the French women missed her footing and fell into the gap between the boat and the ship. Women aboard the boat screamed; the French woman shrieked and grabbed for the gunwale. As she struggled to get her footing and hang on, she felt a slender tentacle slide about her ankle and tug.
“Help me,” she cried, “I’ve something grabbing me.” She let loose with peels of screams as the terrible tentacle’s ooze burned through her stockings and into her flesh. As it slithered from a broken porthole, it tried to pull her away from the boat, but the other women yanked and dragged at her arms. She could no longer hold on.
At that time, an Armenian man, in a panic about the ship listing so badly, ran and jumped into the boat; it almost caused the French woman to lose hold of the gunwale. His actions, however, embolden a Japanese gentleman who followed, leaping into the boat. He knew he had disgraced his family and country by escaping with women, but he was terrified of the icy water.
His leap caused the French woman to kick out to find a foothold, and the tentacle pulled away from her frantic kicking. The women yanked her arms and pulled her into the boat.
No one saw the tentacle and thought it had been an errant rope that had caused a burn on her ankle. Comforting her, they almost tossed the Armenian man and Japanese man over the side into the sea, but did not, as they were distracted by the lowering of the boat.
Howard and William Stead, watching from above, caught sight of the tentacle for a split second and were horrified that it had almost stolen the women. Not only would she have lost her life, but also the occupants of the boat would have panicked and caused it to turn over.
They watched and saw Jeremiah Burke as he took a small bottle from his trousers’ pocket and poured the holy water upon the deck; it could not hurt. In his other hand, he had a little note he had written:
3/14/1912
From Titanic,
Goodbye all:
Burke of Glanmire,
Co, Queensland
He slipped the paper into the bottle, sealed it and, leaning over the railing, tossed it into the water. His home was half a sea away.
He did not survive, but the little bottle made its way back to his homeland over the course of a year and washed ashore in Ireland, not many miles from his own home. A coachman who was walking his dog found the bottle, and it was returned to Jeremiah’s mother who confirmed the bottle was the one she gave him and the handwriting was his.
His mother died shortly after reading his note, and no one ever understood how the message found its way home.
Daniels, John, Jenny and Peter Cavendar, and the Perry brothers ran up to the pair to tell them that the lounges on D deck were full of men smoking cigars and having drinks, couples putting off the climb up to the boat deck, and some who refused to get aboard lifeboats. They had been trying to get everyone to come up and get into a boat.
“But they… some anyway, are beginning to get worried and there is almost an upcoming panic,” Peter said.
Howard shared what they had seen: the mystery ghost ship full of demon-like creatures and the tentacles that had grabbed the French woman and almost pulled her away. They also explained that the injured were loaded onto boats and that Karl, Helen, and Maggie were away, safely
They walked to the other side to watch.
“Are we loading here? Sorry. Berk Pickard, Sirs, Ma’am,” a man walked over and introduced himself.
“Where did you come from?” Daniels asked, as the man was wet and shivering.
“F deck,” he said, his voice shaking as his eyes shifted.
“F? Why it’s flooded and full of… um… things… um….” Pickard sighed, “Oh Sir, I am so glad you understand. Most would think I was mad if I told them the half of what I saw. Yes, it is flooded now. I felt the collision and came up to see.
When I tried to go back and get my belongings, the steward whispered that it was flooding and they were about to lock the gates and to hurry back. I did but… there were things, Sir.”
“Things, yes,” Stead agreed
“I would describe them as something like house cats, but they had terrible claws, no tails, and no fur and were unusually thin. In places, I swear I could see bones with no flesh. And they hissed at me. I ran.”
“That was smart,” John said.
“I am no coward, but those things….”
“You did the right thing,” Howard said.
“I made my way to E and, well, it’s flooded now as well. I am afraid everyone is lost as there were no people in sight on F or E.I heard a most terrible sound: sliding, slippery, and thumping. I admit it almost scared me unto death and as I said, I am no coward. I didn’t look to see what could be making such noise but it sounded large, and in my head I heard the most horrid sounds.”
“We saw and heard them. Be glad you never saw the things,” Jenny said.
“Yes Ma’am. I am. The water nearly trapped me, and I was so afraid of what might be in it, so I climbed a ladder to D and then ran up here. I do not know if I can get a seat.”
“Go try. Make haste.”
Murdock had finished loading the women and could find no more waiting. Several men stepped forward and asked if they might have a seat. Berk Pickard asked as well, “I can row a boat, Sir.”
Murdock motioned them to board. To the officer’s relief, a few more women came forward to join the group on boat nine. Other women declined and walked away, in a daze.
A steward settled Cissy Maioni into a lifeboat as she wept bitterly, begging him to join her. He said he could not go and handed her his White Star badge and kissed her forehead.
He went down with the ship and while she told the story later, saying they met onboard, fell deeply in love, and planned to marry, she never revealed his name. One of the most interesting parts of her story, aside from her love affair, was that she came under the direction of the Countess of Rothes, who took command of the lifeboat and had every woman rowing for her life. The women worked so hard at rowing and did so for so long that Cissy’s long, beautiful hair caught on the sides, broke off, and tore from her scalp so that she was all but unrecognizable.
Mr. Guggenheim brought his mistress and her maid to the boat and saw her seated but declined to join them, “I shall take it as a man, not a beast. My valet and I shall take off our life belts, dress in our finest, have cigars and brandy, and behave like a gentleman. I won’t be a coward. Tell my wife I was a man.”
“Sir, please….” Murdoch offered.
“I will have none of it. I am a gentleman, Sirs. Allow me my honor.”
He gave them all a wave and walked away.
“Why must a gentleman give his life when he can save it? If there were no room, I understand, but there is room for him,” Jenny complained.
“It is part of their code of honor, Jenny,” Peter Cavendar tried to explain, but he knew she did not understand because neither did he.
“That is all? We must load any women who will go. Ladies?” Murdoch yelled, “Please, come get aboard.”
Two more women approached, demanding their male escorts go with them as well.
Murdoch shook his head and said, “We need only women, now. I am sorry, Dr. Pain.” He could not fill the boat with men after Mr. Guggenheim had said what he had. The women got into the boat but cast Murdoch dirty looks.
“Why can’t they go?”
Haines, in charge told them, “They cannot. If I allowed it, they might shoot me, and then someone else would be in charge, and they still would not allow those fellows aboard.
Arguing and cursing, some men demanded to get aboard, and Jennie saw the difference in manners and understood a little more. Running across the ship to the port side, the men tried to board there, but Lightoller waved them away with his pistol, calling them cowards as he lost his temper and felt helplessness envelope him.
Suddenly, everyone wanted aboard a boat.
When a crowd of crewmen tried to rush boat fourteen, one of Lightoller’s men, Lowe, fired into the air, and when a man ran aboard and hid under a seat, he was dragged out, punched, and left upon the deck.
Another man, desperate, hid beneath a woman’s shawl and slipped into the boat.
It was almost 1:30, just shy of two hours since the ship had hit the iceberg.
“Have you noticed that every boat is filled now? The first ones were less than half full, and these are at capacity or over,” Stead said, “and look around at how many are on the boat deck now. It is getting crowded.”
“They should have been up here getting into the boats,” Howard remarked, “but no one seemed concerned.”
“I think if Captain Smith had asked them to come along, they would have. I think he is close to going mad. Maybe he already is.”
“Auntie Annie, Auntie Delora,” Howard called, seeing them, “hurry and get aboard. I thought you had already gone. Hurry now.”
“This is silly. It is cold out here, and the boat is over-full,” Annie complained.
Delora reached for Howard, “You will be with us?”
“I cannot. Its women and children, but you go ahead. Ummm, I shall be along shortly with the others.” He used the same lie the other men had used.
“Poppycock. Just come along now,” Delora said. Her eyes were large with fear, “and we will all be together. I am so sorry I teased you for your morbidity and dread as your worries have come to pass. I am frightened, Howard.”
“Oh Auntie, here at the last hour, I have found I am not a coward and can make a difference, but I’ve also seen… things… horrible things, and if I were to write about them and tell the world, I would make a change in men’s thoughts. It is a shame all is found at the final hour.”
“You are being dreary, Howard. I cannot believe you still talk of writing silly things and refuse to get on the boat,” Delora said, and she turned her face away, refusing to look at him again since he would not come with them.
Annie nodded and kissed her fingers to her lips and held out her arm, waved the kisses to his cheek in her mind.
Joseph Laroche settled his wife and two lovely daughters into a boat, tucking blankets about them.
“Go with us, Joseph,” Juliette begged. She was pregnant, scared, and worried about the girls. They had not been able to book an earlier ship to Haiti where Joseph was from because the ship line did not accept children as passengers.
“You know I cannot,” he said as he smiled. They were second-class passengers. “We are fortunate second class can get a seat, Juliette. Think of the girls.”
“But there is room.”
“Room for more women and children,” he reminded her. If nothing else, he was a well-educated man with a degree in engineering from France, “So just go, and be safe. I shall catch a later boat and meet you aboard our rescue ship.”
Juliette looked around, “They will let you….”
Sadly, Joseph got to the point, “No men. And love, certainly a black man will not be given a seat as rich white men are staying. You know this. Now go and take care, and I shall see you….” He stepped away and forced himself to turn his back and walk away until he was lost in the crowd and could no longer hear her calling his name.
In one seat sat a woman named Alice who had been brought to the boat by the family chauffeur, Mr. Swane. When the trouble began, Alice went below decks to get the family maid, cook, and chauffer, carrying the youngest of the family’s children, Trevor, who was but eleven months old. Mr. Swane made sure the cook and maid got aboard a life boat and then helped Alice and Master Trevor Allison aboard Boat 11, tucking them in warmly.
She did not know the child’s parents were desperately searching for Trevor and would never leave the ship.
Daniels saw a young girl with a blanketed bundle. “Oh, the child must go.” He took the bundle and tossed it to one of the women in the lifeboat.” Get aboard, too.”
Edith Rosenbaum stomped her foot with fury, “I don’t want to get into that terrible boat. You’ve taken my pig!” She climbed into the boat to retrieve her toy pig, but Murdoch had the boat lowered before the woman could get out with her stuffed toy.
Daniels chuckled and shrugged at his friends.
Stead patted his back, “Good show.”
“It seems we are almost out of time.” John Astor approached the small group.
“Oh Sir, we will find room for you,” Daniels began.
“I fear it is too late. Mr. Lightoller has a gun, and he and his men will shoot any man trying to board,” he chuckled. “When this occurred, I made light of it and said being on the ship was safer than getting into a life boat, silly things that they are.”
“No one could believe it, Sir,” Howard said.
“Oh, but you warned me. My folly, it seems,” Astor said.
“Maddy and I sat on the mechanical horses in the gym, and I opened a life belt with my little knife to show her the inside and how it was made. She was quite interested,” Astor said.
“Where is Mrs. Astor?” Jenny asked.
“I saw her to boat four but was declined in my request to join her. She is in a delicate condition, you see. Ah, but I told her I would see her when we were rescued, and thus, I lied most admirably to her.”
“Come with us to Murdoch’s side. He will let us all on,” Howard said. He had said that so many times now, and no one had accepted the invitation.
“I think not, the public opinion and all. I will be a gentleman and maybe catch a later boat, but you young people must go on and board.” He paused. “I saw a man hand over two children but not board.
And when the boat was on the water, do you know that eight men, in a panic, jumped into the water. Seven swam over and were taken in, Poor, cold devils. But the eighth one, you won’t believe me….” Stead cocked an eyebrow,
“I bet we will, Sir, as we’ve seen many impossibilities this night.”
Astor listened for a moment to the band that had moved to the upper deck to play gay ragtime tunes.
“Lovely. Oh, I saw these rope-like things appear only they were greenish and at the end of each appendage, there were seven or eight… they had a toothy mouth like that of some dog, all canines and biting force. It was terrible, and the poor bastard was pulled under as the boat was rowed away. From my vantage, I could see the pool of blood that rose in bubbles.”
“Oh,” John Morton said.
“Yes. Impossible and monstrous, and I hope not to meet the owners of such appendages, but it was very curious. I think now to forget such a thing; I shall go have the finest whiskey I can find.”
“But, Sir….” Howard began.
“Sir, I fear some of my writing long ago do indeed have a place in reality. I hope within your writing that you shall warn and educate, but do not let them cross over.”He tipped his hat and walked away calmly.
“I fear I should never meet another gentleman like John Astor,” John Morton declared.
“I agree,” Stead remarked.
The group hurried over to Murdoch who was shouting at a group of determined stewards and gritty third-class men who had decided to rush the boat and try to take it.
Seawater rushed over A deck.
Fifteen hundred people were still aboard. Two men, Howard, and his friends who did not know ran to help. With all of them working together, they held the men back so women could board the boat. The pair of unknown men pulled stewards and other men out who tried to crawl under the seats and punched them in their faces. “Let the ladies get aboard.”
One of the officers began firing his gun; he hit his targets a few times, and those wounded scuttled away. Most of the cowards ran away from the loading area. Murdoch thanked those who had helped him and asked them to stay in case it happened again.
Bruce Ismay, the owner of White Star Shipping, appeared again, still in his bedclothes, but he brought blanket-wrapped children in his arms, and more women and children followed him like a pied piper. He climbed aboard, holding the children, and sat down with the women. He looked to be in shock.
Howard and John wondered what the poor man had seen as he rescued the women and children.
“Any more women? Anyone?” Murdoch called out. No one responded, and he motioned the group to climb aboard, “You can row. I need rowers for this boat, and I have no Able Seaman to put into the boat.”
Howard, John, Jenny, and Peter, along with the other two men who could help, settled into the boat named C.Howard got in because he had to write about all he had seen; he had to tell the world.
John Morton went aboard because he had waded in the icy water, and he knew he would suffer being called a coward and live without respect, but he would not go into the horrible below-freezing water again.
Peter Cavendar went with his daughter, knowing that she would never go without him.
“Wait. What is this? Get in the boat,” John demanded of his other friends.
The Perry brothers, Edward and James declined with proud looks. “We have got to see if we can get any more women up here and make sure that when the ship goes down, we have something to float upon. We have a lot of work, yet.”
“It is not your job,” Howard said.
James shrugged, “We can do it well, though. We will get deck chairs and more life belts, and maybe we can help save more people. We are good at these things.”
“Stead, come on,” Peter Cavendar called out, “you have no call to stay. Come with us and be done.”
“I can’t. I have to see the rest from here; I am curious, and I may be of help. You go write stories, Howard. It is your turn to labor at writing, and I think you have quite a bit to tell, now. Go write, publish, and be great at it.”
“Don’t be silly, Stead.” Peter Cavendar clenched his jaw.
“We shall get tables and use them as little rafts, and you shall see us floating, and in a bit, the rescue ships will arrive. I shall see you then.” He waved and walked away before they could argue with him further. He paused and turned back with a wicked grin.
Jenny wept against her father’s shoulder.
Stead held his arms wide and said, “My destiny.”
Daniels shook his head. “I have a ship. I am a steward, and my job, I shall do. An hour ago, I was weak and simple, but my adventures with you have made me sure of myself and ready to do my job expertly. Thank you, Sirs, but I never expected to leave the ship.”
The boat was lowered.
Chapter Seven: Facts
The men, who stayed with the boilers to keep the lights on, drown in the bottom decks.
Five grand pianos, a marmalade machine, 3,500 bags of mail, a Renault automobile, thirty crates of Spaulding equipment, a copy of the Rubaiyat by Omar Khayym embedded with 1,500 precious stones set in gold, and four cases of opium, all were lost in the lower decks.
Those in third class and second class, who were unable to get to the boat deck because of creatures or locked gates, drown in their rooms, some curled up on the beds, holding one another. Some of crew did as well.
Thomas Andrews, the architect of the Titanic sat in the smoking room and stared into space as he met his end. He was sorely disappointed in the outcome of the voyage.
Captain Smith relieved the men in the Marconi room and told them, “It is every man for himself.” His eyes were far away. He stayed on the bridge.
John Astor and a few of his friends dressed in elegant eveningwear, some alone and some with their wives, enjoyed spirits, and many of the men smoked cigars. They sat in chairs on the deck and listened to the band play.
None of the orchestra survived.
Eight thousand cigars were lost.
As A deck flooded at the bow, everyone ran to the stern on A or to the stern on the boat decks.
There were 1,500 souls left on the ship, and hundreds were on the upper decks running, pushing, falling. Some were crushed under hundreds of feet. The bow dipped into the water. The band stopped playing.
Boats A and B slipped off the hooks and fell into the water as the forward funnel broke off, crushing all who were forward of it. Massive, it fell and sent A and B boats adrift, and it washed the lifeboats that had just been lowered, away from the ship. A few people who had fallen into the water or had not run to the stern, were mashed. Blood and flattened people were tossed about on the oil-slicked water.
The unusually calm and mild weather had caused the glaciers to break apart, and that was why there were ice fields. On the other hand, the calm water was better for those in the lifeboats as they were not tossed by rough waves.
Less than one-third of all who were aboard were survivors.
One of the most tragic events was that Bessie and Loraine Allison were on Boat Six and left when Bessie heard her husband, Hudson, was on another boat. As she searched, she found him. Together they searched all over for their son, Trevor, fearing he was lost in the crowd.
When the last boat was lowered, and just before the waters rushed over the deck, Hudson and Bessie came upon their chauffeur, George Swane who told them he had taken care of the maid and cook and then sent the nurse, Alice, in boat eleven. Trevor was safely in her arms.
“Oh my, we are not aboard a boat, and it is too late,” Bessie said softly.
“Oh, Bessie,” Hudson soaked her cheek with his tears. His wife and young daughter would die, along with him.
“Thank you, George. My handsome son is safe,” Bessie said, “and, Hud, we are together. God grant us peace as we make this journey together.” In her husband’s arms, Bessie stood, holding Loraine. George Swane stood on Bessie’s other side protectively. She nuzzled her baby daughter and looked out onto the sea with a smile.
Loraine was the only child from First Class to perish; Bessie was one of only four women from First Class to lose her life.
Several chickens and a rooster were lost, as well as a pet canary. As many as ten dogs drown, and when the boats gathered the remains of those who died, they found a drowned woman still holding on to her dog; she had stayed with her pet until the end.
The Titanic’s mascot, a cat named Jenny, was lost, along with her week-old litter of kittens.
The US and British inquiries agreed that too few lifeboats were onboard, but put the blame, mostly on Captain Smith, citing the excessive speed of the ship, a failure to heed ice warnings, and insufficient training for the use of life boats.
Within twenty minutes, almost all of the survivors who floated on the ocean water were dead. However, oddly, three men were rescued almost an hour after going into the water, making for a true mystery of how this was possible. By crawling up on some wreckage, they survived.
One was a Japanese man who had tied himself to a door. Waves washed over him, and he was almost frozen solid. The officer in charge, Lowe, remarked that it was only a ‘Jap’ and was not worth the effort, but he changed his mind, and they pulled the man into the boat.
As soon as the man was out of the water, he rallied himself, and seeing that one of the oarsmen was weak and injured, he pushed him aside and took the oar himself, rowing expertly.
Lowe promptly apologized and said the man was worth ten of the crewmen from Titanic.
Almost every survivor cited some heroic action of another.
Men and women stepped up and showed the best of humanity.
Chapter Eight: Titanic is Lost
Those crushed beneath the heavy funnel made the water run red with their blood; it was as gruesome sight as one could imagine.
As men fell in the water, they spied the two boats that finally slipped free and swam to them. Some made it, and others did not. Those injured or exhausted held on to the sides of the boats, but within ten or fifteen minutes, they slipped away as they froze or had heart attacks.
There was a huge roar of machinery shifting to the bow, and maybe the monsters bellowed their anger. The lights went out. The ship, with a mighty groan, split into two parts, and the bow, with all the machinery stuffed into it, plunged to the bottom of the sea.
Everyone on the end sank into the sea. The stern floated there on the water, just half a ship, but it filled up quickly. Those on it, and there were hundreds, realized in those precious seconds, the stern would fill since it was twisted away and also it would slip into the water. Some jumped off, preferring the cold water to falling from a great height.
The open end tilted toward the sea little by little until it, too, was almost straight up in the water. Men, women, and deck furnishings slid across the decks and into the water. Some held on to the railing that was several hundred feet in the air. All fell screaming. A few held on until the stern dropped into the icy sea.
There once had been a massive ship over eight hundred feet, floating majestically on the water, all lit up and furnished with the most expensive décor and carried an expensive cargo. Now several hundred bodies floated on the surface of the water in the darkness, and the Titanic was settling into a watery grave over twelve thousand feet deep.
For many, it was like watching a beautiful dream end. But a nightmare was beginning.
Chapter Nine: Boat Seven
At first, there were hundreds of voices calling for help. Those going into the water felt a sudden shock; then, they began to shudder and lose control as their extremities froze. However, if they had no life belt, they could no longer tread water and would drown, but there were no more than a handful without life belts.
Besides drowning, there were other ways the passengers died. Most froze to death after ten or fifteen minutes in the cold water; they suffered acute stabbing pain until they died.
A few died of heart attacks from the shock or fear. Many had broken legs, arms, ribs, and even broken necks, but it depended on where they were when they fell into the water. If they were holding onto the stern’s railing, they fell two hundred feet, and their bones snapped like twigs.
Some of the passengers had been killed by the first funnel that fell, yet the other three funnels crushed many, either killing them or injuring them severely. A few dead bodies floated among the living, bobbing in the ice water.
Crewman Hogg told the passengers they would look for survivors in the water. He and the other men pulled hard on the oars, ignoring those who protested going back towards the wreckage. Bits of furniture, deck chairs, linens, and every sort of rubbish imaginable floated about the lifeboat.
“They will swamp us,” Maggie Darby said. Her husband was the injured Lewis Darby who had been attacked by the fish below decks. “And we have to row to the rescue ship for Lewis.” She cried incessantly as she watched the water; their small lamp only lit a little of the area, but it was horrific to view.
Hogg was confused, “Do you see a rescue ship?”
A woman, floating in the water, raised her head, her frozen hair almost a solid piece; she reached blue fingers towards the boat. Her moaning was deep and constant as she suffered. Her eyes were frozen in an open stare. Her lips and tongue were already unmovable from the cold. Her pale pink gown of silk was brittle.
“I agree. We cannot go back,” Caroline Prescott protested. “What is wrong with them?”
“The water is just below freezing, Ma’am. What is wrong with them is that they are dying. Salt water can get below freezing and still be water instead of ice.”
To their port side, a man floated on his back with his arms twisted backwards, broken along the joints and down the bones, so his arms moved like being boneless, like a loose tentacle. A terrible gash was opened on his forehead, but the blood did not run; it was frozen. The more disheartening issue was that he was groaning and whining as he died. Fifteen minutes in the water was a lifetime of hell for him.
Clinging to a deck chair was a woman, her fingers like blue claws. She was as stiff and inflexible as the ice itself. Her face was a mask of pain and fear. Several were on deck chairs or tables, freezing into statues.
Hogg and Jewell continued to row back amid the bodies.
“Help me,” a man called out.
“We have about got you.” Hogg and the other men pulled him aboard, stripped away his sodden clothing, and dressed him in rugs, or blankets and whatever they could find. He could not stand or unbend his near-frozen body. He shivered and shook uncontrollably while his eyes rolled with the pain. Hogg wondered if he would survive; he most surely would lose appendages and flesh to frostbite.
Hogg reached for another man, and he and the other men lifted him, but dropped him with shocked yelps, wiping their hands against their chests in revulsion; he was bobbing along with his lower half mangled and the other part gone. Three more were that way as well. It made them anxious to reach for anyone who was not moving and making sounds.
“What happened to them?” one of the women asked. She was so afraid that she would have climbed onto the floor of the boat had there not been a slight bit of water there.
“Big fish,” Lewis muttered, “little fish. They are all here. If you wait a bit, they shall come and gobble us up.” He had not spoken before, but only wept with pain as a sort of poison filled his leg where he was bitten. The injury hurt as if someone were stabbing at his raw flesh, and it burned and throbbed. He thought the poison was inching up his leg. Lewis ran a high fever.
His wife tried to sooth him. She did not know what was wrong with his leg except it was bleeding frightfully and it happened below decks. If he had not been injured, however, he would have been left behind to drown. “It’s the ague. Rest now.”
“Did you not see my leg? The fish tried to eat me,” Lewis moaned. His brow was feverishly pink.
Weller, an Able Seaman, shook his head, “’Tis no big nor small fish that done this. It is just from the crash to the sea.”
“’Ello?”
“There. Row,” Weller said, “we’ve a live one.”
They pulled a man and a woman from the cold water. They were like two frosty, clothed statues, marble of white and blue. They were both stewards.
When they pulled another from the sea, he was snatched from their hands amid a spray of bright red blood.
Hogg screamed, falling back into the boat and still holding a bluish-colored hand and shoulder, but the rest of the man was gone. Erick Digby leaped to his feet in fear, and the waves from something large rocked the boat so that he fell overboard into the sea.
“Swim, Man,” Hogg called. He tossed the hand and arm into the water.
The megaladon had turned and surfaced now so they could see his back, fins, tail, and the enormous mouth full of teeth. As he swam towards them, he scooped bodies from the water and swallowed them whole, like a whale eating krill.
Everyone screamed.
With the shark having a mouth that large, the boat could fit length-wise. He could swallow the boat in one knock back, but he seemed disinclined to eat the wood of the lifeboat and instead, it ingested the people who were freezing in the water.
Erik Digby howled with the pain from the water, held out one hand helplessly, and waited to be saved, but the survivors in the boat were so frightened, they did not row toward him but sat, holding the oars as weapons.
Their heads swung back and forth, watching the water. The mighty shark snapped up Erik Digby by his middle so the man was able to scream a good long while as the shark carried him along, impaled on a giant tooth.
One of the women fainted.
“DIgby, Digby….” Hogg called softly.
“Do something,” Caroline Prescott demanded.
“Why, I don’na rightly know what to do,” Weller said, his eyes large with fear. His accent grew more pronounced with emotion. “Help me get this man out of the water, yes?”
They pulled another from the water who was not only alive, but also squealing with terror as he watched the giant fish. He kicked madly to help himself into the boat.
The shark came around again, brushing against the bow and scratching the paint from starboard side; the passengers shifted.
“Be still,” Hogg warned, but they did not listen to his advice. The Prescott family bunched up at the back, pushing against Maggie Darby and her injured husband. A woman adjusted the girl, Bernice, who had lost her arm in some accident. “Sit down and come afore.”
“Do something,” someone screamed again.
“Stop bunching up. Come afore. Hurry,” Hogg said.
With his big snout, the shark brushed the bow again, teasing his prey.
Those aft fell out of the boat. Those who remained in the boat were splashed as many fell in. They were shocked at how the water felt like fire upon their skin. The droplets were as painful as hot needle pricks. They fell onto one another, trying to avoid the splashes.
Hogg groaned, and Jewell yelled. Bernice never awoke, and Lewis did not look as if he cared; actually, the water cooled his fever and soothed his poisoned leg. He did not care that he was in the water. Lewis and Bernice, both injured badly and not wearing life belts, began to sink and were bitten before they could sink very deep. Red bubbles burst on the surface of the water.
“Come on, ye mean bastard. I will poke your eyes out,” Weller yelled.
In response, the leviathan made a pass, grabbing bodies that floated motionlessly, as well as Maggie Darby and the Prescott men. Caroline Prescott wailed and tried to strike the creature as it passed her, but only managed to skin her hands raw on his rough skin.
“We are comin’ to get ye,” Weller promised, “We’ll not leave you.”
Caroline Prescott screamed harder as the pain of losing her family and the pain of her body filled her mind. She held bloody hands aloft, the skin so abraded that she could hardly stand the additional agony.
The megaladon swallowed Caroline Prescott and kept coming, bumping his huge mouth against the lifeboat. Three women fell out and into his maw. With a quick dive and a wave of his tail, he swam away, gathering more of the dead.
The men turned the boat. Weller shook his head and muttered to himself.
Margaret Hays clutched her dog, Lady, closer to herself, and Dorothy Gibson set her face into her hands and cried as they heard the calls for help.
While they found five more survivors floating, two died quickly in the chilly air. The men rowed for all they were worth, leaving the bodies behind, and hoping morosely that the shark would stay away, eat the dead and dying, and leave them alone.
If the shark had been serious about the attack, he might have crushed the little boat into matchsticks and consumed them. While they had suffered losses, they had also been fortunate. Maybe the beast had simply been playing a devilish game with them.
As they rowed hard and left the dead behind, they calmed. One of the women cried bitterly over her husband whom she had left behind. “But maybe he found a later boat, yes?”
Hogg nodded, “To be sure, Ma’am. Indeed, I am sure many will join us when we are rescued.”
“I hope ‘tis soon. I swear, but I am about to freeze my n… nose off,” Weller chuckled. For having just rowed through a field of the dead and dying, his passengers were strangely composed.
“A bloody bandage. Is someone injured?” Jewel asked. Faintly, he thought of a red-haired young woman, her face drawn with pain, and her shoulder wrapped in red cloth, but that was a passing wisp of an idea. He did not know why he had even imagined such. It was the anxiety, doubtless.
They hardly recalled the other events that had befallen them so terribly as they focused on the shipwreck. As for the dead, they remembered them as having frozen, and some families in the boat had stood and fallen over the side, they believed, and drown, but the memory was hazy. As they rowed farther from the debris, they remembered less.
“Look!” Hogg almost fell over the side, gathering an unexpected survivor into their boat. It was Rigel, the First Officer’s dog. How Mr. Wilde’s Newfoundland had gotten out and into the sea, they could not begin to guess, but they dried him and petted him. Some were immediately enamored with Rigel as he had shown his mettle merely by surviving.
Like the mist they were escaping, the memories floated away until no one remembered seeing a big fish at all. They would have laughed at the idea, had they not been so distraught over the sinking of the ship and the many losses they had suffered.
Chapter Ten: Boat Five
Quartermaster Robert Hichens was steering the Titanic when she hit the iceberg, and while he had been ordered by Officer Lightoller to the lifeboat to take command, he was in deep despair. One minute he had been at the wheel with Mr. Moody, and then the next there had been chaos. He could not forget the sight of the ship sinking and passengers and crew tossed into the drink.
“Officer Lightoller said to row to the lights of the rescue ship and then back to help survivors,” Hichens said.
“Do you see a rescue ship, Man? I was on lookout and saw nothing around,” Fred Fleet said as he scowled. He was distraught.
“We will ‘ave one yet. We could be pulled down by the suction of the ship.”
“Suction? Why, she is gone, Mr. Hichens.”
“I still ‘ave my fears of it.”
“You need forbearance, Sir.”
Arthur Peuchen listened to the crewmen argue for a little while and finally broke in, “Why don’t we allow one of the women to steer, and I can man the oars.”
He was the only male passenger allowed on the boat and had shimmied down the rope to get into the lowered boat. He had been sent aboard to help row, but the doings here were troublesome.
“Enough. Be quiet. I am in charge of this boat,” Hichens yelled.
“I only thought….”
“Sir, it is not your place to think. I am in charge,” Hichens yelled louder.
They were not away from the wreckage.
“I can hear them calling for help,” Ellen Barber said. She reached for Mrs. Cavendish, her mistress. Mr. Cavendish was left on the ship.
“Be quiet, will you?” Hichens snapped.
“Excuse me?” Julia Cavendish grew angry, “She is my maid, and you will not speak to her that way. We can all hear the cries for help. That might be my husband back there.”
“Or Edgar,” Mrs. Meyer said. She had been forcibly put aboard the boat when she had wanted to stay with her husband. She was angry with the crewmen for making her go.
“I am doing what I can. Blame Mr. Leeni for not being able to row.”
“Mr. Hichens! He has broken his arm, so please have some courtesy,” Maggie Brown spoke up, “He fought frightful creatures to make it to the boat deck and was sent to help us by Mr. Lightoller himself. With the chaos, he simply did not know his arm was shattered.”
Mr. Leeni sat, rocking his poor arm. Even at gunpoint, he would never tell of the fearsome, eyeless abomination with a short, rearing appendage as his nose, and dark grey platelets of skin like armor. Along the torso beneath the muscular, fingerless arms, hundreds of tiny, thin legs wiggled as if he were part centipede. When he roared, the little legs danced with infernal glee.
Standing as high as a man, it had no legs of its own to walk on, but rather a mass of the tiny legs forming a base on which it slid on. Thick, clear ooze seeped from beneath its lower parts.
The creature’s mouth was full of razor teeth, and the monster attacked a woman, ripping away her throat and sucking down the bloody spray. So grievous was the damage in the one bite that her white gown turned crimson all the way to its hemline.
It turned to Mr. Leeni and chattered, unnerving him so that he broke and ran for all he was worth. One of the monster’s massive upper arms caught him as he ran, and he heard his own bone snap as pain welled up in his chest. The man wheezed out a cry, but still ran, climbing ladders with one hand and never daring to look behind him.
“Just sit there, then,” Hichens ordered.
Mrs. Meyers told him, “I heard the order, just as you did, before the ship sank. They called us to help those in the water. Mr. Peuchen, please remind him.”
Peuchen shrugged and looked away. He had no authority.
“Give me the oar,” Maggie Brown demanded, “these women have husbands back there. If we can save one, then we shall.”
“There is naught but stiffs back there,” Hichens snarled. Several of the women dropped their faces into their hands to weep.
Mrs. Brown was livid, “Oh, do shut up! Ladies, we shall row this boat ourselves and do it correctly. Now take up the oars, and let us look for survivors. Do not listen to his ramblings.”
“Over there,” cried one of the women as they rowed into the field of floating bodies.
They pulled the man aboard. He was one of the stokers and almost blue with the chill, “I will help row as soon as I can move my fingers without their breaking off.” He had gone down with the ship but felt no cowardice in being rescued by a lifeboat.
Maggie Brown said as she nodded, “That’ll keep you feeling warmer.” She gently helped him remove his sodden clothing, removed her own furs, and covered him fully. “You may look silly, but I will wager you feel better.”
“God bless you, Mum,” he said, thinking Mrs. Brown was an angel.
“What are you all about? Stop taking people in; the suction and wreckage….” Hichens stood over Mrs. Brown.
She thought he had been drinking; he reeked of alcohol and was out of his wits with apprehension. He was upset, but right now, she would bode no silliness when lives were at stake. “You sit down, and shut up, or I will throw you overboard myself,” she yelled at him.
As Hichen muttered curses, the stoker laughed, “You don’t know who you’re speaking to, Sir. She’s a fine loidy.”
“She is not the commander. I am,” said Hichens who sat down and watched the women and the other men rowing heartily.
“There, he is alive,” one of the women called. They dragged that man aboard and then seven or eight more. The ones they rescued were deathly cold, tired, but alive for now and out of the terrible water.
When one man died from the cold, Hichens said they should toss the body out, “The ship will be comin’ but not for rescue. It will be to get the dead ones.”
Maggie felt every eye turn to her; she was now the commander of the lifeboat.
“Yes, let Molly Brown decide,” Hichens smirked.
“Margaret, Maggie to my friends. And, yes, we shall let him go back to the sea now that he is out of his pain. The ships will gather our dead, and the crew will bury them properly, for we need the room for more survivors.” With respect, the rest gathered the body and gently let it go over the side.
“Mrs. Brown, oh, please, tell me this isn’t real? What can it be? Oil perhaps?”
Maggie looked over to where Mrs. Meyers pointed and blinked her eyes. It seemed a blob of darkness, darker than the water, so ebony in color that it made her head and eyes ache to stare at it and distinguish its color. It floated near the lifeboat, keeping pace, thin but bumpy in texture.
Peuchen watched it, “I don’t think we can perceive its true black color, see.”
“It makes my head throb,” Mrs. Meyers said.
“We try, but our brains can’t comprehend its nature, and that is why our heads and eyes ache so fiercely,” Peuchen explained.
“You think?”
“Absolutely, Mrs. Brown. It is old, isn’t it? Far older than anything we can imagine, and it is here with us. I don’t think it cares much for us.”
“You are all daft,” Hichens said.
Mrs. Meyers gasped, “Oh my, what is it doing?”
Mouths and eyes appeared randomly on the sludge, grimacing, baring teeth, blowing air, glaring, winking and still the thing kept to their port side.
“Communication? A warning?” Peuchen shrugged, “We cannot know for it is too old and foreign to our minds. I wonder how it came here and why?”
“We saw a malevolent being down below when we went to look at the damage and see about Steerage. You wouldn’t believe the things we witnessed,” Maggie said.
“Mrs. Brown, I would. When I went to grab a favorite tie tack in my room, my deck was beginning to flood. In the water, I saw horrid monsters. All of this,” he said as he spread his arms, “is not natural and not an easy situation.”
“What does he mean?” Fred Fleet asked.
“He’s daft,” Hichens said.
“Then what is that thing?” Fleet asked, “we can see it. It’s something of a nightmare, Sir.”
“And what is that?” Peuchen pointed, “Look there.” Just a few yards away, a fin broke the surface.
“That’s a shark. Oh, my God, it is a massive beast. If it comes at us, we will all perish.” Hichens was hysterical. “We must row away, please.”
Maggie stared at the fin. She knew what it was. If it came at them, it would swallow the boat and all of them whole. “He is one that has been watching the ship, at least since earlier tonight. Several saw him, and he broke a porthole when we were below.”
“Fish don’t do that,” Hichens said, but he only said it to be stiff-necked. He was very troubled by the shark.
“I saw him earlier with his ilk. Mr. Hichens, We would appreciate your help. This is no bugaboo, but a dire threat, and we need you to help us,” Maggie said.
“Leave me alone.”
The megaladon had no great interest in this boat, so it swam around, cleaning up the bodies from the water. The ones who were alive could not possibly fight and were gulped down the massive gullet.
When the shark curiously nosed the slime on the water, it suddenly jerked away, black eyes rolling angrily. A spot on its snout steamed and burned; it would leave a scar in his rough skin.
“I think it saved us but that doesn’t mean it cares much for us particularly,” Maggie Brown said, “so let’s row out of here. Ladies, top speed, please. We have got survivors to deliver to a rescue ship. We are no match for a shark.”
“We could be out here for days, drifting, with no water or food and those things stalking us,” Hichens said morbidly.
“Not my boat,” Maggie said.
“Unsinkable Molly Brown,” Hichens said.
She laughed, “Maggie, Maggie Brown.”
“Commander of life boat number six, I have been bested,” Hichens told her.
“Let’s row as far as we can,” Mrs. Meyers said, “I want far away from here. And from all of that.”
“Yes? It is disheartening.”
“So many lost….” Mary Douglas wept.
“But we found so many alive. We have done well, ladies,” Maggie said. “Someone begin a song. We must keep our spirits up, and these men we have saved need positivity.”
One of the younger women began to sing, and others joined in.
None of them referred to the slimy mire that followed them, nor did they speak of the megaladon.
Sadly, later, they talked about those they lost, the sight of the sinking ship, and the dreadful ice field; their spirits were low. Maggie had them sing again and worked to give them hope.
Hichens sang a bawdy sailor song that lifted their moods. Maggie Brown gave him a warm smile for coming around.
She recalled trying to help rescue third class passengers, but there had not been room for them, and the water came up with a huge roar and swallowed them. No. That was not quite right, but it was all like a faint nightmare she could not hold on to. It slipped to her peripheral memory, and she could not see it clearly.
She hoped Jenny and Helen were safe, as well as Mr. Stead, Mr. Cavendar, and the steward, Daniels. Maybe Howard was rescued. He was a sweet young man, only prone to such a vivid imagination.
Not one of them recalled anything more nightmarish than a sea filled with bodies frozen atop pieces of wreckage, floating aimlessly or blue-white people hardly able to moan.
A man’s arms were stuck to a table that he floated on, and when they tried to get him to the boat, the skin from his arms tore away. His fingers broke off like twigs until his hands were like mittens. They let him slip back into the water when they saw his eyes were frozen open, and they hoped the faint groans were from someone else and that he was not still living.
But that was what they remembered: bodies and more bodies in a field of endless bodies that floated alongside trash, broken furnishings, and papers. Those memories were horrible enough.
They had a long, cold night and were the last of the lifeboats to be found and rescued as they had, in fear that they could no longer recall, rowed far away from the area.
Chapter Eleven: Boat Four
Walter Perkis, Quartermaster, looked at the forty people aboard his lifeboat with trepidation. Had two greasers, Scott and Ranger, not climbed down the ropes, called falls, they would have no one to row the boat properly. Mr. Scott had actually fallen the last few feet into the water but gotten out quickly. He described in whispers how terrible the water was to Mr. Perkis.
Maddy Astor watched the water.
As they rowed about the wreckage, they hoped to find survivors. She imagined seeing a well-dressed man, handsome and dashing, who would be clinging to a floating deck chair. With a devilish grin, he would raise his head and laugh, happy to see her. So far, they had pulled the fallen greaser from the water, but not her husband, John Astor.
“Are you comfortable, Mrs. Astor,” Perkis asked. He was very polite and concerned about her welfare. After all, she was an Astor, and if her continued rubbing of her slight bulge of belly was any indication, she was with child: an Astor heir.
“I am fine, thank you.”
He was worried about her pallor.
“Ohhh,” William Richards, only three years old and from the second class, spoke baby talk and wiggled a pudgy finger.
He was pointing at several men in the water whom Perkis called out to. The one farthest away was about two hundred yards starboard and afore of the boat. Perkis ordered anyone who could row to help. Most of the women sat there helplessly, mourning their husbands and shivering.
Perkis wished for more men to help with the rowing. Why had they not loaded more help for him, he wondered.
The Titanic broke into sections. One fell into the dark abyss of the water, and then the second part sank. Men and women, young, old, rich, poor, good, and bad died together. Nothing saved them as they plunged into the sea. Maddy Astor had watched, teary eyed as it happened.
She saw steel bend and snap.
Nothing was indestructible or so strong it could endure anything, at least nothing man-made. What were truly powerful were spirit, honor, sensibility, and constancy.
With a deep breath, Maddy decided she would not fear things any longer; she was strong, and she could endure. She would remain steadfast and give a good account of herself because that was what mattered and it was what she would teach the child she carried.
“Oh, of all the silliness, Ladies.” Maddy Astor shifted and took up an oar, “We have a job to do. Who among us is too prideful to do honest and much-needed work? Did Moses say to God that he was too busy or tired or had too many trials and could not share His word? No. He was responsible. Be not prideful but work alongside me.” It was the most she had ever said at one time, aloud.
Her voice was strong.
To everyone’s shock, she dug in and rowed with renewed energy. Seeing the wealthiest woman from the ship take up an oar encouraged a few of the other women, and they helped, actually showing lighter moods as they worked together. More took on the spirit and took up the oars.
In a second, they pulled in several firemen who had fallen into the water from the boat deck when the ship went down.
Next, there were a greaser and the personal steward named Cunningham, who had gotten all of his charges into life belts and into lifeboats. He stayed on the deck to perish, but several of the men had refused to give up, jumping into the water and swimming to the lifeboats they saw.
“Bloody good deal,” Perkis said, “you have done good, Man.”
The rescued men stared at Maddy Astor who worked as hard as any man and chastised those who would not bend to the work.
Some of the women donated dry, warm clothing to wrap the survivors in. Maddy praised their charity.
“We have room, so let us row among these poor souls to try to find more alive. We would want someone to do this if our husbands might be found,” Maddy Astor ordered. “If we save a man, remember, he may be someone’s beloved husband and a revered father. We would want someone to do the same for our men, and perhaps they shall.”
She was unaware that of the 1,500 left behind, an additional five hundred would be saved in the lifeboats, floating around the bodies. Only fifty survivors would be taken from the icy clutches of the sea as other lifeboats rowed away from the wreckage.
As a woman, a stewardess, was pulled into the boat, Maddy stood, stripped the poor woman, and gave her the fur she had worn. “Is that better now? You are dry, and this will warm you. Some of you, sit close and hold her so she warms herself, please.”
The stewardess knew Maddy Astor and could not believe the woman had wrapped her in a real sable coat. In appreciation and awe, the stewardess could only weep. She thought Mrs. Astor was a saint.
Cunningham, the steward, tipped an imaginary hat, “Mrs. Astor, you amaze me with your generosity and energy.”
“It is what is right. No more and no less. We shall abide.”
They pulled Sam Hemming from the water after he swam hundreds of yards to reach the boat. His feat was miraculous. Even while his teeth chattered uncontrollably, he pointed, and everyone looked.
“A ship. We are saved,” Perkis announced. There, just before them, was an older vessel, a seasoned ship that had seen better days as its wood was sodden and molded, the masts were canted, and the portholes were dirty. It floated in a yellowish mist that wafted right above the water’s surface, and icebergs floated out from it, as if it were releasing them.
“Is she manned or derelict?” Ranger asked.
“I dunno. She looks sea worthy though, and we could ride this out there and wait for help,” Perkis said. He did not add that the ship gave him a chill, and he felt a terrible dread when he looked at it. His job was to ensure passenger safety. It was perhaps safer than the lifeboat.
“Let’s row closer.”
Her masts were broken, and tatters of her dirty sails flapped in the slight breeze. A rope trailed behind the vessel, and it there that the seamen tied the lifeboat and further appraised the sailing vessel.
“I will climb up. Who will join me?” Perkis asked.
Crewmen Breeze, Compton, Smyth, and Everett volunteered. Perkis said they would look around to see how the rest could be brought up easily and that they would be back quickly; however, if they were needed, a call out was all that was needed.
“She looks fine. I wonder why she is here and abandoned?”
They found her lifeboat missing, and all of the navigational instruments were either missing or twisted and ruined. It was so odd that Freeze remarked, “Why would anyone destroy a nice sextant as this?” There was no logbook or papers left aboard.
Compton righted a chair, salt stained and weathered, but in good shape. A vapor lay just aft on the port side, and Compton walked over to pick up a pair of eyeglasses. Wiping the lenses against his chest, he looked them over and found a tiny chip in the glass, but they were unharmed.
Since the boat was loaded and the Titanic had sunk, he had felt a little chilly, but now, he felt downright cold. His bones began to ache. Perhaps the anxiety and work had gotten to him because he was very drained. He could feel his energy pouring out.
“Are you alright, Compton?”
“Yes. I am fine. Just tired.”
Perkis frowned. The man had picked up the glasses and gone pale. What might be wrong, Perkins did not know. They all examined the wood railing and found some deep gauges, but there was nothing to indicate what caused them, and there was no blood in sight.
Besides being empty, the upper deck was strong and in excellent repair. It was dusty and moss-covered in places, but there was nothing a mop and water could not fix.
“I have no idea what might have occurred here, gentlemen,” Perkis said, a little formally. He had Smyth check on those in the boat, and the man reported all was fine. “Compton and Smyth, remain here. Freeze, Everett, and I shall go below. Call if you need us, and we will do the same.”
They found a sturdy oak table and chairs below, as well as berths and a bed for a small child made up neatly with older, dusty, but serviceable linens. It was comfortable and well laid out. The blankets were wool and of decent quality, not fancy but not shabby either.
“Why they have enough supplies for six months or more,” Everett said. “The food is ruined, but there was plenty. Salt, dried beef, vegetable, spices, rum, grains salted pork, hard tack, coffee and tea, a few wheels of cheese, fruit, and wine.”
Freeze found clothing in trunks for both men and women. It was not what wealthy people would wear as everything was years and years out of date, almost something a past generation would have worn, and it was all oft mended, but of good material. All the clothing was neat and clean as well as nicely folded.
On a desk, while they found no papers of importance, they found old books, a trio that had been popular a quarter of a century before. A cup sat on the desk, still half full of tea.
“It’s dusty, but this was a well-cared for sailing ship,” Freeze said. He was perplexed.
“As if she is from long ago,” Perkis noted, “and I have such an apprehension about her.”
“Look here. Liquor, casks of it, but they are in red oak, not white. That is shameful. It’s all evaporated.”
Everett showed them a box he found, “Maybe we’ve lucked upon treasure?” It was about a perfectly square foot box and made of dark oak that had been polished and waxed until it shown. Eight thin strips of hammered silver bands ran about the box from the hatch, around the back where it was hinged in silver, to the front again. Tiny silver rivets held them in place. In the center on the top, was a jade medallion, cool green, in the shape of a frog. Emeralds, tiny and pale, made a circle about the jade.
There was no lock on the box, and even if it were empty, Everett felt it was worth a great deal of money; he was taking it with him. He lifted the lid and stared inside, his jaw hanging open with surprise.
“What ‘ave you?” Perkis asked as he searched the larder.
“Why, Sir, it’s a… a frog.”
“Carved? Jeweled?”
“Ummm… looking at me and blinking his eyes,” Everett said.
Freeze and Perkins stopped their searches and stared back at the other man. Everett watched the frog, or perhaps it was a toad, flick its tongue.
Then the little creature opened his mouth as if to yawn. But it kept opening, stretching wide and bigger; it was impossible. The mouth of the frog grew as large as a pie. Without a sound, it leaped upwards and with that big, open mouth, latched on to Everett’s face.
His screams were muffled, and he pulled at the frog, slammed into the walls of the sailing ship, and fell to his knees. Freeze and Perkis ran to him, and both pulled on the slimy, disgusting thing that attached itself to the man’s face. All three rolled about the floor, but could not dislodge the monster.
“It has a mighty grip,” Perkis yelled, “we will get you free.”
Perkis, in desperation, used a hammer he saw to clobber the frog. At first, it did no damage, but then the frog’s skin split open as its back broke. Perkis continued to beat at the frog while Freeze pulled at the frog’s mouth, trying to pry it loose.
Freeze fell to the ground as the frog came away in his hands. He tossed it to the floor where Perkis finished smashing it. Scrambling on his hands and knees, Freeze got to Everett and turned him over. He held back a scream as he saw that the man’s face was gone. The eyes, lips, cheeks, nose, and all of the flesh were eaten away as if tiny mouths and teeth had been at work. Everett’s skull showed beneath the blood.
To their horror, Everett made a ghastly keening sound deep within his throat. Perkis clenched his jaw, removed his big knife, and slid it across the man’s throat, ending his agony. He used a sheet to cover the man’s face and body. “God forgive me and have mercy upon our souls.”
“Mr. Perkis?” Smyth called down, “Are you all right, Sir?”
“We will be up in a second. Keep your eyes open for any problems or irregularities.” Perkis caught Freeze’s shoulder. “What I did… there was nothing to be done for him. I felt it was best to set him free of his agony and fear.”
“I understand, Mr. Perkis. It was an act of mercy.”
Perkis and Freeze ran to the ladder to ascend, and they slammed the hatch closed. If a monster frog could be in a jeweled box, another could be anywhere, just waiting to attack them. “He was attacked and killed,” Perkis told the other two men, “we must be careful, and we cannot stay aboard if there are dangers.”
“We are so tired, Sir. We’re exhausted,” Smyth said.
Perkis looked at him curiously. In the space of a few moments while they were below deck, Smyth’s skin thinned, age spots appeared, and heavy lines filled his face. He looked as if he had aged twenty-five years. Perkis asked the men to come over to his side of the vessel as he eyed the mist.
The wispy mist still floated upon that side around the chair where Compton sat and Smyth stood.
Smyth reached a hand over to awaken the other man, reaching for his shoulder, “Time to wake, old boy.”
Compton was slumped over and to one side, curled up in the chair. As Smyth pulled at him, Compton fell from the chair and onto the deck. He looked a hundred years old or older, his face a mask of wrinkles and dark spots, his athletic body petite and frail. It was if something had sucked his youth, vitality, and life force from his body. If he were alive, they could not tell.
“Get away from the mist, Smyth.”
Smyth was retching and moaning as he saw Compton. His bones ached, and he felt his knees popping as he walked. Freeze gave him a hand, “Come along now.”
“What has happened to him, Sir?” Smyth asked.
“I cannot even guess.”
“Is he alive?”
“If he is, he will not be in a minute more,” Perkis said.
As they made their way to the stern again, Perkis looked at the water below, illuminated by the golden mist. Far away, he heard thundering, clunking footsteps. What creature might make such a loud noise, he could not imagine.
“Mr. Perkis, please hurry,” Maddy Astor called.
“On our way, Ma’am.”
The behemoth must be unbelievably large to make such loud footsteps; it trumpeted a bellow that was so deep that they actually felt the sound deep within their bones. All three men fell to the deck as their legs gave way. Many more bellows and their bones would compress into dust.
Perkis crawled.
He climbed hand over hand down the rope, knowing that if the monster let loose with another call, he would fall, but he made it into the lifeboat. “Prepare to row, and row fast, ladies.”
Smyth began his descent. Body smaller, his clothing flapped on him, and he looked down to show sunken cheeks. Before their eyes, his hair turned grey, then faded to white, then fell out, blowing away on the breeze. His pate was covered in age spots.
“What is happening?” one of the women asked.
“I do not have any idea, Ma’am, but whatever it is on this ship, it is evil. This Mary or Marie whatever is filled with evil straight up from hell itself,” Perkis told them. “It took the people onboard and my men, and if we do not hurry, it will take us as well.”
Smyth was like an eighty-year-old man, trying to manage a rope. His gnarled hands could not manage the rope, and he lost his grip, falling into the water below. Everyone looked at the spot, ready to yank him to safety, but he did not surface; instead a blossom of deep red bubbled merrily to the surface, causing several of the women to scream and cry hysterically.
Perkis, although sick over the loss, could not imagine the reaction from the women had they seen the frog eat the face from Everett or had they seen what became of poor Compton.
Perkin untied the boat, yelling for Freeze to hurry down the rope. Freeze was half way down when something massive lunged between the boats and plucked Freeze from the rope as it swam on.
Perkis blinked as everyone on the boat screamed. What he saw was impossible. He had been a sailor a long time ago, and although he had seen whales, dolphins, and large sharks, what he saw now was unbelievable. It was the most muscular, heavy, old shark that he had ever seen.
It had eaten Freeze.
“Row,” Perkis yelled, “everyone, if you want to live, row for your life.”
He knew deep in his gut that if they did not hurry, they too would be part of the mist, and either live or die, but endlessly be a part of it. The mist was a universe with power, and it was exceptionally greedy and very, very hungry. The things that were part of it were terrible.
Her cheeks flushed with activity, Maddy Astor rowed and shouted in a loud, commanding voice that they had to row hard, “Row, ladies, row. We can do this.”
In a few minutes, they were at the edge of the mist, and while the shark circled them, he did not molest them. As soon as they were past the mist, they felt a weight lift from their chests, and they could breathe very easily. The trepidation and wretchedness that they felt lifted. Along the way, there were bodies, some clinging to pieces of wood or chairs, but all were frozen, dead, and frosted over. The people, hard like ice, bumped against the lifeboat.
A woman, sitting atop a floating table precariously, managed to moan. She was so far gone that she could not raise her hands or arms, but she slid her almost frozen eyes over the boat and pleaded silently for them to help her.
They pulled alongside her and carefully pulled her to the boat.
A few women fainted, and everyone aboard screamed when her frozen arm broke off above the elbow when they pulled her aboard. Staring at the place her arm had been, she felt no pain since she was numb. The women struggled to understand what had happened.
The others pulled her on board and covered her as best they could; Hemming fashioned a tourniquet for her arm in case she warmed up, but he did not think she would survive.
He shook his head, “I do not know what else I can do. It may be better if she never awakens to the pain she will feel when… if she warms.”
Perkis nodded and set the arm and hand on the bottom of the boat under a seat. As they rowed beyond the mist and ice field, they cried and mourned the woman’s predicament, but forgot all about Freeze, Smyth, Compton, and Everett as if they had never been rescued. Instead they focused on the ten others they had pulled from the water and who remained alive in the boat.
Six of them pulled from the sea would survive.
Although Maddy Astor had no memory of the shark and the men who had died, she kept the flush to her cheeks as she and Mr. Perkis commanded the lifeboat, and she had not only a purpose, but people depended upon her to think logically and act quickly and decisively. It might have been the pregnancy, but Mrs. Astor glowed, her voice was no longer meek and quiet, and she trusted her judgments.
Some died.
Some were reborn.
Chapter Twelve: Boat B
Collapsible Boat B was never launched since there was no time. The ship settled deeper into the water, and in turn the water washed over the deck, releasing the boat so that it landed right atop Harold Bride. He grasped the seats, terrified of being pulled down in the suction when the ship plunged to its watery grave.
When the funnel collapsed, crushing many swimmers, it sent out a wave that washed the capsized boat and Bride away from the danger and into the midst of hundreds of swimmers, trying to find a way out of the sea. Officers Lightoller and Wilde dove from the deck just before it went under. As the funnel fell and caused the large wave, they washed almost two hundred feet away from the wreckage.
Lightoller reached Boat B and found Bride crawling from under the boat. “Glad to see you, Bride,” Lightoller said as he took charge, “we need to get atop the boat and out of this freezing water. Make haste.”
Bride and Lightoller climbed aboard the hull. They pulled a Titanic cook, baker, steward, and engine trimmer to the hull with them. Lightoller looked all around, “Do you see Murdoch? Where is Wilde? Where is the Captain?”
Jefferies, from third class, climbed aboard, “My lifebelt was falling apart, it was and Mr. Murdoch, there in the water, took off his own and snapped it about me. He saved my life, he did.”
“Murdoch,” Lightoller yelled. With the water so cold, a person would go numb and not be able to swim; Murdoch would have had less than five minutes before he drown. Lightoller took a precious second to think of his fellow officer with fondness and regret. “And Wilde?”
The next man shed some light on the whereabouts of the First Officer, “I saw Mr. Wilde swimming, but he wasn’t getting far, and he was muttering about how cold he was. I heard a gunshot, Sir; I did not look, and I do not know. If he used his gun, I would not call him a coward, Sir, but only say that he took a faster pathway to Heaven than the rest of the poor bastards in the water have.”
They pulled several more aboard, all classes. When they had more than thirty-five, Lightoller, with sad eyes and a disconsolate manner, said softly that they could take no more unless it was the Murdoch, Wilde, or the Captain. “We’ve no choice. If we take more aboard, we will all die.” It was his job to save as many men as possible. He would give his own life for the men.
“It won’t be Captain Smith, Sir. I watched him standing proudly in the bridge, and there he remained, like a true captain. He almost went down with her, Sir, but dove into the cold water at the last second.”
Lightoller, a man not prone to emotional outbursts, nevertheless, had to wipe his eyes. He ordered the men to paddle, using their hands, for if the swimmers all grabbed onto the over turned boat, they would fall into the water and die.
All around them, men begged for help. It hurt Lightoller’s soul not to help them.
“I am sorry. We cannot take on any more. We will find another boat and send them to help,” Lightoller said.
A man, freezing in the water, called back, “I understand. Godspeed, boy and God bless.”
Lightoller had a sudden vision that the man who had just spoken was Captain Smith.
“Captain? Captain Smith?”
“Godspeed.” The voice was farther away.
Lightoller knew it had been his Captain. He stood on the over turned boat and wept.
Mr. Gracie cried unashamedly. His father was a brigadier general with the Confederate States Army and fought in the Battle of Chickamauga. He died in The War in Virginia, and Mr. Gracie had just finished writing a book about his father and the bloody battle. As a treat, he left his family at home and did a grand tour of Europe and was headed back to his home in Alabama when tragedy struck the ship.
That night he escorted single ladies to the lifeboats, helped Lightoller hold off men who wanted to take over the boats, convinced Lightoller to allow a thirteen-year-old boy to get into a lifeboat, cut the ropes holding the collapsible boats, and more.
When the ship sank, he held on to a ladder and was drawn down deep. His ears ached with the water pressure. He let go, grasping his ears, popped to the surface, and found a crate that he clung to until he reached the overturned boat. He didn’t know how he had survived so far, and the pain was so exquisite; he wondered if it were what he wanted.
“Bride, was QED sent? Did anyone answer?”
“Yessir, Mr. Lightoller. It was sent as ordered. We had many responses, Sir. The Carpathia is closest and will be here in about four hours.”
“Four?” Lightoller almost wept again with despair. How could he rally these men to hang on that long?
Forcing himself to concentrate on the situation, he designed a plan so that everyone faced the bow and lined up in two columns. They were told to counteract the swells and waves, using their legs in unison. “We may not be dry, but we will survive.”
“Concentrate, like Mr. Lightoller said,” Gracie encouraged.
Jack Thayer, only eighteen, was relieved to be on the lifeboat, as he had not expected to survive when he stood on the deck with over a thousand people, listening to the band play a waltz.
For the most part, people had been calm. First class passengers sat calmly on the deck chairs, second class gathered in small groups, and third class walked about aimlessly, dazed. A priest was surrounded by about a hundred who listened as he gave last rites.
Jack visited with friends he had made, and finally he and a friend decided to jump into the water and swim so as not to be sucked down when the Titanic went down. He had not imagined the pain of the ice water.
He was shocked when the ship split apart but glad he was not on the bow that plunged first. He was then glad he wasn’t on the stern when it tilted at a seventy-degree angle and everyone slid several hundred feet to the water and broke bones. When he saw Boat B, he was hopeful for the first time since he had discovered the ship was sinking.
“Mr. Lightoller, does that look right to you?”
“Eh?”
“That there. Afore and port, Sir. See that?”
Lightoller strained to make out what he was seeing. Familiar with the sea and its life, he thought it looked to be a dorsal fin, followed by a caudal fin, but the distance was wrong. The measurements were wrong, unless it was a whale that had appeared. How curious to see a whale at the shipwreck.
“It is eating those men,” Harold Bride moaned, “Mr. Lightoller? Why is it doing that? Do whales eat people? They do not, do they?”
Lightoller was about to snap back that it was not eating anyone, but as he watched, the fish ate another. The megaladon swam around, scooping up men like tiny morsels and sometimes biting them before swallowing, but other times just ingesting them whole.
When the leviathan turned and came towards them, he breached the surface, showing off his tooth-filled mouth.
“Holy Mother of God, Mr. Lightoller, that ain’t a whale,” Bride shouted.
“It’s a giant shark, men. Stay alert, and keep using your legs to keep us afloat. So far, he is just after the dead and dying and not looking at us. If he does notice us, he may be only curious. Do not panic and falter, men.” Lightoller’s voice was even and calm, as always, and he rallied all the men.
Those men, about to panic, took pause, relaxing under Lightoller’s orders.
The wake from a wave, caused by the giant beast, caused them to struggle. Jefferies lost his footing and slid off the overturned boat.
“Swim, Sir, and we shall get you back aboard,” Gracie called.
Before the man could get more than a yard, the devilish fish swam by and gulped him down, biting first so that blood stained the water red-black against the regular black of the sea.
Several men cried out, and a few prayed loudly.
“Damned fish,” Lightoller cursed, “is playing games. Stay alert, I say. Don’t lose your head.”
One of the few women they had rescued watched the fin circling; instead of concentrating, she lost her balance, and she fell, taking a steward with her as she flailed her arms, “No, oh, help me.”
Lightoller, Bride, and Gracie prepared to yank both to safety, but again, the shark found them first, swallowing them whole. Lightoller would have sworn under oath the shark grinned maliciously at him. “Ye son of a bitch. Ye fecking coward, face me when I have a harpoon, and let us see who makes it out alive.”
Several cheered Lightoller.
Eugene Daly, who often entertained third class passengers with his uilleann pipes and caused impromptu parties deep in Steerage and who took care of unescorted, fellow Irish-women spoke up, “It was not Mr. Murdoch who saved Mr. Jefferies but another officer, I believe. On the deck, Mr. Murdoch was a hero and made sure the ladies were aboard the lifeboats. When he was rushed, he shot two men dead for being cowards and bully-boys.”
“Good for him,” Gracie said.
Daly went on, “We waited a bit, and then after a while, I heard another shot. Mr. Murdoch, it was. I did not see him myself, but everyone said Mr. Murdoch did not want to go into the freezing water, and he felt a mighty guilt at the orders he gave for the ship. But for his orders, he said we might have missed the berg.”
“He did what the Captain or I would have done. He was not at fault,” Lightoller said.
“Most assuredly he wasn’t. I wish he had made it as he was a good man, but how he must have feared the pain of the icy water. I can understand that. I would rather depart this life than go into the water again,” Daly said.
Daly grabbed a man next to him and kept him from falling.
“Thank you,” the man said.
“Maybe it was not Mr. Murphy but someone else. Maybe he is aboard another boat and safe. I sorely hope so.”
“Maybe the Captain as well,” someone suggested.
“Maybe,” Lightoller felt a pain in his chest and throat as he answered. He would not tell the others they had left the Captain back in the water to perish. He didn’t have a lifebelt.
At the stern, two slipped off at once, hitting their heads as they fell. One was knocked unconscious. The other one kicked and fought to get back in the lifeboat, and they pulled him back up alongside them. Besides being wet and cold again, he was all right. The man who was knocked out floated a while and maybe drowned, but it was a few minutes before the megaladon scooped him up.
All around, the field of bodies had thinned as the fish fed. In some ways, it was amazing to see the shark taking the dead as it did normally, in private and in moderation. None had ever seen an animal feed so methodically. It was a sleek, eating machine, enormous and powerful. He cleared out many of the bodies.
“That is all he does: swim and eat, I suppose,” Jack Thayer said.
“Normally. But I would gamble this arsehole enjoys what he is about tonight,” Lightoller told them.
He and Gracie told stories, they sang songs, and the two men kept everyone focused and positive as the time passed. At one point, they had thirty- five standing on the overturned hull, but the shark teased them, making waves and eating those falling into the water.
He never bumped the boat although he could have. He did not swallow the boat whole although he could have.
As soon as they were farther away from the wreckage, he stopped collecting his meals, but there were twenty-four left standing. As the boat lost the air pocket beneath it, it slid deeper into the water.
After a while, the survivors stood in a few cold inches of water, but it could have been far worse. Later, it was over their ankles, making it more difficult to keep their balance, so a few slid off and floated away. In a few hours, the water was to their knees, and they were barely able to stay on the hull; more slipped off.
Later, when they were found, the shark was forgotten, and they were thinking about the losses they suffered, there were fourteen left standing on the boat. Mr. Gracie, Mr. Daly, Harold Bride, and Officer Lightoller managed to stay on the hull.
Jack Thayer, also saved, never stopped praising Officer Lightoller for his heroics and intelligence during a catastrophic event. Had he remembered the shark, he would have appreciated the Officer even more.
Lightoller never knew why he suddenly developed an interest in sharks, but it became a subject he enjoyed reading about and studying.
He liked the normal ones.
Chapter Thirteen: Boat C
Howard’s Account
In our boat, there were many who could not speak English but instead, spoke other languages we did not know. We spoke by pantomime much of the time because some gestures are universal in meaning. Some of those who could not speak English were probably used to using gestures and hand movements to indicate what they wished to say.
There was a family: the mother had a small babe in her arms and two children barely old enough to speak, but she tried to keep track of her children. Several other children cuddled against their mothers as well, hiding their faces from the cold, from strangers, and in fear. How helpless they must feel, all alone and terrified, unable to communicate easily.
Most all had come from third class.
In pieces, we understood that Mr. Stead and Mr. Daniels had found them and brought them to the boat at some point. How like those two for them to have gone into the lower decks to search for women and children at the risk of their own lives. Even after getting them onto the boats, the two men had refused to join us, going back for more who needed help.
I would never forget the bravery of those men and hoped, each time we saw a floating, waving survivor, he would be Stead or Daniels.
As the flooding spread, stewards locked gates to each deck so the monsters could not swarm those atop deck. They did not know monsters were everywhere, but they did what they thought was right in that situation, knowing that many people were caught below and left to drown as they closed the gates.
Stead and Daniels climbed down and found those who had survived the water, vermis, and other beasts. The pitiful survivors were wet, dressed in clothing that was a little too thin, shivering under blankets, and pressed against the black, steal gates. Their fingers held the grating, and they cried out for help in many languages besides English, but no one was still below to help them.
As the water rose, the women held their children as high as they could to avoid the cold; small children would die quickly if exposed. The women crammed themselves at the tops of the stairs, looking back as the sea lapped at the first step.
When they saw Stead and Daniels, at first they did not raise their heads, afraid to hope. They had seen one steward come down, headed for the kennels to release the dogs. With luck, some might find a way to float to an open stairway and climb upwards. No one ever saw the steward again, but they heard some of the dogs barking.
Daniels opened the lock and motioned them to follow. He asked, as best he could, where the others were. Were they still locked in the lounges? The people told him the rest were locked away and afraid, but they were more terrified to come out. The water had reached the stairs already, blocking the way down or up.
“You came out, however, and waited for help. That was brave,” Stead said to them sincerely.
“Seulement enfant,” one of the women said, hoping they understood.
“Your only child,” said Daniels as he nodded, “we need to go now. It will not be easy, but we must go.”
They had waded through flooding, climbed ladders with children, and fought things that wanted to eat them; they were almost exhausted. Some of the men whispered last minute sentiments and waved them all away, saying that the women and children had to escape.
The men said they would stay and guard the gates so no one tried to over run those trying to escape and no abominable creatures came through. “Le garde,” the woman said, “monstre.”
Some of the men had makeshift weapons, but some faced the threats below with nothing more than scared, barred fists. The woman showed us how the men stood, fists raised and ready to fight, “Pour combattre.”
I cannot imagine the bravery and fortitude of those men who had nothing but fists and wits but did not hesitate to defend their women and children from anything that might come. In other circumstances, it would have been enjoyable to see how trials made heroes of men.
The woman who barely knew French sat back with a small child in her arms and waved everything away. I did not know the words, but I was aware of their meaning: she was too tired and raw to think about what happened.
Another woman tried to tell the story.
Stead and Daniels gathered blankets. They took a few minutes to rest and drink from a pot of hot tea in one of the lounges before going any farther.
Someone had made the tea and left it with cups, sugar, a pitcher of milk, and lemon. Daniels, just as he had trained in true British spirit, wanted everyone to share cups, and to drink.
We did not understand all of the words from the woman who explained she was from Egypt or somewhere in the Mediterranean. Her words made no sense to us, but using her hands and face, she explained. She nodded and smiled a little when she realized we understood that Daniels had been adamant about the tea.
All was not all right. As they wrapped themselves in blankets and drank the warm tea, some smaller worms appeared, ones with many legs, and I think, perhaps, chitinous bodies. They stood straight up, and many of the women and children screamed with terrible fear.
Lilia, or so we called her, held her ears to show the creatures made a terrible noise, like rats or mice squealing. She pantomimed that the sound hurt her ears terribly and made some of the women run away. Everyone panicked, but those who ran away, flew right into the rising waters.
“And the vermis… worms,” I said as I made the motions of a worm crawling, “they came from dry areas?”
Lilia finally understood and nodded; the worms came from the dry areas. That meant the monsters did not rely on water to appear. She showed us that in the water were small but vicious fish that attacked those who ran that way. To my astonishment, her description of the fish was horribly familiar.
Jenny frowned, “Does that not sound like….”
“It does,” John Morton agreed. He motioned for Lilia to slow down and use her hands to describe the fish again.
She took my arm and used my skin as a kind of paper with her finger as the pencil. Making sure we were watching, she traced the shape slowly upon my flesh, and besides seeing the shape take form, I could feel it. I admit it gave me chills.
She drew a jutting snout, a slim-lined body topped with an over-sized dorsal fin, a slender lower half, and a sharp-finned tail, muscular and strong. When she knew we understood the shape, she drew an eye with her finger, a simple dot that she made by pressing hard into my skin. She meant that it was very dark, very plain, and most frightening.
The eye was dead looking and evil.
Lilia pointed to the mouth or where it would be if she had left indelible marks behind. She brushed my arm as if erasing the fish. Now, she drew a mouth full of sharp teeth, rows and rows on each jaw.
“How long?” John Morton asked her, spreading his arms and looking puzzled.
Lilia nodded she understood. She held her hands to show something a little less than a yard long. We nodded we understood what had attacked those who ran into the water. She made it clear that there were many of the small sharks.
“What of the worms?” Jenny asked, her eyes huge.
“We have another,” Peter Cavendar called. While we were catching up, Jenny’s father and several others were rescuing those who had fallen into the cold water and were alive, calling for help.
At first, there was groaning-buzz as many moaned and called for help, but it settled into a weak throb of sound, deep and somewhat like the lowing of cattle.
With much effort, we understood that at first there were a few worms, half as tall as a man, but more came, one that was taller and thicker. They stood erect and waved their legs, but a few of the men used chairs and table legs to fight the things, breaking off legs like tiny twigs and pounding at the strong shells of their body segments. The worms bled a disgusting fluid that smelled like death and putrescence.
The screams of the dying worms were like a baby wailing with pain.
One of the women and two of the men used broken glass to slash their own arms or throats. They slumped to the floor in a puddle of their own warm blood because they could not bear the sounds any more. Stead and Daniels gathered the rest, and they ran, locking gates behind them when they found survivors.
One of the women suffered a sting by a worm as they ran. Stead knocked it away from her, and Daniels smashed it to a pulp, but the woman fainted with horror.
“What happened to her?” Jenny asked.
Lilia pointed to her own arm, made a motion like a barb going into her skin, and pretended to faint. She pointed to John and made motions as if he were picking someone up to carry her.
“A man carried the injured woman to the next deck,” John said.
We understood the gate was locked and that they again had to rest as they climbed and struggled with all the children. Some of the women and men with them were carried as they had suffered broken legs, ribs, and arms in the fight against the worm-creatures. Using their bodies, the biggest worms violently knocked people into the walls.
“Did anyone survive the small sharks?” I asked, using my hands.
Lilia shook her head. She made biting motions with one hand and used her other arm, legs, and body to show that all who ran into the water were bitten and eaten alive.
She described a final attack by things we could not quite comprehend, but it was not a lack of language skills or Lilia’s fault; the things were so terrible that if one did not see them, then they could not be imagined.
It seemed the beasts were four legged, but of a bird-like type. Lilia could not explain what they had other than feathers because she did not, of course, understand them. It was perhaps fungus or fur or maybe nothing that we have a name for.
They had something on their heads not unlike small horns, but certainly not that simplistic. For mouths, they had large beaks full of tiny, sharp teeth, but the creatures were no larger than a fat duck. Luckily, they were easy to dispatch and of no more trouble than large rats.
The woman who had been stung was the concern now.
Lilia shuddered and wept, but she put her arms by her sides and showed us a sort of melting or fusing. She did the same with her legs. Then, with her fingers, she mimicked little legs creeping forth.
“No,” Jenny said, shaking her head almost violently.
John hugged her close to his side and said, “Shhh. It’s okay.”
“Howard, make her explain. That is… I cannot accept that. What happened to the woman who was stung?”
“Lilia… slower….” Was all I could think to say.
Lilia showed us again. It was clear that she meant the legs had fused, and the arms had become one with the woman’s torso. We understood that something like legs appeared and wriggled disgustingly.
“And her head?” I asked.
Lilia sighed, closing her eyes for a second. She pressed her hands over her own face, as if wiping away her nose and moving her eyes. Then she shrugged and explained that they had all run with Mr. Stead and Mr. Daniels. The woman’s oldest son stayed behind, and Lilia knew nothing more about the injured woman and her son. They made their way to the boat deck.
“What does it mean?” Jenny demanded.
“The poison must have caused great changes. We are assuming the worst because it could be possible, we think, that maybe the skin weakened and infused itself.” “Do not even think the worst,” I said.
Jenny did not look any calmer, and John and I looked at Lilia. Her eyes betrayed that she too thought the poor woman below decks had begun somehow to alter her shape and being.
We continued to search the water for survivors. Some we found were terribly wounded, and their legs were chewed away; I was relieved they were dead when we saw the injuries.
This was a malicious intent. What cruel creature would chew away the lower parts and leave a whole person to bob on the water and let us think he was alive and savable? I felt we were being terrorized.
A man came aboard, and all he could do was moan. His body was locked in a fetal position, and his fingers were chewed away. What savagery was this?
“What did this, Sir? Can you tell us?”
“Rats. No. Teeth. Legs. So many legs,” he said.
Quartermaster Grimes whistled, garnering our attention as he pointed to a ship some distance away that looked to be glowing. In the light, we saw one of the lifeboats had caught a rope, and they were checking out the ship. I felt a distinct dread when I viewed the other ship.
In front of us was the terrible yellowish mist, and some of us begged not to go near, but Mr. Grimes ordered the boat to be steered in that direction. He said we must empty the water that we had taken on. In truth, we had suffered quite a bit of water pouring in at various times, and many of us were miserable with our feet in the freezing water.
Mr. Grimes waded into the stinking ooze of the shoreline, “We shall unload everyone. Stay right here close, and do not wander away. We shall empty the boat of water, load up, and wait for help. It will only be a few moments.”
“I beg of you, Mr. Grimes, to please not make shore here. There are horrible creatures about,” I asked.
“Monsters? No. And do not frighten the women, Sir.”
“It will be quick, and we shall watch for trouble. We will be away from here soon,” John Morton said. He helped Jenny onto one of the many large stones that formed a shore so we could avoid the slimy ooze and mud. All around were large boulders some rounded and weather beaten, and others strangely looked like box-shapes.
I could not discern any cohesion of the elements. The designs did not seem random, and yet they fit no pattern.
“Mr. Grimes, you know there is no land here in the sea. Does this not strike you curious that it should be here suddenly?” Peter Cavendar asked.
“I am quite amazed and concerned, I assure you, Sir, but if we do not empty the water from our boat, I fear we will be in more danger. Let us make haste.” Grimes, let show for a second that he, too, was frightened by the strange land.
I did not want to be here. I was very frightened, but since I was here, it seemed to me that I should never again have such an opportunity as this to see this other world. In any case, there was nothing we could do but empty the water so our feet would not freeze and hope we might go unmolested in the strange place.
There were the boulders, and far away, I saw spirals of rock that went far into the sky. They were hatefully built and would not be found made by man, natural creature, or elements. They were foreign. Trees, blighted with fungus, dripped ichors on the stones, but they were not dead, only curious growths.
“Don’t lean on the trees, or go close. I fear they are not safe,” I said.
In a few seconds, I made out that some of the stones upon the ground were not random but formed a sort of path, weaving this way and that, following no proper order.
“Where are you going,” John asked.
“See this, a path. And there, is that a statue?”
“No… oh… look at it from this side, Howard,” Jenny said.
It was a four-legged creature, but the legs were fused and hard to determine. The legs and body took shape as I looked at the creation; it was of a large monster made only of bone, rough-edged and raw. No flesh or other covering represented itself in the stone. The head and neck of the thing bent over as if in respect or prayer.
I made my way under the statue and was able, in the dim light, to make out the face of a spider carved crudely, complete with fangs. “Horrid,” I said as I returned to the path, “but if you look at it from beneath and then from specific angles, the features are discernible.”
“It reminds me of how these terrible things are sometimes hard to really see when looked upon straight ahead. They are best seen from the corner of my eye or as I blink,” Jenny said.
“If this makes sense, I feel our minds have issues with attempting to understand what we see; thus, we can’t quite see the things clearly,” I said. Jenny and John nodded that they understood what I was trying to explain.
John Morton was a very intelligent man, and if he had cause to bury himself in books instead of cattle ranching, he would have been a most formidable philosopher. Jenny Cavendar, like her father, Peter, was also brilliant; sadly her gender kept her from deep discussions with like-minded people that would have allowed her to blossom.
A collection of dark, gnarled trees and tall, slender columns blocked out the view to the left. I ran my hand over the surface of the column to understand the carvings. Had I not been a student of star watching, I would not have understood the grooves and reliefs, but my hand communicated more to me than my eyes, and I had a slight understanding.
“Stars. Planets, but not ours, not ones I know.”
“Other worlds?” Jenny asked, “Who could have designed this? People, like us? No. Not here.”
“Maybe these were carved before the monsters came,” John said.
Mr. Merle spoke, “You speak of monsters and beasts, but those who sail, we have seen creatures that look to be horrid but are usual for the water. A sea louse is a slimy sea version of something like a cockroach. They are disgusting, and the big ones are a little spooky.”
Everyone listened.
“I’ve seen milk-white fish with no eyes, and crabs in groups so large you could not imagine, and they do not look like ones you would think of, but are no different looking than enormous spiders,” Merle finished.
John Morton nodded and said, “He is correct. What we find here may be from a different time or something. The creatures are just unfamiliar.”
Jenny grabbed at my arm, but I walked between them to see what was on the other side.
In seconds, Jenny, John, and a half dozen more stood beside me, curious. They had followed to see what fascinated me. Stairs, carved into the stone, led to a kind of temple. The stairs were uneven, some were small; some were large; none of them alike, and I knew it was not a blunder of sorts but planned just that way.
Chaos was the objective.
Grimes and Merle, and a crewman named Edwards, moved in front of me, protectively, and began to climb the stairs. We followed, telling one another and ourselves that this was a terrible folly and not the plan.
When we reached the top, we heard a noise. At first, I could not discern what I was hearing, but then, I understood that from one side, I heard a sad song, not of words or humming, but of strange syllables and sounds. It was very mournful. To the other side, I heard a slow thumping like that of something huge walking upon stones.
The ground vibrated.
“Quick, hide here.” Edwards ducked behind a boulder, and we followed suit, hiding ourselves away. Jenny pressed her face against John’s shoulder. Lilia grasped my hand. I held her hand tightly; she shook but was warm.
The pounding came closer, and it was like thunder.
Many of the gigantic creatures came our way. They were muscular. Their bodies somewhat resembled the body of an animal called a rhinoceros found on the African continent, but its legs were much longer, and each ended in a sort of hand with claws. The hand curled under so it walked upon its knuckles, like an ape. Each hand had three razor-tipped claws as long as my arm.
I can only describe the head as a bulbous, a lumpy sphere with small, dull eyes, tiny ears, and a small proboscis as a mouth.
Seven of the creatures arrived, walking past us towards the mournful singing. I can only say that they followed the voice. One by one, they walked off the edge of the rocks, and we heard violent splashes. As the last passed and fell away, we ran to see what became of them. It was a sort of cliff with water, no more than twenty feet below.
Without thinking, each had followed the one before. Not a one seemed aware of what was happening.
The giant shark swam there beneath the cliff in the water and in a mad frenzy; he ripped the creatures to pieces and swallowed the chunks. The oddities bellowed like bulls as the shark tore them apart and ate them alive. Within seconds, every trace of the mighty animals, save the dark blood, was gone, and the shark flicked his tail with pleasure.
The singing had stopped, and we saw a woman--only she was not a real woman, of course. Her red-gold hair streamed about her shoulders in long curls, and we could still see her milky white flesh and full, round breasts. She was beautiful, and if she sang to me, I too would want to join her. But she did not sing, but instead, flipped over, and the last we saw of her was a glistening, wide-scaled, tail vanished into the red-stained sea.
The temple was built of columns, but they leaned to the center with round disks carved along the lengths. On top was a roundish shape with two red disks.
“What… what is that? I feel as if it is faintly familiar but….” Jenny began.
“If you know sea anatomy… creatures….” I said
“A squid,” Grimes said, “it is a mockery of one, but see the head there, round, and the disks are the eyes. The columns are tentacles, and those disks are suckers.”
“But it’s not correct,” I added, “the tentacles reach out from its face, see?”
“It is a squid,” Edwards pronounced, “a temple to a squid, how queer.”
We followed Edwards inside. It should have been pitch black inside, but there was a glow from the walls so we could see quite well. The floor, made up of odd shapes, was colorful. I knelt, and my jaw dropped. One square was soft in emeralds; one was made of pinkish rubies. One was pale jade, one bright blue sapphire, and another was deep golden topaz. One large area was open and filled with the stinking ooze, greenish, and slick. Yellowed bones littered the sludge.
To my shock, I realized the portion of noxious mud was just as valued here as the section of rubies.
“The walls….” John Morton said. He was a bit of an astronomer and pointed out the wall décor. The walls were of obsidian and set here and there with bright, shining diamonds, rubies, and light gold topaz. “It’s the night sky, and those are the stars, see, but it isn’t the sky we see when we look up. This is… different. It seems a pictorial of an older sky. An ancient sky of stars.”
“It is odd,” Jenny said.
“It is almost beautiful, but it is also….” He tilted his head with confusion.
“Chaotic,” I said.
Lilia pointed out a particular jewel that was a large, brilliant sapphire, deep blue like water. She gestured to it many times. Not far from it was a red-orange jewel. Right next to the big blue gem was a small opal.
“Earth,” John said.
“What say you?” Merle asked.
“This one is earth, see. It is blue for water. Look there, above the altar, another blue sphere of sapphires and aquamarines. Earth is meaningful here. The water is important.”
“What is this place?”
John shrugged and looked at Jenny, “A place of worship. The one they worship is on earth, perhaps, and maybe it lives in the water.”
“The shark?”
“No. He is a part, but you saw the outside of this temple. They worship that creature. He is their god. The squid, I mean.”
“He is disgusting,” Jenny said, “and who is ‘they’? Who worships him?”
John shrugged, “I am just guessing.”
Edwards, using a small knife, managed to pluck loose several stones, “I am gonna be a rich man now. Do you all want some? We can fill our pockets.” He held up a ruby the size of his eyeball.
“That may not be a good idea,” Jenny said.
Lilia shook her head and frowned.
“Let’s leave,” I said. I had a bad feeling about the place and certainly about what Edwards had done.
As we left, Edwards suddenly screamed. I can honestly say it did not surprise me very much. I expected something bad to happen when he stole from the temple.
Thin, curd-colored arms or tentacles, I could not say which, rose from the muck in the one area. There were five of them, each ending in three fingers with sucker pads on the tips. They wrapped about him, entrapping him in the blink of an eye. He flew off his feet, soared through the air and plopped into the slimy mess.
Oh, how he screamed. His flesh dissolved in acid, it seemed, making a fatty scum on top of the slime.
In seconds, he vanished below the nasty surface, and there was not a ripple or disruption again as he and the thin arms disappeared.
We ran.
We planned to go back to the lifeboat and get away, but as we fled the temple, we saw a cave in the trees, and it called to us, drew us close. It was huge, the opening lined with terribly sharp, triangular rocks. My gut told me to flee, but I stepped over the rows of sharp rocks and onto a smooth surface.
“I feel this is important here,” I said, “I cannot imagine what amazing secrets this place holds.”
“The ceiling… it is like a boat with a beam… and beams to the sides….” Grimes said.
I did not agree with Grimes. It reminded me of something else I could not place. We should have run, but we were drawn inside and walked carefully down around corridor, like a tunnel. It opened into a great room that we stared at, confused.
Again, we had no light but could see well.
Here was a man in a lifebelt, his lower half snipped away and beside him. There was a woman. Several men in lifebelts. A steward I had seen often aboard Titanic.
“Hundreds. Some are… in half… and some are whole, but they have on life belts. I know some of these men. I knew them, I mean.”
Jenny listened to John and screamed, sinking to the ground. She understood what we saw.
Lilia latched onto my arm.
I knelt to examine one of the men from the ship. He was ice cold, bluish, and quite dead. His hand still gripped a tiny bit of wood, a table leg, maybe. All of them were soaked: their hair in wet strands and clothing salt-stained. I motioned everyone to follow me out and pointed above to the curious ceiling.
“Not beams,” I said, “but a spine, and those are bones that grow out… do you see? Like ribs?”
I led them out to the opening. “Look here, and tell me what you see.”
“Sharp rocks. In rows,” John said
“More.”
“Triangles,” Grimes added.
“And above?” I asked.
“The same. Like….”
“Like a maw. A gigantic mouth with rows of teeth top and bottom, a spine inside, and a stomach full of men that it picked up as it swam about the lifeboats and people in the water.” I sighed, exhausted.
“Oh, God have mercy. It is a stone version of the shark,” Jenny said.
“But how can the victims be here? It was over there and ate the creatures.”
I shrugged. I could no more explain it than anything, but it was true. I knew that. “There is a terrible power here. It is not active, or we would all be dead, but it is there, asleep, maybe dreaming. The dreams are what attack us. I do not know how I know that, but it sounds right to me. I feel the power beneath us.”
“Howard, you are insane. That’s impossible,” Grimes said.
“Help us….” We heard someone scream.
To the left of the path, others explored, and several stood in a circle, wringing their hands. Before them was a pit, rock-lined and not very deep. One of the women had fallen in, and all about her were the brown, horrid segmented worms that had hard shells and stood erect.
“Get up,” John demanded.
The woman did not move but lay on the floor of the pit.
“They stung her when she fell… many times. She screamed as they did it. How shall we get her out?”
Merle picked up a stone and threw it at one of the creatures, smacking it hard. It shrieked with pain, but the things, besides becoming more agitated, did not seem affected. The woman below swelled with poison; her arms and legs were bloated, and her face bulged.
“Her legs. My God….” John gasped, pulling Jenny away so she did not see.
The bloated legs burst with poisonous fluids and fused, the skin knitting quickly as it covered the space between her legs. The woman’s arms jerked close to her body as they, too, burst open and began to fuse.
Grimes ordered everyone away from the pit. He said it was too late to help the woman and they should go back to the boat quickly.
Lilia, who had seen something similar, shook her head sadly and looked at me, wondering if now I could imagine the horror; she had been unable to share the misery it caused. I hugged her quickly, letting her know I was sorry she had seen it twice now.
The passengers and crew walked along the stone path, back to the shoreline. Because I was now so aware of this world and beginning to understand it, I peered into the pit before I left, and instead of five appalling worms, I saw six, one with human-like eyes glaring back at me.
Time stood still for me.
I saw my friends and the others come to a stop in mid-stride. Nothing moved. I was not altogether shocked when a figure came out from the trees and approached me. He wore trousers, boots, and some sort of cowl that covered his face, head, and upper body in draped black wool.
Days ago, I would have fled, but now I faced him.
“Seeker.”
“I am? Or you are?” I asked.
“You are the seeker. You may call this one Droom.”
“Are you here to rip me apart or devour my flesh?”
“No. Droom is here to answer,” he said.
“What are you?”
“A means to an end, and perhaps a way…. “
I had a million questions for him, “Where are we?”
“Ry-leth is as close as your vocal cords could pronounce. You are here in a city that sank eons ago. This is but a memory, for it lies at the bottom of the sea and is lost. You saw the stars in the temple? They were aligned wrong, and the city was lost, and the great lord fell asleep beneath the waters.”
I knew that. “How did I know that?”
“If one is without eyes and blind, he cannot see. You have eyes.”
This would take forever to puzzle out. He spoke English and yet, I felt it was not quite my language he used. “Is this… real?”
“Is anything real? It is a memory. A nightmare. But while He sleeps, he dreams, and this is but one of a billion dreams. Soon, it will pass, and he will dream of something else, somewhere else.”
“I don’t understand,” I said.
“You are incapable of understanding because of your nature, but you asked me, and I answered, Seeker.”
“Only I can… speak to you or ask questions? Why?”
“You are the Seeker. Only a Seeker may ask and be answered.”
I tried a new tactic, “Who sent you? Who ordered you to answer me?”
“I am Droom. I answer. You are the Seeker, and you ask. It is as it is.”
I knew that although he claimed I could see and understand and was allowed to ask questions, there were just some aspects I could not understand. I did not think Droom had the words to explain any better than he did. It was up to me to ask the correct questions.
“That shark and the other monsters… they attacked and killed people. The woman… she… changed. That happened? It was real?”
“Yes, they were consumed. In a blink of an eye. Their times were most small. They are… no more.”
“But they were… slaughtered.”
Droom said, “And nothing of value was lost.”
“Can you… bring them back?” I felt my temper rise.
“Can you bring them back?” he said back to me.
“Are you a monster, too?”
“In your mind and words, yes, I am a monster, a jester, and a demon. And you are my reflection.”
I felt a chill. “Why do you wear the cowl? Why is your face covered?”
“Your mind could not fathom my physical being. I am so beautiful and hideous, so light and dark, that you would go mad seeing my repugnant beauty.”
Those words alone made my head ache. How he was both, I did not understand, but I believed him, that it was better not to see his face.
“Follow me. You will come to no harm. I am here to answer you.” He turned and went the other way, down the path and towards the tall spirals. When he moved, I caught a whiff of cinnamon-burnt hair and sulfur and too-sweet- roses-dead flesh.
“Why are you showing me?”
“You are the Seeker. We waited for you since time infinite. You are a component of the order, and while your existence is meaningless, certain… conventions… are followed. I must show you a few oddities, and then we shall detach ourselves.”
“Who made the order?”
“Chaos.”
That was certainly a dead end line of questioning. “What will I do with the knowledge?”
“I cannot answer that. Unlike every other person tonight, who died on the epitome of human arrogance and pomposity, only you will maintain your memories.”
“Why?” I asked.
He shrugged, “It is part of the order. I cannot say.”
“I saw the stone shark and what was inside.”
Droom nodded.
“How can that be possible?” I asked.
“This is a place of corpses. There are no words to explain. It is because it is. Everything is… possible, and nothing is possible.”
I glared sideways at Droom. He made little sense. He pointed to a stone valley below, and there were creatures that slid about on a mucus-slime. Their bodies were fat and loathsome, and they had multiple eyes and snaking tentacles.
“Yog,” Droom said. “Over there is the… forest would be your word. We cannot go there, as even I could not keep you safe, Seeker. Trees might melt the fiber of our being, and I mean that quite literally. Plants consume men whole, and there are flying things of all sorts that would sting you, setting your soul ablaze. On the ground are burrowing things, ones who would mate with humans and reproduce beautiful, horrific things, and crawling, creeping horrors.”
“I should not enjoy meeting any of them,” I said, “will this always be here?”
“All are of the water. The Deep Ones will go back into the water when this place sinks. Again, it is a dream that He is having.”
“Who is he?”
“You could not understand the word or hear it if I said it. You have no word for Him. Your vocal cords could not form the sounds to say His name. You would have to mutilate your own vocal cords to pronounce even the first syllable.”
“And he is the god you worship? Is he the king?”
Droom paused, “Aren’t we all?
I became angry. Why did Droom speak in riddles? How was this of use to me? “I do not know why I am seeing this, Droom. I have no reason to. Go back to your watery world. Sink and be done.”
I was disgusted and tired. Nothing helped me in any way but were just more mysteries. The entire place felt wrong and evil, but I was no longer afraid. “If I can, I shall kill every one of these monsters possible. I am not a part of this, for I am your enemy.”
I also considered that probably I had fallen asleep and this was a dream or that my mind slipped and I fantasized my darkest fears.
Droom walked back along the path, “So be it. If in your lifetime, the stars align correctly, then He will awake and return. Perhaps you will face Him yet.”
I shrugged.
“Join the others, and your time shall start again.”
“Droom? Is this over? Is this place going away and taking the shark with it?”
“Not as long as He dreams. You should hope a new dream occurs before all of your friends die tonight, not that they matter.”
I can say I did not care for Droom at that moment. In a fit of spite, before I joined my friends and time caught up, I went to the pit and dropped stones down, throwing them and rolling the heavy ones. I crushed every one of the worms. Had I been able to light a fire, I would have burned the island, but with so much rock, I had little chance.
The worms’ screaming hurt my head and made me vomit, but I was pleased when they were crushed.
“Oh, I do have one more question. Are you inclined to answer?”
“I must, Seeker. It is my duty.”
I beckoned him to follow me. I passed the temple, wishing I could topple it. “Is that the ‘him’ you speak of?”
“Yes. That is a citadel in which he dwells.”
“A squid god? You would do better to worship one who was at least more formidable. Part lion or bear. Ridiculous,” I said. He did not react, and I wondered at the fact that although I disrespected him and his god, he showed no care; it actually emboldened me.
I thought of Mr. Stead and Daniels and the fiery Maggie Brown. Sweet Jenny Cavendar and brave John Morton. I must add that my stomach pained me as well. I say this because one must understand that I was in a very poor mood.
“Here, I have a question about him.” I pointed at the gigantic shark.
“Carcharocles Megaladon.”
I clenched my teeth. The bastard knew Latin and yet could not explain anything to me in simple terms. That made me sure I was about to ask the right question. “Look, see, it is something I want to understand. I must know this….”
Droom leaned over the cliff with me to look at the shark circling below.
With a mighty lunge, I pushed him. He made some sort of shocked noise but flew over the edge as I fell to the ground, narrowly missing falling over as well. Less than a second later, there was a splash, and as I peeked over, the big fish swam over and gulped him down.
“My question is: Do you think he would eat you? And we know the answer now. For the first time, I have a certain response.”
I crawled backwards and got to my feet. Ignoring the temple, I walked back along the path. Looking at the stone shark, I almost giggled, knowing Droom must now be there as well. I hoped so anyway. I joined the rest, and as soon as I was alongside them, time caught up, and we walked along, as if nothing had happened. For them, no time had passed. The alternate times were certainly strange.
I had seen and learned about an entire world that normally was hidden. And I knew now that I was the Seeker. My life would never be the same.
Chapter Fourteen: Boat C
Grimes and Merle had the boat drained and ready to load within minutes. They loaded the women with children first, and then the other women, cast off, and jumped into the lifeboat to get as far away from the mist-covered island as possible.
“I said it was a mistake to go there,” Peter Cavendar said, “looking at it makes my head ache, and I feel sick.”
Several had vomited already.
“We were there too long. The vapors have made us ill. Once we have clean air and are far away from the vile place, we shall feel better,” Jenny said.
“Exactly,” Howard agreed.
“Are you all right, Howard? Your face is deathly pale,” John said, concern lining his features. “Hand him a bit of water.”
Grimes handed a bottle to Howard, “Not too much.”
Howard drank, and then handed the bottle to Lilia and Jenny as well. When it was passed around, it quickly emptied. “My stomach pains me at times. It will pass,” Howard said.
“Are we safe now?” Jenny asked.
“Not quite. I think we should hit the shark in the eye if he comes too close. I mean if he returns and follows us.”
The ship they had seen before was no longer there. Howard hoped that when it vanished, it had not taken the lifeboat with it.
Tables, chairs, and trash bobbed on the surface of the glassy water. More bodies floated, but the moaning had ended, and no one called for help. Enough time had passed that it was impossible for anyone to be alive now.
Crewman Merle muttered to himself often. He refused to speak to anyone now and kept his eyes on the island. When Grimes tried to force him to look away, Merle grew violent, slapping his superior’s hands away and punching. His eyes followed the bird-bat things that flew from the trees and circled the spot the pit of worms would be.
With no warning, Merle stood and leaped into the ice water, swimming hard for the island. Grimes ordered him to return, and the women screamed, but he never looked back and swam all the way back. As we rowed farther, the last we saw him he was scrambling up through the oozy sludge and struggling to stand on the stone path.
What he wanted, no one could guess. Why he had chosen to return, everyone speculated. What would happen to him there, no one dared imagine. Howard simply said that Merle must have lost his mind and been tricked by the powers of the island. He encouraged the rest not to look upon the misty land.
“He seeks to know, but he is not the Seeker,” Howard muttered cryptically.
Lilia stood and traded places to sit between Howard and Jenny as she was growing fonder of him. Howard held her close. When the Quartermaster handed over another bottle of water, Lilia reached for it, mimicking to Howard that she would drink it all, teasing him sweetly.
She was half-standing when the shark came around again and bumped the life raft. Lilia screamed and fell over the side.
“We have you, Lilia,” Peter Cavendar yelled.
Jenny reached way out over the edge, almost falling in to grab for the girl. John held her legs, or Jenny would have tipped into the sea. John had grown to admire Jenny’s moxie and honesty; she was no fake and no weakling, but a strong, wonderful woman. He knew if she fell in, he would dive in after her. Her life was that important to him.
Howard reached for Lilia, shoving everyone out of his way. “Lilia, swim. Swim, dear girl. Please….”
Lilia, despite the pain of the cold water, dug in, and tried to get back. It wasn’t far, and she was headed to Howard, the most heroic, brilliant, sweet man she knew, despite the fact that they could not speak a common language.
“No. Oh no… damn you,” Howard yelled at the megaladon. “Swim, Lilia.”
Jenny, brave and bold, beat at the water to distract the beast, “Come on; leave her alone.”
Howard broke an oar and held it as a weapon. Days ago, he had come aboard the Titanic with trepidation and fears, had been shy, and reluctant to make friends, and now he stood in a lifeboat, ready to battle a gigantic fish, unafraid and sure of himself.
Lilia was almost within arm’s distance and could be aboard in two seconds, but she stopped swimming, and her mouth formed an O shape.
“Lilia?” Howard called.
She looked confused. A tug at her right leg mystified her. Had she become tangled in something? There was the pulling sensation and then nothing. She reached into the cold water to see what was wrong. As she slid her hands down, her right leg ended at the thigh. Pulling her dress up, she felt warm fluid, sharp bone shards, and rubbery, tattered flesh.
She looked at Howard in sheer panic. The water bubbled red.
“Come on, Lilia.”
She kicked with one leg and pulled herself to the boat. Peter Cavendar and Grimes yanked her up. As she left the water, the accursed monster snapped her left hand, teasing, as he could have taken all of her. He just wanted her to suffer and so only took the tiniest nibble.
This time she screamed.
Jenny jumped up and ripped her chemise off and tore it into strips. In short time, they had a tourniquet around Lilia’s upper thigh and around her wrist. Jennie called for any blankets anyone could spare, and they covered Lilia tightly. Howard held her in his arms.
Grimes, in a fury, took the broken oar and leaned out, “Come get me you son of a bitch. Fecker. Come on.”
The shark swam by. With a mighty leap, Grimes jumped at the shark, almost landing upon its back, but his position was strangely perfect. With hesitation, Grimes angrily shoved the broken end right into the shark’s eye, and the membrane broke, spilling his eye into the water.
The meg opened her mouth, and everyone could have sworn she roared with pain and anger. It disoriented the beast for a second, and Peter Cavendar, holding another broken oar, stabbed the shark in the other eye. Both oars went deep into the creature’s head. It was an impossible, feat but they did it.
“It is way too big,” Jenny complained.
“Grimes, get back here,” Cavendar yelled.
Grimes ignored that, and as the shark floundered a bit, confused, he used all his weight to shove the broken wood deeper and into the beast’s brain. Slowly, it slipped in, but Grimes was flung all around. He returned to press the oar deeper and was tossed again; then, the shark turned, caught Grimes with his tail, and slapped the man through the air.
Grimes’ neck broke, and he was dead before he hit the water again.
“I am next,” Cavendar said. “We have to take the chance. Mr. Morton, I beg you to care for my daughter, and if you and she should grow closer, you have my blessings.”
“Father, no.”
Peter Cavendar did not get a chance to leap out of the boat. As it was, the shark began to thrash and twitch horrifically, splashing everyone. Disoriented, the megaladon stopped swimming and froze in place. When a shark stops swimming, he sinks.
Everyone on the boat watched the shark sink below the surface.
A cheer went up.
“We did it, Howard,” John said.
Howard raised his face. Tears had dropped from his eyes onto Lilia’s face, but her eyes were closed, and she was still. “She did not make it,” he said.
The next officer Rowe took over and had them dig in with the oars and get as far away from the island, frozen bodies, and bloodied water as they could. One of the women sang a song in what may have been a Hungarian dialect; it was a sad, but hopeful song, and while no one understood the words, they felt the sentiment.
In a little while, Rowe suggested they let Lilia go, as they were crowded. Howard wrapped her in a blanket, tied the bundle with a bit of rope, and let her sink.
“A shame. Must have been when the funnel fell, yes? Terrible shame,” Peter Cavendar said.
Howard looked up, “Pardon?”
“Her injuries, she must have been hit by the funnel when it fell. I do not think she said, did she? Never awoke?”
“I wonder who she was?” Jenny asked.
“Lilia,” Howard said.
Jenny nodded, “A pretty name. You knew her then? Good.”
Howard turned to the women who had first told the stories about Stead and Daniels and asked what happened and how they were saved.
She shrugged and pantomimed that the men had unlocked gates, rushed them up the decks, and she said many had perished in the sea. She did not mention fish attacking or deadly worms.
“And sharks?”
“No, Sir. Sharks are never in this area,” Rowe said.
Howard looked back for the yellowish island, but there was no glow and no land in sight. No one remembered anything now since they had rowed far away. Only he remembered.
Because he was the Seeker.
And the landmass and the other world were gone because HE, whoever he was, had stopped dreaming of them and was dreaming of some other place.
It was over.
Howard wept.
Chapter Fifteen: What Happened Afterwards…
The ship, Carpathia, dodged icebergs and forced her speed to her limits, finally arriving to take in the survivors. She then faced ice fields, fog banks, and severe thunderstorms before arriving in New York. The finest ladies of Carpathia and Titanic cared for women of second and third class like sisters, and the crew worked around the clock to make the survivors more comfortable.
The White Star Line sent four ships to recover the bodies of those who perished. Over 1,500 were lost, but they could only find three hundred thirty bodies. The lost bodies were a mystery that no one could explain. Where had the bodies gone? How could more than 1,200 bodies simply vanish? No one but Howard knew.
Maggie Brown, always a human rights’ activist, was rescued from Lifeboat Six by the ship the Carpathia; she later gave medals to every member of the ships’ crew for valiant actions in their rescue and treatment.
On the Carpathia, she set up and led a benefit for the poor survivors of the disaster and shrugged off every mention of being called a heroine.
“I am high and dry,” is all she would say, her smile beaming. She kept in touch with Howard, the Behrs, the Cavendars, and all she had worked with to help save people aboard Titanic.
Maddy Astor had no clear memories from the time she boarded boat four until she was aboard the Carpathia. For reasons unknown, five months pregnant, she lost all memory of those hours.
She gave birth to John Jacob Astor VI and raised him within the Astor mansion until four years later when she married a childhood friend and gave up her multi-million dollar trust and the family home. Maddy Astor and her new husband, William Dick, had two more sons.
Her second marriage ended in divorce in 1933 and four months later, Maddy married an Italian boxer and divorced him five years later. While she sometimes wrote to Maggie Brown, she never spoke to the others again. It was said she never lost the sad look in her eyes.
Helen Monypenny and Karl Behr married less than a year later and had four children together. Howard, the Cavendars, and John Morton attended the wedding, and to her delight, Jenny Cavendar caught the bouquet of lilies of the valley and orchids.
John and Jenny were already engaged, and a few months later, they wed as well. Peter Cavendar and John Morton combined ranching and land and built their ‘MC’ or ‘Mac Ranching’ into the largest cattle business in Texas.
Howard served as best man at the wedding.
The Mortons had six children, never took another cruise, and Peter Cavendar was most happy as a grandfather.
Charles Lightoller was hailed a hero and was the last survivor to leave the lifeboats and be taken aboard the Carpathia. During inquiries, he defended the shipping line, Captain Smith, his fellow officers, and crewmen and never placed blame on anyone; he blamed the sea.
He did push for ships to carry more lifeboats, to practice drills, and to better train officers in lifeboat loading. His recommendations were taken and were enacted.
He commanded ships in World War I and was several times over awarded the Distinguished Service Cross. He retired as a full commander. After retiring, he bought a yacht and was recognized again for his bravery in using his own ship to rescue seaman during the Dunkirk Evacuation in the 1940s.
Many of the men whom he saved that night the Titanic sank kept in touch until his death.
Howard had an eventful life. After an unsuccessful marriage and divorce, Howard moved to Providence to live with his aunts, and after all the years of replaying the disaster at sea and what he had learned, he began to understand what he was meant to do.
Using his images of the past, he wrote short stories, novellas, and letters that totaled in the tens of thousands. He revealed everything he learned from Droom: forbidden knowledge is dangerous, and humans are often products of fate and cannot alter their journeys. He explained alien races and discouraged learning about places and times beyond earth itself, warning that at any time, chaos could rule the world.
The literary circuit loved his writings and wondered where such vivid and horrific imaginings came from; he said they were not only stories, but also cautionary tales.
As his stomach worsened and the cancer spread, he felt death was close, and he called for John and Jenny Morton to come to his bedside on March 15, 1937.
They found Howard was pale as cream, in acute agony, painfully thin, and malnourished as he could take no food. The morphine helped some, but in waves, he cried out and writhed. When the next bout of pain eased, he was able to smile a little.
“Howard, will you eat anything?” Jenny asked.
“I think not. Thank you,” he said. After a while, he agreed to take some tea and drank it slowly, enjoying the weak brew taken with a little milk.
“We’ll sit here with you, Howard, as long as you wish,” John Morton said.
“I do not feel you will have to sit here long. Do you know why I asked you to come?”
“Because we are friends,” Jenny responded.
“You see, in this universe, there is no care for our welfare. There is no concern out there for our doings and lives. I wanted two people with me, as I pass on, who genuinely care about me. Strangely, I feel at peace with you both here.”
Jenny clasped his hand.
“You do not remember what I learned that night, but I will say this, Droom was not his real name. I had so many hints but did not understand. His true name was… Chaos.”
“Howard, you know we care about you,” Jenny said.
“And I care for you, my two best friends. When they say I was mad, tell them I was not. Please.”
“Of course.”
“You see we are incapable of understanding life. We have no comprehension. In that, we are weak. We are but a tick of a clock. A fleeting memory. We are but a dream. We are a second in an eon.” Howard’s voice grew quieter. Jenny thought to ask is he needed more pain medication, but his grip was lessening.
“Howard?” John said.
“And like a light, we wink out. Thank you,” he whispered, “because you care, I have been. I was. I cheated Chaos.”
“Howard?” Jenny whispered back, but that was the last he said as he passed on. “What did that mean, John?”
“Maybe that love and friendship made him real. I do not know. It was some sort of… validation. He felt he won, anyway.” John tidied the covers and smoothed the blanket until it looked as if their friend were sleeping.
Leaving the hospital room, the Mortons closed the door and told the nurse to let the doctor know. They asked her to take care of things. John and Jenny, holding hands, left and walked out to sit in the little park across from the hospital. It was chilly, and Jenny shivered, remembering one other time she had been as cold.
On another bench, a young man sat scribbling on a pad of paper, licking the end of his pencil, looking to the clouds, and then writing again. He thinned his lips with frustration and marked out a line, sighing.
“I can always tell when a man is a journalist,” John said to him, “I watched Stead and Howard do that. Never mind, friends of mine.”
The man laughed and introduced himself, “Is it that evident, yes? I want a very interesting story and have nothing.”
“Just interesting?”
The man shrugged, “No, I want to have people think.”
“What if I told you about the night the Titanic sank and how cold we were and how afterwards, our dear friend wrote the most extraordinary stories, papers, and novels about terrible alien creatures and a cruel universe?”
“Oh? How fascinating,” the man said, leaning forward, “a writer, you say?”
“A very talented one. And I’ll say this, he was not mad.”
The man waited.
John leaned back against the bench and sighed, “Let me tell you about Howard Phillips Lovecraft.”
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Afterwards:
People often ask how an idea came about. I want to share that after I remark upon a few items that are sticking in my mind.
Most of the events pertaining to the sinking of Titanic are accurate to the best of my knowledge after exhaustive research. Actual names of many were used, but the personalities are fictional although many of the actions have been documented. At no time was any real person’s name used as a victim to the fictional mythos. I felt it was vital to retain complete respect to all of those who were lost or who survived. I love the story of the ship because it embodies the human spirit and sacrifice.
I spent hours and hours doing research and attended the Titanic Exhibit in Fort Worth, Texas. I was most amazed that so many relics were found in almost perfect condition (after sinking 12,000 feet). For some reason, the porthole on exhibit really got to me and made it very real. If I could have one item, it would be that porthole with its jagged brass casing. Perfume samples still have the scent intact and some of the clothing is almost pristine. I saw Mr. Murdoch’s pipe.
I went into this, unsure who or what was to blame and prepared myself that some people might be less than heroic. Instead, I found the men (especially of First Class) to have been honorable and heroic. I believe Officers Murdoch, Lightoller, and others acted more professionally and intelligently than imaginable. Sadly, they were not trained to fill lifeboats. Mr. Lightoller became a true hero as I researched his actions and I feel a strong connection to his memory.
I have dedicated this book to Mr. Lightoller’s memory.
Mr. William Stead and Mr. John Astor did write the books that I wrote about. Mr. Astor’s book described incredible ideas including using solar energy and I found it very imaginative. It reminded me of the wonderful “Twilight Zone” episodes about alien worlds and space travel.
Maggie Brown has been often referred to as “the unsinkable Molly Brown” but her name was Margaret, and she was not called Molly. I tried to stay true to the facts with her. She was not only a philanthropist but involved in laws for human rights and ran for a political office before women were afforded the right to vote. She is someone I would have liked very much.
How 1200 bodies vanished has never been explained fully. It is possible the life belts failed, causing the dead to sink, but this doesn’t explain this mystery sufficiently.
It is true that William Stead and others penned books before the disaster that were almost a perfect prediction. Many did leave the ship due to unease, claim nightmares, or psychic dreams of the impending event. The mysteries truly are remarkable.
The Captain of Carpathia was a staunch believer in sea monsters and had filed many reports of sightings. I like this.
Megaladons have been extinct for about two million years but was the largest water predator to have lived; they probably preferred warm water. I scuba dive and have never felt threatened by a shark; however, once, while swimming in Galveston, Texas, I was circled by a hammerhead and “peeing in one’s pants” does happen.
Howard Phillips Lovecraft not only designed an entire universe, but was a prolific letter-writer, and has influenced generations of horror writers. While he was not on Titanic (sorry, I made that up), he was a lot of fun to give a new story to. I think he would be happy with my version.
When I decided to write a sea story and Severed Press’ Gary Lucas said he wanted a megaladon, I was mystified. ‘Jaws’ is an amazing movie and book, but besides that, I have never been very impressed with fish horror. (Although Severed Press has the Dead Bait anthologies and they rock.)
I always think that the people can just get out of the water and (bingo) they are safe. No story. Also, the idea that a meg appears in modern time after popping out of a rock, iceberg, egg (!), science lab, or anywhere else feels very dues ex machina.
I thought first to isolate people on a ship that was sinking and of course it had to be Titanic. I love historical horror fiction. Once I had the location, I needed to know how Meg got there but I knew he was old so it was logical he came with more old monsters and (bingo again) I knew he was one of the Old Ones.
I could have left it at that and done fine, but on a whim, I checked dates and found that HPL fit perfectly (as per age and writing). Although this was terribly ambitious (with a strange assortment of book devices), there was not one second that felt forced as I wrote. Strangely, every element fell into place so smoothly that at times, I forgot HPL was not there.
This is how I get my ideas. I had Megaladon. I asked “who, what, where, when, why, how” and I had the entire vision within minutes. I never outline a book and I didn’t this time but allowed the timeline of Titanic to lead me and honestly didn’t know how it would end, until… it did.
RIP:RMS Titanic
Copyright
© 2013 catt dahman
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. This book contains material protected under International and Federal Copyright Laws and Treaties. Any unauthorized reprint or use of this material is prohibited. No part of this book, including the cover, and photos, may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without express written permission from the author / publisher. All rights reserved.
The characters, places and events depicted are fictional and do not represent anyone living or dead. This is a work of fiction. The statistics and information about Titanic are based on research and are as close to full accuracy as possible. In some cases, I took small liberties.
For David and Nic who toured the Titanic exhibit with me: thank you for sharing in my interest.
Thank you, Gary, for allowing me this ambitious project
Dedicated to those who survived the disaster and their families, and to those who lost their lives. Above all, dedicated to Commander Charles Lightoller who was an amazing hero.
For those with further interest or who would like to see what the ship looked like (inside and out) and how the disaster occurred, and pictures of some of the survivors : http://www.cattd.com
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